Better or Bitter?

June 1, 2018

Rough night.  Very nauseous.  Severely congested.  Rt ear aches.  Trouble sleeping.  Legs ache below knees.  Low back aches.  Hands swollen and achy.  Eyes watering.  Mind racing.

June 2, 2018

Woke up with migraine!  Hands numb & tingly.  Left ft tingly.  Muscles in lft arm twitching.

5.52p Face really flushed.  Headache pounding.  Eyes blood shot & hurt.  Stabbing pain in legs below knees.  Low grade fever.  Somethings not right…don’t feel good.

9.29 Migraine is not letting up…eyes hurt & watering.  If only I could cry.

10.08p taking 2^nd dose of maxalt mlt for migraine.  Hurts so bad my eyes are leaking.

June 3, 2018

8.30a- Woke with head still pounding.  Both arms numb and tingly.  Eyes sensitive to lights.  Low back aches.  Left chin itchy.  Toes tingly.

2.30p I’ve had a migraine since Thursday. It started mild with nausceousness.  It has increased with periodic numbness and tingling in my hands and feet.  My blood pressure is currently 173/106.  Joe is taking me to ER.  I’m hurting to tears and scared.

6.40p- Dr said CT scan report looks good.  No tumors, aneurysms, or bleeding on the brain.  They gave me nauseous rx, pain rx, & steroid.  Not sure which one, but one of them made me dizzy and super drowsy.  I fell asleep in intermediate ER room.  Bp came down to 154/93.  Sent home and gave rxs & told to follow-up with primary Dr.  I’m back home in bed.

May 23, 2018

May 23

Woke with much pain in back, arms, & hands

May 25, 2018

Isaiah 53:5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

1 John 4:18-19 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. We love him, because he first loved us.

Thankful that no matter how broken and empty we may feel, God knows right where we’re at and loves us just the same. He doesn’t throw the clay away. He patiently molds our lives over and over in the likeness of Him. We can be vessels of honor as long as we are yield to Him.

May 26, 2018

Psalm 34:8
O taste and see that the Lord is good:
blessed is the man that trusteth in him.

We need to relish and take pleasure in God’s goodness. What an encouragement to know that we can cast ALL our cares on Him. He not only has all the time in the world to listen, but also He compassionately supplies our every need.

May 30, 2018

7:16p- A peep into part of a day of a Lightning Survivor with TBI:
It took me two weeks to get the youngest child’s 4th quarter & yearly grades completed. I just finished tonight in time to finish preparing dinner (meat was in crockpot).
One more to go. This brain is fried.
Thankful that the Lord’s mercies are new every morning!

May 19, 2018

Woke up in extreme pain.  Difficulty sleeping through night.  Combination of storm and not getting enough rest this week – I think.  Joe told me to stay in bed.  Took a pain pill and slept til 12:30pm.

May 21, 2018

6:46p- Tried a new vegetable side for dinner – Roasted Parmesan Garlic Cauliflower & Broccoli. Kids loved it told me that I could have it any time. ❤

Romans 8:37-39
Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Thankful for the measureless, unconditional love of Jesus! ❤

May 22,108

Proverbs 14:26 In the fear of the Lord is strong confidence: and his children shall have a place of refuge.

Thankful that no matter what our circumstances we can rest secure and trust that God has everything under control.

8:04p-I love ❤ when God answers a prayer that you haven’t told anyone else about. What’s even better is He has it delivered to your front door! #Godisgoodtome

May 16, 2018

8:40p- Thunderstorm came through this afternoon.  I am so exhausted.  Feel like crashing.  Whole body aches.  Nerves feel like random stinging nettles.  Stress headache.

May 17, 2018

8:43a- Having bad dreams again.  Watery, crusty eyes.  Whole body aches.  Nerves in hands, feet, and lower back stinging.  Hands swollen and throbbing.  Feet ache.  Rt hip hurts.  Headache gone.

Thunderstorms my nerves do not like.

May 18, 2018

7:18p- Transitions are inevitable.  Some are stirring.  Some are solemn.  Some are shocking! Joshua 1:6-9

Saturate yourself in God’s Word

Support yourself in God’s Word

Submit yourself in God’s Word

Why? To advanced yourself to be successful

2 Corinthians 12:9
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Thankful that God uses those who are willing regardless of our weaknesses or flaws. Let’s not try to wiggle out of being used, but rather do our best with what we have.

God has a specific plan for each of us that only we can fill. Let’s not miss out on His blessings by making excuses of why we can’t do what He asks.

2:27p- That moment when you and your son get randomly chosen for interview with local news channel and you can’t spit out what you want to say because of speech difficulties stemming from your lightning injuries. Ugh!

10:40p- Took bp at 5pm. Bp 146/95 hr 93 Glad it’s starting to go down.

It’s been 10 months today!  It’s been quite a struggle and a transitional period for not only me but also my family & friends. 

I’m working through nerve damage which causes daily chronic widespread pain.

My blood pressure on average is now 169/104 hr 93

Since I started taking Plexus Slim & Plexus Nerve, the pain is slowly decreasing.  I have finally  started sleeping more at night some nights as much as 6 hours – that’s huge for me.

I am also working through a traumatic brain injury which includes but is not limited to frequent headaches, lack of concentration, heightened sensitivity to bright lights and loud noises, bouts of vertigo, communication difficulties, memory issues, bouts of clumsiness, mood swings, and periodic vision difficulties.  Some days are better than others.  Stormy days are difficult at best for me.  Those days my nerves all seem to misfire causing random burning needle pain and muscle cramps/spams.

I diffuse Lavender and Frankincense oil at night to help me sleep.

May 15, 2018

7:55a- Woke up hurting all over.  Eyes watery.  Stuffy nose.  Congested.  Rt hip aches. Both hands swollen.

Romans 12:3
For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.

It’s not only dangerous to overestimate our thinking of ourselves, but also dangerous to think that you don’t amount to much. Each of are valuable to God.

When we think too much of ourselves, we tend to try to do things in our own strength. When we think little of ourselves, when tend to fail to use the gifts God has given us.

God has given each of us a specific ability. Our duty is to seek out ways to use them for God’s glory. Working together our strengths can balance each other’s weaknesses, and build up the body of Christ.

3:29p- Attended my first TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury) support group meeting today.  Told that attendance was down today.  At one point, I think I counted 20+ people.  Most people that attend received their TBI injuries from either auto accidents, physical injuries, or medically induced trauma.  I was told that I was first person encountered that was struck by lightning. 

I was not prepared.  I was scared to death to attend because I didn’t know what to expect.  Everyone was friendly and welcoming.  There was a lot of information to take in.  I started getting a bad headache half way through.

There’s actually two rehab groups represented.  I was asked a lot of questions.  I answered the best I could.  I so wish I had my symptoms list with me bc I couldn’t remember them all.

There may be possibilities of avenues that I can get more help.  What kind of help I don’t remember it all.  I could possibly apply for disability.

I was told that TBI is a lifelong injury.  Also, people with brain injuries continue to improve up to two years after initial injury and after that it doesn’t usually get better.  (I didn’t like hearing that).

11:11p- Rt hip throbbing.  Low back aches.  Slight headache.  Rt ear aches.  Feeling a bit warm.  Lower back feels like it has a fever.  Severely congested.

May 13, 2018

It’s been a blessed 23 years. I thank the Lord for bringing us together. Joe has been the best thing (besides my salvation) that has ever happened to me. I love you to the moon and back again. Looking forward to another 23+ years together. ❤❤

11:45a- Rt hip aches. Random, periodic sharp stabbing pain in rt heel.  Bp 165/101  hr 83

Noticed rash like bumps under upper arms.  Trouble slightyly in following music.  Lights a little bothersome.

11:19p- Sat up in bed reading about homeschooling for a little while.  Reading is hard for me to do now.  I used to be able to read for hours, but not now.  It’s like my eyes jump everywhere on the page and then I get easily distracted.  Reading for more than about twenty minutes gives me a bad headache.  Lower back, rt hip, & rt leg throbbing now.  Indigestion.  Sinus congestion severe and causing cough

May 14, 2018

9:22a- Guess what!?  My blood pressure is starting to come down.  This morning it’s 149/94.