October 21
700a ā Joe scared me awake! I dislike that because it jolts all my nerves and makes me hurt like crazy. No sure how to explain it but almost feels like every nerve ending in my body is on fire!
Woke with a headache, my whole body hurts. Section in between left index and thumb swollen with red eczema looking itchy patch. Feeling kind of unstable & dizzy. Nerve have been over stimulated this week. Knew Iād have some side effects, but itās been worth it.
10:45a ā asked Yanna to be my helper at church ā keep eye on trash cans in bathrooms and empty them when needed and the toilet paper to let me know when itās getting low. Joe also asked her to help keep his trash empty. She was happy to help.
11:43a ā feeling very weak. Had trouble focusing on offertory and keeping placeā¦messed up even though Iāve practiced all week.
12:13p ā I have pushed too muchā¦need to collapse for a whileā¦gonna sleep on floor in nursery. Heart beating hard, feel faint, head wobbly, whole body hurts.
2:00p ā Joe came to check on me. Iām laying down but not asleep. I didnāt hear him come in and he scared me causing me to jump and scream. Heart pounding hard. Nerves screaming & stinging throughout body.
205p ā TBI symptoms/injuries
6:00p ā evening service ā Iām so exhausted and hurt horribly, but glad I can be at church.Ā Joe reviewed Dr Stringerās sermons:Ā 1. Hope & the Lordās mercies, 2. Bitterness,Ā 3. What does it take for revival? 4. Harvest, 5. For, 6. Patience/Donāt Quit.Ā That was a big help to me.Ā While I struggled to take notes to help me try to stay focused on messages, I still have trouble remembering what was said.Ā Right now Iām working really hard on remembering the kidās names at church (thereās 10 altogether) and even then I still have trouble telling the twins apart.Ā Everybody else seems to be able to tell them apart but my brain is struggling.Ā At least they all know I love them and that they are important to me. š
October 22
I am currently attempting to read a book that includes a 12 week companion Bible study. It is āHaving a Mary Heart in a Martha Worldā by Joanna Weaver. I am currently on chapter 3. It takes me much longer to read things these days. A couple of reasons, one I have trouble looking at words on pages for too long without them going blurry. Second, I have to not only read it slowly but also repetitively to comprehend what Iām reading. I have trouble remembering what I read.
This hurdle had really hindered my yearly goals of reading so many books. My last yearly goal before getting struck by lightning was 12 books (thatās one a month). Sadly, I was unable to meet that goal in 2017 because of my injuries.
Itās not gonna stop me. Though it is quite a hurdle right now, I still plan on eventually working to achieve that goal one day. Anyways, I foud encouragement in chapter 2ā āLord, Donātā You Care?ā On page 21, thereās a section that gives strategies for fighting discouragement. Iāve think that itās good enough to use for just about any circumstance in life.
And the LORD, he it is that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed. Deuteronomy 31:8
11:16p ā decided to look for a larger purse at the thrift store (my husband gave me $ for my birthday). My sister, daughter, and niece came along too. I donāt usually go anywhere by myself these days as I get turned around and lost easily.
The first store didnāt have any purses that I liked. I decided to look through the clothes. Nothing. Iām quite choosy on styles and colors. Looked through a double rack for my sizes by I could only manage a few minutes and my arms have had enough.
I told my sister that that was enough for me. She asked why? I told her that just that little bit made my arms sore feeling like I had worked out for 30 minutes or so. Wow! Iāve lost a lot of muscle strength since my strike. It gets quite frustrating at times especially when I dwell on the facts that prior to the strike I could lift 100lbs give or take easily, but now I can barely lift 20lbs without it causing much pain and grief. I try not to dwell on the pasts of what I used to could do. These days I try to focus on what I can do and make new goals to accomplish.