Month: October 2020

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Journal Entries 12-15 Nov 2018

Nov 12

7:00am- woke to notification sound on phone forgot to put it on silent. Ugh! Muscles in legs fluttering. Upper chest throbbing. Put phone on silent.

8:30am- woke again muscles in legs still randomly fluttering. Upper chest and back throbbing. Neck hurts. Headache. Hands & fingers ache. Stuffy nose. I haven’t even gotten up and I’m already tired. Eyes watery.

10:30pm- kind of lazy today…upper chest & back still hurting. Any movement using upper body makes it hurt worse. Used heating pad several times to ease pain. Headache twice today. Rainy most of day.

Nov 13 

6 a.m.  fell asleep around 2 a.m.  woke at 6 a.m. an hour for the alarm.  stomach hurting  couldn’t go back to sleep 

12noon fell asleep on the chair while waiting for Jordon to cook lunch.  1 p.m.  no  energy  today  feel like being a bum 

10 p.m. started  not  feeling  good  all of a sudden stupid voice to text isn’t working it’s irritating me  I just want to go to sleep have a headache.  head hurts. Necks hurts… still  can  only move it so far without causing neck muscle pain. Low back throbbing. Feet hurt. Random periodic stinging needle pain in back and front upper chest. Stuffy nose. Eyes watery. Indigestion. Post nasal drip. Rt hip hurts. Hands swollen and achy. Very tired. If only I could get inflammation gone. Red dry patch on left hand and parts of face.  Not retaining what I read for long. Memory issues. Feel like I’m forgetting something but can’t remember what it is.  Lord we need you to provide our needs. I am but dust you are the Potter. Please mold me and use me for Your will alone. I know I cannot fix my brokenness. Please give me a song. Amen.

Nov 14

Only got 4 hours of sleep last night.  Trying not to stress out over lack of income. Joe not getting 40hrs yet. Can’t pay bills this way.  Bible study went well with friend. She had car trouble today…think it’s dead battery. At least she made it to co-op. Chapter 3 is about worry & trusting Lord. Proverbs 3:5-6 

Nov 15

Scatter brained today. Started several things without completing them to start with. Dezirae giggled bc I kept saying “Oh my, I forgot I was doing…” (homemade chicken noodle soup, wash clothes, wash hair, pack things for church, can’t remember the other things). While She was doing school at kitchen table, she began reminding me what I was doing.  Chest feels tight and achy today. Entire back aches.  Pack computer, sewing items to work on Christmas gifts, decided what to have for supper & pack items to make it at church, Joe’s clothes, get ready for church, leave by 3pm to pick Joe up for work. I loathe driving on interstate even more so since my trauma. It cause great anxiety. Lots of traffic!! Boxed in by trucks!!  By time we arrived at church I was broke out in hives from neck up. It was hot and itchy too. Husband says that I’m scared of things a lot more since lightning strike.

10:00p- saw on news tonight lots of people hearx to loud “boom” noise this afternoon. Speculations of sonic boom. Low back throbbing, upper back aches, hands achy, feet ache & freezing, neck hurts especially if I bow it too low or turn too far sends shooting pain down back, sensitive to bright lights & loud noises, messing out sayings & using wrong words in sentences (used a boat term where it didn’t apply for traffic), tired but wide awake

838p Chest feels heavy and heart beating hard. Feel like I’m out of breath. Headsche. Hands swollen and tingly. Tired.  Necks hurts. Turned neck & it popped loudly. Ouchy! Headache now worse.

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Journal Entries 8-11 Nov 2018

Nov 8 – no entry


Nov 9 – no entry


Nov 10

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Nov 11

7:30am Joe woke me up gently. I still hurt but not like last two days. Have to take it easy for a while or I can easily get back there. Muscles in neck and rt shoulder still very tense. Can’t rotate by neck very far on either side.  

4:00pm Joe woke me up gently. Laid down after lunch for just a bit…ended up sleeping for about two hours. Had ttrouble getting up. Felt like I was in a daze & kind of spinning. Woke up from nap in a sweat.

5:30pm Dezirae & I started figuring out how to make pumpkin pin cushions.  

6:25pm unexpected bloody nose while sitting in church. No notice. Thankfully, Yanna was sitting with me and I could ask her to get me a tissue. Had to go bathroom bc I had blood all  over my hands.  Took 5 minutes to get it slowed down enough to go back to seat.  Wish I could get to root of cause. 

9:00pm- neck muscles tense. Used heating pad for a bit.

11:57pm- exhausted. Sides feel bruised and hurt to touch. Hands swollen and achy. Headache all day. Eyes sensitive to light. Stomach aches. Tired. Back aches. Beginning to get chilling sensation in center of chest. Left ear ringing. Went to move and rt upper arm popped didn’t feel too good either.

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Journal Entries 4-7 Nov 2018

Nov 4

6:56am  Joe woke me up gently this morning thankfully because I was in the middle of a bad dream. It was weird.  I told Joe about it he said he thinks my brain is trying to heal itself cuz it’s going through events in my life I’m trying to figure things out

Symptoms:   left arm had shooting pain from shoulder to fingertips,  lower back hurts,  bags crampy and achy,  slight headache

9:38 muscles twitching and spams in left arm near elbow. Its bad emough its jerking my arm

11:43am- spams in left arm near elbow continue and are bothersome. Red spot on left hand bright red and inflamed

11:59 rt ear ringing

Nov 5 – no entry

Nov 6 – no entry

Nov 7

6:30am Rough night. Woke several times. Head aches. Eyes watery. Leg muscles spazing.  Stuffy nose. Feet tingly. Hands ache and tingly. Skin itchy.

11:49am – 3rd-5th Choir kids practicing for upcoming Christmas program. Singing little bit with them. Starting to hurt in upper chest and back region. Had to spot (stop). 

2:00pm – son lost his phone. Spent an hour stressing & praying that we’d find it. Found it in grandma’s car where it slipped down crack.

3:00pm- thundering and raining outside. Pain levels increasing. Body tensing every time the thunder roars. I can feel it rumbling in my bones. Son tries to reassure me that everything’s going to be okay. Headache is gwtting worse. Try peppermint under tongue first. 

4:00pm – Took tension headache & 250 mg magnesium.

5:00p- ate dinner. Headache starting to ease. Rest of body hurts horribly. It’s thundering & lightning with periodic rain. Joe’s drving is scaring me tonight, but I’m already tense from storm.  Prayer is absence of fear. Lord, please help me not to fear. 

Prescription for Worry & Fear

“The reasons our problems often seem overwhelming is [that] we allow the things of time to loom larger in our gaze than the things of eternity. The tiniest of coins, when held close to the eyes, can blot out the sun.” -Selwyn Hughes

Philippians 4:6-7
Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

God’s prescription for worry & fear is to be thankful in all things. Sometimes that’s a hard pill to swallow.

Worry tends to cloud our minds. Fear tends to immobilize us. Both make our problems seem like a mountain, not the molehill they are. Both have no room for God.

Thankfulness is an important key to have in our lives. For when we are thankful for what God has done in and through our lives, it gives us the power to change not only our attitude but also our perspective.

Prayer is also another important key. When we allow the cares of this world to occupy our minds, we cause static in the communication lines making it difficult to hear when God is trying to speak to us.
Prayer is our lifeline to God.

Take time to talk to the Lord in prayer. Thank Him for all He has done past, present, and future.
When we choose to pray, we decide to have a thankful heart regardless of our circumstances, this allows God to guard our hearts and minds. Prayer & thanksgiving not only magnifies Christ but also delivers us from fear (Psalm 34:3-4).

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Journal Entries 1-3 Nov 2018

Nov 1 2018

1:30 woke in extreme pain. Took naproxen

5:30 woke in more pain

7:00 stormy weather tornado warning power went out hurt  so bad it’s hard to move rain rain go away you make my body hurt

750 Days like this cause extreme pain in this earthly body!! Thankful to be alive and for His tender mercies (Lamentations 3:22-23). Looking for the blessed Hope of His appearing.

10:30 still no power. Joe wants to go to church to check on things there. Contacted church people to make sure they’re all okay. They are.

11:00 – heading to church…surprised at damage around us in even our neighborhood. Two neighbors mailboxes were either knocked over or completely missing. Branches and debri all over the place. We had limb knocked down & Jordon’s BBall goal mangled😢 just in time for bball season. 

11:30 – arrived at church. Trim on mission house messed up some but fixable. No other damage. Worked on bulletin board for a while. Took me two hours just to take it down and put up a fall border…worked until pain got more than tolerable then took break until it subsided. Now to decide what words. Tried to lay down in nursery to rest, but remembered the broken brain docu series…tried for a while to watch & take notes…had trouble with feed as well as understanding words being said…had to repeat sections several times to get what was being said…ran out of time. Ugh!

11:53p- in lots of pain…stinging needle pain in upper back, feet freezing, neck hurts, neck cramping when I yawn, fingers stinging, eyes watery, low back throbbing, legs feel thight, headache, sharp pain in tip of tongue Took night supplements, naproxen, and melatonin. Hope to fall asleep not only but also stay asleep. I’m exhausted. 

12:43 3 things I’m thankful for Christ’s love for me, my family, my salvation

Nov 2 

I didn’t fall asleep till after 1:30 a.m.  woke up at 8:15 tired right arm was numb left hand was tingly legs all back hurts exhausted whole body hurts nose stuffy  eyes watery hot  but my feet are cold my tongue hurts horribly  melatonin last night but didn’t fall asleep until shortly after I thought of three things I was thankful for time to see what the day will bring

8:50  checked my tongue in the mirror it has weird round white looking circle e bumps  and it hurts really bad.

10:00 coconut oil pulling to help heal my tongue.

10:39 friend called to ask question ended telling her about tongue suggested theives or clovers. Brewed cup of hot tea with thieves. Enjoyed immensely. Pain diminished almost immediately 

12:00 took walk with sister, mom & kids enjoyed talking with neighbors. Came home and sat a while to rest. 

4:45 went to friends house for dinner date. Enjoyed the sweet fellowship. Benefits of red raspberry herbal tea It’s leaves are rich in vitamins and minerals B,  C, potassium, magnesium, zinc, iron,  and more.  benefits include… balancing hormones, ease menstrual discomfort, aids in digestion, treats cardiovascular issues, boosts immune system, reduces inflamation, etc.

11:23 I’m tired and hurting. Back is throbbing. Rt hip aches a litre. Hands swollen and achy. Slight headache. Light nosebleed. 


Nov 3

7:00 – slept good last night. Don’t hurt as bad today. Tongue still splotchy, but doesn’t hurt as bad. 

10:00 soulwinning  today we went today we went to the area of Pecan Festival today we went to the area of Pecan Festival to pass out tracks.  was able to walk but then had to sit on the ground to rest because my right hip started throbbing and legs started feeling like LED balloons

1:00p  I’m  exhausted feel like I need to crash for a while I’m going to go lay down for an hour or so  ringing in my left ear eyes hurt right hip throbbing extremely exhausted

2:00  nap only lasted half an hour

3:00  kids went with grandma and Aunt to a Trump  rally in Pensacola I decided to sweep the front porch now I’m out of breath and exhausted. Worked on bulletin for a little bit

6:20 Joe came home from work. We went on dinner date. I enjoy when I get Joe to myself for a little bit. Tried to go on hospital visit bc someone had emergency surgery today, but we’re told no visitor’s right now. We’ll try again another day. 

12:00am shouldes hurt, jaw hurts, chest hurts especially rt side, rt hip throbbing, low back aches, hands hurt 

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Journal Entries 29-31 October 2018

October 29, 2018

6:00a- woke from nightmare. Woke in angry mood. Not able to go back to sleep.

8:45a- Dr apt

9:30a- good report at Dr’s office today. Blood pressure 108/82 in office. Given rx for headaches, eczema, and yeast infection. Need to research healing my gutt. Wish I could afford plexus – I know that would help.

225p-

“Any concern too small to be turned into prayer is too small to be made into a burden.”

~Corrie Ten Boom

Philippians 4:6-7

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.  And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

“O what peace we often forfeit,

O what needless pain we bear,

All because we do not carry

Everything to God in prayer!”

(Excerpt from “What A Friend We Have in Jesus” by Joseph Scriven)

3:30p- Jordon & I went to store. Walked behind buggy in both.

4:00p- Jakob calls his daddy to ask for prayerz bc his car broke down on way to work. Guy at work is mad and not being nice. Jakob upset. I message friend that lives up there. They will call him to check on him to help. I’m trying not to stress, but it’s already wreaking havoc with my nerves. Lord, please protect him & help him.

5:00p- My body is hurting. Legs cramping. Feel like I walked marathon. Exhausted. Slight headache. 

6:00p- Finally have truck back at dorm. Got alternotor? Not able to work on it tonight maybe tomorrow. Might have to get ride to work. Lord, please help my boy. 

6:30p- asked grandparents to pray. Mom says, “now you know how we felt when y’all were at college and we couldn’t help you.”  Not helping! 

Headache, nerves hurting throughout body, hands hurt, low back hurts, legs ache, toes feel frozen & feet ache.

8:17p -Praising the Lord for a good report at Dr’s visit today. Usually I have “white coat syndrome” and my blood pressure is elevated more than at home. Today my blood pressure was 108/82 in office! Thank you, Jesus!!!
I can’t even remember when it was last that low. One symptom under control by God’s grace. Now to concenrate on the plethora of other symptoms. God’s got this!!!!

“It is no secret what God can do
What He’s done for others He will do for you
With arms wide open He’ll pardon you
It is no secret what God can do”

October 30

7:00a- woke groggy and sluggish. Hurt all over. Neck hurts. Brain hurts.

7:30a- watched Broken Brain video on Traumatic Brain Injury. So much good information. Taking notes. Only able to watch 20 minutes at a time. Brain overload! Need a break or I’ll have to take pain rx. 

8:30a- Need to get kids grades completed and on proper form so I can turn them in by tomorrow. Been working on it for two weeks at least. Starting year out better than last year, but oh so much information causes blurred vision, headache, brain fog, & pain throughout body. 

10:00a- almost forgot to take morning Vitamins/RX – Edarbyclor, Alpha Lipoic Acid, B Complex, MSM, B-12 melt tabs

10:41a- managed to fold 2 loads of laundry. Pain is 8 throughout body! Brain hurts. Neck hurts. Nerves painful tingling throughout. Back throbbing. Exhausted. Taking a break.

1:00p- drank a plexus slim to give me enough energy to get project done at church (not suppose to bc of caffein free diet, but I need extra energy)

2:20p- it’s taken me all day to try to listen to brokenbrain.com video about TBI. Shared link on Fb. Took notes. Could only watch in 10-20 minute increments as it was information overload. Gave me a headacke. Took notes. 

Thankful for God’s grace and mercies (they are new every morning Lamentations 3:22-23), and for His direction. I have been researching how to heal my brain as naturally as possible. Thankfully, through no direction of my doctors, I’m already doing a lot of what these specialists are suggesting…just need to research some new information and figure out how to work it all in. God is good.  

2:30p- went to church with sister & daughter to work on mission closet. Got shelves up & doing good hanging clothes. Without warning anchors let loose and one shelf comes crashing down. By this time, I’ve done what I can do and pain is too much. Need rest. Sister n daughter feel bad. I say I know but we learn through trial and error. If at first you don’t try again. We’ll try again another day. Besides Joe will probably know better than I how to fix it. My brain’s done thunk today.  My upper body and arms are throbbing.

5:00p- heading home I noticed a red light flickering on dash, but couldn’t see it long enough to figure out what it was. I almost ended up in accident bc I was trying to focus on that instead of car in front of me! Had to slam breaks. Stopped in time. Red light flickered again…it’s the oil light. Decided to stop at dollar store to get oil. Daughter checked oil in parking lot…definitely low on oil. Sister asked if I waz going to add oil. No I’ll wait and have Joe check when we get home.

5:30p- Dezirae asked to make dinner. Thankful because I was wore out and not really up to making dinner. She did great. Made tuna patties, corn, and mashed potatoez.

10:45p- it’s been quite eventful day and I’m feeling repercussions of it…headache, neck hurts, ears hurt, ringing periodically in left ear, entire back hurts, rt hip throbbing, hands swollen, achy, & tingly, toes freezing, upper arms ache, legs throbbing, exhausted, eyes hurt, lights bright, noises too loud, can’t think anymore…must try to fall asleep and get rest. Kids have co-op classes tomorrow. 

Vitamins/Rx – pm – zyrtec, calcium w/ D3, Magnesium, Probiotic, Turmeric, Melatonin, & Naproxen

October 31

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Journal Entries 27-28 October 2018

October 27

8:00a- rough night. Woke up late. Had to do devotions in car on way to church. Visitation. Had kids help me moved stuff in SS bldg to make room for desks out of primary room. At church til 3pm. 

3:00p- finished making rolls. 

5pm- dinner at Mom’s

8:00p- bulletins for church

10:00p- did too much today. I’m in pain to tears!!! Nerves stringing horribly throughout body. Stuffy nose. Hard time breathing. Skin itches. Indigestion.

October 28

Magnesium

Types of Magnesium: The Best and Worst

11:45 rt hip cramping. Feeling kind of sluggish today & shaky. 

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Journal Entries 25 -26 October 2018

October 25,

8:13a- rough night.  Woek at 2:30a with stomach cramping bad.  Took a while to fall back to sleep.  Woke at 8am with whole body in aweful pain!  Notice on phone of bad weather next 24 hours.

11:06p – whole body hurts, feet are freezing cold, hands swollen and achy with deep hurting pain to bones, rt hip aches, low back hurting, headache, trouble with stuttering alot today, foregt what I’m doing and do something else. Legs hurt. Neck hurts.

Broken brain series video one today.  Too much information.  Will have to rewatch.  Shared with support group.

October 26

4a- woke from terrible nightmare hurting horribly. Rt elbow  and arm feel bruised. Feeling beat up. Sharp pain in rt hip. Left leg feels like someone kicked me repeadetly.

Nightmare- Car broken into. Front windshield smashed. Glass everywhere. Joe refused to call cops or report on insurance.

Hands throbbing. So much pain I can barely move.

It’s raining outside. Or is sugar the culprit? Please work it out that we can go get books for Holly.

12:00p- forced myself to paint more cabinet doors today. Need to keep moving to stay mobile. Had to rest after every door. Took me about 2 hours to paint 5 doors. Arms & hands cramping. Oh, how I ache. Ribs feel bruised.

3:00p- able to take Holly to get a bunch of abeka books for Nepal

5:00p- got beautiful surprise…April flew in for weekend to see Holly & Tara. Had dinner with them all tonight.

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Journal Entries 23-24 October 2018

October 23

7:00am – had trouble sleeping last night.  Woke at 7:00am.  Have TBI group today.  Can only stay till 12:30 bc Joe has to work midday.

Once I got there, spoke with Theresa about paperwork from ss oho?  Let atty know about attending tbi mtg.  She said she’d write a leter if needed.  I asked her for biz card bc I lost her info.

Two guys & a gal from USA came today.  They come to help us out but are also learning from us.  Stephen drew picture of brain and broke down different areas trying to explain each units functions.  I was surprise that several of other attendees knew what part of their brain was injured.  I must’ve had a lot of areas inured bc I resonate with several things.

I told them I’d like to pick their brains sometime.  I have lots of questions I’d liked answered but can’t seem to remember them when necessary or how to word them to make sense.

They had us play a new game to me.  I think it’s called Two Truths and a Lie.  I didn’t understand what they were asking at first.  Jameson gave example.  I don’t remember all I wrote, but when it came to my second fact I wrote…I survived being struck by lightning.  They were both shocked at that one.  They started asking a bunch of questions.  I answered the best I could before getting interrupted.  I figure I can just print out list of symptoms to help them out.  Had to set alarm on phone so I wouldn’t be late leaving.  Arrived at home a few minutes before Joe had to leave for work. 

My brain hurts after all that workout.

Need to rest.  Sat for 30 minutes or so in livingroom.  Not working.  Can’t focus.  Brain hurts all over.  Fingers and hands numb, tingly, and aching.  Legs and feet hurt.  Whole body aches.  Neck tingly burning up and down spine.  Feel like I’m going to pass out.  Feeling weekish.  Need to go lay down for a while. 

Ended up sleeping for 65 minutes.  Woke up to phone ringing.  Brain foggy  couldn’t figure out where phone was though on bed next to me.  Time to make the cookies.

Symptoms: brain hurts & foggy, neck chilly tingly, hands swollen and achy, calves crampy, whole body aches to bones, tired but wide awake.

11:17p – stinging nerve pain in legs from waist to toes, low back pain, hands swollen and achy, brain hurts, eyes sensitive to lights, tired but wide awake, every wrinkle in clothing is agitating my skin, rt neck hurts.

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October 24

8:36a – woke up later that usual whole body aches. Made bed.  Not hungry but ate bowl of cereal.   Started research for Joe.  Thirsty so I go to get drink. Decide that cabinets are dirty.  In cleaning them, decided they need fresh paint.  It was very hard to stir paint.  It hurt my arms.  Need to take a break.  Started load of laundry.  Stir paint again.  Brush not working well.  Found small roller.  Took off handles.  Painted four cabinet doors above stove.  My arms are throbbing and I’m out of breath.  Load of wash is done.  Throw in dryer.  Stared water for new load.  Not enough clothes need more.  I’m tired and need to rest.  It’s a little after 12 kids need to eat.  Made Dezi pb&j. Made Tara chicken sandwich.  Made myself pb&j.  Sat to eat.  I’m exhausted.

Holly came over to see if we were ready to go.  Told girls to get ready to go.  We’re going to Orange Beach.  Enjoyed my “earthing” time at beach.  Tara fed bird from her hand.  I’m plum exhausted.  My body aches and I’m starting to get a headache.  Hands swollen and ache.  Feet ache to bones.  Skin itchy.  Indigestion.

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Journal Entries 21-22 October 2018

October 21

700a – Joe scared me awake!  I dislike that because it jolts all my nerves and makes me hurt like crazy.  No sure how to explain it but almost feels like every nerve ending in my body is on fire!

Woke with a headache, my whole body hurts.  Section in between left index and thumb swollen with red eczema looking itchy patch.  Feeling kind of unstable & dizzy.  Nerve have been over stimulated this week.  Knew I’d have some side effects, but it’s been worth it.

10:45a – asked Yanna to be my helper at church – keep eye on trash cans in bathrooms and empty them when needed and the toilet paper to let me know when it’s getting low.  Joe also asked her to help keep his trash empty.  She was happy to help.

11:43a – feeling very weak.  Had trouble focusing on offertory and keeping place…messed up even though I’ve practiced all week.

12:13p – I have pushed too much…need to collapse for a while…gonna sleep on floor in nursery.  Heart beating hard, feel faint, head wobbly, whole body hurts.

2:00p – Joe came to check on me.  I’m laying down but not asleep.  I didn’t hear him come in and he scared me causing me to jump and scream.  Heart pounding hard.  Nerves screaming & stinging throughout body.

205p – TBI symptoms/injuries

Top 5 Disabilities Caused by Traumatic Brain Injury

6:00p – evening service – I’m so exhausted and hurt horribly, but glad I can be at church.  Joe reviewed Dr Stringer’s sermons:  1. Hope & the Lord’s mercies, 2. Bitterness,  3. What does it take for revival? 4. Harvest, 5. For, 6. Patience/Don’t Quit.  That was a big help to me.  While I struggled to take notes to help me try to stay focused on messages, I still have trouble remembering what was said.  Right now I’m working really hard on remembering the kid’s names at church (there’s 10 altogether) and even then I still have trouble telling the twins apart.  Everybody else seems to be able to tell them apart but my brain is struggling.  At least they all know I love them and that they are important to me. 🙂

October 22

I am currently attempting to read a book that includes a 12 week companion Bible study.  It is “Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World” by Joanna Weaver.  I am currently on chapter 3.  It takes me much longer to read things these days.  A couple of reasons, one I have trouble looking at words on pages for too long without them going blurry.  Second, I have to not only read it slowly but also repetitively to comprehend what I’m reading.  I have trouble remembering what I read.

This hurdle had really hindered my yearly goals of reading so many books.  My last yearly goal before getting struck by lightning was 12 books (that’s one a month).  Sadly, I was unable to meet that goal in 2017 because of my injuries.

It’s not gonna stop me.  Though it is quite a hurdle right now, I still plan on eventually working to achieve that goal one day.  Anyways, I foud encouragement in chapter 2” “Lord, Don’t’ You Care?”  On page 21, there’s a section that gives strategies for fighting discouragement.  I’ve think that it’s good enough to use for just about any circumstance in life. 

And the LORD, he it is that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed. Deuteronomy 31:8

11:16p – decided to look for a larger purse at the thrift store (my husband gave me $ for my birthday).  My sister, daughter, and niece came along too.  I don’t usually go anywhere by myself these days as I get turned around and lost easily.

The first store didn’t have any purses that I liked.  I decided to look through the clothes.  Nothing.  I’m quite choosy on styles and colors.  Looked through a double rack for my sizes by I could only manage a few minutes and my arms have had enough.

I told my sister that that was enough for me.  She asked why?  I told her that just that little bit made my arms sore feeling like I had worked out for 30 minutes or so.  Wow!  I’ve lost a lot of muscle strength since my strike.  It gets quite frustrating at times especially when I dwell on the facts that prior to the strike I could lift 100lbs give or take easily, but now I can barely lift 20lbs without it causing much pain and grief.  I try not to dwell on the pasts of what I used to could do.  These days I try to focus on what I can do and make new goals to accomplish.

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