July 13
5:20 woke couple times in night to use restroom. Need to do better drinking fluids earlier in day. I’m tired. Whole body feels like I did rigorous workout y’day.
Philippians 2:9-11; Micah 1-7; Ephesians 6:16
Having trouble with my left arm and hand going numb while reading my Bible.
Changed sheets on bed, folded and put away two loads clothes, washed load of sheets, made juice for today and tomorrow. I’m exhausted now.
Lost another layer of hair again today. I suppose after this next round of chemo I will lose all my hair. Thankfully my hair is thick so you can’t really tell. The idea of losing my hair is really taking an emotional toll on me. I just want to cry. I just want to drop my sword and cry for a while. God, please help me be strong.
https://marnieclark.com/tips-for-coping-with-chemotherapy-hair-loss/
11:50 working on adjusting games for next week because it’s supposed to rain all week. Ugh! Also working on ironing transfers to material for Jordon’s memory quilt. My back rt side is cramping horribly.
12:00 went to DG with Dezirae to get items to decorate the Coral Reef wall at church. Home for me to rest while Dez goes to church to decorate.
I shucked corn for dinner. I’m exhausted and wore out. Decided to go lay down.
Playing wholetones music while resting.
Dez called so I could keep her company until the other lady shows up at church. I don’t like her being there by herself. I accidentally snooze for a moment while on phone with her. Lady finally arrives. We hang up. I fall asleep. Not sure how long I was out and Jordon calls to check on me. Talked for little while then Joe calls. I suppose I should just get up.
4:15 decided to try to finish ironing 1st picture. Finally get it ironed, but it’s little blurry. Found a friend (CDJ) with a heat press to help me with the other pictures. Will try to meet up with her next week, Lord willing.
Starting getting dinner ready. Trouble with muscles spasming today. Yawned and neck and jawline cramped bad making it difficult to move. Need to rest more.
I’m having emotional day about losing my hair.
9:00 decided to try to work more on VBS games. I think I about got it. It’ll be less expensive this way too.
11:30 I’m wiped out today and not feeling myself. Whole body stiff and throbbing. Left arm gets tingling easily. Left ribs hurt. Low back throbbing. Legs ache. Muscles burn upon exertion. Feet achy and tingling. Nerves stinging. Skin feels dry. Headache. Hair falling out more. Feels as if I were to yank at a section it would all come out.
https://www.verywellhealth.com/coping-with-hair-loss-during-chemotherapy-2249231
https://www.capillus.com/blogs/all/how-to-deal-with-hair-loss-when-undergoing-chemo
Had difficulty swallowing bedtime vitamins. First two got stuck in throat as if my throat is swollen.
Thankful for …
- I still have hair for now
- Able to cook dinner tonight
- Found a friend to help with the ironing of the pictures for the memory quilt.
- Dezirae willing to help with things to get ready for VBS.
July 14
7:30 woke from strange dream.
Thirsty. Hot, but I was also covered to chin by covers. Odd taste in mouth. Blow nose cuz it’s running. Rt nostril bleeding. Have to pinch nose. I haven’t taken histamine blocker in over a week so I’m not sure why my nose is bleeding now.
John 15;10; 2 Chronicles 28: 2 Kings 16-17; John 14:27
Have headache. Tired. Feeling lethargic. I’m not feeling well. Whole body aches. Left arm and hand keep going numbish and tingling – have to keep readjusting positions. Lost another layer of hair today. Decided to experiment with one of the pretty head coverings leaving part of my hair out. Went to see what Dezirae would think. She just giggled because my family is not used to seeing me wear hats. While I’ve always thought certain hats wear cute looking, I’ve never been one to cover my head with scarves or hats. In fact, I didn’t want anything messing up my hair – not even the wind. I don’t like it blowing in my face. Lol
Morning meds and vitamins taken. I’m so tired of keeping track of everything. I think I’m just wore out all over. Decided to write in scripture journal.
9:00 had fleeting thought to help Dezirae mow back yard. Moved van. Started helping move items out of way. Quickly got tired out. Thought the help now quickly dissipated. I’m so tired.
Go inside. Sipping on my morning juice.
Grocery shopping for home and church. Went to Walmart for game items for next week. Scanned hoola hoops because there were no distinct prices. Scanned @$5.88. At register, they rang up as $6.97. I asked for assistance to get them reduced. The woman was rude. She said they didn’t do that. I politely disagreed with her. She used her phone to scan them and told me they would be the $6.97. I showed her the price I scanned on my phone and informed her that I have had prices matched in the past before. She refused again. I asked for a supervisor. She then said we don’t have to do that if we don’t want to but I’ll do it this time, but I’m not doing it again. I kept my cool, but she made me angry. My whole body was shaking by end of checking out.
I drove to next store, glad I had chosen before to grocery shop elsewhere. Told Dezirae I would need to have her drive home.
Get groceries and get home just ahead of thunderstorm. Whew! Get groceries put away. Ask Dezirae to make lunch. I sit for a while to rest.
Remember that I need to finish printing the songs for VBS. Get to computer and discover that the document I had spent hours on somehow had encountered a serious error and couldn’t be retrieved. I don’t have time for this cuz I’m supposed to be leaving for church. Ugh!
I send the song director a message letting him know and that I would have the rest of songs printed by Sunday.
Ask Jordon to drive. I’m so worked up and it’s threatening to storm. Get caught in torrential downpour on way to church. My nerves are shot.
At church, I ask Jordon to drive to mission house so we can put the food in there for our missionaries next week.
630 I need to lay down a bit. I’m tired. Play one wholetones song.
1030 getting ready for bed. Nose starts running (been sneezing a lot today). Blow nose except rt side is bleeding. Have to pinch for several seconds to get it to stop.
Wash hair in sink. I’m apprehensive because I don’t want my hair to fall completely out yet. More hair falls out. Lord, please allow my hair to stay just a little longer.
Touched up nail polish so it’ll look good tomorrow.
Write in scripture journal while nails are drying. Take pm vitamins. Apply immune blend eo roller to bottoms of feet.
Trouble with muscles spasming and cramping easily today. Stops me in my tracks every time. Glad we were able to get the shopping for items for games and grocery shopping done today. Left arm keeps going numb and tingling depending on positions. Tired. Easily exhausted. Feet tingling and aching. Low back hurts.
Thankful for…
- More people were in church than expected tonight
- Able to get some shopping done
