September 7, 2017
8:47am – Woke at 6am with extreme pain and cramping in right thigh. Lower leg spasms. Lower back throbbing. Can’t get back to sleep. Read Bible on phone. Got up cooked breakfast (eggs & toast).
Brain feels foggy. Feels like I’ve forgotten something, but I can’t remember what it was. Broke down crying.
2:20pm- Had trouble painting mine & Dezirae’s nails…hands are shaky.
Have trouble staying focused on one task. Constantly finding things left out I thought I out away. Still having trouble getting thought across, tripping over words – so frustrating!
4:19pm- I was scheduled for a follow up mammogram today, but had to reschedule. I attempted to go…signed in and all. Sat in waiting room for at least 30 minutes. I never had to wait that long before. The longer I wait the more anxiety sets in. I’m trying to be brave but it isn’t happening today. I fell apart in the waiting room. I couldn’t handle it today – broke down crying. I’m an emotional basket case today. I went to the desk while sobbing and told the lady that I had to reschedule. I explained why. They apologized for the long wait and was going to try to rush me through. I told them I couldn’t handle it today. They seemed to understand. Never had this before.
September 8, 2017
6:50am – Woke up with headache. Muscles are all tight especially on right side. Right hip throbbing. Cramping in right side. Left fingertips are tingly. Stuffy nose.
Had nightmare that I lost my luggage and my Bible on a trip to Disney and couldn’t get it back. Stuck in a handicap lane and they wouldn’t let me out to go get my Bible. Song on my mind was “It Will Be Worth It All.”
10:47am- Hung load of clothes on line to dry. Muscles in lower back and right hip area now spazzing. Ugh!
11:30am- Center of chest is now icy cold. I guess I’ve overdone it again. Feet are cold too.
Right hip is feeling icy cold too. Icy sensation traveling through center of back.
11:48am – Praising the Lord that though I am in the midst of a difficult trial I know without a shadow of a doubt that I’m on my way to Heaven one day. “It Will Be Worth It All When We See Jesus!”
Joe and Jordon laughed! Now my back muscles are spazzing. Ugh! Muscles twitching in right arm.
*Looking back I probably was a sight for sore eyes trying to get those things off of me while screaming. 🙂
11:45pm – extreme pain in lower back.
September 9, 2017
7:46am – Woke up to alarm at 6am. Lower back aches. Slight headache. Tripping over words and saying them backwards (i.e. cylenol with toedine instead of Tylenol with codeine). Feel like I’m in a fog.
11;13am – Tailbone area and right hip throbbing. Muscles in thighs are twitching. I’m in so much pain I just want to lash out irrationally!!! Every muscle is also twitching.
3:48pm – Extra pain causes irritability. Hearing chips chewed like nails scratching chalk board!!!
10:23pm – Intense cramping in right thigh down to bottom of my leg. I can’t get comfortable or get it to go away. Don’t know what to do.
