Better or Bitter?

Oct 28

12:15 still awake. Trouble getting comfortable. Legs restless. I’m almost to point of crying.

Three things I’m thankful for…1. My family, 2. God’s Holy Word, 3. God’s unconditional love.

745 head pounding. Body freezing. Getting under covers to warm up. Tired.

800 research if you & body temperature irregulation can be related. Yes it can – due to damage to hypothalamus dysfunction.

Found a brain injury blog

https://www.brainline.org/story/hidden-secret-brain-injury-hypothalamus-dysfunction

*caution there is much foul language which I don’t like.

An egg is one of two perfect foods; it has all the essential amino acids and all the essential fatty acids that our bodies can’t synthesize but require for good functioning and repair plus the latter are needed by the skin for elasticity and moisture. Drink ice water; suck on ice. I tend to push myself, but the fatigue from the brain injury often managed to stop me cold. Pain hurts; fatigue incapacitates.

Note to self: research hypothalamus function & parasympathetic function (these ring bells but not certain why)

825 eating two eggs with red pepper flakes in am to jump start metabolism.

It took 30+ minutes for me to warm up enough to escape the covers. Feet still cold & I feel a bit chilly. Putting on socks.

900 need to work on Dezirae’s grades today. Washed one load of clothes. Bleaching the ring around the tub. Goal today is begin cleaning bathroom. It’s filthy to me. Refilled foam soap dispensers in house & put thieves oil for disinfection.

400 very lethargic feeling and in much pain. Hurricane Zeta about to pound our area tonight. Need a nap.

615 crashed for almost two hours. Woke in time to make dinner. Feel like I could sleep longer. Pain from head to toes.

830 lights flickered

851 stranger yet…lights flickered and half of power went out. Stayed off for about 15 minutes then came back on except window A/C in livingroom.

906

I do not like storms Sam-I-Am.

I do not like them here or there.

I do not like them anywhere.

Why? It causes changes in the barometric pressure.

This in turn causes me extreme pain and fatigue more than I deal with on a normal basis.

While I’m not in favor of the extra pain, I do thank God for the pain because it reminds me that I’m still alive and God has a purpose to everything under the sun .

Praying all my friends and family stay safe during Hurricane Zeta

1030 suddenly extremely hot and clammy feeling. whole body stings in pain. Low back throbbing. Hands throbbing. Skin itches. Toes tingly. Chest center hurts. Shoulders hurt. Ears hurt. Rt ear ringing.

Drank cup of sleepy time tea. Took night meds plus vitamins. Took naproxen & Tylenol.

 

Oct 29

750a tossed and turned a lot last night. Strange dreams, but slept hard when I did sleep.

Whole body stiff and hurting. Entire back stings. Hands, arms, and legs tingly. Slight headache. Tummy hurts.

Power flashed a few times during Hurricane Zeta but we still have power this morning. Praise the Lord.  Lots of debris all over yard.

1000 decided to work on my blog for little bit.

1215 my parents invited us over for lunch. Sweet.

124 forgot to take morning med/vitamins and I can tell. I’m dragging. Took meds/vitamins. Laying down to rest little while.

200 feeling hot again. Jordon says skin feels clammy.

324 feeling nauceous. Sucking on ginger chew

1145 tired in pain. Headache. Neck hurts. Back hurts. Hands and arms tingling. Hands throbbing. Legs ache & burn.

 

Oct 25

111 finally finished printing the bulletins. Chicken & potatoes in crockpot. My back is killing me in pain. Bad headache. Pm meds taken. Pain med taken. I hurt from head to toe. Rt eye twitching. Hands throbbing. Center of chest throbbing.

650 woke from odd dream with song on mind that I haven’t heard in years. Yet when I woke completely it disappeared from mind. Can’t remember it no matter how hard I try.

Bad headache. Grumpy, angry mood. Whole body aches but no as bad as previous few days. Headache worsening. Took naproxen

1100 head still pounding. Need to find waterproof mascara. My eyes water off half my mascara before getting to church.

100 lunch is delicious. Mark came for lunch and afternoon service. Brought banana bread as a thank you. Church gave Joe gift card to field & stream. Talina sang special song for pastors.

200 I’m exhausted. Brain fog setting in. Kept losing my place playing piano and messing up horribly. Brain swirling. Headache. Body aches.

930 exhausted from the day. Whole body hurts. Skin feels like it wants to explode. Lord please help me get some restful sleep tonight. Low back & rt hip throbbing immensely. Toes tingly. Night meds & naproxen taken. Tummy doesn’t feel as bloated as before. Been trying to stay away from gluten and excess sugars some. Ringworm gone but left scars on neck and lft forearm. Using oils to help diminish the scarring.

 

Oct 26

230a woke from strange dream in a sweat as if I broke a fever. Trouble with balance & stumbled to the bathroom. Drank some water.

500a woke from strange dream. Ache from head to toes.

625 skimming thru FB after posting scripture for day. Come across someone asking for advise regarding sister with concussion…she asked if B3 will help…

*Omega 3 – 3 times a day

*Anti-inflammatory diet

*Biogentical Progesterone Cream

* Cerecomp by Heel

“It will be of great benefit IF you take B3 in the form of flush Niacin AKA Nicotinic Acid.

The flush is a very minor factor when you are dealing with brain health.

In fact the vasodilation from flush Niacin opens blood vessels (yes in the brain as well ) and this brings in oxygen and nutrients we hiked carry away inflammation.

The more and higher the daily dose – the greater the benefits.

I hope this helps.” James Kelly

 

“A great way to reduce inflammation and accelerate healing is by Vitamin C IV (intravenously) because it’s the only way to reach such high concentrations. Also, Glutathione is often used to improve athletic performance and recovery. I recently tried 25g of vitamin c iv and glutathione (dont remember the dose). In Toronto we have a company that offers a nurse to come to your house with everything required. I recommend you look into this. It cannot do harm. But at doses of Vitamin C IV greater than 6g you need to know if the person has a very rare G6PD enzyme deficiency. These people are generally not advised to inject more than 6g/day due to risk of hemolysis (rupturing of red blood cells). Again, this is an extremely rare condition and usually people who have it know.” Dmitry Zhivo

 

Vitamin E is another antioxidant. It is “a potent reactive oxygen species scavenger, which has the potential to reduce oxidative damage encountered after traumatic brain injury (TBI)”. -Dmitry Zhivo

Books suggested:

Concussions Rescue – about TBI and neuro nutrients recommendations

The Brains Way of Healing

Brain hurt after reading all that. Must rest.

845 fell back to sleep. I could sleep longer. I’m so tired.

Arms and hands hurt and tingling. Back hurts. Legs ache. Feet tingly. Whole body sore and tight feeling. Need to stretch or something.

Positive: when I put my t-shirt on this morning it wasn’t tight around tummy. Usually have to try to stretch some so it’s not snug.

955 attempting to prep dinner for crockpot. Low back throbbing horribly. Need to sit a while.

Easily irritated. Grumpy. Not sure why either.

100 that moment when visiting with a friend you use the restroom and flush toilet but didn’t realize that her washer water had backed up in tub and toilet ends up overflowing. At my best attempt to plung said toilet I hurt my back while standing in yucky water. Trying my best to hold it together and clean the mess up. Too much for my body to handle! Oh my body is throbbing especially my back. I feel disgusting. Ugh!

530 Joe & Jordon run to church to work on fixing the roof. Hurricane Zeta heading our way on Wednesday. I’m so over the storms this year. Taking a rest break while they’re gone. My body is throbbing from head to toe.

843 recvd email…History made tonight – Judge Amy Barrett confirmed tonight. Making her the third Supreme Court Justice nominated by President Trump.

1030 drinking sleepy time tea before bed. Hoping it’ll help me fall asleep quicker. Took naproxen. I hurt horribly from head to toe.

Headache. Neck hurts. Rt inner ear hurts. Shoulders ache. Upper back stings. Arms ache. Hands swollen and throbbing. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Skin itchy. Legs ache. Lower left leg tourniquet tightening feeling – same feeling on lower rt leg as well. Feet and toes tingling. Neck has popped several times today. Headache worsens.

 

Oct 27

730 woke from strange dreams to intense stinging pain through body. Whole body stiff and hurting. Hurts to move. Stuffy & congested. Tummy hurts.

800 change sheets. Dezirae helped me finish. Low back throbbing intensely. Ears ringing. Bottom of rt foot feels like glass impaled an inch about inch from dog bite scar. Headache. Skin sensitive.

Check pain in foot. Nothing there.

330 just finished figuring Jordon’s grades for 1st qtr. Head pounding. Exhausted. Feet getting cold. Muscles randomly spasming thru body.

349 fell asleep in chair for five minutes. Decided to go lay down. Tingling sensation in brain.

630 Tears are the way we speak when our lips don’t know what to speak when our hearts are filled with pain we don’t know how to bear. Tears are a language. God understands.

1000 going to bed. I hurt horribly. Taking night meds, pain rx, & drinking sleepy time tea. Prayerfully I’ll fall asleep soon.

Whole body stinging. Headache. Ears ache. Neck hurts. Entire back stinging throbbing. Hands and wrists swollen and throbbing. Arms ache. Elbows hurt. Skin itches and is easily irritated. Chest throbbing. Low back hurts. Rt hip hurts. Legs throb. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling. Numbness & tingling in both ankles and feet. This much pain cannot be ignored and cause lack of sleep. Feet cold.

Oct 22

530 woke to nerves burning and pulsating in left arm and hand. Tired.

650 tummy hurts. Much mucus. Whole body aches horribly. Strange dreams but think I slept some last night – at least better than I have been.

Trouble waking up. Chest feels tight. Headache. Arms ache. Sharp pain in rt foot when I stand that shoots up leg. Glad Joe told me to take it easy bc I’d probably be hurting worse if I hadn’t.

900 tummy hurts something aweful. Thought it was bc I might need to eat something. Not – it hurts just as bad. Arms and back ache as though I worked out 90 minutes or more.

915 stinging pain begins. Second load of wash in laundry. First load on line drying. My goal is trying to stay caught up on laundry (2 loads daily) – as long as washer cooperates. Using it until we can afford to buy new one.

Was going to try to work on my blog today but my computer died yday. Think it’s the plug. Ordered new one…waiting for it to arrive.

920 feeling nauceous. Sucking on ginger chew and laying down for a while. Let Jordon know.

1030 little over an hour and my tummy feels better.

230 two loads clothes folded. My arms & chest are throbbing. Exhausted. Having Dezirae take the other clothes off line and fluffing in dryer. I need to lay down to rest a bit.

300 still hurting pretty bad. Decided to pick up dinner on way to church.

415 running late. Traffic backed up everywhere…4 bad accidents on highway diverting traffic alternate route. Stresses me out.

445 drive thru speaker messing up. Girl can’t understand what I’m saying. Whew! For moment thought I wasn’t saying it right.

700p asked Joe not to play tonight. Got dizzy during singing had to hold onto the pew for stability. Headache. Hurt from head to toe.

930 just about to doze off and Jakob called Spoke with for few minutes. Doing extra shift and getting bonus for it.

Nerves sting thru body. Chest throbbing. Hands throbbing.

 

Oct 23

730 woke exhausted from bad dream. Don’t remember any details but that I was trying to escape for my life.

Spent a little longer in my Bible reading and praying to calm my spirit.

Scales say I lost 3 lbs this week. Yay!

1030 Jordon asked to cook dinner for me tonight. Jordon cooked steak and baked beans. Dezirae cooked the asparagus and garlic bread. It was delicious.

Decided to paint my toenails after dinner. It was a bit challenging but I did it. Chest hurting now. Ugh!

Moderate pain day. Sinus congestion. Watery eyes. Headache. Neck hurts. Hands ache. Low back throbbing. Rt hip aches. Arms ache. Legs ache. Lower lft leg burning ring just above ankle. Toes tingle and burn. Chest center aches. Tongue tied – trouble saying what I’m thinking. Angry. Easily irritated. Upper back stings. Tired. Easily fatigued.

 

Oct 24

720a in much pain!! I just want to cry . Very rough night. Very little sleep. Rt calf cramping and spasming with Charlie horse pain. Next came cramping & spasming in mid section. Chest hurts horribly with mild icy sensation and burning pain around edges. Hands throbbing. Bad headache. Sinuses congested. What sleep I did have was filled with bad dreams. Please let me get some restful sleep.

I don’t understand bc I purposefully read scripture before falling asleep.

Hands numb and tingly. Hurts to move.

830 Joe sweetly decided to make a nerve pain rub to help ease my pain. He decided to try on my foot first then as it worked decided to rub and massage into both my calves. Thinks I’m having flair up bc of the bad weather coming today.

1030 the pain rub helped ease pain enough to allow me to fall asleep for about an hour and half. Calves still hurt bad but I’m at least able to walk some.

1115 sitting on couch I hear rumbling noises. Decide to listen intently to hear where they’re coming from. They’re coming from my belly!

Oct 19

129 lft ear ringing.

330p BP 113/83 I’m hesitant about taking Lyrica for my nerve pain. Checked drug interaction online with other prescribed rxs. I so wish I had a medical person I could ask bunch of questions that I trust.

 

https://www.drugs.com/interactions-check.php?drug_list=1937-2171,3362-15526,1956-0

Not liking possible side effects…angioedeme – I’ve already had that problem with one of the blood pressure rx’s. Dr has to change It quickly. Feet & legs swelled quickly making it hard to walk. It was horrible and I haven’t even lost all the weight and have gained much since.

 

1125a saw fire truck and ambulance coming down rd. Pulled over even though four lanes. Didn’t realize they were stopping near us on opposite side rd. Apparently pick up lost control and flipped up hill hitting a chain fence and landed on its side. Couldn’t tell if anyone was still inside. Scary to think if we left just a few minutes before it might have been us in the accident. Prayed quick prayer for people involved. Shook me up.

245p let Jordon drive home. Bit shaken more than normal today. Do you know how hard it is to let your teen son drive and try to keep cool when you’re freaking out on the inside? Jordon is good driver don’t get me wrong. I get anxious now when Joe’s driving. I know I can quote Scripture like “What time I am afraid I will trust in the.” I know it’s me. I know it’s a result of my lightning strike. I know the Lord is my protector, but I somehow unconsciously am spazing out for lack of control. I just want to scream, duck for cover, run and hide somewhere. I can argue with myself until I’m blue in the face and pass out, but am I really doing myself any good. I think not. Do I know how to fix it? My only answer is meditate upon Scripture, listen to soothing music, and pray until my spirit has calmed enough to feel at ease once again.

330p reached out to old friend that deals with fibromyalgia. Asked her few questions. I’m really doubting taking drug the PCP prescribed for my nerve pain. I’m not liking the possible side effects – dizziness, drowsiness, constipation, weight gain. I already deal with those regularly. Then to complicate matters it has more possible side effects from interactions with other drugs I’m taking –  slow your heart rate. This can cause dizziness, or feeling like you might pass out, weakness, fainting, fast or irregular heartbeats caqay cause angioedema, a condition associated with swelling of the face, eyes, lips, tongue, throat, and occasionally also the hands and feet.

600 decided to walk to stop sign and back. Exercise suppose to be good.

830 exhausted and going to bed. Hurting all over. Feet touchy.

930p drink sleepy time tea

1000p getting very drowsy. See you in am.

Stinging needle pain ain from head to toe. Neck hurts. Hands swollen and throbbing. Lower let leg tourniquet tightening feeling with numbness.. Stinging left left foot and lower leg.

 

Oct 20

730 having trouble waking.today. in much pain all over. Trouble getting motivated to get up bc I hurt so much.

Bad headache. Neck hurts. Arms throbbing. Torso throbbing. Hands swollen and throbbing. Low back hurts. Legs ache. Feet sting and throb. Toes tingling. Muscles periodically and randomly spasming through body. Pain about 8/9 level.

848

Did you know neuropathy can lead to these problems?

Low blood pressure

Gastrointestinal distress

Chronic fatigue

915 decided to try drinking tea with 2 drops copabia oil & honey

Dizziness

330 Had kids work for 30 minutes cleaning up their rooms. Folded a load of laundry and put it away. Hung two suits. Jordon helped move my dresser to retrieve jewelry I dropped behind it. Horrified at how dirty it was behind there. Decided to vacuum.

Afterwards I’m in so much pain I want to cry. Laying down to rest for a while.

500p Thankful that Dezirae cooking dinner tonight. I’m not up to it.

800p decide to soak in Lavendar and copabia Epsom salt bath.

Watched movie called Healed by Grace.

It’s about a young lady who dreams to be a professional dancer but her life is changed drastically after a tragic accident. I cried through alot of it because I can resonate with the girl due to my having a brain injury.

https://youtu.be/j3fYgQgNsu0

While I don’t question “why?” as I had been praying for God to enlarge my coast, I do have multiple levels of healing I struggle with daily. I do have my moments of meltdown and ask God to please shew me what He wants me to learn through all of this. I do agree that God’s plans are not mine and I’m thankful for how much He has enlarged my coast and the many people I’ve been able to help along the way.

 

Oct 21

530 Joe decided we’d go work on cleaning out the SS Bldg some. I did my best to help. Joe told me to not do too much bc he didn’t want me to hurt myself.

1000p strange dream. Hurt little less but still in much pain. Nerves stinging thru body. Pain about a 7.

Hurt from head to toe. Took night meds. Forgot to take am meds. Took additional supplements plus naproxen and Tylenol. Drink sleepy time tea.

 

Oct 16

830 rough night.

10:00 in much pain – low back throbbing extremely. Headache. Hands swollen & throbbing. Tummy hurts. Stinging pain from neck to toes.

 

Oct 17

700a broken sleep but slept decent last night. Stiff and achy all over. Slight headache. Slightly nauceous. Ate few ritz crackers and sucked on ginger chew.

1150 suddenly feeling weak and like I’m going to pass out. Deciding to lay down a while.

1130p bulletins finally printed. JDS helped fold them. Low back killing me. Hands stinging and throbbing. Lips dry. Thirsty. Not drink enough today. Don’t remember taking am meds but apparently, I did. Night meds taken + naproxen. Headache. Neck hurts. Skin itchy and. Sensitive. Exhausted. Upper back stinging. Lft ankle has tourniquet tightening feeling.

 

Oct 18

715 overslept. Headache. Strange dream (trying to help a mother find special needs boy that ran off ended up rescuing a kidnapped baby) Amber alert on phone when I woke that two young kids 2 & 6 were abducted locally.   Hurts to move. Whole body stiff and aching.  Stepped down off bed and it hurt to walk like ankles bones broken and stabbing ice picks in my feet. Eased by time I made it to bathroom but made it difficult to walk at first.

Stressed trying to get ready. Joe does his best to help.

900a arrive at church. Have kids help to get ready. Remembered I forgot to print SS book. Haven’t had chance to practice special music. Running out of time. Had to tell an adult to change her attitude. Joe noticed and tried to help. Told him I’m just stressed to head.

1100 kids melt my heart when they come give me hugs & kisses and tell me they love me especially during fellowship time. It makes me mess up playing piano royally but I don’t mind for that reason.

100p exhausted from morning. Time for nap.

330p gotta get some stuff done. Computer frustrating me because no access to internet and word program won’t let me do anything until registration is complete. Ugh!

Work on pot holders instead. Had Dezirae put up updated newsletters.

745p Dezirae cooked dinner. I helped a little. Grilled cheese and mushroom soup.

1000p time for bed. Exhausted. Brain fogged. Vision blurred for evening service making it more difficult than normal to play piano. Hands and brain just doesn’t want to coordinate. I’m not up to fighting it. Only play one stanza for offertory. Give up tonight. Try again another day.

Hands swollen and throbbing. Center chest throbbing and stinging a bit. Low back aches. Exhausted. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling. Skin itchy. Jumpy. Muscles randomly spasming thru body. Feet and ankles chilly.

Oct 13

1000a able to sell chaise lounge within few hours of posting. Suppose to come tomorrow, Lord willing.

1230p have to sit a while my low back is killing me. Pumpkin zucchini bread in oven for tonight.

 

830p ladies mtg only had 3 in attendance. Good meeting though. Gave ladies a challenge to reach out to our missionary wives to be an encouragement. Also look for things they can help out with around church.

Not gonna deny that I was disappointed the other ladies weren’t there. In time I suppose.

1030 starting a vitamin regimen that’s suppose to not only help get good deep sleep but also lose weight. We’ll see.

 

Oct 14

700a not sure if I’m gonna handle 10mg melatonin. I had horrible nightmares.

Arms & hands numb. Hurts to move – everything so stiff and brittle feeling. Low back throbbing. Stuffy nose – allergies. Headache. Neck hurts.

Thank you, Lord, I woke another day. Help me to find grace for each hour and may my circle of influence be positive that I may bring honor & glory to You alone.

800 Hot or cold? Body temperature regulation is just another one of those weird migraine symptoms to add to the list. https://migraine.com/?p=108846

815p in much pain can’t seem to get comfortable. Tummy hurts. Nerves sting through body.

1100 drink sleepy time tea. No meds tonight. Tummy hurts too much. Sharp pain in low back & rt hip. Stinging needle pain thru body. Headache. Tired. Constipated.

 

Oct 15

630 woke to Joe still sleeping. Thinking He was suppose to leave soon for work. That wasn’t correct. He was suppose to have already left and be at work. He hates being late. Suggested he be thankful to wake another day.

I’m still very tired, but thankful I got more restful sleep once I feel asleep after midnight. Couple strange dreams. No nightmares. Deep throbbing pain to bones thru body, headache, fingers stinging, low back throbbing, stuffy nose, feet chilly. Rt hip bothering me. Muscles randomly twitching thru torso and legs.

Think I’ll sleep just little longer.

https://hormonesbalance.com/articles/10-natural-ways-to-boost-progesterone-balance-hormones/

1130 much pain in lower portion of body. Low back throbbing. Legs throbbing. Feet sting. Ankles throbbing. Hands swollen and achy. Lft hand numb.

Joe put his arm on my low back to show he loves me but it feels like a ton of bricks and hurts. Only able to take it for few minutes.

Oct 10

230 trip to Sam’s. Used wheelchair. Dezirae helped with shopping. I’m plumb exhausted. Need to rest a while.

400 actually feel hungry for a change.

430 Joe cooked dinner.

1030 feet freezing. Toes tingling. Lower lft tourniquet tightening feeling with tingling, legs throbbing, low back severely throbbing, rt hip aches, cramping in low back, hands swollen and throbbing, slight headache, constipated, stuffy

Noticed two bumps size of end of pencil eraser on lft side of neck. Put antifungal cream on them. Ringworm on neck & lft arm almost gone.

Took night meds. Hopefully melatonin will kick in soon.

 

Oct 11

700 rough night. Woke every two hours. When I woke at 6 Joe was rubbing my lower back. Upper back, shoulders, arms, hands, lower legs (below knees), & feet stinging burning pain. Making me feel agitated.

Thought I set alarm for 6:30, but apparently not. Ugh. Neck hurts.

Joe sweetly decided to help prep food for lunch today so I could focus on getting ready. Gave me hug too.

930 Joe decided to take time to brag on me for all I continue to try to do in spite of my ailments and pain. Embarrassing but nice to be thanked.

1000 Realized while playing SS song that I forgot the dessert for lunch today. I just want to fall apart. Lord help!

Do you know how hard it is to keep your composure when you’re falling apart inside?

Brain fog setting in making it difficult to focus and making me sleepy.

1100a oops. Just realized I haven’t taken morning meds. Part of my lack of energy.

1230p getting lunch prepared for us and our guests. I realize I also left the tortilla shells at home. I’m so embarrassed. The guys were already gracious enough to go buy desserts. I now have to go get tortilla shells. I am a mess today. This is only part of what can happen when I don’t get much sleep.

I did enjoy the fellowship.

I’m so scattered brained today. I guess that’s what happens when I get very little sleep the night before beside being emotional and wanting to hide.

245 I’m suppose to be sleeping right now bc I’m exhausted and need the sleep but my mind is going 100mph. Ugh. Deep breaths.

Stinging pain in arms and legs are unignorable.

645 vision & brain feels blurred. Rt hip throbs. Nerves sting. Neck hurts. Low back aches. Hands swollen.

 

Oct 12

500a woke from strange dream to hands numb and legs throbbing.

600 hands, arms, legs stinging needle pain. Sinuses congested. Eyes watery. Tummy aches. Feet cold but I’m hot. Low rt back throbbing. Tired.

 

https://www.healthline.com/health/neuropathy-supplements#takeaway

 

Need alpha lipoic acid 600mg (+?) a day to get relief from burning stinging pain.

Maximum strength nueropathy support formula $40/month supply. A bit pricey for my pocket right now.

 

800 having trouble waking up…im so. tired

 

130  https://www.vitalnutrients.net/blog/comparing-magnesium/

600 crashed for two hours. Woke to arms numb and hands throbbing. Feeling very weak.

724 I don’t feel well. Feeling very zapped and just blah. Think I overdid it today.

Tasks completed:

Managed to balance checkbook (takes me longer than it used to now).

Called Dr’s office & Publix re: Joe’s rxs

Called TBI re: new coordinator. Left msg. (This is concerning bc my old coordinator just set up brain testing for next month. Do. I have to start over again. Is apt still on? Lord, please turn this into a blessing.)

Called Ins Co. re: home & auto ins. (It didn’t even dawn on me that today was holiday until lady answered phone. Then I thought I was talking to answering service. Lady on other end cracked up laughing. I laughed with her but I bet she thought I was nuts. Lol. Hint: sometimes I think I am going nuts.

Washed 2 loads of clothes.

Grocery shopping for vitamins (only bought 1 of 5 needed), milk, butter, subs, & chips. Forgot about the a/c coil cleaner until I saw Home Depot. Had to stop in to get it. Must keep promise when I remember.

 

Once we got home, I was down for count. Thankful I chose subs for dinner. No energy to cook.

 

930 remembered we have ladies mtg tomorrow. Can I call in sick? Nope. Hopefully, I’ll feel better tomorrow. Refreshed lesson for little while. Brain hurts time to rest.

1030 I’m utterly exhausted. Touchy. Hurting from head to toe – pins & needles. Low back throbbing like toothache. Hands swollen & achy. Nose congested. Post nasal drip. Skin itchy. Night meds taken. Neck hurts. Shoulders sting. Ankles & feet sting. I need physical deep sleep rest and spiritual recharging. Can feel myself getting cranky. Stomach bloated and aches. Chest center burns.

Oct 7

530a slept halfway decent. Fought couple times to not fall off bed. Still tired.

630a stinging chilling pain in center of chest. It’s actually cold to the touch. Stinging pain in arms, legs, & feet. Slight headache. Legs throbbing. Hands swollen and throbbing.

Not sure I want to try the Lyrica. Don’t like possible side effects: drowsiness,  dizziness, dry mouth, constipation, difficulty concentrating, or weight gain may occur.

I’m already gaining weight. I don’t need to gain more. Plus you can’t just stop on your own. Dr has to wean you off it. Ugh!

655 hands and arms went numb & tingly.

900 finally managed to pull myself out of bed. It’s hard to get motivated in such pain. Took am meds.

1050 brain hurts after working on blog for while. Chilly tingly from neck down spine, hands throbbing, legs freezing to toes – covering up with blanket to warm up. Eyes feel blurry.

1100 put dinner in crockpot – potato corn chowder with ham.

1230 going to sit with LM while Rae cleans. Actually cooked lunch. Googled how to cook meat (hamburger steak). Don’t recall if I ever cooked them. Seems fairly easy.

Asked me to run to store for her as well. Love helping people when I’m able.

445 not feeling the corn chowder. Smell turns my taste buds off. Joe offers to bring home dinner. I gladly accept. Call Mom to see if she wants the chowder. She informs me she’s been sick to stomach all afternoon. Offer ginger capsules and chest to help. Jordon helps carry crockpot over. They are thankful. God had a purpose though I knew not why.

1030 tried to watch Pence/ Harris debate. Harris not answering questions…skirting issues. Pence keeps getting cut off after a minute instead of two, and Harris has two full minutes. You can see the hate Harris has towards Pence – if you don’t like him at least show respect for his position. Makes my nerves on fire. Had to change channel.

 

Headache, neck hurts, hands swollen and tingly. Nerves sting in back, arms, legs, & feet. Toes tingly. Tired. Muscles randomly spasming thru body. Constipated. Tummy hurts. Skin itchy all over.

 

Oct 8

1059p almost forgot to journal today. Home alone till noonish. Both kids had jobs today. Didn’t sleep well last night. Slept til 8am. Whole body achy and stiff. Hurts to move.

 

Managed to wash load of rugs. Fold load of clothes from yday. Attempted to vacuum livongroom but arms fatigued out and had to rest before I could wrap cord and put away. Once rested wrapped cord and arms cramped so I had to rest more. Used Instapot to brown beef for dinner. At church managed to take bulletin board down.

 

Whole body hurts. Feet & toes freezing on outside & icy to touch but feel like burning inside. Arms, legs, and feet stinging burning pain. Headache. Center of chest throbbing. I’ve overdone it.

 

 Oct 9

830 rough night. Pain in chest kept me awake. Woke myself moaning couple times. I hurt something aweful all over. Stinging needle pain in hands and arms. Center of chest throbbing. Low back throbbing. Legs ache to bones. Neck and upper back throb. Feel like I was beat up. Stinging needle pain in back.

1100 stopped at store to get few items after Joe’s Dr apt. Joe touched me and it shocked me. He rubbed his hands together saying he shouldn’t shock me again. Wrong! He touched me in middle of my back and it shocked worse that before! I hollered “Don’t touch me. It hurts.”

Just as I said that I was walking near an employee who gave me a rather strange look. To which I responded, Its okay. I was struck by lightning and every time I’m in the store when people touch me it electrocutes me and it hurts something aweful.

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Body can feel barometric pressure change from Hurricane Delta. I hurt from head to toe deeply.

Foods that fight inflammation:

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930 going to bed. I’m exhausted. Hurt deeply and much. Eyes heavy. Chest center throbbing.

Positive notes: 1. it’s only going to cost about $21 to get Rae’s violin fixed so I am able to keep that promise. Thank you, Jesus. 2. I’ve lost 1 pound this week.