Journals from My Healing Season-July 9-10, 2022

July 9

7:00 slept pretty good today night. Throat not hurting as bad. Very thirsty. Lips chapped. Slight headache. All my muscles ache and burn as if I worked out.

Song on mind: ♫Thank you, Jesus, for your blessings on me♫

7:53 Joe gave me a pain relief eo body massage. It helps ease the pain. I wonder if Zyrtec would work instead of the Claritin. Internet is saying only Claritin will work. Ugh.

8:30 made juice for today and tomorrow. Unloaded dishwasher. Dishwasher has been a huge blessing. Family fusses at me for doing so from time to time, but it helps me feel like I can help with kitchen duty. Working more on VBS things. Finished typing up Aus-some games. Working on the songs now.

12:00 need a break. Brain blurring.

2:00 Holly came to visit a moment and ask for some potatoes. They need used up anyway.

2:30 out back moving plants to table. Mom came around back of house calling my name. It scared me so bad I screamed! Lol. She said, “Boy, for someone who has good hearing you didn’t hear me.” I chuckled and replied, “I was trying to beat the thunder moving the plants to the table.” She asked if I needed help. Told her I was finished. Mom needed some carrots. Lol. I gave her rest of individual bags I had. Glad to share what we have as we are able. I love having family near.

7:00 working on bulletin for little bit, cut Joe’s hair. Brain blurring and cutting Joe’s hair tired me out. Time for another break. Will eat dinner.

1100 finally finished printing the bulletins for tomorrow. Tired. Water tastes funny to me. Tired of drinking water. Processed sugar tastes like chemicals. Switched to honey or truvia for sweetener. Slight headache. Post nasal drip. Cough only productive in morning. Neck hurts. Whole body aches. Low back and rt hip throbbing. Nerves stinging mildly. Muscles burn as if I worked out. They burn more upon exertion. Lower lft leg tourniquet a foot above ankle bone tightening feeling with some tingling. Feet ache and tingling. Took night vitamins. Also took 1/2 benadryl to help with nasal drip.

Thankful for…

  1. God’s grace
  2. Able to hold hands with Joe for little bit this evening.
  3. Family jumping in to help with things at church – getting mission house ready for VBS, and beginning decorating for VBS.

 

July 10

6:45 woken by alarm to being really hot. Thirsty. Tired. Up to use restroom and got chilled quickly. Back under covers to warm up. Lights bothersome. Slight headache.

Song: ♫My Saviour First of All♫

Amos 1-5; Philippians 1:6; Ephesians 6:15

Prepared au gratin sauce for the beef and potatoes dish today for lunch. I’m wore out already. Keep pushing forward.

Lost another layer of hair getting ready for church. I just want to cry, but if I do it’ll mess up my makeup – what little I have on.  It’s amazing how attached you are to something

9:20 I need to lay down a bit to have enough energy to get through services.

11:29 did fairly well playing piano when I haven’t played in two weeks. Before morning worship Joe came to me to give me a compliment but kind of flubbed on it. He told me I belonged at the piano. When he looks at the piano and I’m not there his heart melts. I told him if he was trying to be romantical it isn’t working. (I do not like being crowded while I’m playing the piano). He put his arm around me and clarified that he missed me at church. I told him thank you.

I’m wore out.

12:20 had to look up how to cook lunch because I forgot. It’s beef and potatoes au gratin. Hopefully, it’ll taste good.

Lunch tasted okay to me. The family said they liked it. I know my taste buds have changed since my first chemo treatment. Broccoli tasted the best.

Exhausted and need a nap. Put wholetones playlist on while laying down. Crashed fast. Woke while last 15 minutes was still playing of playlist.

During nap, I dreamed when I woke up I sat up and all my hair was laying on my pillow. I guess it’s bothering me more than I thought. Is that crazy?

3:00 decided to get up and start working on VBS stuff. Used restroom and grabbed a green apple for a snack. Cut it up in pieces and took a bite. Yuck! I slit the first piece out. These are more sour than I expected. Green apples used to be my favorite…not no more. I eat it anyways.

5:50 Miss Reni went around greeting everyone and giving hugs tonight before church. Made my day.

10:50 getting ready for bed. Feeling pretty good about today. Nose starts running. Think it’s running and just need to blow. Wrong. It’s a bloody nose.

Very tired. Numbness and tingling in arms and hands. Thirsty. Skin itchy. Low back throbbing. Legs ache. Muscles burn upon exertion. Feet chilly even with socks on. Nerves sting mildly.

Thankful for

  1. Being able to go to church today.
  2. Being able to be an encouragement to couple people
  3. Family helping me
  4. Reni’s welcome and hugs
  5. Going to see my son and dil at end of week

Two Journeys – One Heart – Memoirs from June 30, 2022

June 30

5:01 Joe leaving for work. Insisting I make sure I keep hydrated. If I need anything, to call him. Also, he will have my family come check in on me periodically throughout the day. Got up to take more throat medicine. I can’t believe how much pain my throat was in until the sun had eased. Whew!

6:00 while laying here listening to wholetones music, I thought it’d be nice to have frozen yogurt pops to eat – one to freeze my mouth and two for healthy gut benefits. Turns out there’s a lot to consider if you truly want to stay healthy in yogurt choices.

https://feedthemwisely.com/choosing-healthy-flavored-yogurt

7:5O Joe asked me to check my BP. Took it after straightening up a little on my dresser. I’m decluttering and simplifying. Bp 126/83 pulse 110

Zechariah 14:9;

9:00 having trouble with diarrhea (4), vomiting (2) and near vomiting, and nosebleeds. May have sold an item on eBay. Recvd offer. Need to check disks. They do. Let buyer know and accepted offer. Waiting for payment.

10:13 Joe asked me to check BP again. BP 115/79 pulse 112 Everything has a metallic taste now.  God, I need to overcome this nausea and diarrhea soon or I don’t think I can handle more treatments.

4:30 I’ve been freezing for several hours now and can’t seem to warm up no matter how many covers I pile on. Temp 98.3, pulse 100, bp 122/79 5:00 my friend Milena brought by popsicles and dinner. She stayed for a little bit to cancer talk and just chat. At end of visit, she prayed with me. I appreciate her thoughtfulness. Mom brought over cup of ice chips. Mom went to give me hug and got worried because my skin (arms) is bright red and hot to touch. Forehead is room temp.

6:39 I’m exhausted now. Able to eat a little dinner without taking throat meds. Almost lost it because my nose started bleeding again and gaged on the blood. Used colloidal silver to moisten inside nose. It feels dried out. Applied little vasoline.

8:27 look down at skin and it looks like I’m breaking out in a rash. Nice because I have no clue which medicine it’d be.

9:30 since I had been doing pretty good today not vomiting, I asked for glass of Ovaltine. Big mistake. Ended up vomiting it back up about 10 minutes later. Bloody nose ensues. Ugh. Now I have to take phenegran. Yuck. Night vitamins taken minus the Vitamin C. Need to make sure the diarrhea is gone first. Lord, I need wisdom and help to figure this out for my best benefit.

Nose bleeds make breathing without coughing difficult. At least, I can breathe. Arms burning hot periodically throughout day while feet stayed icy cold. At least I have feeling. Vomiting and diarrhea are slowly diminishing. I’m exhausted and want to do more but know I have to limit myself. At least I can do few things. Able to fold and put away load of clothes today. House will no where be how clean I prefer, but it hasn’t been that way in years. Something I can look forward to . Arms and hands tingling periodically throughout day. Ears burning periodically. Tried working on VBS a little bit kept hitting snags not being able to find things I was looking for. I’m so tired. Praying I’ll fall asleep soon.

Thankful for

1. Milena bringing dinner, and popsicles. Had good visit as well.

2. Mom bringing ice chips.

3. Joe coming home early to make sure I’m okay.

4. Able to get patient portal access fixed

5. Sold a set of school books. Need to ship out tomorrow.

6. Tomorrow is Jordon’s birthday

7. Dezirae comes home from camp tomorrow. Yay

 

10:25 legs are prickly burning feeling.