Category: My Healing Journey

2019 Jan 23-24

Jan 23

2:47a- still wide awake. Headache has become a migraine. Seeing spots in the dark. Skin feels like pins and needles. Background light all way down plus night owl on and this light still hurts eyes. Praying. 10 breaths. Counting blessing. Muscles shaking. Need to calm brain. Next quote Scripture. 

6:40a- last time I looked at clock it was 3:17a when I was reaching for melatonin. Awake again.

8:15a- realized I still needed to fix hair and put makeup on. My left hand jerked while putting mascara on and accidentally poked myself in eye with mascara wand. Ouch!

9:12a- made it to co-op in nick of time. Wanted to be there earlier. Headache has already started.

Wind blowing so hard outside I can hear it whistling inside.

2:00p- went to pick up my 2nd round of rx, but found out that they were out of stock. Tech called two other pharmacies and they were out of stock too! Ugh! I don’t have energy for this. Lord, please help.

 3:20p- after little rest I was able to find it at CVS with coupon from goodrx. Thank you Lord.

4:00p- storm rolls through. Too close thunder and lightning roll sounds like boom close to house. Scares me!!! Nerves instantly on edge! Lord keep me safe til the storm passes by!

8:30p- crashed for about 20 minutes. I’m still tired.

9:30p- had Dezirae braid my hair so it’ll be wavy tomorrow. 

10:22p- need to switch to magnesium malate (it helps defeat thrush plus other benefits)

https://www-purehimalayanshilajit-com.cdn.ampproject.org/v/s/www.purehimalayanshilajit.com/magnesium-malate/amp?amp_js_v=a2&amp_gsa=1&usqp=mq331AQCCAE%3D#referrer=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.google.com&amp_tf=From%20%251%24s&ampshare=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.purehimalayanshilajit.com%2Fmagnesium-malate%2F

https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/10-proven-magnesium-benefits#section11

https://aor.ca/blog/understanding-different-types-of-magnesium

10:45p- feet hurt, legs cramping, hands swollen and achy, eyes bright sensitive, loud noise sensitive, tired but still awake. Feel like I’m forgetting to do something but not remembering. Hmm?

11:36p- skin itches, brain hurts, eyes watery, extra thirsty, hurt all over, tailbone aches, rt hip aching

How does one stop neuropathic itching? Ugh! I just need some sleep please Lord I’m so exhausted.

Jan 24

4:30a- woke thinking I woke up late.

Legs cramping. Headache. Sneezing. Throat dry. 

 Have to take Joe to work bc I need car for sons dental apt. Had fleeting thought of rescheduling but it’s already been rescheduled once before. 

He working at post I’ve not been to before today. Had to use GPS to get home. unfamiliar territory. Almost got lost in parking lot. Just want to cry. Can’t cry need to focus on road hard enough in dark as it is.

7:15a- gonna take a nap. I’m exhausted. Need to get rid of headache.

8:00a headache has eased. Hands & left arm numb and tingly. Tummy gurgling (it has been for a few days now. Not sure what that means). 

10:56a- at dentist office Jordon getting cavity filled. waited (wish I had analog clock) 45 minutes before he was called back…think we’d still be in waiting area if I didn’t ask how much longer. 

Feet freezing, headache easing (took migraine rx), hands swollen and achy, lights bright bother eyes, man playing game/video on his tablet across room is as loud as tv, low back & rt hip aching, neck hurts, wish I could calm the itchies.

1:30p- need to pick Joe up from work. Have kids with me to help navigate. I only remember to certain point. Dezirae remembers most of it. Jordon knows how to retrace steps on GPS on phone. I’m a little nerve wracked about it, but trusting God to help us.

2:08p- I made one wrong turn but we didn’t do tpo bad. A brownish red bird just flew into windshield. Scared me. I saw bird but not expecting it to hit us!  Nerves on edge. I’m tired and feel weak.

2:40p- I just want to cry!!! Our only vehicle just broke down on side of road. The clutch broke. Auto mechanic said it would cost over $1,000 to fix it. We don’t have that kind of $. Lord, what do we do now?

5:03p- Just got car towed to house. Now on way to church for services tonight. Not sure about getting car fixed but I can pray for God to provide.

Mr Tow Truck guy suggested calling around for prices. Mr Transmission on Airport to check price.

Center of chest is turning icy. 

7:21p- Not too familiar with #77 O That Will Be Glory practiced okay but couldn’t keep up during song service ended up plucking one note. Ugh! Forgot how to end song. Ugh! 

Though flustered all’s fairly well considering all the stress that’s going on especially today with car breaking down 

 

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Jan 5

7:00a- I’m so tired. Neck hurts, rt hip aches, hands tingly & achy, feet ache, legs hurt & feel like I tried to run a while, stuffy & congested. I am cold.

Strange dream…I lost something important (don’t recall what it was) was  running to find it looking everywhere but it was nowhere to be found.  

7:30a- headache has already set in. Taking rx to get gone. Hands quite swollen. Ring is cutting off the circulation on lft finger. I don’t like not being able to wear my ring.

10:00a- visitation Joe made me stay at church so I wouldn’t overdo it. I’ve been doing that a lot this week. Seems as if I’ve taken two steps backwards. If I could only get the pain to diminish, I could get more things done. 

12:00p- started working on bulletin, Bible certificates, and other things we need for tomorrow. Gonna take most rest of day bc I can only do so much and have to take breaks so it won’t give me headache.

2:00p taking a break to relax in chair in the livingroom. Enjoying hallmark with Dezirae while guys are hunting.  

10:30p finally finished printing last thing we need for tomorrow – at least I think so. Finding that lists are my friend more and more – only struggle to remember where I wrote them. 

I’m tired and hurting.

10:43p attempted to french braid my own hair for first time since injury. Able to do it, but oh the pain! Any time I have to raise my arms it causes great pain in my arms, hands, upper back, shoulders, & neck.  Palms itch. If I could only figure out how to overcome that obstacle, I could get a lot more done. Hair will be wavy for church tomorrow.  🙁  Usually, if I want my hair done, I have to ask for help. 

Lower back aches, feet tingly, hands swollen, achy, & tingly, tongue still patchy white – have to take 2nd dose of flucanazole.  Hurt all over. I’m cold.

Jan 6

6:50a- Woke from strange dream

8:30a- Having rough morning. Parts of me itches like crazy, parts feel like it’s on fire. Bad headache. Severely congested as if having allergy attack. Hands swollen and achy. At least my feet are warm for now. I’m exhausted.

Applied Lavender, Frankincense, coconut oil to itchy skin, took nasal spray, zyrtec, & naproxen. Drinking plexus slim on way to church.

Listening to CD from Lighthouse on way to church. It blesses my soul and calms my spirit. I Bless Your name, Lord! Thank you for all that You are and your mercy on me. Help me to focus on You and all that is eternally important. My suffering will only be temporary for Joy comes in the morning! 

9:39a- Tried to pick up my Bible for prayer time, but my fingers failed me. I couldn’t hold it, dropped it to floor and jammed my thumb. Ouch! 

12:00p- Joe changed up order of services without prior warning. It totally upset me. Hymns – only singing 2 verses instead of three  & cut out a hymn to save time (it happened to be one of hymns better I can play). He decided to show 2018 slides again, bc several members were sick when he showed them last week. He apologized for throwing everyone off. I thought, “Excuse me?  What about your wife who’s having difficulties functioning as it goes most days as it is? Now you’re throwing my routine off in church and I’m suppose to keep my composure and I’m singing the special music next? Lord, help me bc I just want to run away right now.” Apparently, while I was deep in thought, I was giving him the evil eye bc he said something about looking at him that way. And I heard someone say, “I know that look and you’re in trouble” or something like that. 

I thought, “Lord, help me.” 

Got up behind pulpit to sing & temporarily forgot the tune to the song. Ugh! Inside I cried, “Lord, I know You’re there bc I’m about to sing You’re there all the time but how am I gonna do that if I can’t remember how it goes? I made it through the song but not without a few off notes. I hate when I mess up. Sang from heart though. My Lord has been and is there all the time in every trial and circumstance. Thank you, Lord.

12:30p- Joe informed me that he invited a church family to stay and eat lunch with us. I was okay with that. However, the meat some how ended up getting turned on warm instead of high and it would take quite a while for it to be ready. Joe ended up running to local grocery store to pick up some fried chicken to save the day. I enjoyed the fellowship. I was exhausted though and doing my best to hang on. It’s hard to think straight when my brain has been taxed this much.  

4:07p- Crashed around 2pm and slept almost two hours. Waking up from nap I stretched and got a cramp in my upper back. How does that even happen? Not funny. 

7:00p- My husband and I had privilege of explaining the meaning of eternal life with a young girl after church tonight. It’s a joy to share the light of God’s truths.

10:53p- Center of chest hurting, sharp pain in right elbow, rt hand aches. Tired but awake. Bright lights bother eyes. I think I need to get eyes checked at different doctor. My vision seems to be getting blurrier in the distance. Hands are now numb and tingly. Upper body hurts.

Jan 3

7:25a- I have no idea when I actually fell asleep this morning. I was still awake at 1am when my phone died. Afterwards, I prayed, took deep breaths, sing inside my head (remembered I’m to sing on Sunday and need to pick a song), prayed some more.

Joe scared me awake though I don’t think it was intentional. He couldn’t find something. I dislike being scared awake bc it sets my nerves on fire. Severely congested this morning. Toes tingling. Headache. Legs ache. Rt hip hurts. Fingers tingly more in left than right.

I’m amazed how well the lavender oil is helping the burn on my left thumb. I’ve had it about two weeks or so. I don’t recall how it got there, but it’s really annoying and bothersome. Hope it goes away soon. 

Need to research on pruning and fertilizing roses. Have rose bush at church that has only had one bloom in three years. I usually have no problem getting roses to bloom. Perplexing.

9:17a- so tired. Muscles twitching randomly in lower back and legs. Just only sitting in chase lounge while sipping hot green, peppermint, copabia tea . I’m cold. Cold chills going up spine.

It’s a good day to give thanks to the Lord.

1:00p- took Dezirae to the eye dr to get glasses fixed. Also ordered her another pair.  Afterward, went to the thrift store – on a mission to get supplies for my menu board. Stopped at the grocery store to pick up few items.

4:50p- kids helped me take 90% of Christmas decor down at church. I literally can’t push myself to go anymore. Hands and forearms swollen and burning. Low back throbbing! Upper back aches. Feet hurt & tingly. Brain shutting down. I’m exhausted and feel like I’m gonna pass out. 

5:17p- that was quick nap. Still hurting lots, but need to go eat dinner. I forgot to eat lunch.  It’s in crockpot so easy peasy. I’ve done too much today. I’m done. Ugh!

8:00p- hands swollen and throbbing. Not able to play piano. Joe graciously understood. Thankful that even though he’s tired of me hurting all the time that he still tries to understand. On positive side, I was able to enjoy singing tonight. 

11:04p- this is crazy! My feet are aching and almost feel like they are burning. Hands throbbing. Whole body aches.  How do I get the nervez to calm down a notch? It’s raining tonight. Meteorologist mentioned word “lightning” and my whole body cringed. 

11:10p- stinging pain shooting down rt arm.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/complementary-medicine/200811/eliminate-nerve-pain-naturally?amp

Jan 4

5:45a – woke in a sweat. Musles in lower back pulsating. Feet throbbing. Tired. Strange dream.

Reading Bible.

7:45a- able to fall back to sleep for about an hour. 

9:00a- trying new way to do devotions – writing scripture and journaling what it means to me. 

Two reasons: 1st -encourage brain healing

www.forbes.com – Three Ways That Handwriting with a Pen Positively Affects Your Brain 

desaeni.com/how-writing-improves-your-brain-helps-you-heal/

2nd- encourage deeper relationship with Christ

10:00a- trying to put together menu board project.

11:00a- just now remembering to eat breakfast.

11:30a- all of a sudden I feel very weak. Hands intense nerve-tingling sensation. Headache. Feet cold. 

2:00p- Kids helped me finish Menu board and hang it up. It tickled my heart that they wanted to help me with the project.

2:30p- time to sit for a long while

4:30p- sweet friend sent her husband and son by the house to give us two boxes of food! I just used the last bit of rice for dinner last night and she had a bag of rice in the boxes. Also, just the other day I quickly told the Lord that I’d like to have a bottle of amino acids. She included a large bottle. Thank you, Lord! 

9:30p- sewing trim back on son’s blanket only short piece caused great cramping in upper right arm! Limitations are frustrating. If only I could find someone who could explain it all. It would help me understand things better.

11:52p- seem like last couple of days pain has been worse at times. I don’t understand. 

Muscles cramping and twitching more. Skin itches periodixally but especially at night. Pain seems more intense at night too which in turn keeps me awake. 

Though my pain is great and I sometimes get overwhelmed and frustrated on not knowing how to keep moving forward, I’m thankful for the little blessings (miracles) God sends along the way to let me know He is there all the time.

Jan 1

1:00a- Happy New Year. Only resolution made so far is to read Bible through. I need to contemplate on any others. Used to make goals of reading amount books but reading is difficult for me right now. I do want to learn how to get at a better plateau of health for me. I’m not satisfied with just learning to adapt and just live everyday life. I need – no – want –  no – desire to get better so I can be a better person all around.

Every fiber of my being hurts! Hands hurt (pins-n-needles) & swollen, rt elbow throbbing, forearms ache, low back throbbing, calves cramping, shins hurt, feet ache, slight headache, rt ear hurts, eyes hurt. 

Diffused Lavendar oil in my room & sprayed Lavender oil recipe on pillows. It helps. 

Each day is a miracle. Thankful the Lord’s mercies are new every morning. Looking forward to a great year in 2019. I pray that my journey continues to move forward in a positive direction.   

5:32a- Muscles are twitching and spazing thru body. It hurts to move. Headache. I’m not going without my vitamins again any time soon!  I just pray they take effect quickly to ease this pain! I’m hurting to tears!  🙁 

Taking muscle relaxer 1/2 pill & pain rx.

Joe not realize that I have dwindled amount down to 8 or 9 vitamins/supplements besides prescriptions. I think 4 or 5. I only take 2-3 regularly the others as needed. He thought I was still taking 21 vitamins a day. That’s too many and I got tired of taking that may so I kept researching and experimenting to find minimal amount I could take, best times to take,  interactions with other medicines and vitamins. There’s a neat website called  

https://www.webmd.com/interaction-checker/default.htm that you can plug in info to find out which drugs, otc’s or herbal supplements interact with each other. 

Some vitamins I had to learn about thru trial and error. Like Ashwagandha. It’s a good herb for boosting immunity, lowering stress, protecting the brain, increase energy, among other benefits. In my experience though, every time I took it it made me sick to my stomach. I don’t know why, but I’m one of the few who cannot take it. 

7:00a- woke with my hands and arms numb. Whole body hurts. 

9:30a- decided to work on project to help me with making meal planning easier. Took me most of day trying to figure things out. Able to use laminator I got for Christmas. 

1:00p- had to take break. Feel headache coming on. Eyes & brain getting foggy. 

1:30p- tongue feeling weird and hurts. Feels like popcorn kernel scratching back of throat right side. Can’t get it to shake loose. Tried brushing tongue but made it worse bc tongue started to bleed. 

5:00p had dinner at parents’ house. Played Apples to Apples. It’s nice game but doesn’t keep my interest.

9:30p- tongue feels worse and like its swelling. Looked at tongue in mirror. Back of tongue has several raised bumps and is foggy white. Bumps on rt side more prominent. Joe told me to take Benadryl to see if that helps. 

Low & mid back throbbing. Hands swollen and achy. 

11:59p- still wide awake. Stinging needle pain in hands, arms, and feet. Neck hurts, 

Jan 2 

7:00a- Woke from bad dream (too aweful to speak what I recall expect I was on run bc someone was trying to kill me). Hands and forearms numb and tingly. Upper back aches. Still tired and sleepy. Back itches. Neck hurts. Upper chest hurts. Calves ache. Muscles in legs twitching.  Headache. I think I’ll rest a little longer.

https://www.medicinenet.com/peripheral_neuropathy/article.htm#

Checked for meds that cause peripheral neuropathy. I’m not taking any of those listed.

foundationforpn.org/what_is_peripheral-neuropathy/causes/other-drugs/

Vitamin deficiency…

https://www.webmd.com/brain/qa/what-vitamin-deficiencies-cause-tingling-hands-and-feet

9:36a- trying to research exercises to help me. Been told that yoga could help, but I’m leary bc of cult ingrained in the exercise. Tried the child’s resting pose. Holy cow! That made my inner thighs, back, and arms hurt. Gonna be much more challenging than I thought. 

Reclined Big Toe Pose- only able to hold for 15 seconds. Ouch!

Eye of the Needle – I don’t think so

9:45a- decided to work on my meal planning project again. Got down to last card and my computer hiccuped and I lost everything. Oh, the horror! I had to redo it all again. Not fun – it’s difficult as it is in first place. Used it as lesson for kids to save, save, save as you go. 2nd page took me until just before Joe came home at 2:30p. I now have another migraine! Took rx. Wearing my glasses some while on computer seems to help a little but it’s also frustrating bc I don’t need them for close up. Really need new glasses too bc there scratched up but I’m not complaining.

Had kids take down Christmas decor while I worked on my project. I let Dezirae use laminator after I was able to print the cards today. I still have 10+ cards to print out. Little by little inch by inch.

Today was National Buffet Day. Who knew? Not me apparently. I found out from email from Cici’s pizza. Got coupon for Buy1Get1 adult buffet free. Yeah! I was actually craving buffalo chicken pizza. We went for dinner. 

Got to talk to Bubba today. God please help keep his eyes on the end goal. I’m concerned about him. Please protect him and help keep him on straight and narrow path.

7:00p- had to get prescription rx for thrush. Got thrush from taking Cipro for sinus & ear infection. I guess my immunity is out of wack. I’ve doubled my probiotics to help. I’ve been swishing with coconut oil in mouth, but it’s not getting better so I felt like I needed extra help.  Publix Pharmacist and one tech was pleasantly surprised to see me. They know my story. They were happy to see I was walking behind a buggy. I showed them my tongue. The tech said, “You poor thing.” I replied, “I guess it stems from my lightning strike and it’s just messed up my whole system, but I’ll work through it.” We talked a little more while checking out. I don’t like having to buy pharmaceutical rx, but I like that they show concern and are glad to see you. I pray I can find a Dr this year that will be the same way not bc they’re making money but truly wants to see me get better. In God’s timing.

My lower back is throbbing. A couple times or so my left leg and foot went numb for no apparent reason. My feet ache. Headache is easing. Lower legs ache. Muscles twitching randomly only a few times today. Supplements are working. So thristy today. 

Gotta take my daughter to get her glasses fixed tomorrow. She messed them up accidentally last week.  Hard to believe her birthday is in couple weeks. Gotta figure out what I’m gonna do & write it down so I don’t forget.  

Wish I could figure out how to play music on my phone while I’m doing something else. It’s like Greek to me. Doesn’t compute.  

Dec 28

6:30a- Woke to hearing the rumbling of thubder in the distance. Can feel the rumbling in my bones. Not a way I’d like to wake up. It doesn’t feel good. A storm is close by.

3:59p- chest hurting with sharp pains. It hurts after it gets icy cold.

6:48p- sitting trying to relax for evening. Trouble getting comfortable. Whole body aches. Rt Earache. Tooth & jaw ache too. Neck hurts. Tired. Low back aches. Thirsty. Using heating pad. Feet are cold.

9:23p – rt arm and wrist throbbing, muscles in left arm spazing/twitching

10:15pm- decided to check my blog. Noticed I had my first comment. Took a bit to figure how to “approve” let alone reply. One day I’ll figure it out. Gotta keep on trying. 

I also added a new post. Still in Sept 2017 from journal entries. It’ll take me a little bit to catch up I think. One step at a time. I had to stop because it gave me a headache and my chest is hurting bad again. Need to rest. Hopefully, I’ll fall asleep quickly. Goodnight for now.

11:25. I’m so thirsty.

Dec 29

12:41am- I’m still wide awake. I close my eyes and see spinning disco balls it hurts so I open my eyes. My hands and forearms are tingling from leaning on them. Sharp pain in chest is keeping me up. I guess I’ll try that 10 breath thing and maybe counting my blessings.

7:25a- I guess it worked. I finaly fell asleep sometime after 1am. I’m still hurting but not as bad. Still very congested. Neck hurts and legs throbbing. Hands swollen and achy.

Eyes watery. Very thirsty. Headache.

8:00a- decided to make kids do Saturday clean today. I’m tired of not being able to do it and I know for certain as soon as I try I’m down again. I’m just starting to feel better from sickness I don’t want to knock myself back down. On Cipro for sinus infection. 

Kids didn’t like it too much at first but did a great job. Mom even came over and helped some so I could focus on year in review project for church & bulletin for tomorrow.

1:00p- took lunch break to rest and watched a hallmark movie. 

7:00p- Joe noticed house was clean. I feel good. 

10:00p- Dezirae had to help me do my nails. Trying to use peel n sticks but I had trouble peeling. Actually had to splice a few nails but it works for now. I’m thankful for my daughter’s willingness to help. I’m sure they get tired of me being so dependent but I haven’t heard them complain. 

11:00p- bulletins done. Year-end project is 90% done…just a few more pics to sort through & transfer to usb. I’m exhausted! 

Stuffy nose, post nasal drip, entire back throbbing, muscles in left arm twitching randomly, feet freezing even though had socks on most of day, slight headache (wore my glasses most of day to see if it’d help – while at computer), center of chest hurts. I managed to get it to pop once today which relieved alot of the stabbing pain. Wheh! That stabbing pain really wears me out.

For once in a long time, I feel like I accomplished something today. Thank you, Lord. Though I started day with thoughts of trying some stretches but that didn’t happen. There’s always Monday to start. Hehe!  

11:11p- one more thought…we got a water filter for Christmas. I’m really enjoying it. Need to remind myself to write a Thank-you. Kids have easily incorporated using it fairly easily. Yeah! 

Able to partially fix my mom’s computer too. Dezirae used google to figure it out rest of way. So smart! She wasn’t able to play any videos. It’s working now. I don’t like windows 10. Its hard to navigate when I’m used to windows 7. 

Meal planning is so difficult for me these days but it really helps keep my anxiety levels at minimum. I had a set plan with repeating breakfast & lunch schedules so I just had to plan dinners but I misplaced it. Just keep trying until something works.

Very thirsty. Sharp pain under left rib thru to back

Dec 30

6:00a- had alarm set to get up a little early, but that’s not happening. Headache. Muscles in lft leg and right side are twitching/spazing. Hands & fingers tingling pins.  Snoozing for a while.

11:00am- feeling kinda woozy. Migraine has ensued. I’ve taken relpax hoping it will help. Vision is slight foggy. Neck hurts. Playing piano for church. I’m not a fancy pianist even so its not gonna be an easy task today. Ugh!  I need to rest my brain as its been overtaxed lately. Lights hurting eyes. Wearing sunglasses indoors not good.

12:49p- feeling very weak…gonna crash for a bit

12:50p- body keeps jerking as I fall asleep

2:00p I think I may have slept for 45 minutes…nice cat nap. Headsche is easing some so that’s good.

5:30p – Mom & Joe were talking about taking vitamins. He hates taking meds even if he has to. He thinks I’m taking too many. I asked, “So what do you want me to do stop taking them for a few days?” To which he quickly replies, “Yes.” Ugh! I walked right into that one without thinking. Now I have to go without for the next few days expect for my blood pressure rx. I don’t think this is going to turn out pretty.  

11:55p- muscles in rt leg twitching, body aches all over, neck hurts, feet tingly. It’s now after 12 and I’m wide awake. I guess I’ll read the Bible on my phone for a bit. Had several books on my kindle app but they disappeared somehow and I can’t remember how to get them back.

Vitamins taking: Alpha Lipoic Acid 300mg, B complex 50, MSM 1000mg, B12 melt tabs, Calcium w/ D3, Magnesium 500mg in pm & 250mg in am, Turmeric Curcmin 500mg, Probiotic 100mil, Zyrtec 10mg

Rx taking: Edycarbylor 20mg, Propranolol 20mg, Naproxen 500mg, Flexeril 5mg, Nasonex spray (as needed), Dexilant 60mg

Dec 31

4:25a- woke from bad dream. every inch of me aches. I’m hot even though fan is on high. Husband and son left to go hunting. I don’t recall him giving me a kiss goodbye. 

5:01a- hands and fingers tingling and stinging. Nose stuffy. 

8:00a- I wonder if a storm is brewing bc I hurt all over. Rt ear popped & it scared me a bit. Need to get up. Still quite congested. I’m tired. Eyes watery.

10:20a- slight headache. It’s pouring outside. The nerve endings in my hands and arms are stinging.  Rt hip aches. Foggy brain. Eyes feel blurry. Resting a while to see if it helps. Activities thus far: made bed, showered, made coffee for Joe, made tea, put dinner together in crockpot (turkey soup), put a load in dryer & load in the washer, made green smoothie for breakfast

11:30a- Joe got home from hunting. Asked how I was doing. Told him I have bad headache (it’s gotten worse) and I hurt from head to toe. 

12:00p- Dad & Mom treated Dezirae and I to lunch at Olive Garden. I couldn’t eat much but enjoyed it. We went to Dirt Cheap afterwards. Found a few items. Damage less than $5. I’m ready for a nap now. Had the soup, salad, & breadstick.

3:10p- I’ve got to crash for a piece. No energy. Stinging needles in hands and arms, chest hurts, legs & feet feel like I worked out for heavy hour.  Ugh!  A short nap will help.

5:00p- wow a 2hr nap. Hands are stinging. Low back aches. Toes ache.

11:00p- staying up with kids til midnight to ring in new year. Joe works tomorrow so he’s sleeping. We are watching movie until just prior to midnight to watch new Year’s fireworks on tv.

I can’t handle fireworks anymore. Make me jump and cause pain – nerves hurt and loud noises bother me. I still like to see them from a distance.

Dec 25

12:00am- IT’S CHRISTMAS!!! The angels are singing and I know the reason the SAVIOUR is born!

Just finished wrapping presents a little bit ago…wait I just remembered two more. My back is throbbing tremendously!!! My tail bone is throbbing. I’m exhausted but excited its Christmas! Discovered a sore on left side of chest. Not sure how to treat it or what caused it. Need to get some sleep. 

9:00a- Joe has turkey in smoker. Homemade cinnamon rolls are baked. This year I cheated and bought cream cheese frosting for the topping. Joe read Christmas story from Matthew. Jordon prayed. We opened presents.

Afterwards we all pitched in to cut veggies for relish/veggie platter, potatoes in crockpot. Joe and kids helped clean up livingroom and kitchen. I felt as if I was going to crash so I went to lay down for a few minutes. Whole body aches. Nerve tips in arms & legs feel like they’re screaming “fire”.  

10:41a- homemade crescent rolls are rising and I need to rest. Eyes are getting heavy. 

11:45a- gf corn casserole in oven. Tip of tongue is tingling. Weird!

2:00p- Christmas dinner (lunch)

6:00p- Christmas dinner (supper) & presents at Grandparents house. 

9:24p- so apparently the only Christmas tradition that I actually remembered was the cinnamon rolls for breakfast. Have no clue what traditions I’m forgetting. Apparently we watch a Christmas movie together as a family as well as a Christmas parade. I thought it was only on thanksgiving? Oh, well. I guess I’ll just have to take notes and build from there.

11:06p- I’m exhausted!! Sinuses are haywire. Sneezing most of day, nasal drainage, rt ear hurts, rt jaw hurts. Hands swollen and achy, rt hip throbbing, feet freezing, eyes watery, low back aches, bright lights bothering me. 

Today was pretty good day. Took 2 naps cat just to keep going. Don’t want to spoil Christmas for the kids. Jakob goes back to college tomorrow due to work. He’s training for promotion. He did well first semester 2 A’s, 4 B’s, & 1 C. Proud of him. Just wish we could help more.

Noticed in mirror bathroom that my left eye looks kind of droopy. I notice it more when I’m extra tired or have done too much.

Dec 26

8:00a – I don’t know what time I finally fell asleep last night, but it was well after 12:30am. Woke with headache, entire back aches, both arms ache, lft arm feels like it fell asleep and is now waking up.

1030a Thankful for not only what my children are learning in school, but also being able to direct what they learn. Jordon was able to change out an electrical outlet that went bad.

11:31a- just received email notification that I have my first blog follower! Didn’t know that part was set up yet, but cool!

2:24p- muscles have been twitching randomly thru body. Rt eye twitching.

Trouble with calves cramping today. Id I walk too much it feels like someone is grabbing them and squeezing hard!!!

9:03p- eyes watery, rt ear hurts, toothaches, sinuses ache, eyes burning. Enjoying watching Christmas Hallmark movies with my family. Husband is being sweet bc I know he doesn’t like them. He’s earning brownie points for sure!

11:50p- musclez in legs cramping more. Ended up taking muscle relaxer hoping the cramping will ease enough to let me sleep a little.  Left ear ringing. Stuffy nose & congested. Left eye burning. Skin is itching and feels like ants crawling. I suppose I’ve overdone it for Christmas. I sure did enjoy being more active though. I miss it. 

Our eldest went back to college today. He was hesitant dragging feet rather. I’m sure he wasn’t looking forward to long drive by himself.  I always enjoy having him home, but things were different this time like something was wrong. I know he’s dealing with some aches due to some unexpected recent events, but there was something else too. It made my heart hurt. I can only pray God protects him, guides his path, and he obeys.

Dec 27

2:11a- thought I wrote before now…guess not.

Woke at 7am with headache, whole body hurts, lower back cramping, very sleepy too. Sleepiness is ecpected bc muscle relaxers put me out and I’m sleepy for 8-10 hours (wish I could sleep that long sometimes).

Twas gonna can pumpkin but it was rotten. Ugh! I guess I’ll wash some clothes. 

Worked on reorganizing my eBay bins & posting a few items. Started collecting data for filing taxes. If I start now maybe we can file earlier.

Talked with a friend, Kim, for a little bit. It was nice to chat and hear how God is working in their lives. 

Washed hair in sink now my lower back is throbbing & my upper legs are cramping. I’m exhausted. Gets frustrating at times but I’m still thankful to be alive.

I don’t have a clue what to make for dinner. I lost the weekly menu plan I worked on last week. It was for two weeks. Lot of good that did. Oh, well. I’ll rest a bit and ask for help. Have to do that alot now. Prayer is how I’m making it through. Thankful Jesus is with me every step of way. 

Oh, prayer. My friend is gonna try to remember to talk with her doctor about her willingness to work with me on my healing journey.

3:18 lft eye is droopy.  I noticed my eye was slightly droopy last night but thought I was just tired. I can feel it some but wouldn’t have known unless I looked in mirror. It’s just noticeable enough to cause concern. Asked for suggestions on FB group.

Did you know that lightning can occur during winter weather?

According to stormhighway.com, “Strong winter snowstorms and blizzards commonly produce lightning strikes, a phenomenon referred to as ‘thundersnow’. Lightning and thunder can occur with any type of winter precipitation – including snow, sleet (‘thundersleet’) and freezing rain.”

http://stormhighway.com/thundersnow.php

6:34p- had to lay down a bit…so tired. Neck hurts. Major headache, whole body aches. Eyes tunnely & blurry & hurting. Sinuses hurt.

9:45p – sinuses hurt. Nasal rinse burns, but I can breathe better some. Took Rx for migraine – headache not going away. Whole body aches.lft eye still droopy. Hope to catch some shut eye. I’m exhausted.

11:51p- still awake. Hands tingly. Very thirsty.

Dec 22

6:30a- woke with throat hurting.  Eyes crusty. Severely congested. Whole body aches. Gonna diffuse thieves or purification once I get up.

8:00a – posted a new devotional to my blog

9:30 wore out already only thing I did was make homemade ranch dip mix

Laying down for a bit.

Figured out how to save my devotions to my pintrest account. Wonder should I have seperate pintrest for website? Too much to keep up with now probably

Actually started looking on phone to see how many drops of copaiba needed for pain & which oil is best when not feeling well.

11:50a – out last minute Christmas shopping with family. I’m am grumpy pants. All the commotion and business is not suiting me well. My body screams pain from head to toe. Jordon is looking for a wheelchair for me. Yeah he found one!! It’s at half power.

3:00p- I am spent- no more pushing at the moment. Need to go home and rest for a while. I don’t know if copaiba & peppermint helped or not – possibly so.

3:47p- just about out and got a phone call…sleep eludes me

5:30p – burnt my neck & lip while trying to cook dinner. Oil splashed out of pan. Ouch! 

7:00p – decided to go check out new coffee house, monster, at the mall. We used to attend same church. Nice place. It was exciting to see the steady stream of customers.  What a treat! I didn’t get coffee bc I knew the caffeine would keep me up all night. Decided later to try the truffle hot cocoa. Delicious!

11:50p – stuffy nose, leg are throbbing, eyes watery, left arm & hand tingly, slight headache, legs itch. I am beyond exhausted!!!

Dec 23

7:38a- up every 3 hours. Not feeling good. I think I’ve officially got the crude. The blessing is this is the first time I’ve gotten sick since my lightning strike.

2:19p- throat hurts, taking nap

430p- lady on a fb group put out plea for advise bc her husband endured tbi from fall last week or so. Thankful I was able to share some things that have helped me along the way.

8:22p- muscle in rt thigh back twitching

9:03p- laying in bed feeling poor. Muscles in rt butt now twitching

Took temp 100.4 low grade just enough to make me feel yucky. Took Ibuprofen bc I not find the Tylenol

10:47p- my whole body aches. It hurts to cough. Rt hip hurts. Head aches. Stuffy nose. Exhausted but wide awake. Gonna diffuse lavendar  & spray pillows.

Dec 24

5:45a- Joe woke me up bc he couldn’t find his work badge. I had no clue where it was. Told me he called me like 25xs but my phone was on silent. 

9:35a- throat hurts, back hurts especially in lung areas, sinus congestion, hands & feet freezing. Have lots to do today but not sure where to start.

10:30a- crustless pumpkin pie in oven

11:06a- need to lay down a piece while pie finishing cooking and making next pie 

11:30a- 1st pie done. My back is feeling icy and aches. Lungs hurt when I cough. Clutsy hands today. Low back throbbing. Feet achy. I’m exhausted.

1:25p- dinner in crockpot, pie crusts made. Low back throbbing! Gotta rest a bit. Eating a salad.

1:33p- choked on my salad and drink. Almost had accident. Ugh!  I have moments with difficulty swallowing since my lightning strike. Resting in bed now.

5:00p- third pie finished. Working on finishing up dinner. Also made cinnamon rolls for breakfast…just have to bake them. 

Muscles in legs twitching. Feet throbbing. Back aching. Hands swollen and achy. 

6:00p- I am done. Pain is overtaking. Resting a bit while kids clean up from dinner.

Dec 19

Lightning survivor friend shares link on her website about Probiotics reducing inflammation in gutt 

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/12/181213083653.htm?fbclid=IwAR0xKHtjzR0_0CdY_QPstUUwvu7W-_Nk6VQAsnbdEyKOnfHNMAjKTwMK3xg

6:48a- woke at 6am to dogs barking. I’m surely hurting all over!!! Song in head, “Oh i want to see Him look upon His face there to sing forever of His saving grace cares all past hope at last ever to rejoice”. Don’t know if lryics are correct but it sure would be nice to be rid of this throbbing pain!! 

I so need to get to a better plateau of living. Gotta wrap my mind around how. Only God can give me direction bc my doctor’s aren’t. I cling to Christ for my hope because without Him I’d surely fail and be depressed.

I knew pushing the buggy and being hit by another was gonna hurt but I didn’t think it would hurt this much. Ugh!

Once I get up I think I’ll try drinking hot tea with peppermint and copaiba essential oil to see if that’ll ease the pain.

    7:35a- when I sneeze the cartlidge in my chest pops. It hurts so. So much inflammation. Shouldn’t have eaten that sugar cookie. 

10:15a- have blister looking soar the size of a dime on left thumb. Don’t know what caused it & it’s not a blister. I tried popping it but it won’t pop. It hurts even more so when I touch it.

10:00p baked cookies for church Christmas party. I’m exhausted but wide awake. Going to bed don’t want to watch avenger dc comic movies.

Dec 20

Update: Jordon’s MRI & Echocardiogram results are normal

Specialist said it wasn’t uncommon for teens to have this issue.  She diagnosed as Vasovagal Syncope.  Said we could try increasing his salt intake first.  If that don’t work then will put him on an rx.  I’m to make sure he eats salty snacks like pickles and pretzels. Thankful for a simple and natural remedy.

https://www.wellandgood.com/good-food/turmeric-anti-inflammatory-dosage/?utm_source=facebook.com&utm_medium=display&utm_campaign=wildfire

8:58a- woke at 5am to use bathroom. Didn’t fall asleep until after 12:30a. Had a bad dream – don’t remember details but I do remember thinking where’s Joe when I need him why isnt he here?

I mentioned to Joe. He told me he was there and I kept pulling his hand on me and as long as he was touching me I seemed to relax some.

Neck hurts. Slight headache. Hands swollen and achy. Low back aches.

9:28a- sitting in waiting room while kids see dentist. I’m not too fond of not being able to be in exam room but he’s an older dentist and they have worked me regarding treatments and honoring my preferences. Currently trying to plan meals for the next week. I haven’t done it in weeks and it stresses me more when I have to fix meals on the fly. Thankfully, Dezirae has stepped up and asked to cook on Tuesday’s. This is such a help especially after my TBI mtgs I am so spent and exhausted some weeks I can’t even think straight afterwards.  

2:06p- both kids had cavities this time. Made appts. Stopped at grocery store as God provided $. It felt nicely odd to be able to get some of what we needed. Have to lay down I’m crashing.

3:00 – Joe had Jordon try to wake me but I had trouble waking up. Seems like I can’t get enough sleep – so tired.

4:30p – stabbing pain in brain. ouch!

7:19p- center of chest burning throb, rt arm hurts, hands swollen and achy, brain foggy. 

7:41p- inner right ear itches like crazy, chin itches too

914 Haha! My feet are an instant ice pack for my husband. This tickles my funny bone.

Dec 21

12:04a- rt leg & hip throbbing, it’s raining and cold outside, center of chest throbbing. Kind of windy at times. 

12:30a-Back n neck throbbing. Skin very itchy.

7:00a- woke with neck achy & low back throbbing. Shoulders hurt. Runny stuffy nose. Song in my mind “It Is Well with my Soul”. Though my body is in pain it kind of gives peace to my soul 🙂

9:00a- decided to work some on culminating school grades for report cards. Didn’t work on it long before it gave me a headache, blurry eyes, & foggy brain. 

9:39a- picking up produce at lil Brian’s. Tummy hurts.

11:45a- left leg twitching/shaking as if I’m sitting on a nerve but I’m not. Would video but it’s not doing it enough to be visible on video. 

12:43p- nose rt gushing blood ugh! No reason? Bp 120/86

5:36p- Jakob made it home for Christmas. Yeah!

8:01a- heart beating hard, short on breath, not feeling well, been sneezing a lot

10:34p- not feeling well. Sharp stabbing pain in left shoulder. Heart still feels like its beating hard. Bad indigestion.

Diffusing lavender oil for a little while. Also sprayed pillows with lavender & orange oil to see if that’ll help me sleep.

Dec 16

7:00am Joe scared me awake (not purposefully)!  I forgot to set alarm. I overslept. Need to peel potatoes.

Joe & Jordon were graciuos enough to peel & cut potatoes for me. Awh!

9:30a – tried to pick up a deaf lady for church but couldn’t get her to answer door even though her dog was barking like crazy.

11:30a – rt eye brow began twitching & very frustrating

11:24p – muscles twitching in lft thigh, rt hip throbbing, can’t seem to get comfortable, exhausted, headache, stuffy nose

Dec 17

8:11a- woke first time to dogs barking around 6am. Left calf was twitching, neck hurts, lft hand tingling. 

2nd time around 7:30a to dogs barking again! Left hand tingling, base of neck hurts, stuffy nose, upper back twingeing (wow that’s actually a word),

Chest feels tight. I guess I’ll just have to get up and start moving to ease the stiffness feeling.

It’s a good day even with the aches and pains because I was able to wake up. That strikes me odd though because one way or another it’d be a good day bc I’d either be with my earthly family or my Heavenly Father. 

11:45a- discovered I was behind in balancing the checkbook and didn’t even have last three weeks written in register! Took me about 3 hours to figure it out & now I have major headache. Took Rx. Eyes & brain feel blurry. I’m worn out now. 

1:11 In waiting room at hospital, Jordon has apt for echocardiogram & MRI. He’s had episodes of dizziness & blacking out. Praying it’s a simple fix.

Heart dr apt in January.

1:30p- asked lady checking us in if she ever met lightning survivor.  She said no, but in her senior year high school her best friend was washing dishes at kitchen sink. She pulled curtain to peek outside and was struck by lightning and killed. Said she doesn’t mess with lightning. Told her I was sorry for her loss. Think it was a bruise. I didn’t press further.

1:43p – upper back stinging

I’ll be glad when I get my blog updated so I can enter things like this daily or weekly instead of journaling and trying to remember details.

2:13p- finally getting echo done…next is MRI

When I close my eyes to rest, I see a spinning merry-go-carousel with miniature clowns dressed in burnt orange plaid outfits holding each other for dear life. Can’t keep my eyes closed for long…makes me dizzy.

2:57p- Jordon just went back for MRI. Wish I could go back with him. Should take 20 minutes.

9:30p- decided to sit and watch Christmas movies while sipping on hot cocoa with peppermint and copabia oil.

Dec 18

Research connection between zinc and b12 absorption

1059a When I got struck, my son says he felt it in his ear buds (he was on the computer at the time of the strike). Since then he has had a few bouts of dizziness, blacking out and falling. When he hits whatever he lands on, he comes to.

The most recent occurrence happened two weekends ago. I called doctor and we have been in a whirlwind of appointments since his initial visit last Wednesday. EKG, bloodwork, & MRI all normal so far. Waiting on results of echocardiogram.

Is it quite possible his episodes are a result of his shocking ear buds? Curious?