August 15
6:30 rough night. Stomach cramps so fierce they woke me and had me moaning in pain. Up every couple hours needing to go to the restroom. I’m awake, but exhausted.
Dezirae starts her Senior year at school today. I’m excited for her, and praying this will be an awesome year, but sad because my baby girl is growing up.
Song: ♫ Middle of My Storm ♫
Romans 14:8; Isaiah 41:10
Today is Dezirae’s first day of Senior year in High School. Burn papers, take out trash, fill ice cube trays, change out filter for water purifier.
Jeremiah 32-34; Jeremiah 33:3 Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.
Headache. Sinus congestion. Neck hurts. Exhausted. Tummy hurts. Low back hurts. Slight bloody nose. Nasal drainage in throat tastes salty.
For allergies/post nasal drip: 1200mg of NAC (N-Acetyl Cysteine), 1600mg of Quercetin with 400mg of Bromelain, and 1500mg of vitamin C a day.
NAC is an antioxidant that thins mucus and provides antiviral action.
Quercetin helps decrease mucus production and swelling by blocking the release of histamine from immune cells.
Bromelain is an enzyme that has been shown to reduce swelling and inflammation in the sinuses.
Worked on blog for a little while. Made Jello cheesecake for dessert tonight. It’s Joe’s spiritual bday. Unloaded dishwasher. Made tea. I miss being able to drink sweet tea. Processed sugar tastes like chemicals. Artificial sweeteners are a no no. All the information on the internet is so confusing. Do this. Stop that. Don’t eat this. Most warnings come with advertisement to buy their products. Who has time for all of that? Transplanted a hydrangea sapling to a pot today. I’ve always wanted a hydrangea bush. I’m hoping it will survive.
12:30 Called Dr office about red belly button. Left msg for nurse to call. Nurse I spoke with asked if I was doing better. Told her not really, but I’m surviving.
12:46 NP says it’s yeast. So now I have a skin yeast infection in my belly button! What next? Need to wash & dry daily. Can apply a cream. Think she’s calling in a cream? I may just continue the colloidal silver for couple days to see what will happen. Asked about the diarrhea. She says to continue taking the Lomotil. It will eventually stop the diarrhea. I’m questioning that one because I’m going on my 2nd week of diarrhea and still going. Asked about the taste change from bitter, metallic to severe salty taste. Supposed to be normal while undergoing chemo. Suggested to get lemon drop to suck on to combat that.
Time to rest a while.
Decided to drink a fruit smoothie with half teaspoon of Moringa powder to get some protein and nutrients. Not a good move. Only able to drink half of it before getting sour stomach feeling. Ouch! It’s burning my esophagus.
Looking up how to alkalize my body…
https://www.developgoodhabits.com/how-to-make-your-body-more-alkaline/
Prepared dinner to be ready for when Joe gets home from work. I want us to eat as a family together since it’s a special day. Mondays are hard due to Dezirae having piano lessons. Sheet pan tenderloin with parmesan potatoes, green beans, and rolls. Timer on oven. Need to lie down for few minutes. I’m getting tired.
11:00 Remembered to take ginseng this morning. Took a bit, but it gave me energy today. I haven’t been able to do half the stuff I’ve done today in long time. My body feels the repercussions of today’s workouts. Center of chest hurts. Nerves stinging. Muscles throbbing. Low back throbbing. Rt hip aches. Lower left leg tourniquet tightening feeling with tingling to foot. Feet hurt with stinging needles. Rt ear hurts. Taste buds sour bitter taste. Naval red but has diminished a little. I think the colloidal silver is helping. Neck hurts. Neuropathy in arms and hands.
Thankful for… 1. Able to eat three small meals today. 2. Trots are slowing. 3. Felt halfway decent today 4. Dezirae had good day at school. 5. Jordon able to work overtime. This is his last week. 6. Joe got to drive the trash truck.
August 16
6:40 once I fell asleep I slept until alarm went off. I’m exhausted and so tired. Bad headache. Heart pounding hard. Insides of torso feel like they’re shivering but I’m not cold. My head is pounding. It hurts. Lights bothersome.
2 Corinthians 7:1; Jeremiah 1:7-8
7:29 sudden gushing bloody nose. Took me six minutes to get it to slow enough to be able to lay down. Feeling a bit weak at the moment.
Jeremiah 35-37
Playing wholetones music while I rest. Hoping to at least ease the headache.
Joe called to check on me just before 9am. Woke me up. Still have headache. Going to try to get rid of it.
9:45 had fleeting thought that Dr office called recently to let me know I had medicine ready for pickup. Called to check. Memory was correct. Explained I’d been sick from recent chemo treatment and it might be Friday before I can pick it up. They agreed to hold it for me. Texted Joe to ask if he gets off early enough today to pick it up for me on way home.
Craving Cheerios. Strange. Headache has eased, but not gone. I’m feeling very lethargic right now. Need to take morning meds and vitamins.
Ate Cheerios for breakfast. Generic tastes horrible. Fixed bird seed in feeder. Scrubbed half the tub. Emptied bathroom trash. Sent email to a friend. I’m exhausted and hurting. Some days I can do more than others, but that’s okay because I need to pace myself and rest as needed.
Down rest of day. Laid down but never fell asleep. Kids came home and came to room to tell me about their day.
Dezirae asks for help understanding some of her homework. She has a form of dyslexia and sometimes she understands it better when it’s read out loud to her. She talks it through and it helps. Took about an hour. My brain hurts and feels like it’s swimming. No homework for me tonight. Lol.
August 17
7:00 Dezirae woke me up to ask a question about lunch. I was so tired last night I went to bed about 7:00pm and slept all night. I feel like I could sleep for days. I’m exhausted and worn out.
2 Corinthians 10:17-18; Jeremiah 38-40; Zephaniah 3:17
Whole body stiff and throbbing. Ears ringing. Bad headache. Lips chapped. Thirsty. Nose slightly bloody. Exhausted. Playing wholetones music.
Slept for another two hours.
Force myself to get up. Put load of clothes in washer. Sort some in boys’ room. I have no idea whose junk is whose. Tire out easily. Carrot juice.
Back to full-fledged diarrhea. Beans are not my friends presently. I hesitate to taste an anti-diarrhea Rx because it doesn’t seem to work.
Decided to trim the leader branches off my crepe myrtle tree. It’s doing so well. I really enjoy the bright pink flowers it produces. Dragged trimmed branches to the burn pile. Just that little bit has me out of breath and tired. One day I’ll regain my stamina and strength.
I’ve put a reminder in my phone to send encouraging texts to 5 of my friends on a weekly basis. I never know to whom I’m going to send them to as I pray over my phone index and ask God to help me send them to who needs it that day. I do this because it’s something I would want my friends to do for me. I rarely get a response. I pray before sending the text asking God to bless and help those who I send it to. Today I have gotten two responses of thanks for the encouragement as they needed it. I am humbled that obedience to God’s direction helps to encourage others in our spiritual battles. I so need to be encouraged myself. I sometimes wonder why is it that I’m easy to forget about. I know people across the world are praying for me, but why don’t they feel compelled to just send a text? I know God is with me always, but it would be nice for them to take time to reach out for even a minute. I sit and cry for just a while.
Bloody nose while chilaxing with my family. It’s in clots. Took a while to ease.
Genesis 4:8-11; Psalm 74, 79
Night vitamins taken. Took an extra probiotic. Wide awake but tired. Stomach aches. Neuropathy in arms, hands, and feet. Low back and rt hip throbbing. Legs ache. Feet hurt.
Thankful for… 1. Able to ask a friend, who’s overcome bc, for suggestions on combating side effects of chemo. 2. Joe brought home dessert. While cooking dinner, I accidentally burnt the garlic. The smell turned my stomach. I told Joe I lost my appetite and asked if I could eat my dessert instead. He chuckled and told me that it didn’t work that way. I chuckled with him because that’s not like me. Lol. 3. Able to do a few chores around the house today.
