Category: My Healing Journey

Jan 19

Woke from strange dream. Arms & hands numb & tingly from middle back neck to finger tips. It’s hard to get up when you’re hurting, but I know that the more I get going in am the less it’ll hurt bc I won’t be focused on it.  Today is Rae’s bday. My baby is 15!

10.00 brain a bit slow in SS today. Difficulty figuring out where we were suppose to be in Bible. I was turned to Acts and he was reading out of Luke. Ugh! At least I made class laugh.

12.00 sleepy all a sudden

6.40 sudden bloody nose during service. Had to ask Joe for tissue. Bro. Puryear prezenting Sea Hope ministry and preaching. Gotta get zyrtec…can’t take benadryl more than couple days at a time.

9.45 took missionaries out to dinner at McD’s. Joe saw police officer and went to talk to thank him for his service. I was torn…wanted to join him but not leave missionaries alone. Eventually joined Joe when officer’s wife sat down. Introduced myself. Joe invited them to church. They are actually looking for a church. Hmm? Divine intervention/appointment?

Captain Buddy & Mrs. Mary asked more about my lightning strike recovery. Amazed how I’m still alive and still trying to serve God. Admitted out loud that with the memory issues it’s like my brain has selective amnesia. I have lost whole years. When other Mom’s talk about how they remember their kids doing such and such as when they’re little. I’ve sat and cried inwardly because I couldn’t remember those things no matter how hard I try. Mrs. Mary said I was an encouragement to her.

10.00 Kids want to go back & help on boat. Dezirae started working on some schoolwork tonight so we can go tomorrow afternoon. Needed my help.

10.30 Brr! I’m getting cold. 69° inside. Temp outside 44°. This feels like southern winter weather. Please keep people warm tonight. Please provide the funds the Puryears need to get on the field by Sept 1st.

11.00 did you know that being deficient in B, magensium, D, Omega, and hormonal imbalance can all lead to anxiety & depression issues?

Muscle weakness can be a symptom of fibromyalgia? Who knew?

https://www.thefibrowarriors.com/muscle-weakness-an-invisible-symptom-of-fibromyalgia/

https://rebuildingmyhealth.com/wahls-protocol-multiple-sclerosis/?fbclid=IwAR0swdcqUcLad6E13lKbYuoyz5gaddZmKSr_owZ3TMRVx-Iw6S18s2sZci0

 

Jan 20

6.00 Brr! it’s cold inside. Temp on therm says it’s 64°. Funny how our bodies adapt to temp change from season to season. Temp outside is 33°.  Lord, please help people outside stay warm somehow. Thank God is blankets.

Wish I could explain/figure out why my hands and arms are painfully tingling when I wake.

7.00 devotions & morning pt exercises.

8.00 Jordon not feeling well. Gave him sick day. Dezirae diligent at schoolwork.  Washing clothes in tub hurts!

10.00 tingling pins and needles chilly sensation up and down spine. Weird!

11.30 asked Dezirae to take towels to mom’s to ring out & then dry in our dryer. Still waiting for washer to get fixed.

12.30 trying to gather tax info little each day so it’ll be ready hopefully by end of January. Need to get more organized in little space. Goal to declutter home and minimize this year.

12.57 chilled to bone

3.07 crashed for two hours til phone rang

5.30 just finished putting clothes away. Exhausted. Upper back stinging needle pain with chilly sensation. Done enough today. Trying so hard to come up with meal plan that helps me on tight budget and easy for me to stick with.  Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down leg. Can’t get comfortable and it won’t stretch loose.

10.20 muscle cramping in sides if I turn too far left or right. Stinging needle pain upper back & shoulders. Skin itchy. Headache slightly. Cold most of day. Back feels like it’s breaking a fever.

Night meds (Propranolol, turmeric, Echinacea, & melatonin). Took naproxen.

10.30 evening pt exercises. VOR exercises still make me dizzy. Seated chin tuck – good for anyone to do to loosen neck muscles. Deep breathing – good for relaxation and calming nerves. Rest of them for strengthening gait, core muscles, stability (Knee Rock, Half Squat, Clamshells, Bridges, Hand to Knee, Rows, Cat/Camel).

 

Jan 21

6.00 doesn’t feel as cold inside as y’day. Temp says its 30° outside. If it rained it might snow? 59°inside.

Low back & rt hip throbbing. Neck hurts. Muscles randomly twitching thru body. Left arm and hand numb and tingly. Feet cold. Congested. Lower legs pins and needles.

7.30 https://www.triviagenius.com/what-happens-when-youre-struck-by-lightning/

I bet if I would’ve had jewelry on that day I would’ve had visible burn marks on my body. No one even noticed/looked for the entrance/exit wound on my head.

7.40 headache. Morning pt exercises.

10.00 finished prepping for co-op tomorrow. 15 minute clean of fridge – will take me longer but it’s bite sized chunk that will help me feel like I got some housework done today.

I0.40 under covers to warm up.

3.00 kids wanted to go back and help on SeaHope boat. Dezirae & I learned what a lasserete is on a ship. Cool!

4.00 let Jordon drive home. Nerves a mess…wasn’t thinking what time it is. Too many people on road..making me very nervous.   rt side cramping most way home. Rt hip throbbing like toothache with pain shooting down rt leg to knee. Low back throbbing. Dull ache all over. Neck hurts. Headache.

5.00 stopped at store to pick up few items. Decided to take over driving. Jordon doing good job even with my nervousness. So proud of him.

At height of my anxiety, it’s better if I think I’m somewhat in control to calm nerves than to go into panic mode and scare all of us. Unfortunately, even I give into the anxiety even while praying Lord please keep us safe.

10.25 skin itchy. Don’t know why itchies come and go. Maybe nerves reacting to weather?

10.50 tired but awake. Whole body throbbing presently. Coolness of sheets actually feel good for the moment.

Jan 16

6.30 I think I actually got a little over six hours sleep last night. Took long time to fall asleep. Feel like I was beat up and every part of me is so swollen.

I can choose to wallow in self pity or I can choose joy!

9.00a attending church growth conference with Joe today. Not sure how I’ll do but I’m pushing myself to do it. I love serving along side with my husband.

10.00 Joe & I had good talk on our trip. I miss the one on one with him. Discussed that I probably wouldn’t be as far in my recovery if it hadn’t been for the Lord’s help and my pushing myself more than I probably should at times.

3.41 I’m really hurting. Going to car to stretch out.

8.30 told Joe that Pastor Carr helped jogg a memory from when I was a child. He mentioned “great” preachers of the faith. At some point, Pastor Carr mentioned Carl Hatch. When I heard that name, memories of when as a child my family lived in Fairbanks, AK. Dr Carl Hatch was preaching revival services at our church. He was a singer and preacher. He had a record he was promoting and I wanted one. I remember going home and counting all my money in my bank. I had just enough to buy a record the next night. I was so proud that I was able to get one.

9 30p back home. Good day. Kids glad were home and missed us. Sat in our room chatting about their day for about an hour.

Whole body aches. Headache. Thirsty.

 

Jan 17

Today we get to do something I’ve been wanting our family to do for while. We are doing a mission project…helping fix up SEAHOPE boat getting it ready for sea.

I don’t know how much I’ll be able to do but I’m here.

Rae & I got to help stencil & paint SEA Hope words on life jackets.

1.30 left mission project. Heading home. I’m exhausted and hurting but enjoyed myself. Feel bad that we didn’t finish assignment. Told her maybe we could come back.

Once home, had to rest a while. Still need to get stuff for Rae’s bday dinner. Guys went hunting.

11.20 I’m so hurting but I can feel like barometric pressure is dropping too. Skin itches all over.

 

Jan 18

5am woke in horrible pain all over body. Hurts to move.

6am still awake and hurts to move. Decide to read Bible on phone. Sinuses congested and trouble breathing. Tinny taste in mouth. Took napeoxen and benadryl. Deep breathing to relax nerves.

Finally fell back to sleep after Joe rubbed back for long time.

7.00 thunderstorm on it way.

9.30 didn’t plan on sleeping that long. Need to get up an moving.

12.50 brunch at 10ish (couldn’t read digital clock from across room eyes blurry today) decided to start working on bulletin for tomorrow.

4.30 able to post tp blog. Finished up June 2018. Need to scheduled I think time for posting. Wish I knew more how to do things with website. I wonder if rehab tbi could help find scholarships to go to college to help me learn computer stuff?

5.45 Joe asked for paper towel. I knew there was spmething I was foegetting to do. Ugh! Have to run to store.

5.30 had bday dinner for Rae tonight. Invited Puryear, Cole, & Caleb (missionary helper) [P.S. I’m stoked that our family gets to not only serve missionaries but also missionary to missionaries].

10.24 tired till I hit bedroom. Sinuses start acting up like I’m allergic to room. Pain increases when I try to wind down. Skin itchy all over. Rt hip throbbing. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some numbness and tingling. Upper shoulders tight ans ache. Neck hurts. Nerves pins ans needles tingling thru body. Fee cold.

Jan 14

5.30 rough night. Trouble getting comfortable. Whole body hurts. Body temperature kept fluctuating off and on all night. Sinuses congested. Extremities tingling stinging off and on. Bad dreams.

5.50 decided to read Bible since I’m having trouble getting back to sleep. Hands keep cramping causing me to lose grip.

6.14 rubbing pain blend into hands

7.00 took cat nap. Maybe if I get up and moving I’ll feel better.

8.30 feeling nauceous…that’s not good. Oh, I need to take my bp rx & vitamins.

10.00 talked with Gerald (Dezirae had to remind me his name). Started drizzling this morning. I asked God to stop the rain for about an hour. About 5 minutes later, the sun started peeking through the clouds and the drizzle stopped. I thanked God. Sooner after a deaf man, Gerald, (Dezirae had to remind me his name) proclaimed, “God is good!” To which I replied, “all the time”. He smiled big and shook head yes.

10.45 not feeling any better. Going to go lay down a bit. Jordon brought me sprite to sip. He’s so sweet.

2.00p decided to look up what will ease nauceousness naturally. Trying ginger capsule.

7.00p tried eating dinner. Chicken too greasy. Taking another ginger capsule.

9.15p I’m exhausted. Going to bed.

Skin itches all over. Not sure why. Rubbed pain essential blend on itchest parts. Took Benadryl to cover rest of it. Sudden sharp pain in lft big toe shooting up foot to ankle…made me jerk. Rt hip & lower back throbbing. Tummy aches. Dry rot (not right word?) Oh socket not hurt today unless crackers got stuck. Whew! I almost itched my lft eye with oils on my hands that was close! Eye itches.

Hope to fall asleep soon. Both ears itch. Palms itch.

Praise! Bro Jerry came home today. Kids got lesson on handwashing their own clothes today. Hope our washer can get fixed soon. Lord, You know the need before it happened.

10.17 legs from waist down throbbing & tingling.

11.00p that moment when you’re feeling lousy and as you get ready for bed you realize that you haven’t taken any of your meds or vitamins all day!

Exhausted. Wore out. Whole body aches. Hands swollen and achy. Sensitive to bright lights & loud sounds. Lft lower leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some numbness. Low back aches. Rt hip hurts. Muscles twitching in lft foot. Headache. Skin itches. Sense of smell sensitive.

Praise dry socket hurting less today. Swishing with peppermint mouthwash is helping tongue.

Jan 15

5.30 woke early. Freezing. Feel yucky. Hands swollen, throbbing, & tingly. Something prodding me to check on ACT info for Jordon. Ugh! I’m a bit behind, but at least we can rectify. Will have to add ACT prep to his studies this semester.

6.30 chose to take shower. Still little nauceous. Wore me out.

7.25 mid back throbbing. Muscles in legs twitching. Headache. Eyes watery. Calves throbbing and burning.

10.20 guess my peripheral vision is still off. Thought I had enough room to get past Mrs. Dawn in class. Scratched my back lft shoulder on metal piece of whiteboard…scratched it ugly. It took all my energy to not cry it hurt so bad! Managed to keep it together after breathing quick prayer under breath asking God to help.

11.00 next hour I found a vacant room to hide in and used that time to rest a bit.

11.50 recvd call from young lady wanting to chat little bit. It was nice.

12.30 made it home. Had Dezirae check my cut. Whew! It’s probably 3-4″ long. Looks like it may have bled slightly.

2.00 took trip to church to finish bulletin board & take food for some of our church people. Rae & I put notes in their seats to surprize them & put their names on their item in the fridge.

4.00 recvd call from Joe that he has to work til 10pm due to coworker being ill. Asked if he needed food. He said yes & sinus headache rx. I sure wasn’t thinking when I asked.

4.25 recvd call from friend to let me know her husband in hospital & she’s still having difficulty recovering from her surgery. Need prayers.

5.00 Repurposed dinner from last night by adding taco meat and more cheese. Rae & I took him dinner. Back home by 6pm. I’m exhausted hurting and need to rest.

7.21 Jakob called to chat. Checking on me since I wasn’t feeling well yday.

9.30 heading to bed. I’m hurting all over, exhausted, and have long day tomorrow. Realized refilling my pill container reminder box that I haven’t taken any pain meds in two days – not because I’m not hurting but bx I forgot to.

10.30 took benadryl. I literally am throbbing from head to toe.

 

Jan 12

6.45 oh the pain!!! It feels like the lightning finally wants to come out of my body thru my left hand but won’t. It hurts so bad it’s disturbing my sleep.

7.14 fingers in both hands tingling painfully something fierce. Hands stinging. Neck near shoulders throbbing. Back aches.

7.30 sadly the white patches and sores on my tongue are returning. It’s apparent I must swish with peppermint mouthwash 3xs daily.

8.00 Joe suggested that I rub pain rub on hands. Did so & used my fav lotion on top of it. Hands ease pain some but not gone.

8.30 put breakfast casserole in oven to heat up. Trying to get things ready for church this morning.

8.45 remembered I forgot to pick offertories for today. Sitting at piano trying to figure it out. Asking Lord to guide me.

9.00 I’m smelling food? oh, no! I forgot about the breakfast casserole!!! Off I go to check it out. Wheh! I didn’t burn it too bad.

11.00 had trouble with coordination and reading notes to play piano. Trying to play intro to song couldn’t for life of me hit right notes…sounded aweful in my ears!!! Ended up going to begining of chorus to play mostly from memory. Hands hurts so so much!

Lord, please send us an accomplished pianist. Oh, I loved listening to the Swhinshaupt guys playing piano.

12.00 had to reapply pain rub to hands. Joe reminded me that I told him my hands hurt so bad that it feels like they’re being stabbed with knife multiple times.

1.30 got really sleepy suddenly.

2.00 I’ll go take nap in nursery for about an hour. Setting alarm for 3pm.

3pm came and went. Slept til 4pm.

4.30 Main goal today: bulletin board. Dezirae helped me with putting wrapping paper up as background. Joe saw we were having trouble and came to our rescue.

4.45 now to search out the lettering. Ugh! Don’t have enough letters of color I wanted. Now for backup plan (didn’t have one til now. Shh! I won’t tell if you don’t)

5.15 Mom comes to help me with finding rest of letters. Then she helps me put letters up on bulletin board. Thankfully, most are peel and stick bc it’s not going as I had imagined. Ugh! Running out of time before church starts. Will need to just get letters up and readjust later. Well, 90% of board is up. Still need to get/make the snowflakes. Arms are hurting now anyways. Need a break.

5.55 hands stabbing pain increasing again. Reapplying my pail roller blend. It seems to be helping.

6.00 I can’t understand why I can play hymns I’ve played for years. Times I have trouble with coordination between looking at notes, processing, seeing notes, and playing on piano. It’s almost like I have blinders between eyes and hands.

Suddenly got very dizzy & brain clouding it was very difficult to play last 3 hymns. Had to sit few minutes with eyes closed to calm dizziness before getting up to go to seat

6.30 suddenly feel like I’m being stabbed under rt arm pit, but nothing’s there where it’s hurting.

Thankful I can lean on the everlasting arms of Jesus

8.18 before church Mom mentioned she had been watching documentaries on essential oils. Asked her email me link.

Peppermint and orange oil diluted in carrier oil good for reducing fevers. Cool! I’ll have to research combos on that one.

Regaining control of your health: treating disease with essential oils

https://youtu.be/xQZo7WgX_8g

9.00 muscles in rt side back cramping suddenly while sitting eating dinner. Decided to eat yogurt with dinner. Maybe I need to add probiotics back to my regimine?

10.50 whitish color on tongue has diminished. We’ll see how it looks in a.m.

Upper back muscles throbbing. Middle section aching. Neck aches. Hands swollen and throbbing. Feet cold and achy. Lft leg tingly some. Lft knee hurts. Rt knee outer side itches. Congested some. Sniffles.

In spite of the pain, it’s been a good day overall. Good spirit among the church people. Good messages from the Pastor. Love the hugs from all the kids.

Jan 13 – nothing written

 

January 11

1.50a just finished checking her hair. Sprayed with tea tree oil as I went. Had to rest my rt arm repeatedly due to severe cramping. Had to have her move in such a way I could use my lft arm more. Had her spray down my hair too. Will have her check it later. I’m too tired and need some sleep.

Legs keep feeling like electrical surge thru them especially when I stand for more than couple minutez.  They ache something fierce.  Room is starting to spin on me.  Feeling weird.  Maybe just need to.sleep it off.

2.05 finally in bed.  Its raining outside and wind is quite strong.  Praying for God’s protection round about us with no damage to humans or property. Please send the rain to Australia to put out the fires.

6.00 hardly slept a wink arms and hands going numb and tingly but this type is oh so painful…like I’m being stabbed with knife up and down arms and hands all at same time.  When I stood to go to bathroom my legs & feet felt same way. Kept trying to change positions to see if it would ease.  As difficult as this is, I’m thankful it’s me and not my kids.

6.30 ask Joe if he was awake. he said yes.  told him what was going on.  he gave me a back massage which eased it for a short time.

7.45 think I might take a muscle relaxer so I can finally get some sleep.

9.00 looked up symptoms for migraine bc of my sharp pain, numbness and tingling in arm and legs, bloodshot eyes.

https://www.healthline.com/health/migraine-symptoms#prodrome-stage

Learned that cluster headaches cause bloodshot eyes.

Think mine is a plethora of things due to impending storm.  It causes multiple pain areas thru body…headache, muscle cramping, sharp stabbing pain randomly twitching thru body, numbness and tingling in arms, hands, legs, & feet, ringing in ears…just to name a few.  Once rain/storm hits, my symptoms ease up some and then I feel very fatigued and weak.

9.30 Joe decided to go to church to work on mower.  Decided that kids & I could come us girls could work on taking down bulletin board while guys worked on trying to fix mower.

In route to church, Joe decided to head to SeaHope boat to tour it first then head to church.

What an awesome ministry!  I’m so excited for them.  God has been answering prayers in a BIG way.  They’re boat is currently dock in Bayou near our church.  It needs repairs before it is completely ready for long sails.

I did my best to tough it out climbing through the ship.  It was quite a difficult chore for me.  When I found the chance, I was sitting to rest my weary legs.  Sure do wish I could help.  I love helping others.  Got to a point though that my legs were cramping so bad that I told Joe & kids to go ahead and let me rest a while.  Had to have help climbing the ladders…that was a bit scarey for me but the men were all gentlemen helping me along the way.  Made a gal feel like royalty or something.

11.45 headed to church.  Gals worked on bulletin boards and guys worked on mower.

12.30 storm is rolling in.  I’m exhausted and hurting.  Certainly got a workout today.  I’m gonna feel it sooner and later.

Forgot about taking muscle relaxer and I’m still wide awake.

10.15 I’m definitely feeling it later.  My whole body is throbbing.  Storms rolled through this afternoon too.  I just want to cry.  It hurts to move just about every inch of my body.  It’s swollen and sore.  Feels like I was beat to death within inch of life.  I don’t know why I used that?  The last time I felt almost this bad was the days after I was struck by lightning.

Took night & pain meds. Still have headache but it’s easing. Still having some difficulty with numbness and tingling in arms & hands. Rt ear hurts. Lower left leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some numbness. Legs & thighs throbbing. Low back throbbing. Rt hip hurting. Calves burning. Upper back pins and needles. Shoulders throbbing. Lft hand numb currently. Whole body tight. Ribs ache. Dry socket aches. Rt jaw aches. Toes cold.

I’m telling myself that I just need a good night’s sleep to feel better in the morning.

Jan 9

6.30 woke up with bad headache & dry socket hurting. Whole body aches. Stuffy nose. I don’t even recall if Joe came to give kiss goodbye.  Don’t recall any part of the bad dreams I had last night (that’s not a bad thing though).

2.00 missed my noon nerve pill bc I fell asleep in livingroom. I can tell bc nerves are really hurting.

2.20 went to Publix to pick up Joe’s rx. Girl helping me realized it was me and got excited asked how I was doing. Pharmacist looked up smiled at me said hello. Another tech saw me smiled and said hello. Dezirae leaned in and asked how does she know you? I chuckled and replied you didn’t know your mom was popular? Girl

10.55 scrolling thru facebook came across following:

https://eatfor.life/depression-the-5-biotypes/

11.30 there’s a raised mark on my neck lft side that kind of looks like a backwards C that’s been branded on my neck. It doesn’t really bother me except when I look in mirror and see it. I know it’s been there for a while, but I can’t figure out what it is.

Feeling extra dizzy and tired but can’t sleep at moment. Head hurts horribly. It feels like it’s being squeezed. Headache. Whole body aches. Nerves feel like they’re twitching running back and forth in body. I can see what I want to explain but cannot figure how to put to words. Like a live telephone wire and you can see the electricity traveling from one point to another…that’s my nerves feeling in body right now. Neck hurts. Need an adjustment but not sure whom to seek out since Dr Shouppe passed.

 

Jan 10

6.30 have my alarm set for 6.30 so I can take my meds. I probably should set my alarm for the other times to remind me, but I don’t know how to get it to tell me when to take what. I’ll be glad when I can go back to taking my meds just twice a day and even then I had trouble remembering to take them.

I have such a headache!!!

7.00 got word that a church member’s surgery is at 7.30! Lord, help me to get ready quickly and out the door.  Me and mornings don’t cooperate well.  Grabbing morning meds to take at hospital. My eyes are little blood shot

7.33 Joe asked nurse if member was in surgery.  Nurses about to escort him back to OR.  Given personal nurse escort to him.  Walking this fast is making my head spin.

7.40 Got to room as Dr was explaining what going on and what he might expect.  Dr prayed with them.  I was pleasantly surprised.  We were able to go in an have prayer with him too.

7.45 sat with member’s wife for a while

8.00 Joe says my eyes look more bloodshot than before.

10.22 got home from hospital. I have such a migraine. Taking migraine pill.

11.00 laying down a bit in dark room to see if I can get rid of migraine.

2.15 woke from sleep.  My whole body hurts. All my bones hurt.  Lft side of throat hurts – oops no its rt side. Need to take elderberry, c, & zinc since I was at hospital. Don’t want to get sick.

3.49 sitting in livingroom can hear water sizzling on burner in kitchen which tea is brewing. Rt ear throbbing.  I dislike having migraines. They make me feel very weak afterwards.

5.26 back to hospital. Joe cooked dinner using air fryer. We’re delivering to wife.   Storm storm go away fly to Australia and put out their fires.

Extremity bones ache something aweful. Rt hip throbbing. Head aches. Neck hurts. Lft hand numb and tingly. Lights bothersome. Close proximity to cars make me nervous. Joe preaching at me about fear. Ugh! Not helping. Told him he needs compassion.

9.30 back home. Stopped at store to pick up couple items to finish our dinner. Needed eggroll wrappers. Could only find spring roll wrappers. Dezirae’s a bit skeptical. Told her maybe the only difference is shape.

Got home and found out that was not the case! Spring roll wrappers look like see through plastic. Gross! I’m not eating plastic. Decided to read ingredients. Hmm? Not plastic. Read instructions. Have to wet them to wrap them. Wet first one. Eeww! Feels like jellyfish. Messed first one up bc I let it stick to itself accidentally. Finally got the pepperoni and cheese stick wrapped up. Now to airfry them. Not too bad, but definitely need to locate egg wrappers next time.

Rented a movie to watch as family.

10.20 sharp pains in chest. Hurts so bad its hard to move.

 

Jan 4

6.00 vaguely recall being scared awake just as I was falling asleep. Don’t recall saying anything but apparently I yelled at Joe waking him up and making it hard for him to fall back to sleep for a while. Don’t know time it occurred bc I chose not to look in order to try to fall back asleep.

Felt bad for waking him, but my scare was very real not certain if it was just a dream that caused it or not. Sometimes my dreams seem very real only to find out the next morning it was just a dream.

Alarm scared me awake. Had it set so I can take my meds on time.

Muscles in my midsection rt side and stomach spasming this morning. Center of chest tight and hurts. Hands ache and tingly. Rt jaw aches to ear. Feet & lower legs ache like I tried to walk a marathon (maybe someday) headache.

6.15a upper nerves in chest and neck feel jittery. Took 15 minutes of deep breathing to calm my nerves some

8.45 rt jaw throbbing. I figured 3rd day would be worse but I didn’t think it’d hurt this bad. Feels like someone punched me in jaw. Center of chest pops if I move wrong. It hurts too. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Feet freezing. I’m exhausted. Neck aches. Chilly freezing feeling traveling slowly from feet up to mid lower legs. Feels weird. Upper legs ache. Hands ache. Craving jello.

8.50 crashed on chair in livingroom. Woken at 10.45 to go to bed.

Rt jaw throbbing. Dizzy it’s hard to walk. Whole body aches. Feels like my body trying to break fever. Gone to bed.

 

Jan 5

11.00a muacles in rt arm cramping greatly. Getting dizzy.

11.30a muscles fluttering in lower rt leg

11.40a muscles in lft leg twitching. Headache. Neck tight trying to stretch it out. Center of back & chest cracking when I move causing pain. Sharp pain shooting thru rt ear. Rt jaw hurts/very sore. Exhausted.

11.50 got sleepy quite suddenly. 400 shekles equals $128k. How many pence in a shekle?

12.00 hands ache. Rt ear hurts. Feet ache. Legs ache to knee. Low back aches. Eyes hurt. Sleepy. Rt jaw hurts.

2.00 laying down for quick nap.

4.00 Joe opens door to nursery to let me know it was 4 and to wake up. Didn’t plan on sleeping that long. Guess I needed it. Groggy having trouble waking.

4.30 Guess if I just get one thing done today it’s better than nothing – decided to finish putting Christmas decor away.

5.00p church person shared blessings with us. He only comes in pm’s when he’s able. He goes with his mother Sunday am out of respect for her. He loved our Christmas gift & said that it meant alot to him & thanked us for loving him. He has grown so much in the Lord. It warms my heart to see how God is using us to touch lives for Him.

8.00 two hours past taking nerve pain rx and I can definitely tell it. Oh, the pain.

9.45 tried to wash load of clothes but something’s wrong with my washer. It’s aggitation sounds like metal & rocks scrapping against each other. Oh how it hurts my sensitive ears!!! The sound is worse than nails scrapping on a chalkboard!!

10.00p Joe is trying to fix it now. He asked Jordon for a magnet? A magnet? Not gonna question it right now.

10.19 rt jaw & ear throbbing!!! It hurts to chew. Hands & feet freezing. Rt jaw still slightly swollen. Low back throbbing.

10.25 washer fixed. Yay! Joe’s my hero for the hour!! Barrel was off kilter. Glad he could fix it.

11.30 bent over to pick up something while sitting on toilet rt stomach muscles cramped so intensely I had to stand and bend slightly in that direction to get it to ease up.

11.59 Trouble falling alseep.

 

Jan 6

12.45a may need to try my own advise…breath in…breath out…in…out…in…out… ♫when your worried and you can’t sleep just count your blessings instead of sheep and you’ll fall asleep counting your blessings.♫

School starts back up in am and I’m not mentally ready.

1.00 my rt arm is cramping something fierce today making it difficult to do things.

4.22 girls in bath & body dropped some drawers making loud noise unexpectedly. Caused me to jump & a scream escaped before I even knew what was going on. I turned to see what happened. Girls were struggling to lift the drawers & giggling. I don’t handle loud noises well. My first instinct is to duck and cover. I guess I still have ways to go on this realm. My whole body aches from tensing up * jumping.

5.00 so sleepy suddenly. Not good while driving. Need to get home. Need a nap.

6.30 feet are freezing

10.00 so so tired

January 1

10.00 Jakob short on money. I gave him my $20. He was hesitant. I told him well the Lord gives and it doesn’t say anywhere that I can’t give it away.

1.00p took homemade chicken & rice soup to a friend. Her family very appreciative. Joe shared blessing about giving money to go on date. Next thing we know her husband gave us gft ctrfct to seafood restaurant in bayou (name escapes me presently). They both said they wanted to be a blessing to us for all we had done for them. While guys were talking I started to doze off (it was my nap time).

2.00 let Jakob know God’s blessing. On our way for our date.

Restaurateur closed. Decided to go check out restaurant that friend suggested on Dauphin Island. Found Islanders. Elevator out of service. Had to carefully climb stairs. Took me about 10 to 15 minutes. Out of breath.  Legs feel jiggly.

5.30pm stopped at store on way home. Need nose piece on glasses. Optical place closed. Decided to check out Christmas stuff. 75%off. Found some goodies.

9.00 took shower. Back throbbing. Legs feel wobbly. Feet slippery. Fell in shower but able to pick myself up. Cut my lft leg & back of ankle shaving.

11.20 watching movie waiting for kids to get home. Low back throbbing. Arms burning and throbbing. Hands hurt. Legs ache. Overdone it today.   Center of chest sharp pains.

 

Jan 2

8.00 looked in mirror while getting ready. Checked out tongue bc it felt smoother than usual. It was surprisingly almost clear with only a slight hint of white covering on lft side.

9.00 dental apt. Bp 120/77 hr 76.  Bit nervous but I’ve been praying. Started working on me at 9.25. Gave 4 numbing shots. Waited about 15 minutes for it to take effect. Started trying to pull. Oh, Lord, it hurts so bad tears are leaking. I’m trying to be good. Dr asked if it was too much. I said, ” uh huh” (couldn’t hardly speak with the numbness and gauze in my mouth). She kindly gave me two more shots. Said sometimes when the nerves have been so tight for so long you just need a little more novacane. Gave me two more shots. Waited another 10 minutez or so. Once they left the crying escaped. Prayed again asked the Lord to help bc I have to get through this. I need to get better.

Tooth didn’t cooperate coming out. Only part came out. She had to get another tool to get other part of root out. Dr said it had been infected for quite a while. So glad that’s done.

12.30 Told Joe it might be best if I don’t try to play tonight. Dr instructions to rest & relax gor 24 jrs.

2.00 guess I crashed for while. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down to knee. Mouth still numb.

3.00 numbness starting to wear off. Not in to notating anything.

5.15p ate dinner. Took meds. Caught myself…almost took too much again.

6.00 I’m exhausted. Nerves shot. Laying down in nursery before church to rest.

Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down to knee. Low back throbbing. Mouth hurting though not as bad as I thought. Parts of mouth still numb. Toes cold & tingly.

10.20 toes burning cold tingly almost like frost bite (socks on and blanket covered). legs ache. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down rt leg to knee. Hands & arms tingling. Tired. Numbness has worn off and mouth hurts pretty bad. short of breath. Whole body aches. Neck hurts.

 

Jan 3

8.00 entire back feels like I was being beat up all night. I’m so sore. Head hurts. Rt jaw aches something fierce. Need to stay on top of nerve pain until jaw heals.

5.30 can tell my brain is tired…I’m starting to talk backwords. Driving home from picking up my laptop tried to tell the kids that this road wasn’t well lit enough. Instead I said,  “This light is not well roaded.” They cracked up. I realized I messed up and just laughed with them.

6.30p family sweet enough to jump in and help cook dinner for me. Deer steak Alfredo, spinach, and garlic bread. I still can’t chew hard things so I had to pass on bread bc someone toasted it too long. Dinner was delicious.

8.30 Rt jaw is throbbing. I forgot to take my meds on time. 2 hourz behind.  Ugh!

11.30 still awake. Having trouble sleeping. Rt jaw aching. Neck hurts. Shoulders tight. Rt hip aches. Hands ache. Lower legs ache like I walked too much today. Feet & toes tingle. Toes cold. Lips chapped. Low back hurts. Mixing up words like crazy. Making entire family crack up so hard. I think their sides might split.

11.35 Jakob leaves for college in morning. I wish we had enough money to go with him but things have been tight with extra medical bills since my lightning strike scare. I have mized emotions. I’m glad he’s doing what he feels God wants him to do, but sad he’s leaving again. We’ll miss him.

Musclez twitching in my back.

 

Dec 30

1.30 still wide awake. It’s like my brain got mixed up on time or something. Need to fall asleep soon.

Need to try to start my pt exercises back up gotten slack since painful tooth epidemic.

10.43 Girl’s  Dad called to check on his daughter. Asked permission for her to join my kids to go to mall.

2.00 finally figured how to get info onto tithing envelopes. Print on stickers and apply to envelopes. Kind of tacky but we can use the blank.

3.27 getting very sleepy

Arms feel heavy & tingly. Eyes heavy. Low back throbbing. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some tingling. Need a nap. Feel asleephot a while and no one bothered.

6.05 received phone call that my friend has been told she can go home

Waiting for discharge. They will come by to pick up their daughter on the way home.

Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down. Lft and ankle tightening tourniquit feeling with some tingling.

9.00 cut Joe’s hair, but back throbbing something horrible. Need to rest a while.

9.52 getting very sleep. Hands losing grip causing me to drop things. Body jerking randomly. That’s a new symptom. Hmm?

 

Dec 31

8.00 woke from a horrible nightmare!! I don’t even want to recall it. My spirit just wants to cry. Lord, please cleanse every wicked imagination out of my subconscious and set me free from the nightmares. Psalm 139:23-24

I have bad headache.

8.40 did morning pt exercises then folded one load of clothes. I’m out of breath, tired, and my arm muscles jave fatigued. Ugh!

8.50 why is so hard to get a response from other pastor’s wives when you reach out for advice? I don’t get it. I guess I’ll reach out to others until someone has time to respond.

Head pounding. Toothaches. Short of breath. Low back tingling & achy. Rt hip aches. Lower legs & feet tingly. Body feels kind of clammy like I’m feverish

12.30 Had Jakob take me to drop of laptop. Guy will give call in couple days for prices on what needs to be done to fix it. Praying it won’t cost too much.

1.20 face is starting to feel flushed. Head hurts.

Been printing labels for tithing envelopes. Cannot for life of me figure out how to get envelopes to feed for printing…it just jams. Someone suggested something about downloading certain program but that escapes me as well. However, I’ve figured something outside box to make them usable. Not very pretty but they serve the purpose.

2.30 thought just crossed mind that rx may be causing flushing in face. Sure enough – gabapentin can cause lightheadedness, feeling faint or dizzy, and flushing.

2.50 attempted to wash a few dishes. Lower back intense throbbing, hands ache & throbbing, toes cold, feet tingling, out of breath. Sitting down for a while to rest.

5.00 center of chest really hurting, sinus issues, rt ear hurts,

Joe came home and helped (actually he did all the work I just observed) me use my new ninja air fryer. Little disappointed at first bc it had already been used & returned to store. I told him we can clean it out and use it. If it works, great. If not, we’ll return it. Turns out the wings and fries tasted great. Better yet it uses minimal oil.

Thankful for my Christmas gift. It will make my life much easier.

11.00 watched New York ball drop with Joe then went watched New Orleans drop with kids. (Couldn’t keep eyes on screen too long because the movement and bright lights are bothersome and make my eyes hurt).

I’m exhausted and hurting all over. Brain fogged from over usage today. Prayed for all those with ptsd tonight due to the fireworks. I’ve jumped a few times and we aren’t even doing them this year.