July 5
1:40 woke in middle of night needing to use restroom. Got up a little too fast and got dizzy. Lost balance and felt like I was going to fall. Started grabbing in dark to hold onto something. Found Joe’s foot and was able to stable myself. Stood still for moment hoping dizziness would subside. Had to hold onto whatever I could find to keep myself steady. Made it to restroom and sat down. Dizziness subsided after a bit.
6:30 woke needing to use restroom. Throat hurts. Hiccuped-burped and apparently had a bubble with water stuck in esophagus which came up at same time. I wasn’t expecting it so I ended up with it on myself instead of trash can. Thankfully it was just water. Used baby wipe to wipe myself clean. Muscles really ache this morning. Blew nose which caused it to bleed. Able to stop heavy bleeding in under a minute. Really wish I could find my watch charger. I know it’s in a clear zipper pouch, but I have no recollection of where I put the pouch since the wedding trip.
Need to focus on VBS today.
Need to figure out an exercise routine that I can handle and do it a little every day.
2 Chronicles 24-25; 2 Kings 14; Isaiah 12:4 9:54
My muscles really hurt today. Taking it easy & listening to hymns. Found a Christian stretching YouTube video. Only able to do about 5 minutes of it before I wore out. The first verse that they quoted was Psalm 46:10 Be Still and know that I am God. Tears started trickling down my face.
1100 been working on VBS things sitting in chair. Printing forms and trying to put binder together.
12:00 I’m wearing out so I need to go lay down a little while.
Snack: unsweetened applesauce. Must eat with plastic silverware. For some reason metal leaves metallic taste in mouth.
12:30 Dez asked if she could call eye Dr to see if her glasses were in. They were. Gave her permission to go pick them up. She did awesome job.
4:00 sending Dez to store to get few items because I can’t seem to muster up the energy to go with her yet. I’ll get there just not yet. I’m little nervous but trust she’ll drive safe. She did well. I’m exhausted. Need a nap. Dez made dinner and woke me when it was ready. The spaghetti tasted good. Ate small bowl and piece of garlic bread. Think the sauce was a bit too much for my stomach yet. Ended up with the trots for a bit. Had to take Rx to stop it. Able to help clean up kitchen from dinner a little while Dez at piano lesson. Also able to type up tentative schedule for VBS. I think it’ll work. Had Joe look at it and sent a picture to Jakob and Bri for their input. I’ll finalize it tomorrow. Tomorrow’s goal is to design and print name tags. My muscles have been burning and throbbing today especially when I move. It doesn’t help that it was thunderstorming off and on most of day.
9:00 I’m freezing cold. Put PJ pants on with thick socks. Applied immune eo blend to feet. Diffusing lavender oil in bedroom for little while. Headache off and on today. Never took anything for it since it was tolerable. Ears rang couple times for not sure how long. Low back throbbing. Rt hip aches. Skin feeling dry. Voice is coming back. Eyes watery off and on most of day. Beginning of day my tears burned my eyes. Just wiped them with tissue. Nose slightly bloody most of day. Having difficulty knowing what I can drink that won’t leave nasty taste in mouth. Cannot drink sweet tea with processed sugar – the sugar tastes chemically to me. Had to spit it out! Legs ache. Feet freezing for hours now even with thick socks on. Hands and arms periodically tingling. Feet tingling now. Left lower rib hurts.
Thankful for
- Getting my voice back
- Dezirae helping me prepare for VBS
- Able to eat a little more food today
- We can know that God is good when we choose to be still (Psalm 46:10).
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July 6
8:30 woke from the the beginning of a nightmare. It was a pretty dream until it wasn’t. Exploring in Cancun, Mexico. Scenes were absolutely beautiful until we came upon a family that was dead. It frightened me awake. I just want to cry.
Matthew 24:35
A song from Clarke family is repeating in my mind but I don’t remember the name. Something about pieces and It figures that my Bible reading is in Jonah today. It’s making me ball. Playing Clarke family in Spotify hoping the song will come up. Jonah 2:7 When my soul fainted within me I remembered the LORD: and my prayer came in unto thee, into thine holy temple.
Jonah 2:9-10 But I will sacrifice unto thee with the voice of thanksgiving; I will pay that that I have vowed. Salvation is of the LORD. And the LORD spake unto the fish, and it vomited out Jonah upon the dry land.
Jonah 1-4; Ephesians 6:10 Scripture reading & journaling is important. Even if I don’t remember what I read its important to continue because though my brain may resemble a strainer the Words of God are cleansing my brain. I need to finish my scripture journaling calendar today and get it posted.
Preparing to juice found several pkgs of carrots going bad. Decided to can the rest so we won’t lose them. Cleaned carrots. Able to fill 4 quart jars with a little left over for dinner tonight. Dez made lunch and suggested I rest. Joe wants me to take it easy today so I can go to church. I oblige. I’m so tired and exerting my muscles causing pain and cramping.
12:00 a friend contacted me to ask for prayers. This friend has several tumors in body. Two are inoperable. Only immediate family knows. Doesn’t want anyone to know. I tried to be an encouragement. Prayer is all I can do.
3:20 decided to go lay back down in bed to see if I can take a nap Listening to Clarke family on Spotify. Trying to figure out the song in my dreams.
5:55 Jakob called to let us know that a friend, Vickie Cox, called him to ask him to let us know that she is bringing us dinner Friday night about 6:00pm. I’m amazed at how many friends are wanting to help.
7:00 still having trouble with diarrhea after dinner. Had to take Imodium AD.
8:30 VBS name tags designed and printed.
10:29 BP 116/76 pulse 86 bedtime vitamins taken. Cut back on C to 2,000 mg each time until I overcome the diarrhea issue. Had couple headaches today, but not bad enough to need OTC pain rx. Bloody nose first thing in morning and slightly throughout day. Nose got a little runny in afternoon. Upper back stinging mildly. Hands and arms periodically tingling and numbish especially when lying down. Lips chapped. Applied lip balm. Low back aches. Legs ache deeply. Muscles ache throughout day. Muscles burning wherever I used them. Feel as though doing rigorous workout though I’m just moving in seat, sitting down, adjusting to try to get comfortable, etc. Feet freezing off and on throughout day. Feet freezing ice cold presently. Put immune eo blend on bottom of feet and covered with thick socks. Able to take my meds/vitamins twice today. Able to drink 16oz carrot juice.
Thankful for…
- A friend felt comfortable enough to ask for prayers
- Another friend sent word that she is providing dinner for our family on Friday.
- Mom brought me ice chips
- Dez did a little grocery shopping for us by herself
