Journal Entries 10.29-31, 2017

October 29, 2017

8:15a- Joe woke me up at 7am.  My feet and lower legs hurt to walk on.  Lower back hurts.  I feel odd…somethings not right but don’t know what, rt hip hurts.

2nd Anniversary at PABC

3:10pm- Today we celebrate our second anniversary as the Pastor’s family at our church. Appreciated the show of love received today. It is a blessing being the Pastor & Pastor’s wife. Their generosity, servant’s hearts, inviting their friends & family, and willingness to accept us for who we are is encouraging. We love our people and are excited to see how the Lord will work in the years ahead.

P.S. Today is my spiritual birthday as well.  🙂

October 30, 2017

Joe woke me at 7.  Didn’t sleep well.  Had dream I got electrocuted again and woke myself up yelling “NO!”  Upper back aches, low back hurts, hands ache, slight headache.  Still have trouble focusing on one task at a time.  Took me 2+ hours to order Sunday School material.

3:30p-  messed up our deposit bc I forgot to add in second check.  Took Dezirae to her last home volleyball game.  *the simplest chores have become difficult tasks to complete.

10:24p- I’m exhausted and really hurting.  Half way through I could feel all my nerves tingling.  Took a naproxen.

October 31, 2017

5:30a- inadvertently woken up.  Ugh!!!  Slept all night once I did fall asleep.  Low back hurts, hands ache, rt hip hurts, legs & feet ache, tired, slight bloody nose, belly itches.

10:24p- Took me until 7:30 to prepare ASL classes for tomorrow.  I’m hurting and exhausted.  Going to go to sleep…

Journal Entries 10.27-28, 2017

October 27, 2017

7:27a- Woke up to legs cramping intensely, hands hurting, & headache

10:00a- one of the cysts on head popped today…only been using frankincense oil

12:00p- Naproxen not touching pain, neurologist apt today.  Slight temp 100.6  Bp153/105 hr 85 weight 188 (I’ve lost 8lbs, yeah!)  Dr signed disability placard app for long term.  Loved my notes…suggested I consider becoming a nurse when I get better…his nurses don’t take as good of notes.

5:00p- I’m flat out exhausted…going to rest a while.

7:00p- Joe treated us to  subway for dinner bc it was national sandwich day.  I enjoyed not cooking.

9:05pm- I had follow up apt with the Neurologist today for my lightning strike injuries. Dr. is pleasantly surprised that the supplements I’m taking are helping. Making small improvements, but still going to be a long road to recovery. I still have chronic pain, and regular headaches. I’m still waiting for them to schedule my brain MRI. Taking it one day at a time, but slowly moving forward.

Thank you for all those who have been praying. I know they are working. Please keep them coming.

Thankful for God’s faithfulness. 
Lamentations 3:22-23
It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. 
They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

11:20p- I’m tired, but not sleepy.  My legs still tightly ache.  Headache gone at moment.

October 28, 2017

Felt okay today as long as I not do too much.  Tired from weeks activities.  Unstable on feet…little wobbly too.

Journal Entries 10.24-26, 2017

October  24, 2017

8:00a- Woke up late.  Wore myself out yesterday.

10:00 had unexpected call from Holly today.  Enjoyed talking to her.  Need to pray God will help them.

7:16p – I have a bad headache!  Had to prep ASL Classes today.  Couldn’t remember what lesson I taught last in ASL1…had to ask Marybeth. 

Remembered that I didn’t have all the grades input and had to finish that too.  It hurts my brain to concentrate that hard right now.

10:50p- my brain hurts, back hurts, rt hip aches, muscles in back pulsating tingly pain, eyes hurt, too many things to remember

October 25, 2017

6:46a- Rough night.  Trouble falling asleep.  Woke at 2:30am in a lot of pain.  legs & feet ache, lower back hurts, headache.

9:39- I am in extreme pain…legs throbbing, bad headache, low back hurts…just want to cry.  Soaked in Epson Salt bath for 30 minutes…not sure it even helped.  Good night.

October 26, 2017

So busy today…preacher’s fellowship…I forgot to write.  I’m utterly exhausted and in a lot of pain!!!

Journal Entries 10.21-23, 2017

October 21, 2017

5:04a- rt hip throbbing, lower back hurts, slight headache, grouchy.  Tired of hurting, tired of being limited on doing things.  I want to be better already.

8:00a- heart beating hard and fast, I don’t feel well, stomach feels bloated, low back hurts, rt hip & butt throbbing

9:30 – heart still bearing hard and fast, rt hip & butt hurting, lower back throbbing


October 22, 2017

7:00a- BP 137/84 hr 73. Headache, whole body achey, stuffy nose,

10:06a- feeling nauseous, headache, little dizzy

*I get wore out after playing piano.  Trouble concentrating.  Can only play familiar hymns.

11:24a- icy sensation in left side of chest, headache, dizzy

1:00p- sudden sharp pain in lower left back/hip area that shoots pain down left leg – only lasts a minute at a time (happened 3 times now)

1:51p- it’s down pouring outside – no wonder I hurt more than usual all over.

October 23, 2017

10:57a – Muscles in whole body ache, low back dull ache, rt hip hurts a little, arms & hands hurt the most right now, dull headache at present, tired already

1:45p – laid down for 15 min

2:47pm– Feeling hopeful at Providence Hospital. (*Having to have a follow-up mammogram for lump in breast checked to make sure it hasn’t grown any)

Tears Are A Language

Tears Are A Language God Understands
(Composed by Gordon Jensen, 1971)

Often you wonder why tears come into your eyes
And burdens seem to be much more than you can bear
But God is standing near, He sees your falling tears
And tears are a language God understands.

God sees the tears of a brokenhearted soul
He sees your tears and hears them when they fall
God weeps along with man and He takes him by the hand
Tears are a language God understands.

When grief has left you low it causes tears to flow
When things have not turned out the way that you had planned
But God won’t forget you His promises are true
And tears are a language God understands.

God sees the tears of a brokenhearted soul
He sees your tears and hears them when they fall
God weeps along with man and He takes him by the hand
Tears are a language that my God He understands.

God weeps along with man and He takes him by the hand
Tears are a language God understands.

Matthew 11:28-30
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Thankful for a Saviour who patiently waits for us to lean on Him. When we feel overwhelmed causing tears to flow from our eyes, all we need to do is to call out to Him (Psalm 61:2-3). He is there all the time waiting to renew our strength (Isaiah 40:31) as we rest upon His precious promises (2 Peter 1:4).

Commitments: Fleeting or Eternal?

Good morning! Wanted to share an encouragement moment with you. Dezirae & I are doing a Virtuous Woman Bible study for her Bible Class this year. Today’s lesson was about “Keeping eternity in mind when making decisions.”*

James 1:5
If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him
.

“Challenge: Determine for myself and my family where I need to draw the line. How much can I handle and still do my best? Realizing that this line will move as my circumstances in life changes, I will seek to do what would MOST please the Lord at this stage of my life.”*

I’ve already had to practice this this week with upcoming commitments. Though I wanted to do them and not let anyone down I chose to pray about it and ask God for wisdom. A few of the commitments I had to back out of because though they weren’t wrong they would’ve done me more harm than good at this stage in my life.

This was encouraging to me. ☺

Let’s remember when making decisions to keep eternity in mind.

*Excerpts from The Virtuous Woman Bible Study Course at www.kjvhearthelps.com

Journal Entries 10.19&20.2017

October 19, 2017

8:00 – woke up with slight headache, vision little blurry, feel like I’m in a fog, muscles ache

12:00 – able to carry a basket of laundry without my muscles going into spams!

5:01 – took me all day to prepare lesson for ASL 2 class for next Wednesday.

Have slight headache, legs aches, foggy brained,

*noticed a pattern – every time I overdo and get a migraine I struggle with talking more and am more unbalanced in my stance and walking

10:23 – muscles aching all over more than normal, rt hip throbbing, chest hurts, extra sensitive to vibrations, irratible, tired, neck hurts, eyes blurry

Positive – headache gone

October 20, 2017

7:14pm- I’m thankful that I am now able to carry a basket of laundry without it wreaking havoc on my muscles. Still have a ways to go, but any improvement is good news.
Thankful for the Lord’s mercies because they are new every morning…Lamentations 3:22-23

10:08pm – Waiting for my husband to bring me a nice boquet to put in my freezer. (He’s out hunting right today)

10:38p – I thought for sure I wrote today.  Rt hip hurts, slight headache, sore all over like I worked out (it’s called shopping at Sam’s), exhausted, chest hurts slightly, rt leg hurts, lower back hurts.

Journal Entry 10.18.2017

10/18/2017

7:30 – woke up with headache, and a little achy all over

5:00 – rough day…working on grade for 1st quarter report cards.  All this extra reading & thinking giving me migraine.  Had to stop for a while…took Aleve, ice pack on back of neck, eo’s on neck & temples.  I just want to cry.

10:45 – Slight bloody nose before bed, still have migraine, lights hurt eyes, loud noises bother, touchy.  Joe preoccupied with hunting…fussed at me for not answering all of texts…don’t feel like he cares about me right now and I told him so.  (He does care he just doesn’t know how to help me sometimes. When I have a migraine everything rubs me the wrong way. It’s difficult to keep a kind attitude when you’re hurting so bad). Must rest tomorrow is another day. I must be brave and kind.  Psalm 61:2

 “From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.” Psalm 61:2 

Journal Entry 10.17.2017

October 17, 2017

8:30a- hands tingly & achy, ache all over

7:45 – had trouble staying focused even with a list, muscles cramping in calves, feel like I’m in a gof/tunnel, icy sensation from inside out in center of chest.  I just don’t feel myself.

10:30- went to bed at 9:30 and still wide awake.  Leg muscles cramping, back hurts, shaky, slight headache, tired and wore out feeling, but trouble going to sleep.

https://www.brainline.org/article/facts-about-concussion-and-brain-injury

Started taking a different muscle relaxer a couple of week ago… having nightmares now and wake up with heart beating hard!  I don’t like the side effects.  Muscle spasms are worse when rx wears off.  Called dr to see if I can get a different muscle relaxer.  Dr called in a different subscription – Flexeril.  I know I can take this without too many negative side effects.

Journal Entry 10.16.2107

10/16/2017

7:45a- woke from a horrible dream…kidnapped from my husband, Joe, just before I was due to give birth to our first son by King Philip.  Joe & I had to sneak out to see each other.  I was distraught!!!  Woke up wanting to cry and be consoled by Joe, but already left for work.  I do not like the muscle relaxer – getting off of it.

Whole body aches, hands tingly, rt hip aches a little, tingling in legs, headache, tired.

2:19p- very irritable today, I hurt all over.

10:23- had to have kids help me take sheets off bed & remake when washed and dried.  Dezirae helped me make lasagna.  Jordon helped make his bday cake.  Mom did the garlix bread.  I did salad.

10:25p – Night time supplements: Losartan 50mg – 1 tablet; Plexsus Nerve – 1 caspule; Magnesium 500mg – 1 tablet; Benadryl – 1 tablet; Naproxen 500mg – 1 tablet

I came across this article and thought it might help someone else…

https://www.brainline.org/article/music-healing-tool-after-brain-injury