Category: My Healing Journey

June 16

1040 last batch of corn in canner. Car in shop (CV shaft?), A/C went out & waiting for repair man to get here. I’m fading fast. Whole body throbbing. Preliminary tentative school schedule done. Crashing for little while.

1100a It was short lived. Fell asleep for 5 minutes only to be woken by phone call and shortly thereafter the AC guy showed. Guess I’m not getting that nap.

300p Have prelinary tentative school schedule planned but need to ask Joe’s input. My brain & body quite foggy & lethargic today. I guess everything is catching up to me.

Car ready for pick up. I’m to meet Joe at shop on his way home from work. Going to rest a little more. Absolutely no energy.

It’s amazing how spending time in the Word anchors your soul.

Amazing that Jesus’ name is a strong tower. Proverbs 18:10.

Today what could’ve been an overwhelming stressful day has not disturbed the peace in my soul. Car in the shop & is going to cost a pretty penny. While canning last of corn, my hands started cramping badly and I had to ask for help. A/C died sometime in the night and have to get that fixed today & another chunk of $ to fix. Also I’m quite lethargic today and feeling kind of blah. Can’t seem to get the unction in my junction.

Yet there’s a peace in my heart that the world never give me and a peace it cannot take away.

1024p whole body throbbing. Stinging needle pain in upper back. Hands & wrists swollen and throbbing. St hip & low back throbbing. Joe’s arm over me feels like that too. Nerves crawling.

1059 center of chest throbbing.

June 17

Very rough night. Scared out of sleep by a nightmare at 1am.

Scared out of sleep again at 3am box fan messing up and Joe almost dropped it making loud noise.

730 Whole body throbbing. It hurts to move. Almost as if the sudden jolting from the scares last night caused my muscles to contract in to fight or flight mode. Will take hot shower to ease muscles. Think I’ll have to look up how to make my own eo shower cubes for relaxing.

Arms fatigued out while showering. Soaked in hot water until energy regained.

1017a rcvd phone call from pharmacy that my order was ready. Cost $85. What?! It’s never cost that much. Will have to check on it.

1045 Taking Rae to eye Dr. This covid scare is so stupid. Have to put on face masks before entering bldg but I didn’t cover nose (can’t breath). Once inside entrance they took our temp. Then instructed to go wash our hands before checking in. Check-in nurse told me to read the hippa notice to left except when I went to read it the paper was the financial statement. I tried to let her know and it just confused her. Guess no one pointed that out before. Once read I had to sign tiny screen but it after she wiped pen with disinfectant wipe. Then she wiped counter down again after I went to sit down. This scare has people being germaphobics. I’m so over it all. Haven’t worn a mask til today. Only doing so bc Rae needs glasses. This is giving me a headache.

1125 mailman just entered bldg without a screen check bc girl wasn’t at desk?

130p stopped at pharmacy in my rounds today. It’s not even the correct rx. I told lady yday the exact name and dosage (propronolal) and that it was for my migraines. The rx called in was eletriptan 15 pills – that’s not even a month’s worth. Told pharmacist that I’m not getting it and I’ll have to go round with my doctor. Ugh! So frustrating.

Looked up rx name to see what it was. It’s totally wrong rx. I need preventative not emergency relief. Ugh! Other names for this rx include maxalt didn’t work. I have emergency rx which new Dr wrote script for that is working. Guess I’m gonna have to go have a talk with Dr. I only have two weeks left of current script.

I remember trying to wean off the propronolal but the results weren’t very pretty and migraines increased. Not that I like having to be on them but for now they’re a necessity. Ugh!

700 nerves thru body stinging. St elbow throbbing. Headache. Neck hurts. Chest hurts. Feet cold and achy. Lights bright. Hands throbbing. Grumpy. Legs ache. Muscles randomly twitching thru legs mostly.

1030 got into big argument with Joe. Apparently I’ve been complaining but getting upset when he does it. I had to have him explain what he thought complaining was because I didn’t think I was. He also told me that I’m bitter and angry. I don’t know how I can be those things when I don’t even remember what was upsetting me in first place. I usually just pray and ask God to help me. I tried doing that tonight bc I was getting frustrated bc I couldn’t wrap my mind around what he was trying to say. It just wasn’t making sense to me. I closed my eyes to keep from crying and ask God to help me understand so we can do better. Yet he perceived that I was just tuning him out and not caring what he had to say.

He gets frustrated because he has to repeat things multiple times and sometimes I remember and lots of times I don’t. Then when he brings it up I don’t remember discussing it and say we didn’t and this frustrates him even more. We’ve gotta figure out how we can overcome and adapt but I’m not sure how at this moment.

I comprehend my memory issues or lack thereof is from the lightning strike but I don’t understand why I don’t remember some things while I remember other things. It frustrates the whole family.

We eventually worked through it and are okay now.

1056 exhausted & hurting but overall had a good day. Headache.

Eye Dr visit, Mall Trip, treated kids to lunch at Chick-fil-A, stopped at store for few groceries.

June 14

630 whole body really hurting. Know I overdid yday, but necessity to get corn put up. Hurts to move.

700 had reaction to baindaid on neck. Left red welt in shape of bandaid. Ugh.

1130 brain foggy and swirling – not sure how to explain it. Muscles are spasming in my buttocks area. Feels strange. Exhausted and sleepy.

630 rt hip throbbing something aweful with pain shooting down leg.

Feet cold & hurting. Nerves itching. Upper torso aches like bruised.

730 muscles twitching in rt leg esp around knee

830 argument with Joe. He said some hurtful words but I probably won’t remember them tomorrow. Choosing to just pray and keep quiet.  I don’t handle that kind of stress well anymore though I try.

900 family helped shuck corn. Arms giving out and throbbing. Started falling asleep while cutting corn off cob. Close call to cutting fingers couple times. Decided to wait til tomorrow to finish. I’m exhausted. Entire back throbbing & stinging. Chest center stinging ache. Hands throbbing. Difficulty swallowing night meds. Feels like esophagus is swelling. Headache worsened.

June 15

630 alarm went off didn’t know I set it. Reset for 730. I’m still sleepy

730 woke just before alarm due to sharp needle prick pain in side of neck then randomly thru body. Strange dream, but song “God’s Word changes lives” repeating in background.

Low back & rt hip throbbing. Ringing in lft ear. Whole back feels bruised.

830 rt hand going numb while cutting peppers to dehydrate.

1030 lft 2nd little toe is numb & middle toe feels like it’s being stabbed with blunt ice pick.

910 weird feeling in lft toes gone. Working on corn in spurts. Arms, feet, & hands throbbing. Center of chest hurting. Need to take breaks to rest arms. Exhausted

June 12

700 broken sleep. Fell asleep after midnight. Slept til 3am. Woke again at 530a

Busy day. Whole body not only aches but is tingly burning sensation. Not sure what that’s suppose to mean.

Dr apt. Insurance apt. All before noon.

900 Chiropractor Appointment.

I had Dezirae take pictures of where the acupuncture needles were put in. felt a weird tingling chilling sensation in my brain for the first time. I don’t know if it was because of filling something in my brain other than a headache for the first time or what but I almost had crying I don’t know if it was because of filling something in my brain other than a headache for the first time or what but I almost started crying – neck feels a lot better already neck feels a lot better already. I have several knots – 2 in my neck, 2 in my upper back, 2 in my collarbone area, & 2 in my lower back.

Three areas (lft hand near thumb, neck lft side, & back middle rt) were tenderly painful today). Had to have him back out lft side neck a little.

Neck feels better. Lft hand sore. Tired & a bit dizzy.

Told Dr about giving my lightning strike testimony & Accuweather interview. He asked how to look the interview up. Told him he could Google accuweather with my name and it should come up. He seemed interested.

Stretched out my lower lumbar with special table. Accupuncture. Adjusted my hip, back, & neck.

100p I’m exhausted and in need of a nap.

300p I’m so exhausted and lacking of energy

415p making peach cobbler for dinner. Had taken 13×9 pan out of oven after butter melted. Mixed cobbler part and went to move pan but forgot that it just came out of oven and grabbed it without mits. Ouch!! Burnt both hands. Not good. Rae helped with lavender oil to ease the burn.

914p I’m crashing early tonight. I hurt all over. Rt hip throbbing intensely. Chest hurts. Exhausted. Going to bed. Head hurts. Eyes hurt. Sharp pain in rt side.

June 13

715 woke from bad dream to whole body hurting and back in extreme pain. Strange dream.

Rt elbow throbbing. Nose congested. Extreme thirst. Chest/ collar bones hurting. Headache. Hands throbbing.

Bible reading: Galatians 4-6, Psalm 34:6-8

Psalms 34:6 (KJV) This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles.

800 lft arm & hand gping numb. Legs throbbing. It hurts to move.

845 picking up fresh corn on the cob. Answer to thought prayer. Yay!

1030 Rae decided she wanted homemade lasagna for her Spiritual Birthday Dinner and for me to shew her how to make it. Proud mamma moment.

1050 Apparently my throat is swollen because a vitamin got stuck in my throat. It caused me to puke it up. Throat hurts now but I’ll be okay.

Chest hurts. Low back throbbing. Headache. Hands ache. Exhausted. Legs hurt. Feet ache. Toes tingling. Congested.

June 10

530 woke feeling like I just fell asleep. Exhausted.

730 woke again apparently I fell back to sleep. Whole body aches horribly.

929p muscles in arms are spasming

Whole body aches. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Upper back stinging. Brain hurts and feels overworked it hurts. Headache. Hands throbbing burn. Exhausted. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling with minor numbness. Feet ache with tingling. Sore still on neck. Trying colloidal silver. Sinuses congested. Rt hip throbbing with stinging pain down hip to upper thigh. Skin itchy.

Took night meds. Forgot to take morning meds. Took capful of colloidal silver in 4oz water.

Muscles randomly spasming thru body.

June 11

730 invited to come and swim in pool for couple hours. Fun

815 stopped at DG for few minutes to get lemon juice for canning tomato sauce. Car won’t start! I pray. We turn off everything. Check oil. Check battery cables. Shift column. Text Joe. Call Mom. Answer Joe’s call. As. I’m on phone with him I try again. Car starts. Thank you Jesus! Recv text from mom. Oh, I need to call Mom to let them know.

820a Now home.

Tummy hurts bad. Nerves sting. Headache. Able to try to ignore pain to get dinner in slow cooker. Add finishing ingredients to tomatoe sauce. Rae takes over finishing dinner in crockpot so I can start working on finishing balancing checkbook.

1030 finally got checkbook balanced. Head swirling & brain hurts. Had to use excel to help me figure out where I was going wrong. Prayed several times for help too. I no longer look forward to balancing checkbook. Ugh!

Jordon called. He’s finished with job. Told him we’d be there in half hour.

1100a Swim time. Yay!  Feels so good on my muscles. Kids have fun too.

300 suddenly exhausted. crashed on chair in livingroom.

330 unexpected call from Joe. Jakob car broken. Need to call insurance company for tow. Ugh. I don’t know what’s going on. Jakob calls. Tell him to call insurance company for roadside assistance so he can give address to where’s he’s at. I don’t remember what port he’s at today. Suppose to be getting ready for church.

850 nerves stinging. Bad headache. St hip cramping. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Neck hurts.

1100p Whole body aches. Center chest aching. Chilly. Low back & rt side cramping. Rt hip really throbbing.

June 8

530 woke to bad headache, skin itching all over, stinging needle pain thru body, stuffy nose, rt hip throbbing.

Chose to read my Bible & devotions. Praying.

643 eyes getting heavy gping to close the for bout an hour them get up.

700a woke to migraine. Ugh! Taking rx. Have few things to do and finish looking over testimony before we leave. Oh, wait. I almost forgot I need to pack. That might be important.

1030 as I began looking over my testimony I had penned down tears began to flood my eyes. I don’t feel worthy to be called upon to do so. I pray Christ may be glorified not me. I stop and pray a while. I struggle with some details whether to include or not. God give me wisdom to say just what You want me to say.

130 heading to MS for the Jubilee. We head into winds and heavy rains. I feel my anxiety levels raising and my body tenses. I pray and ask God to help. Tears come into my eyes. We are safe.

230 we arrive safe to the hotel. They let us check in early. The lady in front of us tells desk clerk they have to stay because their house was hit by lightning and they lost a lot. It takes me moments to register what’s being said. I reach to my purse to give her a tract but realize I’ve already given my last one out and need to refill. It upsets me so and before I can recompose myself she’s gone. I hate missed opportunities. Lord, help me to be better.

1057 thoroughly enjoyed the singing. I recalled most of the songs and quietly sang along what I recalled. The mind is truly a miraculous muscle of God’s creation. I’m encouraged to keep serving God faithfully. Don’t quit. Pray more.

It’s been a full day. I am exhausted. Nerves are stinging thru body. Muscles in rt eye twitching. Hands swollen and throbbing. Skin itchy (probably nerves). Lft hand numb & tingly. Center of chest hurts. Rt hip & low back throbbing. Lft ankle & foot tingly. Toes tingly. Low back throbbing. Headache but not as bad as this morning. Stuffy nose. Tongue feels swollen & burned (I did drink a cup of coffee before service to keep me awake during services. I try not to drink caffiene much as it make my nerves jittery).

Will pray a while before dozing off to sleep. Need good night’s rest for tomorrow.

Night meds taken.

1142 prayed a while. Still awake.

Forgot the melatonin. Wondering if Benadryl will work. Took 1/2 pill. Fell asleep after midnight sometime.

June 9

1110 been a long busy wonderful day.

Woke nauceous to my stomach and nerves jittery. Knew it was just nerves. Cried already before morning services.

Able to give my lightning strike testimony for first time publicly. I was quite nervous but God held my hand and helped me. Several people thanked me for sharing my testimony and it was a blessing to them. Thank you, Lord.

Joe had kids record it on Facebook and YouTube. Facebook post already has 228 views. To God be the glory!

I’m in a lot of pain now as I lay in bed. Headache. Low back, tailbone, & rt hip seriously throbbing. Hands throbbing. Back stinging. Ankles, feet, & toes tingling.

June 5

930a Joe & Jordon got pick up sound equipment stuff being donated to church.

1030 We took Jordon to PCC for tour.

300p It was nice but not what I was hoping for…still have questions.

I’m tired and wore out. Calves burning. Brain hur5s. Headache. Neck hurts. Muscles tight. Hands throbbing and burn a little. Low back throbbing.

Recvd unexpected blessings. 6pc necklace & bakers rack for cooling bake goods. Dad surprised me and said they talked about it and I only owe $50 more on car. Yay!

Middle of back sting throbbing. Lights bothersome. Headache worsens. Sinuses congested. Rt hip stabbing pain. Ankles, feet, & toes tingly and throbbing with some numbness. Exhausted. Center of chest throbbing pain. Eyes watering.

 

June 6

700a woke in horrible pain. Headache. Muscles cramping/ spasming randomly thru body. Hands throbbing.

Joe kindly without my asking chose to give me massage with pain relief massage oil. It felt good though I have some very painful spots.

1230 have to lay down a piece. I’m wore out, exhausted, and hurting all over

445 this tropical storm Cristobal weather is not being nice to me. It causes much pain.

1020 I’m in much more pain. Muscles are stinging thru my body. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling. Low back & rt hip throbbing.

Hurting this bad makes it difficult to move or be motivated to do anything. Makes me very lethargic. Headache is bad. Tummy hurts. Bright lights bothersome. Bad tinny taste in mouth.

1040 yawned and lft side of neck cramped up.

Night meds taken plus pain rx & melatonin. Checked drug interaction checker first on webmd.

June 7

530 woke from strange dream. Much pain from head to toes. Rt hand and elbow swollen and throbbing like tennis elbow. Low back throbbing. Deep sharp stinging pain thru body.

730 fell back to sleep and over slept. I hate oversleeping.

900 in much pain & very grumpy

1120 my focus and brain are very off today. Messed up miserably playing piano. Couldn’t focus. Took my binder and put on top of piano to block view of people on platform. Eyes & ears kept wanting to chase movement & sounds around me. No one doing anything wrong…just couldn’t. Did better as long as binder was up. Brain hurting. Brain feels like it’s falling apart.

1215 Rae offered to help with lunch. I chose to lay down. Fell asleep on Pew (which is something I don’t normally do because it’s so uncomfortable for me). Woken to eat lunch.

1257 laying down in nursery.

400 Joe came in to gently wake me up.

0600 Joe graciously excused me from playing piano tonight. Feeling some better but still in a lot of pain.

730 turned to lft and lft side especially under ribs started cramping horribly.

1000 going to bed. Still raining pretty heavy outside with periodic gusts of wind. Reporting is 1700 without power in our area. So far we still have power. Thank you, Lord. Praying for safety for our people and ourselves.

Noticed a strange looking lump on lft forearm

June 3 

0500a woke with knot feeling in low rt back. Arms throbbing. Hands stinging. Eyes watering. Sinus congested. Full of mucus making me feel a bit nauceous. Whole body sore all over. Hurts to move. Strange dream but I can’t make it out pictures in mind moving too fast to focus on any one item.

650 stinging needle pain thru body. Headache increases. Need to get more thyme for tea.

700 power flickered and just heard thunder. Body tensed and tummy hurting. Tummy tore up.

945 went with Mom & kids to go shopping. Couple trips to restroom. Ugh. Had to sit few times thru store.

125 stinging from neck to toes. Eating lunch & resting a while.

400 Need to run to store to get ingredients for making pickles. Trouble finding ingredients. Tummy troubles. Brain is hurting. Headache.

535 home again. Laying down a piece bc my head is pounding. Hands stinging. Calves burning. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Rt eye twitching. Neck throbbing.

Applying ice to back of neck.

730 began working on making bread and butter pickles.

900 just finished slicing pickles and onions. Realized midstream that I was trying to put up the field peas first. Water boiling on stove. Needed to finish that first. Ugh! Having trouble thinking straight.

Realized I have to refrigerate the pickles for at least three hours first. Not finishing them tonight. I’m exhausted and won’t do any good trying to force myself. Will pick back up tomorrow sometime.

Going to bed. Headache worsening again. Trying to do too much is not healthy for me. Look forward to a day I can just rest. Too much going on since this covid junk started.

June 4

530a wow it’s early. Slept pretty good last night. Strange dream…I’m somewhere running searching to find something important. I’m wore out as if I actually was running.

Whole body aches all over. Bad headache. Drinking cup of thyme & peppermint tea.

650 just thought oh I can finish canning pickles this morning before we go.

840 going to pick more veggies then get to go swimming/wading in pool.

1000 having to stop and rest a bunch today. Back not able to handle bending over yet. It hurts so bad I can hardly bare it. The more I pick the worse my body hurts.

1200 the pool felt wonderful on my muscles. Helped eased the pain.

730 trouble focusing. Headache. Whole body hurts. Hands & wrists swollen and throbbing. Feet throbbing.

Calves throbbing.

825 forearm stinging

June 1

800 picking field peas today. Kids get to go swimming.

1000 I decided to join them after a while. LJ disappointed we didn’t get more peas. Can come back on Thursday and pick all the veggies we want bc they’re done. Whew! Thank you, Lord for the abundance. May have to buy more jars & rearrange pantry.

Pool felt so good on my sore, crampy, achy muscles. Helped them relax quite a bit.

Joe serious about building deck with boys. I’m happy too. Gonna get outside place to relax and enjoy. Praying for wisdom and safety during process.

1230 came home to rest a little while eating lunch then work on putting up veggies. 8 trays dehydrating zucchini. No energy to can tonight.

330 Joe asked me to take car to shop to get tired checked out. Can feel tension in air between races. Almost can cut with knife. It hurts my nerves and makes me want to cry for their souls.

One man came in yelling at man behind counter bc they were booked up and not able to take him today. Another man been watching video after video on the injustice recently happened building his anger up. Now he’s yelling at man behind counter bc he’s been sitting in waiting too long..

I politely asked him to calm down bc he’s acting like that in front of my daughter. He started yelling his case at me. I explained there were better ways to handle it. He told me if I was afraid and didn’t like his actions I could just leave or stay home and hide. I told him No I’m not leaving. He told me it was his right to act like that and he didn’t really care about what I thought.

I kindly told him I’m sorry he felt that way but there is someone who cares. Jesus love you died on cross for you and wants you to go to heaven with Him. He said he didn’t care about that. I told him you might not right now but one day you will.

He said few more things as to get his last word in but he shut up after that. He has now left the premises.

I was relieved when he left bc that situation could’ve gone a number of ways. Thank Lord for His protection.

1000 tried to work more on next character trait but I’m having trouble keeping eyes open.

1130 Screen seems really bright tonight even with brightness all way down.

Exhausted. Whole body hurts. Back and hands sting. low back & rt hip throbbing. Migraine gone but still have minor headache. Arms & hands going numb. Neck hurts too. Feet hurt. Hot.

June 2

530a woke to both Arms & hands numb & tingly and feeling heavy. Lft leg muscles spasming/twitching. Headache. Nose stuffy – had to blow to breath better. Chest feeling tight, heavy, & caught. Low back throbbing. Upper back hurts.

745 stretching caused Charlie horse in lft calf. Had to stand to ease it some.

300p able to trim some branches back away from walk way. Rae came out to help. Glad she did bc my arms were giving out. It took all I could to close loppers on branches. Arms throbbing. Arms lasted longer than I thought they would. PtL.

948p I’m exhausted and hurting all over. Head hurts. Neck hurts. Shoulders ache. Upper back sore and hurting. Hands swollen throbbing and stinging. Low back aches. Rt hip aches. Lower lft leg slight tourniquet tightening feeling with numbness and tingling. Joe’s arm over my mid back feels like ton of bricks on top of me. It hurts. Hands going numb. My skin extra sensitive bc his breath feels like a pressure washer boring hole in my arm!

Sudden sharp stabbing pain mid rt chest area. Feels like I’m being zapped. I’ve rubbed the area and fidgeted around but it’s not easing. Ugh!

Lights bright & bothersome even at minimal brightness. Headache increasing. Feet tingly. Legs burning like I’ve major worked out. I’m so tired. Hope to fall asleep soon.

May 30

500am woke to bad headache. Got really hot during night like I was breaking a fever. I usually get really cold so this is strange to me. Hurt to move so I just laid there til I fell asleep again.

700a bad headache still there. Whole body aches all over. Eyes watery. Sinuses congested. Still a little hot. Joe graciously gave me a massage. It hurts in spots but feels good too. Rt hip throbbing fiercely. Hands swollen and throbbing. Feet and ankles tingly sting. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling though not as tight as it had been.

250 I have put in over 6k steps today. I’m one hurting chick. Upper back stinging. Arms & hands throbbing. Feet hurt. Legs ache. Low back throbbing. Rt hip aches. Thirsty.

Oops. Got a call from Lawana checking to see if I was still able to take her to grocery store. I almost forgot!

1100 finally in bed. Able to can 3 1/2 jars of tomatoe sauce today. I think this is best recipe yet.

10k steps today. I am one hurting & exhausted mamma. I’m throbbing from head to toe. Lord please help me fall asleep quickly as we have to get up early for final preparations for Homecoming Sunday. I sure hope we have lot of visitors & that someone gets saved during services.

 

May 31

550 woke with bad headache. Cramping.

1020 I’m in so much pain. Ugh! Upper back stinging. Almost migraine. Would take my stopper pill but it would know me out. Trouble thinking clearly. Exhausted.

Blessing of today…didnt have to stress over cooking the meat today. A friend of Chuck’s volunteered to cook pulled pork & church is buying fried chicken.

 

100 I am so tired I’m falling asleep sitting and fellowshipping. Fraid my head’s gonna hit the table. Need to make exception and drink some caffeinated tea.

 

430 laying down for nap before I pass out from exhaustion.

520 woken from nap by dog jumping on me and whizzing on my bed.

Found out he was in trouble for growling and snapping at Jordon. Joe tried to correct dog and he ran away from him. Not good.

 

830p told Joe I hurt so bad from head to toe that I’d take the strong dose of pain rx if I had one. Too much going and not enough resting.

 

1030 entire body stinging in pain. About the only place that doesn’t hurt right now is my face. Took migraine rx and naproxen. If I’m not asleep by midnight. Taking muscle relaxer. Need some sleep.

Decided to see if there’s a drug interaction with the two I took. No known.

https://www.drugs.com/interactions-check.php?drug_list=967-2107,1690-0

 

1110p applied pain roller eo to chest & sleep lotion to legs & arms

May 28 

545 bad headache, abdominal cramping, rt hip throbbing, dry mouth, tired, feel hot, skin sensitive – hair touching skin feels like something’s crawling on my skin in that area

920 email says that you can regenerate brain cells

https://bebrainfit.com/brain-cells-regenerate/

230 just finished up 4th qt & year end grades. Took me all day. Bad headache. Feet freezing up to mid calf. Vision blurry. Tired. Need to rest. I’m cold.

Feet are ice cold to touch. Eating handful of dark chocolate covered almonds.

415 oh boy only have 15 minutes to be out the door to church. Took couple hours for feet to warm up (covered in blanket). Listening to radio to attempt keep nerves calm. I’m emotional basket case. Song made me cry. I feel rushed don’t handle it well.

530 ugh realized I forgot to put makeup on and I didnt bring any either. At least I have lipstick.

800 hips back and tailbone really hurting right now. Vision blurry. Frustrated. Overwhelmed. Hands swollen. Bloated. Cramping.

Not too bad playing piano tonight. Picked offertory on fly.

1040p exhausted. Low back & hips throbbing immensely

1120 exhausted. Nose hurts. Eyes hurt. Brain hurts. Vision blurred. Headache. Neck muscles tense. Skin itches or maybe it’s my nerves crawling. Can’t tell anymore. Hands swollen & achy. Entire back hurts. Low back & hips throbbing. Rt eyebrow twitching. Sinuses congested. Legs ache. Feet cold. Toes tingling & numbing. Eyes watery. Fingers stinging. Night meds taken. Lips chapped. Stomach cramping. Pain rx taken.

May 29

700a woke from a horrible nightmare. One that shook me to my core. I just want to sob buckets of tears right now.  I don’t even want to recall it.

Vision bit blurry. Neck hurts. Shoulders sore. Ache from head to toes. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Hands & fingers hurt. Legs feel tingly & bit crampy. Stomach hurts. Sinuses congested. Tired. Back stings a little. Headache.

 

Thankful to wake to another day. If only I could understand why I become so lethargic after stressing to focus on something. Why it causes so much pain afterwards? Why it makes me so grumpy?

 

950 Dr visit with Chiropractor. Acupuncture – 16 needles on back then 6 needles in front. Most of needles felt like I was being zapped. One needle my nerve grabbed on and stung going in. Dr was surprised how quickly it grabbed on.

Mentioned few spots are gateway (can’t remember verbage).

Looked up acupuncture chart

https://www.acupunctureproducts.com/free_acupuncture_charts.html

Very interesting…

LV2, LV3, ST38, LI4, TW5, BL17, SP21, GB20 (these are spots I remember – I know I’m missing some)

Lymphatics, Nervous System, Shoulder, Face & Head, Hand, Blood & Blood Chemistries, Master Lou Point, All Cerebral Disorders.

He’s basically giving me a tune up. Lol.

He also used some kind of Gadget to measure the electrical current flowing through my parts of my body. Some parts were overflowing exponentially, some were fairly normal, and some had no current at all. It was cool to hear. I’ll have to look that gadget up later.

Asked about my headaches. Told him I have one all the time but I’ve learned to overlook and work past it most of time. When I focus hard on something, it causes migraine, blurred focus, blurred vision except yday I chose to eat dark chocolate covered almonds which helped keep migraine at bay instead of taking poison meds.

He said chocolate has caffeine which stimulates the nerves and almonds have magnesium. Though it’d probably make you want to eat more it is better natural alternative to medicines.

Note to self: do not wear mascara to chiropractor apt. Acupuncture caused tears today making mascara run.

When Dr came back in he asked how I got my black eye bc I didn’t have it when I first came in. Lol

Adjusted my feet, ankles, legs, hips, back, hands, & neck.

Dr seems really interested in my improving.

10am Joe took me to thrift store to shop. We were there to look for a dresser for Jordon but they didn’t have one that would fit in their room. Chose to look around. Asked if I could go look for a dress. I had tried a dress on over top my clothing but was unsure how it looked on me. I turned around to look for Joe’s opinion but a lady was shopping near by instead. She asked why I was shopping for a dress. I proceeded to tell her. She said that in her opinion I needed either a black dress or a solid color. Back in the day when men preached they wore all black to be taken seriously. She said I needed to be taken seriously so I should find a black dress. She then asked me to share part of my lightning story. During the conversation, she told me she could sense the presence of God was with me. She said that she was amazed to hear how much God is working in my life already. She proceeded to help me find a dress. It fit perfect. Thank you, Lord! What a humbling and encouraging experience.

130p Really sleepy. Tummy cramping bad. Going to lay down for half hour.

943 feeling very lethargic. Rt hip & low back throbbing. Sitting on heating pad. Feet stinging. Headache. Generally ache all over. Chest center felt caught earlier. Had to try to touch toes to get it to uncatch. Very sore now & deeply aches. Using Sleep Lotion tonight.

Lower left leg tourniquet tightening feeling with some numbness is back. Shoulders tense. Trouble keeping thoughts together.

Words I type keep disappearing and I don’t I know how. Ugh.