Category: My Healing Journey

Nov 17

500a woke with song on mind but forgot tune as soon as I was awake enough to realize it. Suddenly nauceous and tummy hurts. Sinuses congested.

530 had to make quick run to bathroom. Think 6k Vitamin C is my bowel tolerance right now. Ugh. Not sure why I’m nauceous.

Exhausted. Cold (it’s 68 inside). Feet cold. Put socks on.

550 took ginger capsule and going back to bed. Whole body aches. Lft side hurts like I got punched. Eyes watery. Middle of back cramping. I’m tired. Need more sleep.

558 suddenly have indigestion. Ugh. Rubbed pain relief oil on belly. Center of chest hurting.

843 nauceousness has eased. Tummy hurts little bit. Chest hurting more. Very tired.

1155 chest center really starting to hurt more. Took naproxen.

1215 spoke with nurse about costochondritis flare up. Will talk with Dr to see how she wants to proceed. If don’t hear from her, check with pharmacy after 5pm.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3384935/

230 called pharmacy. Hate not knowing. Pharmacy said rx is ready for pick up. Dr called in prednisone 20mg for 7 days. Will pick up on way home from Sam’s.

400 I’m wore out and hurting from shopping trip. Kids did the lifting for me. No wheelchairs available & to out of stock again. Glad I bought mine last week. Chest really hurting. Hurts to breath deep. Headache worsening. Almost lost my balance coming out of store. Grabbed Dezirae’s arm to steady myself.

1017 exhausted. Moderate headache. Neck hurts. Rt ear rang periodically off and on. Arms ache. Hands swollen and throbbing. Tummy hurts. Upper back & shoulders ache.  Rt hip hurts. Legs throb. Lft ankle tourniquet tightening feeling. Chest stabbing throbbing pain. Hurts to breath deep. Tender spots on abdomen especially lft side. Feet throbbing tingling stinging pulsating pain. Toes hurt. Sinuses congestion. Tongue has white patches with few open wound loking sores. Skin itches.

Nov 18

550a didnt sleep well last night. Tossed & turned. Joe woke me at 430a not on purpose. He started to rub my back and it startled me out of sleep.

930a picked oranges. I like oranges. Looking forward to making orange marmalade again. Will have to look up how to make it again.

1000a feeling a little better today. It’s nice not having constant sharp stabbing pain in chest as much. If only I can get the nerve pain to stop too. I’d feel like a new me. Hehe.

500 low back throbbing like infected toothache. I have to sit and rest. Can’t take pain no more.

530p fell asleep in chair after dinner. Couldn’t go no more.

800p slight bloody nose. Headache.

1000p whole body stiff and achy. Headache.  Neck hurts. Eyes sensitive to lights. Shoulders ache. Arms& hands throbbing. Hands tingling. Rt side throbbing & cramping with crampy pain radiating to center of back. Rt hip throbbing. Low back throbbing. Legs pulsating ache. Feet hurt & tingly. Nose slightly bloody. Throat tickles like something stuck. Tongue feels tingly & achy. Rt inner ear itches & tingly. Skin feels like it’s starting to crawl.  Night meds taken + pain rx.

Nov 14

700 woken to light being turned on. Still very tired and hurting all over.  At least chest pain has eased.

1130 soul winning has exhausted me more. Good visits.

1240 feel like I’m about to crash. Need to rest a while.

330 didn’t plan on sleeping that long. I’m still very tired. Feel like I could sleep longer. Zero energy. Body feels like it’s on shut down. Guess I’ll just rest today.

1150 much pain. Believe having a costochondritis flare up. Very painful. Effects sleep

Nov 15

600 woken to Joe rubbing my back. Apparently I’ve been moaning in pain every time I tossed and turned.

My whole body hurts. Headache. Neck hurts. Arms & hands ache. Hands swollen. Low back throbbing. Rt hip throbbing stabbing pain. Legs stinging throbbing. Eyes watery. Feet stinging needle pain w/ tingling. Shoulders ache. Upper back stings. Slight bloody nose.

800 chest pain returned. Oh, I struggle to focus in this much pain. Forgot what I was doing in kitchen. Joe trying to plan for Thanksgiving. Excited about deep frying a turkey. Asked to allow me to focus just on today please. I’m suppose to sing today and I can’t even remember the song or even the tune.

830 remembered a sign a friend shared on FB last night. I actually thought to save it but struggled remembering how to retrieve it. Found it but don’t know it well enough to sing it. Remembered I had practiced it Thursday and have it set aside at church.

1100 brain is a bit cross eyed and blurry. Trouble getting brain, fingers, and eyes to coordinate. Eyes hurt.

E.I. excited about Ladies Cookie exchange next month. She said that she never made cookies before. She’s in her 60s! She asked for an easy cookie recipe.

200 laying down to rest

Nov 16

Took extra C last night to see it’d help. Actually woke in less pain than I fell asleep. Still very sore and ache all over.

 

430 figure out why my Costochondritis has flared up. Been having to hand wring clothes from washer and hanging to air dry. Hence, reason I’ve had to limit how many loads a day. Joe suggests it may be helping to rebuild muscles that I lost. Possibly but it hurts too.

 

530 noticed last few days that my stomach gets fully feeling.quickly and hurts after I eat.

1130 exhausted from today. Washed 2.5 loads today. Needed to wash sheets. Hung on line to dry mostly. Had kids take the rest of clothes down and put in dryer.

Whole body aches and stings. Chest center throbbing. Hands swollen and stinging throbbing. Headache. Rt hip throbbing. Skin itchy.

Took night meds, naproxen, & extra C.

Nov 12

630 woke to get up with Dezirae. I’m still so tired. Feel like I could sleep for days.

She realized trash hadn’t been tsken out. Had to quickly get trash out to can. Pick up is today.

I ache from head to toe. Stretched and chest popped – that hurt.

1030 worked on uploading my lasts post to my blog. It took me a while to remember how to do some of the stuff. Really wish I had a tutor or something that was affordable. Need to rest. Brain hurts and body throbbing. Chest has stabbing knife pain with icy burning in back.

Able to get two loads of clothes washed. Had to hand wring first load. I’m thankful washer at least washes clothes. It’s temperamental on the wringing out part. Don’t like doing it bc my hands, arms, & back throb something aweful for while afterwards.

130 checked blog for something. Noticed I had 24 views today. Praise the Lord!

200 laying down for nap. Feel crash oncoming. I don’t really know how to explain. Extreme exhaustion with slow moving sensation like body if forcing shut down. If I don’t lay down or sit down soon I’ll pass out.

There’ve been a few close calls that as I was laying down I passed out. Like a sudden crash and going unconscious. It can be a bit scary at times.

330 finishing putting dinner together. Chest caught causing extreme pain!!! and stopping me in my tracks (not that I was moving very fast). I just moan but want to cry. Taking pain rx and Tylenol.

530 dinner turned out better tonight – slow cooker shepherd’s pie. I could only eat one plate before my stomach started hurting.

I was wanting to do something’s around church tonight but I feel so lethargic and hurt miserably. Laying down in nursery instead.

1155 gone to bed but awake. Back throbbing. Body aches. Hands & wrists hurt and swollen. Neck hurts. Exhausted. Feet throbbing and have stinging needle pain

 

Nov 13

800 woke hurting something aweful. Every inch of me hurts. Hurts to move. Headache. Arms & hands numbish & tingling. Back lightly stings. Low back throbbing. Tailbone area screaming pain – feels like I fell on it hard or was hit with 5lb lead hammer. Feet stinging and tingling. Chest feels tight, swollen, and achy.

Joe has migraine. Asked for migraine relief pill. Apologized because he had rough night with cramping and may have hit me couple times in night. Says he accidentally woke me couple times but I have no recollection of it.

334 laying down for bit. Crash oncoming. Severe stabbing pain in center of chest. Have to get up, bend over as if trying to touch toes. Chest pops and pain eases slightly.

1100 exhausted. Extreme pain in center of chest. It freezes me in motion…hurts to move. Hurt from head to toe but chest pain exceeds all the spian presently.

Believe I’m having a costochondritis flare up. Just want to cry but it hurts too much.

https://www.healthline.com/health/sternum-pain

Took Naproxen & applied pain roller to chest area. So tired

Nov 10

700a woke up late. Thought for sure I set my alarm but I either hit snooze too much or didn’t set it. Ugh. Made sure I read my daily passage but will have to do my quiet time later.

800 said prayer before heading to dentist. Have to go on highway to downtown. I do not like driving the interstate. I avoid it if at all possible.

930 Dentist appts went well. Kids both have cavities. Jordon actually had several filled today. Dr & staff very friendly and put all our minds at ease. Dezirae even likes this dentist better. Thank you, Lord.

145 Dr appts went well. I’m flat exhausted. No energy at all.

400 crashed in chair in livingroom but feel like I’m about to crash again. No energy.

Dezirae made dinner. She wants me to teach her to make a pumpkin pie from scratch. Words that pleases this mom’s heart.

700 Ladies Mtg went well. Only two other ladies showed up. At least I’m not teaching myself. Challenged them to invite another lady next month plus we’ll do a Christmas cookie exchange.

 

Sinuses congested. Feels like hayfever or sinusitis. Skin itches and nerves feel like they’re crawling. Headache. Neck hurts. Eyes sensitive to lights. Back throbbing. Low rt back burning. Legs throbbing. Hands stinging throbbing. Feet stinging needle pain throbbing with tingling. Exhausted but awake.

Night meds & pain rx taken.

Nov 11

800 started cooking scrambled eggs on stove. Went to look for something in pantry (don’t remember what) Found something in pantry that should be somewhere else. Went to put it away. Found myself straightening in my room. Smelled the eggs cooking and realized I forgot them. Back to kitchen to find them in omelette form and ready to flip. I couldn’t do that intentionally when I try. At least I didn’t burn them.

900 bills paid for 1st half of month.

1000 decided to work on straightening boys room some while Dezirae works on math.

323 can’t push anymore..gonna crash for whole. Whole body hurts. Back sting chilling burning in middle. Hands and wrists stinging. Neck hurts. Light rain off and on today.

436 Joe called to let me know he was on way home. Scared me awake…scared me anyways. Trouble waking. Need to start dinner. I could sleep longer soo tired.

530 didn’t do so hot on dinner. I tried my best but it was mediocre. Families comments hurt my feelings. I know my feelings on my sleeves rather than lash out I chose to go pout outside on bench side of house. Needed to be alone. Felt like crying but was too tired to. I get easily emotional when I’m beyond exhausted. Cried in my heart to God telling Him my woes.

After a bit family came looking for me. Joe talked with me a bit. Joe thought it was funny I went outside to pout.

Little while longer went back inside. It was muggy outside anyways. Kids apologized. Told them I thought it better to go pout by myself than make a scene.  I just need a good night’s sleep and a lot of rest.

Whole body hurts. Hands and wrists swollen and throbbing. Trouble thinking straight. Headache. Rt ear itches inside. Skin prickly stings in some places (hands, face, butt, thighs). Joe’s arm feels like lead ballon, but I need his touch. Legs ache. Feet hurt and tingle sting.

 

Oct 30

730 woke from strange perplexing dream.  Whole body throbbing. Torso stinging. Arms tingly. Slight headache. Center of chest hurts like I pulled a muscle lifting too much.  Feet are chilly but rest of body hot.

815 The best way to warm your heart on a dreary day is to tuck memory verses in the corners of your heart .

845 kava is natural remedy for anxiety?

https://bebrainfit.com/kava-anxiety/

1000 I’m totally stressing over what documentation is needed for Jordon’s driving test today.

1128 Joe went to cook brunch for us but discovered that our stove isn’t working. Ugh!  At least we have instapot, crockpot, & grill to use.

1200p called pc repair shop to check on laptop. They haven’t gotten the part in yet. Ugh!

130 Joe texts me to let me know bc of covid the DMV won’t let parents inside bldg for the registration process. What!? He’s a minor that’s horribly wrong. I knew he’d take the driver test by himself but parent not be allowed in bldg. That’s wrong!!!

Then he informs me he’s suppose to Lysol his car down before taking test. You can’t even find Lysol spray on store shelves right now. This is ridiculous.

400p Chuck came over to check our stove. Discovered that outside breaker was killed during power surge…only producing 110watt instead of 220. Guys going to Lowe’s to get new breaker thing (mind went blank) to change it out.

500 This day is such a blurb. Nerves are telling me they’re stressed out. Need to lay down a piece.

800 decided to try the Lyrica to see how I react to the medicine & hope it helps. I’d much rather go natural route, bit I’m also tired of hurting all the time.

Hiccuping and burping periodically thru day. Three bms this morning.

Exhausted. Pins & needles sensation from bottom of neck to toes. Hands throbbing. Congestion off and on most of day. Mixing up of words & sayings.

I.e. one little two little three little Indians…now hear the word of the Lord. Can’t remember the other ones but kids gave me lots of weird looks then did you mean ….?

1136 exhausted. Dosed off while praying and jerked awake. Hot in part of body but cold in feet and toes. Headache. Skin itches. Chest aches.

 

Oct 31

730 had set alarm to take second lyrica pill. Fell quickly back to sleep.

930 can’t believe I slept this long. Stinging needle pain has eased. Whole body aches. Entire back burning throbbing. Sat up in bed and got very dizzy. Room feels like it’s spinning…not good. I cant take this drug. Ugh! Left hand tingling like it’s waking from sleep.

1000 Joe informs me that I was mean in middle of night to him. Said he rolled over to get close to me and rub my back but I yelled at him to stay on his own side. He asked what he did wrong. I didn’t answer. He asked again. I replied I’m hurting then rolled over and fell back to sleep. All I could do was laugh at what he told me.

Told him I couldn’t take the Lyrica bc it’s making me really dizzy, but the stinging needle pain has eased. He replied well you have to decide which one you’d rather have. I told him neither.

Joe got up and gave me two ginger pills to combat the dizziness.

1020 the cat jump up on my bed and laid in my lap and started purring for me to let her. She sat there for couple minutes then was done.

My eyes feel cross eyed.

530 craving stuffing and I don’t like stuffing. Weird. Wonder what my body is trying to tell me.

Carb cravings can be a sign you’re low in the amino acid tryptophan.

‘The body needs this to synthesise the mood-regulating brain chemical serotonin,’ explains Dr Lowe.

‘A lack of it can lead to low mood, anxiety and problems sleeping.

TRY: Upping your protein intake may help curb your carb cravings — and improve your mood.

Good sources of tryptophan include turkey, milk, eggs, cashews, walnuts, cottage cheese and bananas.

730 decided to take a bath. Concerned I may fall if I try a shower. Boy, what a work out. Took me 30+ minutes and now I’m exhausted.

All the movies Joe’s picked out today are annoying me something fierce and they don’t usually bother me. Still not feeling myself…dizzy and uneasy feeling. Stinging nerve pain is intensifying. Out of breath and need to rest

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2721369/What-choccy-cravings-trying-tell-not-mention-yearning-cheese-meat-rice.html

Dizzy most of day.

1130 p exhausted. Chest & arms hurt from try to clean tub before my bath. Still trying to catch my breath all the way. Hands achy and swollen. Low back throbbing. Legs ache. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling with numbness & tingling to toes. Congested.

Managed to make chocolate chip muffins. Having homemade bisquick mix helps a bunch. Feet pain pulsating. Headache. Random periodic spasming in legs. Neck hurts.

 

Oct 28

12:15 still awake. Trouble getting comfortable. Legs restless. I’m almost to point of crying.

Three things I’m thankful for…1. My family, 2. God’s Holy Word, 3. God’s unconditional love.

745 head pounding. Body freezing. Getting under covers to warm up. Tired.

800 research if you & body temperature irregulation can be related. Yes it can – due to damage to hypothalamus dysfunction.

Found a brain injury blog

https://www.brainline.org/story/hidden-secret-brain-injury-hypothalamus-dysfunction

*caution there is much foul language which I don’t like.

An egg is one of two perfect foods; it has all the essential amino acids and all the essential fatty acids that our bodies can’t synthesize but require for good functioning and repair plus the latter are needed by the skin for elasticity and moisture. Drink ice water; suck on ice. I tend to push myself, but the fatigue from the brain injury often managed to stop me cold. Pain hurts; fatigue incapacitates.

Note to self: research hypothalamus function & parasympathetic function (these ring bells but not certain why)

825 eating two eggs with red pepper flakes in am to jump start metabolism.

It took 30+ minutes for me to warm up enough to escape the covers. Feet still cold & I feel a bit chilly. Putting on socks.

900 need to work on Dezirae’s grades today. Washed one load of clothes. Bleaching the ring around the tub. Goal today is begin cleaning bathroom. It’s filthy to me. Refilled foam soap dispensers in house & put thieves oil for disinfection.

400 very lethargic feeling and in much pain. Hurricane Zeta about to pound our area tonight. Need a nap.

615 crashed for almost two hours. Woke in time to make dinner. Feel like I could sleep longer. Pain from head to toes.

830 lights flickered

851 stranger yet…lights flickered and half of power went out. Stayed off for about 15 minutes then came back on except window A/C in livingroom.

906

I do not like storms Sam-I-Am.

I do not like them here or there.

I do not like them anywhere.

Why? It causes changes in the barometric pressure.

This in turn causes me extreme pain and fatigue more than I deal with on a normal basis.

While I’m not in favor of the extra pain, I do thank God for the pain because it reminds me that I’m still alive and God has a purpose to everything under the sun .

Praying all my friends and family stay safe during Hurricane Zeta

1030 suddenly extremely hot and clammy feeling. whole body stings in pain. Low back throbbing. Hands throbbing. Skin itches. Toes tingly. Chest center hurts. Shoulders hurt. Ears hurt. Rt ear ringing.

Drank cup of sleepy time tea. Took night meds plus vitamins. Took naproxen & Tylenol.

 

Oct 29

750a tossed and turned a lot last night. Strange dreams, but slept hard when I did sleep.

Whole body stiff and hurting. Entire back stings. Hands, arms, and legs tingly. Slight headache. Tummy hurts.

Power flashed a few times during Hurricane Zeta but we still have power this morning. Praise the Lord.  Lots of debris all over yard.

1000 decided to work on my blog for little bit.

1215 my parents invited us over for lunch. Sweet.

124 forgot to take morning med/vitamins and I can tell. I’m dragging. Took meds/vitamins. Laying down to rest little while.

200 feeling hot again. Jordon says skin feels clammy.

324 feeling nauceous. Sucking on ginger chew

1145 tired in pain. Headache. Neck hurts. Back hurts. Hands and arms tingling. Hands throbbing. Legs ache & burn.