Author: Melissa

Nov 29

630 woke from strange dream to mind racing and out of breath.

Hands and arms stinging. Legs & Feet stinging. Tummy aches. Back throbbing. Tired. Lights bothersome. It’s a rainy dreary day.

Psalms 136:1 –  O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.

945 brain feels off today. Not certain how to explain but it’s like having dizzy blurred vision, but my vision isn’t blurry. Eye glasses are actually not helping much. Keep having to take them off.

Hands so swollen my wedding ring is cutting circulation off hand.

1130 tummy hurts. Had to make run to bathroom.

1200 simple lunch today…spaghetti with meatballs

330 Rae & I work on the Blessing Bags for First Responders.

430 play practice. Bumpy. Mom thought just two practices would suffice. Had to tell needed more. Seemed she didn’t like that.

500p choir practice. Hiccups there too. Frustrating. Choir not in sync during certain phrase. Jordon & Dezirae trouble singing next to each other. I tried to make suggestion which rubbed Joe wrong way making him mad at me.

Called to office for him to jump on me for telling what to do. I tried explaining my perspective which just made it worse. Resorted to yes sir and whatever which just made it worse. I apologized for his taking it wrong but I wasn’t sorry for what I said. Made it worse. I just shut up. Nothing I’d say would appease him. Wrong time to pick a fight.

1000p exhausted. Joe apologized on way home. Told him I knew that when I gave migraine I am grumpy and feel like the world is against me and just want to go to bed so I figured that no matter what I said it would just rub him the wrong way. He agreed.

It’s been raining all day and storming periodically. My body feels it and my inflammation is up. Mom suggested I take turmeric. Told her I already take 800mg of turmeric a day. She didn’t know what to say.

Whole body stingy & tingly. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Head itches. Feet freezing. Sinuses congested. Legs ache and have periodic stinging needle pain.

Nov 30

550 Joe scared me twice this morning already…first grabbed my foot to ask me where his work boots were & second to come tell me goodbye. Second time I was reading about parasympathetic vs sympathetic state.

“three stress responses in the body, or three areas of the brain that are correlated with stress. There’s the autonomic nervous system, which is the sympathetic-parasympathetic state. There is the limbic system, which is kind of our fear center. And then there is our endocrine system, or a part of the brain called the

hypothalamus that triggers our adrenal glands to release the stress hormone cortisol. So it’s a combination of

kind of trying to quiet all three of those. So the melatonin, or circadian rhythm blend, that addresses the endocrine system. And then the parasympathetic blend helps to address the autonomic nervous system.”

https://wellnessmama.com/podcast/essential-oil-blends/

730 so tired. Legs burning pain. Arms stinging tingly pain.

1100p exhausted and hurting all over. Stinging burning pain. Ringworm back on lft side of neck. Started rx med. Ugh! I don’t understand.

Nov 27

700 woke from a nightmare. I woke wanting to cry. I was so relieved to see Joe in bed next to me I wanted to cry all the more.

800 I hurt all over. It hurts to move but thankful for my loving husband.

900 family going to pick out Christmas tree at Ramsey Farms today. Excited bc we never did this before.

Took us an hour to pick out a tree. My steps quickly got slower as my legs got tired and began to get weaker and my rt hip throbbing. Joe graciously went back to car and brought it to me so I wouldn’t have to walk farther.

200 Rae & I decided to go get lights and skirt for tree. All our current strands only partially work.

Took me 45+ minutes to decide which lights to get. Also got materials to make some of our own ornaments

730 Joe offered to bring home pizza for dinner. Yay! I hadn’t even thought what to cook. My brain is just a blur and I’m exhausted and hurting. It’s been storming off and on all day which had increased my pain levels to max. He’s a keeper.

1020 pain is at a max. I hurt so much I just want to cry but my brain is so foggy feeling that it doesn’t know to cry. Nerves sting and burnt throb thru body. Chest hurts – rubbed heaping glob of Vicks on middle of chest and lower back of neck. Nerves itchy feeling. Night meds taken + cbd softgel.

Nov 28

600 woke from crazy dream to heart & mind racing

1155 decided to sort thru Christmas decorations while putting ornaments on the tree. My back is throbbing

1118p need to go to sleep. I’m exhausted. Hoping marmalade will set.

Gauged lft index finger and didn’t know I did until I saw a pool of blood on my finger.

Body stinging. Hands burning throbbing. Shoulders stinging burning. Slight headache. Noticing lately having trouble with words – finding right words to say what I’m thinking. Night meds taken.