But now, O Lord, thou art our father; we are the clay, and thou our potter; and we all are the work of thy hand. Isaiah 64:8
“I will serve Thee because I love Thee
You have given life to me.
I was nothing before You found me,
You have given life to me.
Chorus:
Heartaches, broken pieces,
Ruined lives are why You died on Calvary.
Your touch was what I longed for,
You have given life to me.”
It’s amazing to think that God has the power to put back together the broken pieces of our lives. We are the clay and He is the Potter. Clay when placed in the Potter’s hand can be formed into something wonderful and new.
Our heartaches don’t have to mean the end of hope. We just need to place our trust in Him and allow Him to work in and through our lives. He will take our broken pieces and form them into something beautiful in His time.
I enjoyed ladies conference last weekend, but it was too too much for me. I’ve been in so much pain since and so tired. Tried to pick up refill of pain med only to find out it has been taken off the $4 list at Wal-Mart. I couldn’t afford it now I’m scramblin to figure out what to do.
Family has been trying to be understanding, but I feel they’re getting tired of it all. If only I could get someone to explain to all of us so we can understand it better.
Lord, we’re struggling and I’m not even able to afford my meds anymore. Please I need you to supply our needs. What time I am afraid I will trust in thee.
My brain hurts, sinuses are horrible, neck hurts, low back hurts, both hands and wrists swollen and throbbing, rt hip hurts, left eye feels droopy, nose hurts, feet & legs ache, tired but cant sleep…
Oct 3
Don’t know what I’ve done, but I’m in so much pain!!! Both calves are cramping and spazzing. Feet hurt. Hand and arms swollen and aching. Entire back throbbing. Headache. I’ve taken pain rx & it hasn’t touched it. Indigestion. Neck throbbing. Exhausted but still awake.
Waiting to see how He alone is going to turn this present trial into a blesing!
Oct 4
8:19a-I still hurt all over! Left elbow throbbing. Legs and feet hurt. Hands and forearms swollen and achy. Back hurts.
12:00pm- left hand and arm shaking horribly and uncontrollably
Webster defines graces as… unmerited divine assistance given to humans for their regeneration or sanctification
KJV Dictionary defines grace as… Favor; good will; kindness; disposition to oblige another; Appropriately, the free unmerited love and favor of God, the spring and source of all the benefits men receive from him.
Therefore, as ye abound in every thing, in faith, and utterance, and knowledge, and in all diligence, and in your love to us, see that ye abound in this grace also. 2 Corinthians 8:7
Grace is the love of God shown to all men regardless of status, race, size, or appearance. It’s the peace of God that calms even the most anxious soul. It’s the undeserved favor of God.
It’s not getting what we deserve. We deserve eternal damnation in the pits of hell. Yet, God, who is rich in mercy, loved us enough to sacrifice His only begotten Son (Ephesians 2:4). He gave us the eternal Hope of salvation.
God’s grace sought us out even though we have nothing in return to give. His love is unconditional. Grace can turn a life around from hopelessness to one full of hope & vitality.
Additional Scripture: Ephesians 2:8-9, 2 Timothy 1:9, John 1:14, 2 Corinthians 12:8-9, Hebrews 4:16, James 4:6, Psalm 103:8, Titus 2:11-12, 2 Peter 3:18
Prayer: Dear Heavenly Father, I may not know how everything works, but please help me to trust You more. Without You nothing else makes sense. Thank you that Your grace is sufficient in times of need. I ask that you help my family and I to grow in grace and in the knowledge of You. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Hymns of Praise: 1. Amazing Grace 2. Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing 3. ‘Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus 4. Grace Greater Than Our Sin 5. To God Be the Glory
1: moderation in action, thought, or feeling:RESTRAINT
2a: habitual moderation in the indulgence of the appetites or passions
b: moderation in or abstinence from the use of alcoholic beverages
KJV Dictionary Definition:
TEM’PERANCE, n. L. temperantia, from tempero.
1. Moderation; particularly, habitual moderation in regard to the indulgence of the natural appetites and passions; restrained or moderate indulgence; as temperance in eating and drinking; temperance in the indulgence of joy or mirth. Temperance in eating and drinking is opposed to gluttony and drunkenness, and in other indulgences, to excess.
2. Patience; calmness; sedateness; moderation of passion.
Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1-2
As we learn to walk in the Spirit, we allow Him to have control and not our flesh. The fruit of the Spirit temperance is not about self control but rather submitting to the Sovereign control of our Lord Jesus Christ. Temperance is self discipline.
Every aspect of our lives need to be yielded to the Spirit’s control including our thoughts (Proverbs 15:26), desires (Romans 13:13-14), speech (Psalm 19:14, Proverbs 29:11), appetite (Proverbs 23:2), sleep (Proverbs 6:9-11), finances (Luke 12:15), entertainment (1 John 2:15-17), emotions (1 Corinthians 10:13, Proverbs 16:32), etc. We develop temperance as we practice to live and walk in the control of the Holy Spirit.
With the control of the Holy Spirit, may we exhibit that He is granting temperance to us in all things!
John 4:13-14 Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.
Praise God that He can take a seemingly impossible situation and turn it around for His glory! Look at John 4 the Samaritan woman who believed and led her town to Christ. Or Saul who persecuted the Christians became a convert on the road to Damascus and later became Paul the missionary (Acts 9). Or John Newton who was a vile sinner whom accepted Christ and eventually wrote one of the most loved hymns “Amazing Grace”. Don’t give up hope on witnessing to and praying for your friends, families, and neighbors.
🎶”But God can do what seems impossible; {YES, HE CAN!!!} God controls eternity. My mind can never comprehend it, But God in heaven cares for me {and He cares for you!}🎶
Lord, may my life be a reflection of You so that my family, friends, and neighbors have no doubt about Your existence, Your power, Your mercy, love, and grace. Give me a vision of the lost as You see them. Give me the courage to touch them with Your saving grace. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Webster defines purity as the quality or state of being pure
Av1611.com defines purity as freedom from guilt or the defilement of sin; innocence; as purity of heart or life.
1 Timothy 4:12 Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity.
Purity is holiness in action. It is setting yourself apart for God’s use. Purity is a life that reflects a heart washed clean by God. Purity is a life that is wholly devoted to Christ.
Additional Scripture: 1 Timothy 5:2, Psalm 19:8, Acts 20:26, Psalm 24:4, Philippians 4:8. Proverbs 20:9, 1 Timothy 1:5, Proverbs 20:11, Matthew 5:8, Proverbs 21:8, 1 Timothy 3:9, Titus 1:15, James 1:28, James 3:17
Prayer: Dear Lord, search my heart and cleanse it from every sin. Help me to seek righteousness and not follow after the things of this world. Help me to be an example that others may see Christ.
2.45p Dr apt – Neurology BP 100/81, hr 74, temp 99.2
My blood pressure is staying in normal range. PTL!
Dr was a little disappointed that I haven’t improved since my last visit. He told me to keep my chin up because I admitted to him that I get frustrated because I’m not able to do what I used to be able to. He says that nerves take a long time to heal.
Could order nerve conduction study but he didn’t recommend it for me. While I have nerve damage, he believes most of the damage is in my brain from brain damage. That’s not to say that I don’t experience nerve pain other that in my head. Believe you me I surely do! Most days it’s a 5 or 7, but I’m learning to adapt and admitting more that I need help. Admitted that my type of injury isn’t studied enough and though our technology has advanced there really isn’t any tests that would help in my case.
If memory serves me correctly, he said I could walk and do stretches. That’s progress on Dr’s part because before I was told to just live everyday life. That isn’t good enough for me – I need to get at a better level. I want to keep fighting and learning if for no other reason but to help others.
Numbness and tingling in hands, memory loss, headache, brain fog, toes tingly & cold, neck really hurts like I have a knot in it).
I’ll keep researching as I’m able and taking notes along the way (so I’ll remember it later) 🙂
TBI / Brain Game: Verbal Fluency – I didn’t do too good.
Dezirae made me a homemade butterfinger ice cream pie. Yummy!
A sweet friend surprised me today with flowers! Thank you!
Sometimes this is hard to do especially when you’re in the midst of a storm.
Sept 26
Having half decent day. Body aches, but it’s raining.
Eyes beginning to get blurry. Sensitive to lights.
10:25p- woken up to go to bed after crashing around 7:30p I’m so exhausted and hurt horribly all over. I feel like I was beat up. My feet are freezing! I’m cold, but body is hot to touch. Indigestion bad. I hurt almost to tears.
PS. Joe got a new job today. He starts tomorrow. Have some expenses for his new job (twic card, black shoes, etc)
Sept 27
8:30a- woke in much pain all over body; hard to move, hands, arms & feet numb & tingling, headache
10:15- chiro apt – roller table irritating to lower back
4:27p- still in much pain, lethargic, no energy
4:45p- joe suggested I drnk coffee. I did with D.E. it did nothin for me.
9:00a- woke up late. My whole body aches all over. Hard to move. Hands swollen and achy. Feet tingly. Stabbing pain in rt side just above hip. Neck throbbing. Head hurts.
10:00a- burning sensation in throat and down chest after swallowing vitamins/rx & deep chest cough
12:49a- rt ear ringing
Sept 23
7:00a- took me hours to fall asleep. Finally took melatonin around 1:30am
I hurt horribly all over…hard to move. Feel like crying. Don’t feel right. Malaise.
10:00a rt ear ringing
12:00p still feel yucky
5:50p rt eye spazing. Hard to focus. Lasted for good 20-30 minutes.
9:43p – feels like somethings not right with me (more than the “normal” lightning strike symptoms) general malaise, weaker than usual, lethargic
Going to bed earlier than usual…hope to feel better in morning. Immune roller blend applied I did to feet.
Sept 24
Current symptoms
Facial spasms – lft eye randomly twitching. Rt eye spazing enough to close eye. Both are bothersome.
Digestive upset – random hiccups progressively worse, indigestion after eveything I eat, spasmodic coughing
Muscle weakness – unable to raise arms above shoulder without causing much pain and soreness
“I will serve Thee because I love Thee 
