God’s Power, Presence, Promise and Peace – MaryBeth Siegwart
Lightning Memoirs – 7-9 April 2021
April 7
700 bloody nose is precursor for a migraine?. Woke with migraine! Took relpax. Laid back down.
Whole body stiff and achy. Sinuses congested. Lft hand numb and tingly. Low back throbbing. Calves ache like I worked out too much. Feet hurt and tingly. Thighs ache. Vision blurry.
Bible Reading: 2 Samuel 8-12;
7:40 applying ice to back of head for migraine relief.
757a Taking 1 ginger capsule.
Migraine began easing within 20 minutes of taking ginger. Thank the Lord.
1000 attending funeral today have mixed emotions…sad because I’ll miss her…peace knowing she’s not going to suffer anymore and I’ll see her again someday. Frustrated bc of certain people’s fake facades knowing how they’ve been acting behind the scenes. Honored that the family wanted us to take part in the services. Anxious yet happy bc I’ll be seeing people we’ve not seen in a while.
Moderate headache. Neck hurts. Lights bothersome. Hands throbbing. Low back throbbing. Rt hip aches. Legs mid-calf and lower feel like they’re wrapped up tightly in barbed wire. Legs pulsating stinging throbbing pain. Eyes hurt. Tired. Brain is mush. Not speaking right…
April 8
330a woke with brain going 100 miles per hour. Keep trying to pray but my thoughts are too loud in my head. Head hurts.
My body stinging throbbing. When ever I heard the rumbling of the thunder it makes my nerves tense up and the pain increases.
Bible Reading: 2 Samuel 13-15;
4:18 electricity flickered just before lightning
700 finally fell back to sleep. Slept about an hour.
1200 took me over two hours to balance checkbook even with computer help.
530p headache increases and nose hurting then all of a sudden it starts bleeding
600 vision feels like it’s getting blurry and I’m getting really sleepy.
750 I’m having hard time keeping awake. Eyes are heavy. Head hurts.
April 9
500 woke to a migraine and a thunderstorm.
Took relpax. Can’t sleep. Whole body stinging.
Bible Reading: 2 Samuel 16-18
600 still wide awake. The pain is relentless and will not be ignored.
900a Dr apt. Computers are down. They’re having to do things old school – write it down on paper. Lol.
Bp 115/74 w211. Drs scale registering that I’ve lost 9 lbs. Yay!
Dr slowly coming around. Glad to hear of my improvements. Is okay with my experimenting with PEA and CBD oil w/out hemp. Blood work drawn and urinalysis. Rxs refilled. Says she’ll reduce the Dexilant from 60mg to 30mg. Follow-up in 6 months unless something comes up with labs.
350 homeschool Mtg with new cover school for next year went well. Dezirae excited. Ran errands for church. Stopped for treat at Marble Slab. Allergy symptoms as soon as I finished my ice cream. Definitely a milk intolerance. Still a nice treat.
Home and exhausted. Jordon sweet to help me out of vehicle so I don’t twist my knee again.
Lft knee hurts on top of everything else hurting. Migraine has eased but still have slight headache. Need a nap.
Laid down for about an hour. Didn’t fall asleep for long maybe 20 minutes.
Dezirae made dinner clam chowder and grilled cheese. Probably not a good choice with all that dairy products but it tasted good.
800 decided to take hot Epsom Salt bath. Soaked for an hour. Tired and ready for bed but indigestion is horrible and tummy hurts on top of everything else. Ugh.
♫ In the dark of the midnight have I oft hid my face
While the storm howls above me, and there’s no hiding place
‘Mid the crash of the thunder, Precious Lord, hear my cry
Keep me safe till the storm passes by
Till the storm passes over, till the thunder sounds no more
Till the clouds roll forever from the sky
Hold me fast, let me stand in the hollow of Thy hand
Keep me safe till the storm passes by ♫
As the thunder roars this morning, this song comes to mind and I’m thankful that my Lord keeps me safe amidst the storms in life.
Lightning Strikes Memoirs – 4-6 April 2021
April 4
430a whole body stiff and achy. Headache. Eyes watery. Lights bothersome.
438a bloody nose
Bible Reading: Psalm 55:6-10; 1 Samuel 28-31;
800a morning meds & 1/2 dropper of cbd oil. Morning meds currently consist of 1/2 Edarbyclor 40/20mg tab, Propranolol 20mg, Dexilant 60mg, vitamin C 1k mg, b12, b3, fish oil
830 I think everything is ready for today. Praying for visitors.
I’m ready for a nap. Low back throbbing. Rt hand ad wrist swollen and throbbing.
348 I flat exhausted and can’t go anymore. Taking a nap. Tummy bloated. Sinuses congested. Post nasal drip. Slight bloody nose. Lft nostril partially blocked. Stinging thru whole body.
600p Joe woke me so I’d sleep tonight. Whole body stinging and I’m still tired.
1000p stinging thru whole body with increased stinging and tingling in toes, feet, & ankles. Sinuses congested. Tired but awake.
Fell into closet. Mostly a soft landing though side hit plastic drawer thing. Had to have help to get up.
April 5
500 woke to both hands and arms numb and tingly.
Bible Reading: 2 Samuel 1-3; Psalm 119:93-96
242 Muscles in legs spasming/twitching randomly…more so in left thigh area. Hands sting and throb. Toes tingling. Headache.
412p rt toes on fire. Someone spilt bleach on floor in laundry room and I stepped in it. Rinsed feet with cold water. Ugh! Dezirae graciously offered to clean it up
1036 exhausted and hurting all over but wide awake. Muscles randomly spasming thru body. Bad headache. Toes tingly and cold. Lower left leg tourniquet tightening feeling with tingling. Low back throbbing. Neck hurts.
It’s been weird, stressful day. Trying to figure out how to get Jakob home for funeral on Wednesday. Flights cost $600. Rental car $400 plus gas. Ugh. Guy we bought car from had to apply for lost tag which will take two weeks.
Bouts of grieving over loss of loved one. Washed three loads clothes. Folded 2 loads from days earlier. 2 loads today not folded yet.
Whole body throbbing and stinging. Sinuses congested bc I was craving milk and drank whole milk. Tongue is looking better. Forgot to take morning meds. Took night meds plus Excedrin Migraine.
Positive Praise:
- Photographer is going to allow us to get family photo with Jordon’s Senior photos at no extra charge.
- Going to get to see Jakob for couple days this week.
- We have good report established with the family.
- Even though our family is grieving we are working through it together in our own ways.
April 6
330a woke to burning fire throbbing pain in legs just below knees to feet. Bad headache with stabbing pain at my 4 oclock back side of head almost like I’m being shocked!!
Bible Reading: 2 Samuel 4-7; Psalm 72;
612 bloody nose. I’m beginning to think they are associated with my migraines.
330 sat to rest a while bc back is throbbing. The longer I sit the more I hurt and the more I feel the exhaustion setting in. Need to lay down before I faint.
430 woken to a phone call. Feels like I could sleep longer. Legs below knees still stinging burning throbbing.
938 going to bed. Exhausted and hurting from head to toes. Headache. Sinuses congested and sinus pressure in face. Eyes hurt and sensitive to lights. Neck aches. Back aches. Tummy hurts. Lft arm stinging pain. Hands swollen and achy. Legs throbbing stinging burning. Feet tingling. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling. Tired. Skin sensitive to touch. Rt hip aches.
Long day ahead tomorrow and I need my beauty rest. Attending funeral.
947p extreme sharp stabbing pain in rt center of chest.
Lightning Strikes Memoirs – 1-3 April 2021
April. 1
4:30 woke to whole body stiff, achy, and in much stringing. Both hands tingling and stinging. Tummy insides cramping. Sinuses congested. Tinny taste in mouth.
Bible Reading: 1 Samuel 18-20;
Juicing: V8 Splash Island Strawberry, 1 tbs chia seeds, 1/2 cup frozen blueberries
Cooked 4lbs sausage in crockpot over night. Broke it up fine and put in ziplock bag in fridge. Cooked 4 lbs bacon and put in container for Sunday. Friend stopped by to deliver Color Street nails I requested. Visited with her for little while. Got Easter baskets out and put in them what I gave so far. Worked on blog for little bit.
Exhausted and nerves are burning throbbing thru body. Low back throbbing. Eyes getting heavy. Need a nap. Listening to Open Door.
Fell asleep for about 20 minutes. Having bad dream…dreamt that a semi truck rear-ended us and was pushing us into the back of a grey vehicle. As we were about to hit vehicle, I jerk awake at same time receiving text notification sound from Jakob. Whew!
It’s been a good day. I’m exhausted. Hurting all over. Low back throbbing. Tummy aches. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling with tingling to toes. Mild headache. Post nasal drip. Yuck. Skin sensitive.
On the way home from church, Joe asked me if I remember something ___ on Sunday to remind him. I said okay. Sitting in chair in Living room, I remember I’m supposed to remind him but forgot what. I was going to set reminder in my phone so I asked him what I was supposed to remind him. He got upset and said nevermind I’m not going there. That in turn upset me because I was trying to do better but I honestly don’t remember what it was he asked me to remember. Eyes getting heavy. I’m exhausted. Decided to go to bed. I’ll probably be sleeping before he comes to be. Having trouble even now keeping eyes open.
April 2
630 fell asleep quickly last night. Low back throbbing intensely.
Bible Reading: 1 Samuel 22-24; Psalm 34:6-8;
800 decided to work on my blog a little. Able to finish March 2019.
Joe decided for us to go look at a car.
Lunch date at Jereusalem Cafe. Started with Lentil Soup sprinkled with sumac. Soup was creamy with robust flavor. Delicious!
Beef Shawarmah – Grilled cubes of spiced and marinated tender beef topped with cucumber yogurt sauce. Plate came with a scoop of yellow rice. Rice was cooked to perfection and moist.
Joe wants to look at more cars. I’m done.
We ended up at 4 or 5 different lots. Much more than my brain or legs could handle. In much pain and brain is overload with too much information. Brain in shut down mode and I am now grumpy and angry.
I wanted to get little candy for kids easter baskets. Stores are too full of people for my liking. Trying to explain and it comes out all wrong. Upset Joe so he decided to go home without which makes more angry.
Once home Joe wants to talk it out but I don’t bc I need time to process and let brain rest. I end up saying I’m vacating premises because I need a break from you. Not what I wanted to say but instead of trying to explain I just walk out side and sit in sun for few minutes.
Whole body stings, low back & rt hip throbbing, legs stinging burning throb, feet tingle, post nasal drip tastes nasty in my mouth. Exhausted. Having trouble keeping eyes
April 3
700a lft arm sore, low back hurts, whole body stiff and achy, eyes blurry, neck hurts, hands throbbing and swollen. Strange uncomfortable dream…Joe finally appeared towards end so I reached out to him for comfort and protection. Still very tired.
Bible Reading: 1 Samuel 25-27; Hebrews 12:2; Psalm 54:4;
My legs, feet, butt, and lower back are throbbing. Headache moderate. Took Naproxen for pain, Advil sinus for sinuses, & 1/2 dropper cbd.
Today has been a roller coaster of emotions day. We purchased a 2nd vehicle. Family we purchased from asked us to come back at 3pm to give them time to clean it out, etc. As we left, we received phone call that a friend was being taken to ER unresponsive. Prepping things for Easter tomorrow. Picked up new to us vehicle. Took some stuff to church. Delivered food to a friend. Received word that friend passed. Finished picking stuff up for tomorrow. Several phone calls letting us know of her passing. Decided to let Rae know tonight.
I’m past exhausted and hurting.
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LS Memoirs – 30-31 March 2021
March 30
450 woke to both arms & hands numb and tingly, headache with sharp stabbing pains, nose stuffy
Bible Reading: 1 Samuel 13-14; Psalm 74:19; Isaiah 53:1-4
Juicing: 2 oranges, 1 apple, 1/4 lemon, 1/4 tsp ginger, 1/4 tsp turmeric
Thunderstorm this afternoon.
Got caught in the rain going to post office. Ugh. Not able to visit Lawana bc of rain. Must make point tomorrow to visit. Long talk with Gaynor and Dale. I think it went well. Joe not sure about my helping her. It’s all kind of strange.
Jordon lost keys at work today. We searched car and cleaned it out. Took him back to store. 5 managers helping him search. I was impressed. Didn’t find. Praying for God’s help. Severely hours later he got call that they finally found them. Thank You, Lord.
Felt well enough to walk neighborhood to Sassy (a horse) and back. It’s .40 miles round trip. According to google, it’s a 6 minute walk. It takes me much longer to walk it than google suggests, but at least I’m making an effort. Keep moving forward.
Symptoms: Nerves are stinging. Low back throbbing. Rt hip hurts. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling. Feet burning throbbing and icy frozen feeling. Toes tingling. Hands throbbing and achy. Can’t seem to get comfortable. Feet cold. Headache mildly moderate. Joe’s arm across my low back feels like lead balloon.
March 31
500 woke at 1am with extreme tummy pain. Had to use restroom. Took me a while to get somewhat comfortable enough to fall back to sleep.
Whole body screams with pain. Sinuses congested. Legs and feet screaming stinging. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Hands swollen and throbbing. Eyes watery.
Bible Reading: 1 Samuel 15-17; Isaiah 53:5
649 muscles in legs are rapidly and randomly spasming/twitching all over. It hurts. Headache increases from 3 to 5. Eyes hurt.
Need to research info for migraine relief.
I’m taking rx preventative, and have emergency relief and still getting them regularly.
Naturopathic Doctor suggested Palmitoylethanolamide (PEA) supplement.
He gave links for reading up on…
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/19036526/
https://vitalitus.com/product/pea/
He suggests people take 2 pills twice daily. It can take about 3-4 weeks for it to work.
1000a extreme sharp pain in center of chest, muscles spasms in torso lft side and cramping on right side. Tried to bend over to touch toes to get chest to pop but almost fell over due to getting dizzy. Had Rae step on my back which popped quickly without much effort. Serious sharp pain eased, but still hurting. Laid on floor for a bit.
1100a A/C making funny sound and then quit working. We tried several things to no avail. Had to ride with windows partially down. It irritates me to have hair blowing in face while driving. Temp to go up to 84• today. At least it’s not raining right now. It’s suppose to thunderstorm this afternoon. Rae & I ask God to hold it off while I’m driving until after we pick up Dad.
200p had fun passing out goodie bags with church tracts. Each one we passed out put smiles on people’s faces. One girl got so excited she was telling all her coworkers! She even told Jordon. Jordon told her he knew who gave it to her and let her know it was his Mom. She then comes trotting to our car and replied I had no clue you were Jordon’s mom and thanked me again for her Easter gift. I love putting smiles on people’s faces even when I’m in pain.
400p on way to pick up Joe, my lft ankle nerves start going into hyperdrive or something. My ankle and foot feel like they’re covered in mad fire ants – burning, stinging, itching!!!
Joe sweet enough to make dinner tonight. He knows I’m in great pain.
Pain level at an 8. Surprisingly my headache is only minor at the moment. Everywhere else stings and burning greatly. Low back throbbing. Rt hip throbbing. Hands swollen and hurting. Legs ache. Feet tingling and burning. Toes feel like skin was ripped off suddenly. I just want to cry. Sneezing. Skin itches. Joe’s arm feels like a lead balloon. Tired but having difficulty falling asleep.
Benadryl taken. 1/2 dropper cbd oil taken. Pain rx taken. Night meds taken.
LS Memoirs – 28-29 March 2021
March 28
Woke stiff and achy all over with top half of body in extreme pain. Toes still feel very cold but not like ice. Hands throbbing. Legs stinging. Rt hip aches. Sinuses congested. Sneezing. Rt hand and wrist feel very swollen like when I injured it playing volleyball as a teenager.
My heart and mind are filled with gratefulness because I am starting to remember more things. A few tears escape my eyes. Thank You, Lord, for the great things You have done for me.
Bible Reading: 1 Samuel 4-8; Psalm 13:6; Psalm 4:7-8
Torn between two songs Looking Through His Eyes & The King Is Coming.
Headache concentrating in back center area of head with periodic stabbing pain.
Heard of little boy in hospital with swelling of brain from fall. Reached out to the mom to try to be encouragement.
Website to find support group in your area…
Took long nap. I was exhausted.
Hi there , how are you feeling? I’m feeling gloomy
Sorry to hear that! What activities made you feel gloomy?
weather, Health
Things make you feel gloomy:
- Most of day had moderate pain but able to ignore for brief periods.
- After lunch, tummy bloated and started hurting.
- Took long nap due to feeling exhausted. Thunderstorm in afternoon increased pain. Sinuses congested. Constant post nasal drip thick and irritating back of throat. Drinking lots of water to keep it flushed.
- Once home, pain in center of chest intensified immensely causing tears and moaning. Bent over to touch toes and chest popped some easing pain ever so slightly. Later burped and it eased some more. Took Naproxen to ease pain.
- Whole body aches and stinging pain once again increases.
Highlight of day was church family taking time to express their appreciation for all I do at church. Gave me a basket of goodies and sent our family out to lunch.
P.S. I’m getting tired of only having one vehicle. Lord please give us wisdom and provide the need.
March 29
Woke at midnight with indigestion so bad I was gasping for air. Had to sit up and get to bathroom because I needed to use the bathroom as well as vomit. Stomach acid burned esophagus coming up. Joe jumped up asking what’s wrong. Able to get out in between gasps for air that I couldn’t breath. This went on for about 15 minutes.
Took ginger capsule and sucking on ginger chew to ease stomach. Hopefully I’ll be able to get back to sleep soon.
500 my whole body stings. It hurts to move. I don’t want to get up. Throat hurts. Drinking water to soothe.
630 back home from dropping of guys at work. Decide to transfer laundry and throw in another load of clothes.
650 exhausted and feet are begining to feel chilly. Body is stinging. Need to rest little while. Set alarm in case I fall asleep.
Bible Reading: 1Samuel 9-12;
Juice: 21 baby carrots, 2 apples, 1 orange, 1/4 tsp ginger, 1/4 tsp turmeric
1000p made brownies for Easter box sending to Jakob. Found him some collar stays. Bought some peeps. Not sure what else. Thinking about it…not actually sure what I’m doing for us this year. We are watching our sugar intake so all that candy isn’t appealing
Symptoms: throat still sore from acid burn, headache, sinuses congested and seasonal allergies acting up, hands throbbing and swollen, upper back hurts, shoulders ache, low back throbbing, rt hip aches, tummy slightly bloated, legs ache, feet sting.
Goal done: Jordon’s 3rd quarter grades done and submitted, 1/2 of last ASL test written, brownies made, finished buying Jordon’s Easter outfit, discovered I missed deadline for submitting info to newspaper for April, sewed new velcro on Jordon’s hat for work.
Overall it was a good decent day.
Hi there , how are you feeling? I’m feeling just fine
What activities made you feel just fine? Health , Food , Sleep , weather
List down why these things make you feel just fine:
- Woke at midnight with indigestion so bad it made me sick. Also, sinuses so congested woke choking for air.
- Whole body aches. Headache. Stinging pain in back. Exhausted.
- Able to transfer laundry and start new load before purely exhausted and needing to rest a while. Set alarm just in case I fell back to sleep. Ended up snoozing few times.
- Remembered 3rd quarter grades are due soon. Decided to work on Jordon’s first because I need to get all his grades in asap to receive his diploma for graduation.
Dezirae reminds me she needs help with Math. Oh, how I loathe Math now. She also reminds me that she needs her last ASL test. I’m now feels ng overwhelmed.
LS Memoirs – 26-27 March 2021
March 26
700 woke to nerves twitching randomly thru body quickly…felt weird. Did some deep breaths to get them to calm down. In doing so I fell back to sleep until alarm went off.
Whole body stiff and achy. Hands and feet throbbing. Rt hip aches. Stinging pain is mild.
Bible Reading: Ruth; Psalm 43:3
900 Chiropractor appointment. Dr did master points reset for accupuncture. Couple of needles hurt going in with one shooting pain to toes lft side. Another tickled so I burst out laughing. Dr asked if I was ticklish. Told him I didn’t know I was there.
16 needles (1 in top of head, 2 in back of neck either side, 1 in center of shoulders, 4 in back -2 mid way & 2 lower, 2 at outer back of knees, 2 above inner ankles, 2 at inner wrists, 2 in hand between thumb and index)
130 back home and exhausted. Need nap.
Homemade pizza for dinner. Used bread machine for one crust. Back severe throbbing by time done with pizzas. Had to sit a while.
650 went for walk in neighborhood with Rae & mom. Made it to Sassy (neighbors horse up the end of the road) and back home. I was done for sure after that but I did it.
Tummy feels really bloated and hurting.
Low back throbbing, hands ache, rt wrist swollen and achy, headache, rt hip aches, feet ache, stinging needle pain just in upper body region. Improvement is good.
Checked my tongue in mirror after I brushed my teeth. My tongue almost looks normal…just a small patch of white in middle.
March 27
650 woke to agonizing pain in hands, arms, and back, and bad headache. Feels like I was beat up bad.
Joe sweet enough to massage areas with eo pain relief rub. It helps take edge off.
Bible Reading: 1Samuel 1-3; Psalm 43:3;
Weather – raining off and on all day
Exercise – decided to go do some Easter shopping. One child had bad attitude so that child didn’t get anything. Another child found shoes finally. All the walking wore me out and made legs throb exponentially. Ended up sitting on part of store’s furniture bc I couldn’t stand any more. It led to a lady asking why I was hurting. Was able to give my lightning testimony. Lady said it gave her the chills. Invited them to church. One of Ladies, Christy, works in Grand Bay Pharmacy. Said I should stop in and say hi some time. Told her I would.
Watched movie called Walk By Faith. It’s about a young man with Sickle Cell Disease. He embarrassed and gets tired of having disease. Made to do report in school on the disease and paired with guy he doesn’t like.
Took Epsom Salt bath to ease pain in legs ended up out if breath. Had to rest a while afterwards.
Feet feel like their frost bitten frozen but Joe says their not that cold yet. Whole body hurts. Hands throbbing. Lower left leg from chin to toes tourniquet tightening feeling squeezing hard with tingling sensation. Low back aches. Random muscles twitching thru body today. Skin itchy. Sneezing. Headache.
