The Classroom of Life by Pam Harbor Seulean
Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 30-31 January 2021
Jan 30
800 strange dream. Woke to both arms and hands numb and tingly. Head itches. Used let hand to itch but couldn’t feel hand itching. Felt weird. Neck hurts. Sinuses very congested. As I was sitting up collar bone and upper rt arm cracked. Ouch! Headache. Body itches. Eyes watery. It’s cold.
Haven’t done good job taking morning meds this week. Missed three days. Gotta try to do better.
Morning meds:
Edarbyclor 1/2 pill, propranolol 20mg 1 tab, Dexliant 30mg 1 capsule, Echinacea 400mg 1 capsule, B12 500mg 2 tabs, B6 100mg 1 tab, Vitamin C 1000mg 2 tabs.
100 church errand to find greenery for platform & a trophy. Found greenery at Hobby Lobby at 50% off. Yay! No finding trophy. Ugh. Will have to improvise – think outside box.
Mom says my numbness & tingling in mornings is symptom of fibro. Curious is the LS triggered auto immunity?
330 need to pull more yard debris to road. People finally coming tomorrow to pick up debris from the hurricanes last year. Have huge pile. Neighbor, Mom, & Dezirae helped.
500 freezing sensation in center of back. Had Joe check if it was discolored – no, but it’s icy to the touch. It’s so distracting.
1130 started load of towels too late in day. Waited to put them in dryer.
Headache. Sinuses congested. Post nasal drip. Hands & feet throbbing. Sharp pain shoot up forearms. Neck aches & stiff. Low back aches. Sides crampy. Skin itchy.
Jan 31
630 whole body sore, center of chest aches, legs ache. Feel like I was beat up. Joe sweet to rub my legs and back but it hurts so much. Nightmare – being attacked by octopus.
Took all my energy to get ready this morning. Exhausted. Headache.
Anxiety – accidentally discovered that squishing something while riding in car helps keep me calmer. Dezirae found Yoda squishy toy at thrift store to help.
http://www.doctoryourself.com/anxiety.html
https://m.activebeat.com/your-health/the-10-most-common-signs-of-fibromyalgia/14/
1120 it’s a blessing to be in church with family. Missing several people due to sickness or surgery recovery.
I get so frustrated at myself bc I royally messed up playing piano. Forgot tune of first hymn then totally hit wrong keys. It sounded aweful in my ears. I keep playing though bc I remember my piano teacher as a child told me to just keep playing even if you mess up bc most people in the audience won’t know you did anyways.
I am so tired. Eyes are heavy. Brain hurts. Eyes & brain feel blurry. Need a nap.
300p nap time didn’t go so well. Body in much pain. Hypersensitive. Joe was trying to help by rubbing back but the weight of his hand was making me hurt more. I wanted to lash our irrationally but didn’t. Just as I was falling asleep he’d put his hand on my back to rub it. It would scare me awake. Repeated several times. I gave up trying to sleep. Ugh. So tired.
1058 body hurts worse…pain is intense. Weather is changing. Wind is at 25 mph. Rt hip and low back throbbing. Hands & wrists throbbing. Center chest burns. Legs ache. Feet throbbing plus stinging tingling. Headache. Shoulders sting. Neck aches.
Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 28-29 January 2021
Jan 28
544 startled awake by what I know not. Got up only to feel sharp stabbing pain in left foot when I stood. Lost balance. Used restroom. Checked house. Went back to bed as head is pounding – migraine. Background light on phone too bright though turned all way down. Think I’ll sleep it off.
930 still have migraine. Took Excedrin migraine. Closing eyes another half hour.
1000a headache is easing.
Goals today: deep clean master bath, begin gathering info for taxes.
100p yay lunch date with Joe
300 completed documenting info for phone bill last year. Shower & toilet has been cleaned & trash emptied. Still have sink, walls, mirror, & floor.
Lost balance rehanging shower curtain liner and almost fell. Head hit curtain rod catching me from falling. Whew!
Out of breath. Arms fatigued out while hanging curtain. Ears ringing. Headache. Dizzy. Need to lay down a piece.
Joe & I agree on colors for auditorium. Still not sure how far on accent wall due to odd shape in front.
Freezing cold. Joe says my skin is ice cold. Neck hurts. Headache slight. Sinuses congested. Exhausted. Rt hip hurts. Skin itchy. Reduced my milk to 1% seems to be helping. Hands ache. Periodic shocking stabs randomly through body making me jerk. Trouble with losing grip and dropping items. Shoulders ache. Nerves a bit stingy thru body. Eyes look like I’ve been punched in face.
Took night meds, C, Zinc, melatonin, & naproxen.
Jan 29
730 eyes blurry. Having trouble reading Bible this morning. Head hurts neck stiff. Legs throbbing. Hands ache. Tummy hurts. Sinuses congested. Thirsty. Low back throbbing.
Recvd email about immunity. According to Dr Josh, a dysfunctional immune system can be an underlying cause of issues like:
- Fatigue
- Respiratory problems
- Musculoskeletal pain
- Poor digestion
- Elevated stress levels
- Difficulty concentrating
- Depression
- Poor sleep
930 phone apt with neuropsychologist went well. Not exactly comprehend all that was said, but I’m improving well.
In summary, I now have normal brain for my age instead of smart brain (I’m not really liking “normal”). Scores were all over the place from superior to below normal. Do have some signs of depression, but that’s to be expected considering all I’ve been through. No doubt I have had a TBI, but doing good in recovery. She was amazed at how well I am recovering from the brain injury. She said our brains are designed to heal themselves to a certain extent.
Asked her about trouble with playing the piano. Exercises to overcome coordination difficulty with brain and hands at times. She said just keep trying. With all the difficulties I’ve encountered from my LS injuries, I most likely will never be like I was before. I needed to focus on my strengths and not so much on my weaknesses
https://msktc.org/tbi/factsheets/Cognitive-Problems-After-Traumatic-Brain-Injury
https://www.brainline.org/article/cognitive-problems-after-traumatic-brain-injury
Need to figure out how to improve my comprehension.
https://www.readingrockets.org/literacyapps/comprehension
120 shivering. Brr! It’s 65°. Raised rt arm above head to put sweater on. Right side torso cramped horrible stop me in my tracks.
Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 26-27 January 2021
Jan 26
Every fiber of my being is screaming in pain! Bad thunderstorm passed through last night. Will have to take rx pain med to get about today. Sinuses severely congested. Post nasal drip causing cough. Headache.
930 received call from nurse. My retest came back negative. My theory worked! Now do I keep my quarantine or what? It isn’t over until Friday. Hmm?
1130 Joe picked up grocery order from Wal-Mart. 2nd time I’ve done it this way. Both times had several substitutes. Not happy but I can live with them. I still prefer in person shopping only doing this way due to quarantine. got very dizzy. Had to sit a spell til it calmed down.
200 went with Joe to pick up Jordon so I could take his car home. Stopped at Ulta for Dezirae. Just that little bit wore me out. Had to rest for a while when we got home. Gonna have to work on building back up my stamina.
Made dinner – taco stroganoff. Used Instapot to brown beef, saute onions, & melt cream cheese. It has been big help. Loving this God given thoughtful gift. Exhausted. Sat to catch breath and rest a bit before serving dinner. Guys came home from hunting as I sat down. Joe sweet enough to serve me. Told him just a little bc I’m not feeling well at moment. Kinda of feel like I took several steps backwards with this covid junk.
Jan 27
Been awake since 7:30. Rough night. Restless. Severe indigestion and much pain made getting comfortable near impossible. Fell asleep sometime after 2am.
Woke exhausted and hurting much. Headache. Eyes watery.
Coughing ensued around 8am. Applied Vicks to feet again. Took morning meds plus Tylenol Sinus.
Researching treating pain naturally. Came across following that seem to be worth researching further.
http://www.doctoryourself.com/arthritis.html
http://www.doctoryourself.com/arthritis_II.html
I have found on my own trials that the more C I take the less I hurt, but I haven’t figured proper amount for self yet. Going to try to learn more about juice fasting.
Folded and put away load of clothes. Wash load. Put load in dryer. Another load in basket to fold. Don’t have any more energy. Feeling weak and dizzy. Need to rest a while. Dezirae working on schoolwork.
Laying down while listening to rejoice radio.
Forgot to open curtains. Dark in room. Went in room to do something don’t recall what. Forgot the fan was near end of dresser near door. Bumped into fan almost fell and in trying to catch myself I knocked the tv & DVD player onto the floor. Ended up yelling Oh no! Dezirae came to check. Told her I was okay and attempted to tell her what happened except forgot what to call item under tv and called it a vcr instead. Picked them back up and checked to make sure they were still working. Thought I broke them. Ugh.
Dezirae helped with dinner. I couldn’t get the chow mein cans open. Cooked rice in Instapot.
After dinner, I was so wore out that I ended up crashing on couch for about an hour. Now will be up for a while.
Headache eased. Tired. Sinuses getting congested. Rt ear hurts. Skin feels itchy. Cold but no fever. Low back hurts. Rt hip throbbing. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling with tingling & numbish to toes. Lft foot freezing while rt foot is just tingly & firey pins & needles. Neck sore. It cracked several times today when I turned it too far to side. Collar bone cracked couple times today each time causing moderate pain in chest lasting for about an hour.
Upon taking night meds discovered I forgot to take morning meds. Ugh. Took additional C, zinc, & a melatonin. Taking naproxen to ease pain for sleep. Also applied sleep lotion.
Contented Security
Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 24-25 January 2021
Jan 24
1149 almost forgot to write today. Had very rough night. Body had trouble regulating temperature making me very uncomfortable and difficulty staying asleep. Forgot to take last night’s meds. Woke up coughing but not as bad. Whole body normal pains. Muscles randomly twitching through body. Multiple headaches some near migraine.
Decided to finish up Scripture Journaling for month but scheduled post for next month as to ease stress. Only could work on it half hour at time then rest for hour or so bc each time increased headache. Looking forward to Neuro test results in hoping it’ll explain why concentration on things increases headaches.
Sporadic coughing through day. Took cough med for bed. Drank bunch of liquid which caused multiple runs to bathroom.
Spent half hour working on college class – Doctrines of the Bible. That gives headache too – reading and answering questions. Ugh. Something I have to work through. Taking Excedrine migraine to see if it’ll ease headache.
Used my nasonex to dry up sinuses.
Jan 25
112a wide awake. Purposely didn’t take nap so I’d be tired even after unrestful sleep yday. Ugh!
Turned to try to get comfortable. Ribs on lft side got caught taking breath away with pain. Once I got them loosened muscles in lft started cramping. Got them calm and did same thing to rt side. Ugh.
954 CDC says that a person after 14 days is no longer contagious even if they have symptoms. Nurse said she tested positive 21 days afterwards. She waited a week then tested again and was negative. Just because you test positive doesn’t mean you have it. It just means they detected virus proteins. Frustrating.
Testing a theory. I’ve been using nasonex (1 spray each nostril in pm and only in am if needed). Used it last night and this morning. Retested this morning. I can come out of quarantine after 1/27. Joe can come out 1/23.
700 suddenly feeling lethargic. Temp 99.5.
1100 fell asleep now awake but tired. Heachace. Neck hurts. Body aches more than normal. Hands throb. Feet tingle. Lower left leg numbish & tingling. Cough. Took cough med over counter. Night meds. Vitamin C 2k mg & zinc. Using Sleep lotion.
1130 bottom just dropped out. It’s raining hard. Taking Tylenol & melatonin.
Near the Cross
Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 22-23 January 2021
Jan 22
100 coughing fits hurt my body…not my chest, but rather send sharp electrifying pains down legs to toes. I’ve taken delsym, C, & zinc. Applied Vicks to bottom of feet & chest.
2:09 wide awake. Can’t sleep. Decided to pray for everyone who comes to mind.
700 not sure how long I prayed before falling asleep but got through bunch of people. Woke to use restroom. Whole body stings and aches. Temp 99.1
845 fell back asleep for little over an hour. Body still stings. Funny smell in my nose. Skin sensitive – hair on neck and fave feels like insects crawling on me – unnerving. Vision blurry like there’s a mucus film over eyes. Had to rub eyes to help it clear. Sinuses congested. Woke from strange dream (seeking out Dr’s who might care to help me heal while in midst of a war. Realize I need a new goal – finish college for one but also determine something I want to do (purpose in life). Yet I’m conflicted bc I don’t know what I want to do. Don’t know what I’m good at with my current limitations.
Tongue still covered white and small lesions all over. It hurts today.
1040 showers are such a chore. Worn out and must rest a bit to catch my breath and easy fatigue arms. Coughed up a bunch of phlem. Thankfully it’s clear for most part.
100 spent half hour working on blog. Exhausted. Headache. Need to rest a while.
Feet are freezing. Chilling sensation gradually moving up legs – up to mid chin.
300p apparently I fell asleep in chair. family surprised me. Told me that they were cooking dinner for me as their way of showing appreciation for me taking care of sick family even while I was sick. It’s nice to be appreciated.
600 funky smell stuck in my nose. Can’t figure it out.
https://neuroticmommy.com/2018/02/07/how-to-use-onions-against-colds-flus-and-bacteria/
https://patient.info/news-and-features/what-causes-a-musty-smell-in-the-nose
900p temp 99.7. I feel hotter than that.
1030 decided to pick up a textbook to work towards finishing my bachelors degree. Took me a bit to find book. Found Christmas present I forgot about. Still have birthday upcoming. Lol. I could literally hide my own Easter eggs. Lol.
Able to read for about 30 minutes before my eyes started hurting and blurring. Discovered I have about 5 classes left to finish. It’s doable at slow pace.
Headache. Brain/vision blurry. Funky smell in nose. Fever. Cough. Post nasal drip. Low back aches. Head itches. Lower let leg tourniquet tightening feeling from calf down with numbnish & tingling.
I’ll have to try to remember to brew some thyme & oil of oregano peppermint tea tomorrow
Jan 23
1130 trouble waking. Extremely tired today.
230 multiple hiccup burps.
Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 20-21 January 2021
Jan 20
840 woke with horrible headache. Body hurts all over as if I’d been beaten up. Once I sat up my nose started bleeding. Only lasted minute or so. They leave me feeling weak. I lay back down while reading Bible.
Exodus 16-18. Daily verses: James1:2-3; Psalms 67:4; 52:8-9.
Ears ringing. Nerves stinging. Light bothersome. Head pounding. No energy. Nose stuffed and congested. Eyes watery. Low back near tailbone throbbing. Taking migraine rx.
250 took me an hour to figure out how to order few groceries online. Not paying $25 for delivery. Will have Joe go pick up.
Joe says I look pale white and sent me to bed. Took pack of crackers with me.
600p two item I ordered weren’t in stock. Two had to be substituted. Not impressed.
Got up to finish cooking dinner. Not hungry. Sat with family for little while then back to bed.
1000p not tired. Decided to drink Chammomile tea to help me sleep. Night meds taken. Delsym for cough (it gets worse at night). Vitamin C 3k + Zinc 50mg.
Jan 21
1250 still wide awake. Tummy hurts. Think 3k mg of C was too much at once. Whole body hurting aweful. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Took rx Naproxen & 1/2 pill muscle relaxer. Need to sleep.
1000 finally fell asleep after 2am. Woke from nightmare & praying for family in my dream. Lft arm and hand numb and tingly. Headache.
Bible reading: Exodus 19-21; Psalm 67:4; Galatians 6:7-8; Psalm 65:4
1230 Joe decided to cook brunch.
130 I managed to wash few dishes and throw load of clothes in washer. Entire back now stinging chilling burning sensation. Sitting a while.
400 trying to figure out if b12 Cyanocobalamin is ok instead of b12 methylation
550 severe stomach pains. Nerves in hands, arms, & back sting. Face itches. Feet chilly.
1030 I now have the runs. Yuck.
“Methylcobalamin is used primarily in your liver, brain and nervous system; in fact methylcobalamin is the specific form of B12 needed for nervous system health.”
https://www.justvitamins.co.uk/blog/cyanocobalamin-versus-methylcobalamin/#.YApX4bdMH3A
1100 Tummy hurts. Feeling weak. Tired. Funny taste in mouth. Nerves in back chilling burning. Rt ear hurts. Headache.
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