August 17
7:00 Dezirae woke me up to ask a question about lunch. I was so tired last night I went to bed about 7:00pm and slept all night. I feel like I could sleep for days. I’m exhausted and worn out.
2 Corinthians 10:17-18; Jeremiah 38-40; Zephaniah 3:17
Whole body stiff and throbbing. Ears ringing. Bad headache. Lips chapped. Thirsty. Nose slightly bloody. Exhausted. Playing wholetones music.
Slept for another two hours.
Force myself to get up. Put load of clothes in washer. Sort some in boy’s room. I have no idea whose junk is whose. Tire out easily. Carrot juice.
Back to full-fledged diarrhea. Beans are not my friends presently. I hesitate to taste an anti-diarrhea Rx because it doesn’t seem to work. Decided to trim the leader branches off my crepe myrtle tree. It’s doing so well. I really enjoy the bright pink flowers it produces. Dragged trimmed branches to the burn pile. Just that little bit has me out of breath and tired. One day I’ll regain my stamina and strength.
I’ve put a reminder in my phone to send encouraging texts to 5 of my friends on a weekly basis. I never know to whom I’m going to send them to as I pray over my phone index and ask God to help me send them to who needs it that day. I do this because it’s something I would want my friends to do for me. I rarely get a response. I pray before sending the text asking God to bless and help those who I send it to. Today I have gotten two responses of thanks for the encouragement as they needed it. I am humbled that obedience to God’s direction helps to encourage others in our spiritual battles. I so need to be encouraged myself. I sometimes wonder why is it that I’m easy to forget about. I know people across the world are praying for me, but why don’t they feel compelled to just send a text? I know God is with me always, but it would be nice for them to take time to reach out for even a minute. I sit and cry for just a while.
Bloody nose while chilaxing with my family. It’s in clots. Took a while to ease.
Genesis 4:8-11; Psalm 74, 79
Night vitamins taken. Took an extra probiotic. Wide awake but tired. Stomach aches. Neuropathy in arms, hands, and feet. Low back and rt hip throbbing. Legs ache. Feet hurt.
Thankful for… 1. Able to ask a friend, who’s overcome bc, for suggestions on combating side effects of chemo. 2. Joe brought home dessert. While cooking dinner, I accidentally burnt the garlic. The smell turned my stomach. I told Joe I lost my appetite and asked if I could eat my dessert instead. He chuckled and told me that it didn’t work that way. I chuckled with him because that’s not like me. Lol. 3. Able to do a few chores around the house today.
August 18
7:00 rough night…took long time to fall asleep then up and down most of night. In a daze around 5am after Joe gave me kiss before he left for work. Shortly afterwards a thunderstorm pursued. Once thunder roared so loud, I thought it was going to come thru the window.
Woken by alarm. Still quite groggy and very sleepy. Forced myself to get up to be with Dezirae before she goes to school. Shared Scripture (Matthew 28:19-20 focus on “lol, I am with you alway” and prayed with her. Sat I’m recliner until I felt it safe to move to go back to bed for little bit. Playing Clark Family music on Spotify. Alarm set.
Switched to wholetones – the Key of David. Thunderstorm is rearing is ugly head. Bad headache.
Philippians 1:21; 2 Kings 24-25; 2 Chronicles 36
Food with fiber
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No energy today. Lights bothersome. Whole body hurts. Thunderstorms most of day. They make me hurts all over. Pretty bad for a while, enough to make power go out a couple of times. Sat thinking a lot. Made me think of something my Dad said recently which made me cry. Went to visit with my Dad. Stayed to visit with him until kids got home.
Tired. Laying down for few minutes before getting ready for church.
I haven’t had to “run” to the bathroom all day so hopefully I’m finally on the mends. Going to church tonight.
Dinner with family. I’m wore out. Going to lay down in nursery for a while.
Joe scared me awake just before my alarm went off putting me in a bad mood. He just remembered that we’re supposed to have a business meeting tonight.
I got very hungry once back home from church. Ate peaches with cottage cheese, popcorn, and little bit of ice cream. I haven’t eaten that much in about two weeks.
