March 7
4.00a woken by extreme stinging pain throughout body. Both arms numbish and tingling.
4.30 Joe rubbed pain liniment on my lower back. It helps some.
Numbers 28-30; Psalm 24:4-5, 139:23-23, 61:1-3
I have no umph or energy today. I feel completely drained. Moving slow as a sloth maybe slower. Every inch of me hurts exponentially. Lights bothersome.
I get to talk with and encourage my sister. This in turn is encouraging to me. Decide to share devotional from a friend on my blog and across Facebook groups.
Need a nap. Alarm set for 30 minutes.
Nap gave me a little energy to burn papers and take out trash. Find a design online and print certificate for Friday. Finish planning meals thru Friday. Joe suggests I make a list. I tell her m I’m trying but I can’t even think straight.
Joe says I need to destress. My brain is foggy and I can’t think straight. Trying to talk things out with Joe but I’m stumbling over my words and having difficulty saying what I’m thinking.
Joe going to meet evangelist.
Fold load clothes and wash a load. I’m exhausted again and need to rest. Have a headache now. I do not like filling this way. Alarm set for an hour in case I fall asleep.
Lft calf cramped. Lft arm popped getting out of bed. Ouch!
Leave little early to stop at grocery store before picking up the gals. Only need a few items. Able to save $5 on hamburger bcuz they had wrong price on shelf. Thank you, Lord. The shopping wore me out.
9.15 going to bed early. I’m exhausted. Center of chest hurts. Headache. Nerves stinging. Whole body in pain.
March 8
5.00a stinging needle pain throughout body. Low back throbbing much. Body very stiff and hurting. Tired. Headache. Remember today is March 8th. Something important happening today but I cannot think of what it is. I start praying for people that comes to mind.
5.35 it’s thunderstorming. Every time it thunders my nerves jump and my body flinches.
Song: Where the Spirit of the Lord is…
Numbers 31-32; 2 Corinthians 1:3-4; Psalm 24:4-5
Fold 2 loads laundry. Have help putting some of it away. Put tea on stove to boil, but forgot about it. Thankfully, Jordon caught it and finished it for me. Load in washer. I’m exhausted.
Talk with school principal about our conflict of schedules last week of school. Jakob graduation same week. Will be able to work things out. Need to turn in form beginning of May. I’ll have to put a note in calendar to remember.
Worked on few church projects. Cake idea picked out for Friday. Need to order. Trouble getting whites whiter. I cannot seem to figure it out. I’m exhausted.
Joe home. Decided to cook himself some food. Offered me some but told him I’d eat it later. Need to take nap.
Joe left for church around 11.00. Little while later I’m smelling something funny. At first, I think it’s just me smell off kilter. It gets stronger. Decided to go investigate. Hallway is smoky. Closer I get to kitchen the worse it is. Yikes!
Burner left on. Cast iron pan turned white! Smoke alarm now blaring!!
At first I panic. What to do?
Turn burner off. Grab 4 potholders and take pan out back door. Pour water on pan to cool. Open door and windows. Turn fan on to blow smoke outside.
Oh, my beef is browned in crockpot. Need to drain grease and add Korean seasoning to simmer. Add beef broth with white powder (temporarily forgot name…….. cornstarch) to make it a gravy.
Exhausted and hurting more. Need to rest a little more.
Work on blog a little. I’ve caught up to 1 April 2020. Yay! Brain blurry and I have headache. Time to order cake and pick up Rae. Good thing lady asked about cake order info bc I had some of info wrong.
Dinner ready. Glad I got dressed for church early bcuz I’m exhausted. Need to rest some more. Brain feels foggy. Vision off.
7.50 lft arm cramping much. It hurts. Headache. Brain foggy. Vision foggy. Tired. Left side chest hurts. Nerves burning. Rt hand hurts. Neck hurts and muscles tight. Sharp shooting pain in left hand up to bicep.
My body feels like a thunderstorm is coming. Pain is throbbing deep inside my bones.
March 9
614 overslept alarm. Rough night. A tornado watch at 1.15 this morning. Thunderstorm during night. Woke to see lightning flash outside window which made me jump. I’m exhausted.
Numbers 33-34; 2 Timothy 1:9; Psalm 73:21
10.15 Beans soaking. Dinner in slow cooker (Cabbage, Kielbasa, and Potatoes). Recipe typed out for a future post. 2 loads laundry washed. 2 loads laundry folded and put away.
Upper arms cramping. Hands swollen and throbbing. Headache. Eyes hurt. Legs throbbing. Nerves have a full burning. It’s just enough to make a notice there’s a constant persisting pain. Exhausted. Need to rest a while.
While I don’t like to think of myself as disabled, I do know that I face physical and mental challenges. Curious about how things are perceived…
https://www.benefits.com/social-security-disability/brain-injury-disability
https://adata.org/faq/what-does-regarded-having-disability-mean
https://adata.org/faq/what-are-major-life-activities
https://adata.org/faq/what-definition-disability-under-ada
11.30 attempt to sort socks. Took a while. Had to stop due to brain and head hurting. Managed to pair a few. Eyes hurt. Center and lower back stinging. Feet freezing. Put socks on.
5.08 Joe in joking mood more than normal. It’s seriously irritating me. Brain already overtired. My not being in mood make him laugh even harder. When I get this way, my speech gets messed up even more. Told him he was on my last goat (meant to say nerve ). Then I told him he need to straighten up. So he stiffens body like a board. I tell him I’m not amused. Jordon catches what I said wrong and questions what I said. I repeat but tell him I meant nerve. They both crack up laughing. I’m trying my hardest not to laugh with them, but I’m cracking up on the inside. Sometimes the things that come out of my mouth are hilarious though I meant to say something else entirely.
1027 I’m exhausted. Headache. Sinuses congested. Neck hurts. Did 5 sitting neck crunches. Need to remember where I put my pt exercises sheet to start doing them again. Nerves stinging. Low back and rt hip throbbing. Skin hypersensitive.
1048 think I may fall asleep before midnight. Indigestion setting in
Thankful for:
- M husband having a sense of humor bcuz I don’t have much of one.
- God’s grace
- Being considered wise enough to counsel with even elder ladies. That’s God’s goodness.
