Month: December 2018

August 26, 2017

6:39am – Didn’t hurt as bad as I thought I was going to from the trip when I woke up.  Able to take a shower without help.  Still getting dizzy when I move too fast.  Pain level at a 5 right now.

11:00am – Entire back and butt hurt, left hand & elbow hurt, brain foggy feeling, trouble speaking.

Figured out after talking with the Lyons that all my symptoms resemble fibromyalgia.

5:00pm – My back is hurting bad all over… trying not to show it, buy my eyes won’t quit tearing.  Sharp pain through middle of chest.  Bright lights starting to hurt eyes.

I think this trip is already a bit much on me.  Need to stay strong for my son.  He needs to go to college.  I don’t want him to put his plans on hold because of me.  With God’s help, I’ll manage to get through this.

Thankful that we were able to spend time in sweet fellowship with Greg & PJ Lyons, and family before dropping Jakob Smith off at college.

💡I know what stores need to do for customers…they need a checkout lane just for handicapped people.  I have to use a wheelchair when I go to the store.  Walking too much causes too much pain and I tire quite easily.

August 27, 2017

It’s official! Jakob is beginning his college days. The family is on an emotional roller coaster right now, but we have peace that he’s where God wants him.
P.S. I didn’t know it was going to be this hard. God’s got this! We love you, Bubba ( Jakob).

6:39am – Woke up with my heart beating hard and fast, lower back near butt throbbing.  Stuffy nose.

7:04am – I was crying this morning (I’m on an emotional roller coaster right now).  Joe asked me what was wrong.  I told him my heart was hurting.

9:04am – My eyes are hurting & I have a headache.

 

 

August 23, 2017

8:00am – Had rough night.  Chest hurt some in middle of night.  Periodic ringing in rt ear.  Cold – had to wear socks to bed.  Woke up with eyes feeling crusty, mild pain, and slight bloody nose.

10:53am – Made breakfast & cut Joe’s hair.  I’m sore, tired, and starting to get a headache.  Need to rest a while.  Made Homemade Bisquick Mix.  Right lower back now cramping.  Applying heating pad.

8:50pm – Went to Lighthouse tonight so Jakob can say goodbye to his friends.  I enjoyed being able to sing.  Mrs. Bowser called me a trooper (Had to ask Joe what she meant by that later).  I guess it’s good.

During services, a young man behind us was rubbing hymnal on back of pew.  I wanted to turn around and tell him to STOP, but I held my peace – not only could I feel the motion in ALL my muscles, but the noise irritating me (like finger nails scratching a blackboard!!!).  All my senses seem magnified – noises are extra loud, lights are too bright, I can feel tiniest hair fall on my skin!

Both Mrs. Sanchez’s asked how I really was doing.  Told them that I have my good days and my bad days.  The hardest part for me in not being able to go like the energizer bunny I was.  I just can’t do much without wearing out easily.  Older Mrs. Sanchez (her name eludes me at the moment) said, “So you feel like you’re on the backside of the desert?”  To which I replied, “Yes. (Didn’t know what she meant until later).  Told them I’m claiming Lamentations 3:22-23 “It’s of the Lords mercies that we are not consumed…”  For me that is literally!  ha-ha.

August 25, 2107

10:00am – woke up in pain and right foot had sharp pain when I first stepped on it.  Got a bit dizzy moving too fast trying to get ready for the trip today.

*We take Jakob to college today.  I’m not ready for this let alone being able to wrap my head around all my difficulties right now.

2:03pm – My thighs and lower back are throbbing.  Have small headache.

We’re having fun at my expsense (one of my symptoms from recent accident is memory loss).
I told Joe I want that type of snot grass around our church sign (I couldn’t remember what it was called). Dezirae & Joe started cracking up laughing. Dezirae replied, “You mean monkey grass?”
I replied, “Yes. That grass looks like it has snot on the top.”
Joe says, “I’m not laughing with you. I’m laughing at you because that was funny.”
At least, I can heal with humor. 😃