July 20
2:00 up to use restroom.
4:30 woken by alarm. Lft shoulder throbbing.
1 John 1:7; Hosea 8-14;
5:00 gagged on phlegm and vomited. Yuck. Slight bloody nose. Thirsty. Decided to get some lemon juice and add it to my water. Applying ice pack to left shoulder to help ease the pain.
Fell back to sleep until just before 8am.
Working on Scripture Journaling while listening to wholetones music.
8:15 Joe called to check on me. Thinks I need different bottled water. I agree. Don’t like the taste of this one.
Decide to try to eat bowl of oatmeal. Could only get 3/4 bowl eaten. Make run to restroom for trots.
Mom came to bring ice chips and check on me. Said she heard I was having trouble staying hydrated.
Put half cup of ice chips in glass and pour bottle of body armour over ice. I’m exhausted and not feeling well. Need to lie down.
9:30 getting indigestion. Take morning meds and vitamins plus lomotil for diarrhea. Laying down. I’m exhausted. Lft shoulder and arm throbbing intensely. Hurts to move it.
Slept for an hour.
12:00 got up to get something to eat. Got distracted because I heard one of the kids say when we get back we’ll have to get ready for tonight. I decided to put dinner in crockpot. Browned meat. Drain fat. Chopped up using ultimate chopper. Added to crockpot. Added spaghetti sauce. Stirred. Added semi cooked noodles. As I was stirring in noodles, entire back started cramping bad. Almost went to the floor in pain. Thankfully, food is in crockpot and I can go lay down.
Costochondritis flaring and hurting fierce too. Took 4 ibuprofen.
Hard to believe that exercise was a bit too much for me. Ugh. Feel like I got knocked down on my butt again. Need to work trying to get myself back on my feet.
It’s storming here making my nerves contract and muscle cramps worse. Going to soak feet in Epsom salt tub. Kids help gather necessary components for me to do so.
7:00 tongue is starting to hurt. Checked tongue in mirror. It’s covered white again with sores. Homemade magic mouthwash didn’t ease pain.
9:00 tummy hurts. Diarrhea back. Ugh.
9:25 kids came to hang out in our room for a bit. It was good, but after a bit I started really hurting.
10:00 taking pain rx and antidiarrheal med.
Thankful for
- Able to spend quality time with family
- Joe did facetime call while at church so church could say hi
July 21
Woke in middle of night to use restroom.
Center of chest aches greatly. Able to maneuver to get back to pop. It eases pain a little. Fall asleep with the song Big Enough in my mind.
4:30 woken by severe abdominal cramping. Need to use restroom – diarrhea. Got to get this under control. Step on scale. I’m down to 177lbs. Lost 7lbs this go around so far. Take lomotil and Probiotic.
https://www.dana-farber.org/health-library/articles/managing-chemotherapy-induced-diarrhea/
Psalm 119:39; Isaiah 28-30; Romans 1:16
Getting very sleepy. Will probably fall back to sleep soon. I’m exhausted.
Slept till little after 7am.
Trying to figure out how to improve my gutt health and in turn overcome the chemo induced diarrhea.
https://marnieclark.com/are-there-any-healthy-sugar-substitutes/
https://marnieclark.com/why-probiotics-and-prebiotics-are-so-crucial-during-chemotherapy/
https://marnieclark.com/what-is-the-candida-breast-cancer-connection/
3:50 I’ve purposely rested today so I can go to last night of VBS. In getting ready for church, I have to do my hair. It’s knotted horrible. I’ve never had that problem. I spray it with water and carefully pick it out. Handfuls of hair are falling out. After I get it picked out and scrunched, I use mirror to check back of head. I have bald spots that can’t be covered up reasonably. It’s time to start wearing turbans. I try really hard to be brave, but I lose it emotionally and have a meltdown. I call for Buddy and ask for a hug. He asks what’s wrong. I tell him. He gives me a big hug and tells me it’s going to be okay. I ask if the turban I chose looks ok. He assures me it does.
I go back to finish getting ready. My left side torso starts cramping horribly like y’day. I take 2 calcium pills and drink a bunch of water.
Make it to church and I’m exhausted. Sort through mail. Decide to go lay down a while in nursery.
Joe comes to get me a while later so I can say hi to the church. He has the church say a special prayer for me. I stay until game time then go lay back down. Joe keeps coming to check on me. Tells me he’s glad I’m here because he missed having his wife serving with him in ministry. I miss it too, but I’m just there not doing too much today.
Back up when Jakob is preaching.
10:00 tonight was too too much. I’m overly exhausted, hurting, nauceous. At least I haven’t had diarrhea in 12 hours. Crashing…
