February 16
530 I hurt so much all over. Feel like I was beaten up badly. I’m so tired and just want to cry.
Leviticus 11-13; 1 John 3:11; Acts 7: 54-60
Song: In Jesus’ name we press on
I hurt so much it hurts to move. I desperately need a day to rest, but I have a friend that needs help.
Take morning meds and vitamins plus pain Rx. Pain levels at 8. I’m not in tears but close to it. I won’t say 10 bc that means I need to go to hospital and I’m not going there unless it’s a dire need.
The Single Best Hour You Can Spend Right Now (or Ever)
http://www.personal-development.info/binaural-beats/
Not sure what I think about this information just yet. Need to do some research. A little skeptical.
Help Rae study for exams today. Share verse and pray with her and see her off to school. Attempt to straighten living room, but it hurts to much to move. Every muscle seems to be wound extra tight. Slight movement in wrong direction causes muscle spasms.
Need to lay down for little bit.
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7:54 Holosync challenge day 2:
Notate
What was your experience?
What was the rest of your day like?
How did you sleep?
How do you feel different?
How is day 2 different from day 1?
While listening today place attention on breath
Larger and stronger prefrontal cortex will help: willpower, ability to chose, focus will improve, longer term planning will improve, allows you to resist temptations, improve creativity, learn easier, memory improves, better decision making, calms lymbic system
Soundtrack
:11 raining and almost immediate reverberation from ringing bell. Brain instantly hurts.
:34 I start to feel the reverb ripple through my body. Nerve pain intensifies. I don’t like it one bit.
1:19 muscles start to randomly twitch throughout body. Head behind to itch.
1:40 chest wall begins to ache deeply. Increased pain is agitating me.
2:20 muscles in legs being to burn
3:15 reverb from noises ripple through body and increase pain. It’s making me want to cry from the pain.
3:39 muscles in upper back begin to sting. I’m not liking this. I begin chewing on my inner lip.
5:59 I’m getting sleepy
6:50 head really hurts
12:38 feeling distracted and back of head and neck throbbing
13:45 burning chilling sensation in front part of brain. Brain feels like it’s swelling but also releasing pressure. Weird.
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Right now I just want to sleep the pain away. Set alarm for 30 minutes.
Playing wholetones music while I rest.
Mind starts racing through all activities that need to be done, but with excitement. Pain in body slowly starting to ease though I’m still very stiff and hurting much.
February 17
530 too early still very tired. Stiff and hurting all over. Need more sleep.
Lights bothersome. Hands , arms, legs, And feet tingling and throbbing. Low back throbbing.
Romans 8:37; Isaiah 6:5-7
Discover it’s been raining and calling for scattered thunderstorms today. Great. I have two appointments and possibly a third to go to today. I don’t want to be out caught in them. Ugh
Stretch and yawn and lft side of neck cramps horribly for couple minutes. Have to move and readjust to get it to ease up.
Leviticus 14-15
Feet, ankles, and bottom part of tibia freezing cold
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Holosync challenge day 3
Intro video notes:
Everyone’s experiences will vary.
Sometimes the listen sessions that feel uncomfortable actually create the greatest positive changes in the brain.
Instead of resisting let it be okay. See what happens and watch with curiosity
Soundtrack notes:
:15 again the reverberation sound ripples throughout my body instantly making brain hurt.
1:27 I’m envisioning myself floating on a boat in the ocean near a bouy in a rainstorm.
1:47 I’m becoming very uncomfortable and have to readjust my pillows.
2:36 my insides are hurting more
4:15 I envision myself and a friend in some kind of shop with treats goofing off. There’s an indoor waterfall in the background and bells chime when customers come and go. My friend takes a treat off the table and eats it. We giggle like teenagers.
4:50 nerves in upper back start stinging and burning.
5:00 I start to feel restless and slightly agitated
6:00 reverb from bells continues to ripple through my nerves throughout body. Pain increases
6:50 muscles begin to randomly twitch throughout body
7:15 nerves are stinging burning throughout body. I’m getting very sleepy.
9:06 skin begins to feel like it needs to be peeled to ease swelling
11:20 envision a bunch of people of all ages running around a building. I watch for a while and hesitantly decide to join them. When I do, they disappear and I’m left standing alone. A tear escapes my left eye (not in the dream, but physically).
12:20 a second tear escapes right eye. I’m in much pain physically.
14:00 I now have a headache. Ugh
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953 on way home from first appointment I got distracted and missed my turn to go home. Took me a moment to realize why surroundings weren’t familiar. Lol. At least I figured it out before I got lost. 🤣
Put dinner in slow cooker – Ham & Potato Casserole.
1100 decided to work little more on tax prep. Making progress, but not as fast as I’d like. Can only do it in segments and even then it gives me headache from focusing.
1120 Jordon comes home. It scares me. I knew he was coming home soon and still I jump.
I get up to take break and walk around a little.
1250 time goes by quick. Need to eat lunch before taking Jordon to Dr. Good thing he has appointment. He had metal shelf fall on his head this morning. He has bad headache, feels little dizzy, and is sleepy. Will have Doc check him out.
I’ve got headache. Vision hurts and is blurry. Nerves lightly burning and throbbing. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling from lower tibia to foot. Feet cold. Toes tingling. Tired.
Jordon checks out okay.
930 exhausted and hurting all over. Going to bed
1040 can’t keep eyes open
Feel little better after nap. Decided I could try to go to see friend. While getting ready , the earring I saw fall down the drain appeared on the mat in my bathroom. Praise!!! I was so excited to get my earring back I text Joe the praise right away. Thank you, Lord.
Able to go to friends house to be any encouragement. Enjoyed eating brunch with her (grilled chicken bacon sandwich and sweet potato fries.
Went to church to pick up couple things, but also had enough energy to do couple things as well.
Once back home, had enough energy to make dinner though I had to ask for help. Exhausted and rested rest of evening. Went to bed at 9:30.
Exhausted, but feel good about the day. I’m still quite stiff all over and hurting a lot. Pain level about a 6/7. Took night meds/vitamins plus 1/2 benadryl and 800 mg naproxen. Head hurts but not a headache. Neck hurts. Shoulders tight and throbbing. Arms and hands tingling and throbbing. Low back throbbing. Legs stinging, burning, throbbing. Feet stinging throbbing. I’m actually hot today, but no fever. Knees throbbing. Nerves prickly through body.
Thankful for
1. Ability to keep my friend date
2. Finding my earring.
3. God provided some food
February 17
(milk, snacks, peaches, juice)
