My Healing Journey - Charitymaeprosper

LS Memoirs

Dec 25
630 slept all night. I hurt from head to toes – muscles and nerves burning prickly pain. Feel like I’ve been beat up. Hurts to move. Esophagus doesn’t hurt anymore. Indigestion seems to be gone.

2 John 1-Jude 1; Isaiah 9:6; Job 19:25
Song: I’m dreaming of a white Christmas

Breakfast cooked (cinnamon rolls, hash, & bacon). Dezirae helped make the angel eggs, peeled potatoes for crockpot while I made the pumpkin pie. Burnt my thumb and finger accidentally grabbing oven rack. Lavender oil to rescue. Later tried to eat piece of hot bacon and dropped it because I used burned fingers. Joe picked up the piece of bacon and ate it. I had melt down.
Joe & Dezirae prep turkey to cook in oven.

1010 I need to crash for a bit. Exhausted and hurting.
10:40 Joe’s crossbow fell in closet making loud noise which scared awake cause me to scream
https://www.thehealthychoice.net/neuropathy-finding-relief/
1120 woke abruptly from nap thinking I overslept
1200 muscles spasming and twitching thru body. Took colloidal silver.
Laid back down for a minute and ended up waking an hour later.
I’m so exhausted and have no energy. Nerve pain not as intense as before.
Christmas dinner at 2pm

Exhausted. Tired. Nerves stinging needle pain. Muscles ache deeply. Rt hip throbbing. Low back aches.
Tourniquet tightening feeling in lower left leg to ankle.

Night meds taken plus half a Benadryl and half a pain Rx. 2nd dose of colloidal silver.

Dec 26
Exhausted and hurting all over.

Revelation 1-3; Luke 2:28-32; Revelation 5:5

Looked up ideas for using leftover turkey for lunch today. Turkey Casserole. Put it together, but add-libbed a bit using items I have in pantry.
My lower back is throbbing intensely. Need to sit for bit then finish getting ready to go.

Informed I needed to sing special just as church started. Thankfully I found the song I was going to sing last week during Sunday School. Nervous and need to use restroom. Not good combo.
Able to get high note first time through. Second time throat started hurting and my voice cracked at the high note. I wanted to choke but able to hold it in until I went to bathroom after I was done.
Muscles sporadically and randomly spasming and twitching thru body.
120 rt hip throbbing intensely. Headache. Exhausted.
400 working on planning meals for week – use Pinterest, email, and internet for ideas. I look up to take break. See the guys walk in from outside but they’re blurry and my eyes cross. Jordon chuckles and asks what’s the matter. I explain. Brain feels foggy. Accidentally left my planning notebook at home frustrated bc I’m struggling to remember what needs to be done next.
600 the Christmas Carol’s songbook I put together this year the verses don’t match hymns that are in our hymnbooks. This causes song leader to sing different verse than others are. It’s so frustrating to my ears.

LS Memoirs

Dec 18

12:15a Driving thru Atlanta now. I remembered that there’s an underground city here that Joe and I visited once. Something about walking it. Coca cola stuff. A large bell? I think I have pictures somewhere. I mentioned it to Mom. She says that she’s always wanted to go.

Sharp stabbing pain on rt side chest Random hiccup. Try to adjust. Body getting tired of sitting in car.

1:00a near Gainesville, GA 1-985 I smell fresh bread

123 now I smell manure

200 we arrived at our destination for the night finally

215 deep breathing to help calm the fluttering in bottom of heart. Drank cherry coke during my driving time to give me extra energy. Nerves jittery. Exhausted but awake. Stomach feels weird.

Whole body stinging needle pain. The longer I lay still the more it hurts.

Thankful for

1. Good friends that allow you to crash at their place in a moments notice

2. Able to talk with my oldest son today. God kept him safe in his travels to his fiance’s parents house.

3. Able to drive for about two hours on highway at night to help my mom.

4. God kept us safe in our travels so far

8:00 tossed and turned most of night. I’m in great pain.😢

Titus – Philemon; Luke 1:68-70;

100 heading to see my Grandma in hospital now. Nerves are amuck from the traveling. Feeling a bit nauceous. Thankfully mom had ginger chew I could have which is helping. It’s raining alot here. Nerves are stinging and on fire through whole body. I just want to crash but know I can’t right now. Wanted to fix my hair but that didn’t happen either. Have no clue what’s going to happen. Trying to be strong for my Aunt and Mom. My Aunt doesn’t seem to be taking things too good and seems utterly exhausted. It’s to be expected in this situation. I pray for her.

Grandma recognized us. She was just staring at the ceiling when we came into room. When my Mom went by her side, her eyes teared up. When I and the girls took turns holding her hand, she stared at us. She wore out quickly and fell asleep.

Nurse said that was to be expected. She’s actually in Hospice ward at the hospital. This is better because all of us can visit with her at same time and can come and go as we need with no restrictions on visiting hours. Nurse said she could pass in few days or last up to two weeks. My Uncle & Aunt from KY are coming now too. Glad I got to see her. Praying she lasts for my Uncle to come and then she passes quickly so she’s not suffering anymore.

600 took pain rx and my morning meds.

900 Pain Rx has eased some of the nerve burning sting pain. Tired and wore out.

Exhausted. Hot. Nerves stinging but has eased from this morning so it’s more tolerable – about a 5. Low back and rt hip throbbing. Sharp pain in chest sporadically. Raining off and on all day not helping. Left ear ringing.

Dec 19

730 rough night. Trouble getting comfortable. Hot.

Whole body stiff and stinging needles. Arms numb and tingling. Hands swollen and throbbing. Hot and uncomfortable. Feel as if broke a sweat. Tired. Thirsty.

Hebrews 1-6; Luke 1:76-78; John 8:12

Attended church with friends this morning. I thoroughly enjoyed being able to sing to my heart’s content unto the Lord. It was also touching to see the granddaughters scurry to my Mom’s side when she broken down crying. The words in the songs were so real to my Mom dawning on her that my Grandma would pass to glory soon. They invited us to their house for lunch. I enjoyed the fellowship and hospitality.

Dinner at my Aunt’s and Uncles house. After dinner the siblings and spouses present, worked together to discuss funeral arrangements and obituary. It was encouraging to hear them reminiscing about Grandma and laughing at some of their funny stories from their past involving Grandma.

Never knew that my Grandma miscarried a set of twins prior to my Mom and her brother being born.

Texting Joe. He asked how I was doing. Told him that I’m really hurting…can’t seem to get comfortable. He replied that he wish he could do something for me. I replied that he could pray and his loving support is all I ask. God will take care of the rest. To which he responded okay you got it I’ll always be by your side and in your corner. Such a loving husband. Thank you, Lord.

Rt foot keeps cramping so bad my foot curls up. I have to stand on it to get it to stop but that even hurts horribly.

Random hiccups.