April 1
4.45 – woke from strange dream the only thing I can recall is hearing a loud whistle as if someone trying to get my attention. I woke immensely afterward. Woke to both arms and hands numbish, throbbing immensely, and tingling. As I came to I felt every muscle in my body twitching simultaneously. Got up slowly to use restroom. Feet don’t hurt as bad as they have been first thing in morning. Sinuses are a bit congested.
My brain immediately goes into hyperdrive. Lots of thoughts swirling around in my head. Were there clues that I missed bcuz of the issues from the lightning strike? Can this be another side effect? What things naturally can I take to calm my hormones? Will listening to wholetones more often help? I need to get my scripture journal calendar study done. Focus on God until everything else is blurry. My eyes begin to fill with tears. I need to be strong. I need to be there for my family. Our oldest is graduating college next month. My niece is graduating high school the same day. My sister’s birthday is in 3 days. Our oldest is getting married in June. My rainbow baby is going off to college in the Fall. I need to get his quilt finished. My daughter will be a high school senior. We’re attempting to remodel two homes. I was supposed to be painting my kitchen this week. Focus on God.
Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Psalm 37:3-7 (I will trust, commit, and rest in the Lord); Lamentations 3:22-26 ( I will wait for the salvation of the Lord). Songs that I learned long ago written by Ron Hamilton pop in mind.
♫O Rejoice in the LORD
He makes no mistake,
He knoweth the end of each path that I take,
For when I am tried and purified,
I shall come forth as gold.♫
Tears are flowing more freely now.
I chose to read scripture
Psalm 14:1; Judges 5-6; Ephesians 6:10-20; Romans 8:18-30
I decide to look up Rejoice in the Lord on YouTube. Come across his video testimony on how he became Patch the Pirate. I finally have my good ole crying while listening and singing the song with him via my head phones. I don’t want to wake Joe.
I post to Facebook and my blog some thoughts. Tears still escape. I choose to listen to wholetones music while I lay back down to rest. I’m tired and have a headache from crying. I pray.
6:58 a friend sends me a text to let me know she’s praying for me. I begin crying again. Notifications flooding in that people from all over the world are praying for me. I cry more. Thank you, Lord. I’m out of words to say. Lord, please intercede on my behalf to the Father. It’s all hitting me hard now. I just don’t know what to say. God please heal me if it be Your will, but most importantly use my life as a light of your mercy, love, and grace.
Feet exercises – toes stretch and hip something or other. It’s a start. 5 reps each.
Drink Celery Juice.
Worked on devotional to go with Scripture Journaling. Took most of the morning until we had to leave for my appointment.
10.00 appointment at hospital went well. God has me in good hands. The bc care coordinator is a bc survivor of 11 years. She is a Christian and will be praying for me as well. She has only been in this position since beginning of this year.
She explained some things as next steps. More for Joe I think because I’m sure I missed some details y’day. Told us about genetic testing to check for broken DNA to help Drs better know how to treat me. The testing normally costs about $6k, but because I don’t have insurance I qualify for their financial assistance program which will cover the cost. Praise the Lord! I agreed to the testing.
While filling out application, came across question I had no idea how to answer. Learned that there’s a history of cancer on my both sides (thyroid, stomach, brain, cervical, breast, lung, and bone). Whew! How did I not know that before now? I knew about Uncle Dale’s. I remember praying for him to be healed.
https://vimeo.com/478776647/4a7ce05e1a
Joe took me to lunch. They were out of salads so I chose a hotdog without bun and pomegranate flavored water.
Back home. I’m crashing quickly. Alarm set for an hour. Woken after 30 minutes by phone call. I really need to remember to put it on silent.
Kids were sweet. Dezirae bought Joe and I pick me up gifts. Jordon bought a few needed groceries.
Feet very cold. Put socks on.
Guys have a Men’s meeting tonight and tomorrow morning. Dezirae wants to go swimming. We go to a friend’s house to swim. I just watch bcuz I’m still sore from biopsy and still have sutures on skin. I enjoyed sitting in sun resting and listening to Rae talk. The sun feels good on my skin.
Natural remedies for beating breast cancer
Need to finish my prayer calendar, but I’m wore out. Going to rest for the evening.
Mom came over for short visit after getting home from PCC Trip with Tara. She gave me a big hug, assured me everything was going to be okay, then asked a bunch of questions.
Left upper chest side is very sore. Exhausted. Muscles sore and ache deeply. Nerves sting. Had a decent day. Periodic sharp pain in chest if I move wrong.
Thankful for…
- The Lord’s mercies & faithfulness
- God’s provisions and Him already working on my behalf.
- To be surrounded by a great support of friends praying for me around the world.
11:08 Interesting how different people have so many different responses to the “c” word.
A lot of people have said, “I’m so sorry you’re having to deal with this.” Or something similar. I just keep telling them it’s not their fault.
Joe told me it irritates him when they say that. I told him it’s okay. They probably say it because they don’t know what to say.
I’d rather have them say, “I’m praying for you” than “I’m sorry”. Maybe we need to coin a new phrase that would be more appropriate.
I mean telling someone you’re sorry is like apologizing for doing something wrong, but you didn’t. No one knows if it’s going to hit them next or not. Well, in some cases if you smoke, chew, or drink you should rightly expect to get mouth, lung, or liver cancer.
April 2
6.30 broken sleep. Woke at 4am by extreme sharp pain in abdomen. Had to use restroom. Woke to both arms numbish and tingling. Left chest aches. Back throbbing. Stomach cramping and hurting. Legs ache deeply. Feet hurt. Muscles stiff and achy.
Song on mind: ♫Blessed be the name of the Lord♫
Matthew 20:17-19; James 4:1-10; 1 Thessalonians 6:12-25;
Thought came to mind if acupuncture and or essential oils would be beneficial for breast cancer?
https://www.cancer.net/blog/2021-07/can-using-essential-oils-help-treat-cancer-and-its-side-effects
Sister in law sent me info on the Fenben protocol for cancer. Start to want to read it. No- need to finish my quiet time with God.
I ask Joe if we’re still going to do something as a family this afternoon. He says yes, but I’m not sure what we’ll do because to the rain coming. Ugh! That’s why my bones ache more. Eyes watery. Sinuses congested.
Judges 8-9; Psalms 46:10 – Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.
♫You are always, only good♫ https://youtu.be/nizcEHz4Gk4
Listening to this song brought tears to my eyes. I think I may become an emotional basket case.
Wish they had this kind of stuff for electric shock and lightning strike survivors
https://www.cancer.net/coping-with-cancer/physical-emotional-and-social-effects-cancer
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me to wake up this morning. Thank you for my family. Help me to be a blessing to someone today. I love you .
Did you know that meditation even for 15 minutes a day will help reduce stress and grow your hippocampus?
Did few chores. Worked on scripture journal calendar for little bit. Feet cold. Taking break to warm feet up.
10.30 parents came over to pray with me and try to be an encouragement. Read Psalm 46. Dad broke down crying. Mom asked him if he was okay. He said that he doesn’t like seeing his children hurting. I had to reassure him it was going to be okay. Told him I know it’s hard and I’m sure that our family will have our moments in the days ahead.
Foods to eat when you have breast cancer
https://www.healthline.com/health/metastatic-breast-cancer/nutrition#foods-to-eat
1:00 Dezirae wanted to go do something since her and I have been home most of the week. We decided to go to flea market. Brought wheelchair. I walked behind for a little bit, but soon sat down. Ate early dinner out. Stopped at store to get soft pretzels.
Guys tired so I worked on bulletin for little bit. Don’t want to sit there too long because my feet get cold and brain hurts.
6:00 Had trouble swallowing my vitamins A friend dropped by to bring me a “happy” basket full of goodies to help me in my upcoming journey. She has been a sweet friend.
Taking time to rest now for a bit. I’m tired and quite sore all over like I worked out. Nerves stinging throughout.
Need to get a notebook and binder put together to keep questions and information together. Lord knows I already have trouble with memory. It’s going to be even more challenging with all the new information being thrown at me in the weeks ahead. ♫Blessed be the name of the Lord.♫ ♫Oh, you must fight, be brave against all evil, Never run, nor even lag behind; If you would win for God and the right, Just keep on the firing line.♫
7:00 Jakob called to chat. Talked with him for little bit. Crashed in chair. Not sure how long I was out.
Finished bulletin and my monthly scripture journal calendar. It will go live in the morning.
Noticed I forgot to take my morning meds. Oh, I need to type up list of current medications/ supplements to keep in my purse.
1040p sister called to check on me and ask for details. Told her what I know for now and shared how God is already working in the journey.
Nerves stinging. Muscles ache deeply. Skin sensitive to touch. Biopsy site bruised and sore. Tired and exhausted. Low back throbbing. Feet tingling. Indigestion.sharp pain in center of chest.
https://naturallivingfamily.com/how-to-beat-cancer-gods-way/
11:14 Questions to ask my oncologist
Questions
- Are you okay with my taking supplements and natural remedies to help fight the cancer? Integrative oncology?
- A specific diet?
- How will having a low immunity play in beating bc? I take Echinacea, C, and zinc to boost immunity when needed. Will this be okay to continue to take?
- It’s been suggested to cut out sugars and carbs. Is homemade bread okay? Is stevia or honey ok to use instead?
- Will this affect my menstrual cycle?
- What tests will I need?