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Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 22-24 December 2020

Dec 22

https://draxe.com/health/raynauds-syndrome/

Tummy hurts, urine darkening, low grade fever, general feeling of unwellness. Think I may have start of uti. Indigestion.

Headache, eyes watery, sinus congestion, random numbness and tingling in arms & legs, muscles ache, nerve pain, feet chilly. Going to bed early 930

Dec 23

Crazy day. Joe got off work early so he and Dezirae could leave sooner to go pick up Jakob & Bri for Christmas at our house.

Shortly after they left I went to pick up Jordon from work and do the grocery shopping. Took about hour and half even with Jordon helping. Walked behind buggy bc no wheelchairs. My rt hip is killing me!

I’m exhausted and in much pain. Suppose to be a thunderstorm some time after midnight. Nerves sting thru body. Nerves in legs also feel like on fire! Skin itches. Headache. Neck hurts. Lights bothersome. Low back throbbing. Feet sting.

Took night meds and naproxen 500mg.

Dec 24

245a woke to strange noise. Soon learned it was thunder and lightning. Nerves jumped into fight or flight mode. Emergency notice on phone indicates we are under tornado watch until 11am. Make me feel uneasy. Got up and checked house from inside. Praying for God’s safety. “What time I am afraid I will trust in thee” begins to repeat in my head.

I’m so tired. Think I’ll try to fall back asleep. Rt hip screaming pain. Lft arm & hand numbish & tingly.

Rain eased around 8 or 9am. Whole body throbs.

Took shower and noticed some how I skinned my knee recently and don’t remember doing so?? It’s bleeding and needs a bandaid. Made it longer in shower before arms started cramping and giving out. Progress is good. Still wore out after shower. Have to rest a bit before moving on to next project.

Enjoying being home alone today. Pacing myself so I can enjoy Christmas day. Finished the Hawaiian.salad. worked on picking up house more. Made pumpkin cheesecake. Dinner in crockpot. Worked on bulletin some. Listen/ watch Christmas movies. All of that wore me out to near passing out. Laid down about 230.

Joe & gang arrived home around 3pm.

755 trouble keeping place while playing Christmas hymns. Frustrating. Face feels flushed and hot. Headache.

1157 in bed before midnight save three minutes. Haha. I’m exhausted and hurting from head to toe. Cinnamon rolls in fridge for morning. Plan on getting up around 7am to do personal devos before activities begin. I forgot to grab the manners and customs book at church for my Bathsheba study. Did remember everything else though. Back stinging. Head pounding. Hands & rt hip throbbing. Random muscle spasms in tummy. Tummy not hurting as bad. Started taking AZO cranberry & C capsules for possible UTI. Already starting to feel better.

Discovered that three of my prescription meds cause weight gain. I’m tripled wammied. Ugh

Thank you, Lord, for Your sacrificial gift.

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Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 19-21 December 2020

Dec 19

Woke to extreme pain! Whole body stings. All muscles and joints stiff like they’re rusting. Low back throbbing. Hands and arms numbish and tingling. Massive headache. Lights bothersome.

Need to stretch it out to get moving.

Decided to take most of day to rest. Much pain today so not able to do much today anyways.

Washer quit working altogether. Appliance store won’t have any more until Monday afternoon. Can’t afford a brand new one. Praying for God to provide.

Center of chest has been popping off and on all day. Now it hurts horribly. Need to take anti inflammatory. I’m limited in my function so I don’t get what’s triggering it. Maybe changing dryer vent to indoors yday but I didn’t do any lifting or lift arms above head. ???

Headache moderate. Hands swollen and throbbing. Shoulders ache. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Legs ache. Feet freezing.

Trimmed two inches off my hair before showering. Couldn’t stand it anymore. Showering still a chore. Arms cramping. Slight dizzy spell. Legs felt weak. Need socks on feet. Sharp pains in tummy area periodically today. Tummy muscles spasming.

Dec 20

Woke tired and hurting. Bad headache. Tummy hurts. Feels very bloated. Ugh.

Had fun helping in nursery today. Trying to teach little one to use ASL for please and thank you. He’s slowly getting it.

Trouble following music today. Brain/ vision feel blurry and swirly.

1215 Joe says my face is flushed & red. Felt forehead to see if I had fever. No.

Left side of chest hurting. Exhausted. Feet freezing. Nerves sting. Sinuses congested. Face starting to feel like it’s on fire.

Took two hour afternoon nap. Could’ve slept longer but pain was too much. Sharp pain in left side chest starting to concern me. Tried to tell Joe but it didn’t I come out right. He in mtgs for couple hours. Feeling worse. +

Dec 21

Woke at 6am from strange dream. Dreamt I was getting a strange deep tissue massage on lft side. Woke during dream feeling like I was sleeping on fluffy cloud and felt rested and relaxed.

Whole body aches and stings. Both arms numbish and tingling.

Decided to put up some canning jars. Ended up cleaning out fridge. Wrapped 90% of presents. Need couple more presents and all will be well.

800p went outside to look for the “Bethlehem Star” with family. Two hands width away from partial moon. It’s in our southwest sky. It’s been 800 years since it was last seen!

Tickles my funny bone bc in Bible the Wise men looked for star in the East, but it’s in our southwest sky.

1030 trying to finish reading bible passage for today – Revelation 12-17. Page on Bible app looks as if page is rippling as I scroll up making it difficult to read. Making me dizzy.

Have bad headache. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Neck hurts. Muscle spasms in tummy. Legs ache. Feet hurt. Exhausted. Hands swollen and throbbing. Skin itchy. Back feels clammy yet chilly freezing sensation. Lft chest hurts..

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Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 16-18 December 2020

Dec 16

Slept pretty good though had several weird dreams

Can’t seem to keep my days straight lately. Prepping for church Christmas party but randomly thought today was Tuesday instead.

Need to help Dezirae with Math. I do not like math anymore. That makes me sad and frustrated. Gonna have to slow down the lessons bc she’s not getting it. She really needs a tutor.  Two math lessons has given me a headache, blurred vision, and made me very tired.

1200p retrograde amnesia?  Center of chest lft side burning and aches through to left shoulder and upper back.

800 Christmas party went well. My sausage peppers wontons were a hit. Out of 58 there’s only 13 left. I’m exhausted. Back & upper shoulders stinging. Body aches.

822 I’m done for the day

1030 exhausted and hurting all over. It’s chilly in house. 39° outside. Shivering in my skin. Neck hurts. Congested. Eyes watery. Head hurts with throbbing pain on rt side. Low back throbbing. Tummy aches. Feet throbbing. Muscles randomly spasming through body.

Dec 17

800 slept hard. Several strange dreams I couldn’t get out of. Whole body fiercely aches deep to bones. It hurts to move. I could sleep longer.

Read Deuteronomy 29-31

Hands and arms keep going numb and tingling. Low back throbbing. Sinuses congested.

930 took morning meds and 1/2 dropper cbd oil subliminally. Decided to wash boys clothes. Ended up trying to clean up their room a bit in hopes that Jakob will be able to come home for Christmas.

1030 Mom came over to help me pick up the house some. I was grateful.

1200 exhausted and ready to rest a while.

200 decided to work on blog a little while. Bad headache ensues. Neck hurts. Low back throbbing. Thinking feels blurry & foggy. Put dinner on in Instapot. Laying down for little while to rest back and brain.

530 face feels flushed and hot. Neck hurts. Headache moderate.

700p face feels like it’s on fire. Mentioned it to Joe. Joe says it looks like it feels hot bc it’s really red. Trouble focusing playing piano. Hands throbbing and starting to feel hot.

Exhausted. Trouble thinking straight. Whole body stings and burns with pain. Skin itchy all over. Crashing.

Dec 18

3a woke tired and exhausted. Tossing and turning. In much pain and can’t seem to get comfortable.

7a woke to use restroom. Exhausted. Whole body throbbing in pain. Eyes leaking .

8a need to get out of bed and heat the house up to take chill off. It’s 57° inside/and 39° outside currently. Will turn venting around on dryer to help heat inside. Ended up cleaning behind dryer. Took me longer than expected. Putting purification oil in the water base to purify air and make house smell good.

1100a chest and body hurting strongly. Overdid it.

1120a temp now 63° inside. Mid & Low back icy burning sensation.

430 exhausted. Need to rest a while.

1050 night times are tough. Just as I’m laying in bed and beginning to relax my nerve start hurting worse to sometimes almost makes me want to scream.

Bad headache most of day. Seen few pictures of what a migraine sufferer may see. It was weird to see bc that is what I try to explain when I say my brain and vision feels like it’s blurring. Apparently, I’m having migraines more often than I thought.

Whole body itches. Tummy feels so bloated it might explode. Gas bubbles keep moving back up my esophagus. It feels really weird but funny sounding too. Not sure how to explain the nerve pain tonight…l I e a million nerve fiber endings are exploding and shooting sharp needles thru my skin from inside out. It’s rather unnerving (not correct verbage but the correct word escapes me right now). Rt hip throbbing. Random muscle spasms thru body mostly legs and sides. Hands swollen and throbbing. Congested. Chest center aches.

Night meds taken. CBD 25mg sublingually.

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Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 13-15 December 2020

a woke in extreme pain!!! It hurts to think about moving. Woke to Joe rubbing my back. It feels good. Joe kindly gave me a massage with pain relief rub. It eased pain slightly.

Joe kindly gathered everything together for taking to church for our church family Christmas dinner. I’m moving slowly today. Joe had Dezirae help me roll my hair. I was in a hurry so after my arms rested a little. I told her to go get ready and I’ll finish. Took morning meds & pain rx.

200 morning services went well. I’m exhausted and wore out. Body is stinging throbbing. I need to crash.

500 Joe woke me from nap. Could’ve slept longer. I feel so weak, exhausted, and hurting.

1030 watched couple movies with family. Hardly moved. Headache. Extremely fatigued. Whole body throbbing pain.

Night meds taken, cbd capsule, and pain rx.

Night meds include: propranolol, magnesium, turmeric, zyrtec, fish oil, & vitamin c

Dec 14

600a woke to sharp stabbing pain in chest!! Applied pain roller liberally to cover chest. Laid back down. Eyes heavy and having hard time keeping them open. Fell back asleep.

As eo pain rub began working it almost felt like menthol working…like when you suck on menthol cough drop except in my chest. Weird but felt good.

700a chest pain has eased but whole body hurts and it’s hard to move. Standing feels like walking on egg shells. Ouch!

Read Revelation 7-11.

Washed three loads clothes. Had kids carry basket to clothes line and I hung two loads.

Decided to order 4×6 family photos to put in Christmas cards. Found 50% off coupon. Yay! Love finding deals.

Messaged Joe’s siblings to verify their addresses. Quickly learned that I’ve been out of the loop for the past three years. Kind of frustrating but funny too. I thought his one brother was still working on his house. Learned he’s been done for four years. Ouch!

600p took kids Christmas shopping. Store didn’t have what I wanted to get my person. Bummer. Had to look for something else. Had fun spending time with Joe. Had to get his input for 2nd gift for kids. Still have no idea what I’m getting him for Christmas. What he really wants is out of our budget. Also got the food items I needed for finger foods for our church family Christmas party on Wednesday. Want to attempt making Sausage Pepper Wontons. Looks simple. We’ll see.

830 I’m wore out. Legs are wobbly and throbbing. Walked behind buggy in store. Periodic sharp shooting pains in legs.

1030 remembered I was suppose to work on Christmas cards to put in mail tomorrow. Started working on them. Getting sleepy. Whole body aches moderately fierce. Only got 1 load clothes folded.

Night meds taken, pain rx taken, cbd capsule taken, eo pain roller applied to chest.

Dec 15

Joe called out today due to migraine. Whole body stiff and achy upon waking. Feet hurt to stand on at first.

Busy day. Dezirae had dentist apt. Next she treated us to get our nails done. Saw that Coffee monster was practically next door so I treated us to drinks. Stopped at Dollar Tree on way home.

Exhausted and hurting from running around decided to rest while watching movie. Only I had trouble sitting still bc of caffiene. Chose to work on cutting out thank you notes and bookmakers. Decided to make homemade breads

In much pain. Past. wore out.+

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Lightning Strikes Journal Entries 10-12 December 2020

Dec 10

600 slept pretty good last night. Feet feel like I’m stepping on broken glass. Body feels like it’s ridden with arthritis. Hurts to move.

Brain seems fairly alert right now. Haven’t felt like this in long time. Going to take advantage and work on blog.

650 practicing hymns before service. Brain blurring. Too many notes to follow. Hand, brain, and keys not coordinating. Headache intensifying.

740 feeling really sleepy all of a sudden. Ears ringing high pitch.

800p center chest starting to hurt bad. Overdid it at church working on putting up new bulletin board. Ugh. I felt half way decent and wanted to get done what I could. Low back throbbing bad too.

1045 exhausted but awake. Moderate headache. Took pain rx. Neck hurts. Back aches. Low back throbbing. Hands ache. Legs ache. Feet & ankles throbbing burning. Ear ringing has stopped. Throat feels swollen. Tummy hurts.

Also have had periodic feelings of being zapped as if being electrocuted. It last about a minute or two each time. Has happened handful of timea today. Weird.

Night meds/vitamins taken.

Dec 11

700 having had time waking up. Strange dreams. Eyes feel heavy. Headache. Neck hurts and has tingling burning slight chilled sensation. Shoulders are sore. Arms and hands numb and tingling – rt arm more prominent. Back throbs. Low back throbbing. Rt hip aches. Legs hurt and have random muscle twitching. Feet throbbing with numbness and tingling. Stuffy nose ( that’s now a constant first thing in am). Very thirsty with yucky metal taste in mouth.

In essence, I hurt all over this morning.

900 On Wednesday, I started drinking a breakfast milkshake with milk, D.E., chocolate syrup, chia seeds, & ice. I’m not usually hungry in mornings anyways. I find it easier to just drink something. Anyways, I have lost 3 lbs and 1 inch off my waist so far. Yay!

11a chiropractor apt. Treating my costochondritis areas today. Holy cow! Pressure points really hurt! Drew tears . Acupuncture – needles in both sides base of neck, both sides of upper chest, both sides of upper arms, and both wrists. I think total of 8. The one in rt wrist hurt the worst – felt zap all way to tip of index finger.

Adjusted wrists, neck, & upper back, & shoulders. Used adjusting tool to tap and adjust front of chest area – 4 spots.

Told him about the icy sensation in center of chest that radiates thru to back and it’s actually ice cold to the touch. He said his first thought was raynouds syndrome. Hmm. Interesting. Told him about my thumb turning white with no explanation and that neurologist mentioned raynouds but didn’t think so bc it only happened once.

Explained that reynauds doesn’t happen regularly and usually only in cold weather.

Told him icy sensation occurs when I lift my arms above my heart any length of time. It’s only been that way post LS. Checked shoulders out. Had me lift my arms slowly to ceiling. Pressed on upper back and shoulder areas while I raised them. Shoulders are fine. Feels it might just be a weakened muscle issue and need to work on rebuilding strength. Thinks it shouldn’t hurt to continue to use the muscles when I have icy sensation but to just rest as needed and gradually work those muscles to increase strength. He was surprised that I used to be able to lift 100lbs. Said I was a strong person. Lol.  Can now only lift 10lbs without hurting myself. Have 90 lbs to go. I’m to go back in three weeks.

https://www.healthline.com/health/raynauds-phenomenon#additional-symptoms

1027 I’m exhausted and hurting. Feel like I had a fight and lost.

Had to preserve a pumpkin today. Able to cut it in chunks. Got 1/3 of it processed and started wearing out. Had to figure something else out that was easier. Ended up canning the other 2/3. Had to ask for help with dinner – homemade pizzas.

Upper body throbbing horribly. Arms and hands throbbing. Low back throbbing. Legs ache. Fingers stinging. Skin itching.

Pm meds taken. Pain rx taken. Cbd capsule taken.

Dec 12

700 oh! I hurt something aweful. Feels like I was beat up badly and can hardly move. Lft side of throat hurts. Bad headache.

It feels as if it’s going to rain but weather on phone says its not.

100 play practice went ok. People don’t seems to have much Christmas spirit.

300 had to stop at store supplies for tomorrow’s Christmas dinner. Started feeling lightheaded midway thru shopping. Joe helped get us checked out. He’s a sweetheart.

400 I’m exhausted and feel a crash oncoming. Need to go lie down for a while.

530 crashed for more than an hour. Probably could have slept longer. Have no energy.

1150 whole body stings. Hands throbbing. Low back burning throbbing.  Lft lower leg from 2″ under knee down to toes tourniquet tightening feeling with numbness and tingl8. Feet cold.  Lft foot feels like it’s freezing but only chilly to touch.  Shoulders stinging.  Exhausted.  Feel warm.

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Lightning Strikes 7-9 December 2020

Dec 7

620 woke from deep sleep I think strange dreams. Thought it was later than it is. In much pain.

830 tingling sensation in back of head (covers entire back half of head) will chilling tingling sensation down spine. Both ears ringing.

1100 chilling stinging sensation in back penetrating thru body to front chest.

200p choked on water

330 Chemical compounds in foods can inhibit a key Sars-CoV-2 Enzyme

https://news.ncsu.edu/2020/11/food-chemical-compounds-can-inhibit-a-key-sars-cov-2-enzyme/

Decided to get few groceries before picking up Jordon’s rx. Took me 1.5 hrs and I still forgot things. Try again another day. Need to prep for ladies mtg tomorrow.

830 Dezirae & I tried our hand on new Christmas cookie – Peppermint Candy Spritz cookies. Didn’t turn out exactly the way we expected but they tasted good. We will tweak recipe a little next time.

I had to keep sitting down bc my back is hurting horribly tonight.

1100 crashing quickly. Exhausted and in much pain.

 

Dec 8

Woke at 6am excited about the Ladies Christmas Cookie Exchange. It’s freezing inside!. Actually it’s 64 and I feel like a popsicle almost. Back under the covers I go until I warm up a piece.

Will read my Bible. Today is 1 John 4 & 5. Read couple devotionals & pray. Check emails. Post verse to church Facebook & devotional tid bit to my page.

Helped Dezirae with Math. Well, I tried at least. Thankful for Teaching Textbooks. Couldn’t make it through without that. Math alone now hurts my brain and make me feel cross eyed. I have to rest a while afterwards.

For part of Home Ec, Dezirae helped me make Peanut Butter Blossoms. Had her do math by doubling the batch so I could have some for home too. She will also be cooking Shepherd’s Pie for dinner.

1230 middle of my back has icy burning sensation. Had Dezirae feel my back to make sure I wasn’t just imagining it. She said ideas freezing cold.

130 I’m exhausted and need a nap for tonight.

Dec 9

500a woke an hour earlier than I was suppose to bc I got my days mixed up. Ugh.

Reset alarm.

600 I’m exhausted and don’t want to get out of bed. Feet hurt upon standing. Whole body aches. Slept decent last night. Strange dream.

Have bad headache. It feels as if someone has pair of XL vice grips clamped on my head and is squeezing. Took 2 Tylenol.

700a decided to start straightening around house. Fleeting thought to attach dryer vent for heat in house but decided against it bc I didn’t want chest to hurt. I’m really putting off grading papers. This school year has been wacky & throwing me off mentally. I don’t like it.

1030 spent couple hours working on school stuff. Somehow Dezirae’s grades missing from 1st quarter. Can’t seem to find them. Thankfully, I have things on paper as well. Had to retype and save. Ugh. Brain hurting & vision blurring. Tingling in brain. Middle of back icy sensation and it’s making me cold. Turned heater on to take chill off in house. Need a blanket. Feet are cold even with socks on.

Exhausted. Feel like I’m going to crash.

1100 laid down on couch. Crashed quickly and slept for 20 minutes. Dezirae said I dell asleep fast and started snoring immediately. Lol. I have never fallen asleep that fast. Good thing I chose to lay down.

500 made twice baked spaghetti for dinner. It was a hit.

1030 I’m exhausted. Need my beauty sleep.8

Bad headache. Neck.hurts. Hands  throbbing. Back & rt hip throbbing. Legs ache. Feet tingling. Chilly burning sensation in middle of back moat of day. Ears ringing. Crashing soon.

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Lightning Strikes 4-6 December 2020

Dec 4

300 woke in extreme pain!!! Sharp stabbing pain in center of chest generates thru to back. Arms & hands burning throbbing.

Applied Vicks to chest & pain eo roller. Took pain rx. I just want to cry loudly :(.

Heated up heating pad to apply to chest. It hurts worse to lie down.

Sinuses acting up too. Took Tylenol sinus. Rt ear throbbing. Thunderstorm not helping either.

Took me over an hour for pain to ease enough that I could get comfortable to lay flat on belly to fall back asleep.

830 overslept but needed the sleep. Low grade fever gone. 98.3

1100p had decent day as long as I didn’t try to lift my hands/arms above my heart. Back on anti-inflammatory meds to ease Costochondritis again. Guess it’s going to take longer than I thought this time. So not the direction I want to be going in.

Started feeling hot around 6pm. Took temp around 8p. It’s. 99.7 – low grade for me.

Could stress be a factor?

Headache, neck aches, back aches, mid back rt side feels seized up and crampy, st hip throbbing, legs ache, legs keep moving, skin itches, hands swollen and throbbing, feet tingling and throbbing. Tired. Upper back stinging. Muscles in back randomly jumping/spasming.

 

Dec 5

900a our family delivered blessing bags to our local police & fire dpts. Have to make 12 or 14 more bc the one fire dept much bigger than last year. The last we delivered to was also hosting a car show and bbq plate fundraiser for a local resident that has cancer. We walked around looking at the cars, talking with the people, and passing out tracts. Joe did most of talking.

12p Wore me out. Thankful we could buy bbq plates bc I was exhausted and hurting.

Lazy day mostly rest of say. Did manage to jell my marmalade and can it. Tastes scrumptious.

600p bout of runs with tummy hurting. Not sure what caused it.

11p exhausted, tired, and hurting all over. Had to be careful to not move upper body too much or it’d hurt worse. Rest is important but so hard when my mind says I have too much to do.

Let’s just say I hurt from head to toes. Headache, neck hurts, rt ear hurts, hands swollen & throbbing, back stinging throbbing, chest hurts – mostly deep pain with periodic sharp stabbing pain, legs ache, muscle spasms randomly, feet stinging throbbing.

 

 

Dec 6

700 woke from strange dream but I can’t seem to recall details. Slight headache. Neck hurts. Whole body aches. Feel blah be humbug today. Need to shake it off.

Joe offered to get lunch prepared for today. Thankful bc I’m moving slow today.

Decided to curl my hair. Had to ask Dezirae for help about 3/4 way through bc my arms tuckered out. That’s progress.

115 lunch was delicious. Ate one plate and I’m stuffed. Tummy feels overfilled. Exhausted and chilly. Feet cold. Put socks on.

300p have lots to do but I’m so tired. Need energy.

Had Jordon help me hang the garland around baptistry & put poinsettias on corners.

430 choir practice made my brain and vision start to go blurry and almost double. Bad headache.

1100 in lots of pain and exhausted

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Lightning Strikes 1-3 December 2020

Dec 1

700 Guess what!? I was able to stand when I first woke up without any pain in feet. First time since LS. Praise the Lord.

Rt ear itches inside.

900a helped Dezirae with Math best I could. Gave me a headache and I had to rest a while afterwards.

1100p had decent day. Able to get three loads clothes washed. Two loads folded and put away.

Whole body aches. Headache. Low back throbbing. Chest aches. Arms sting. Sinuses acting up. Horrible indigestion. Taken three tums, eaten yogurt, taken 2 ginger caps. Shoulders sting. Legs ache. Lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling with tingling to feet. Lft palm stings. Exhausted. Going to sleep soon hopefully. Skin stinging needle pain. Feet tingly.

Night meds taken.

 

Dec 2

700a woke from deep sleep finally. Not hurting too bad – whole body aches. Upon standing only had sharp pain in left foot for short while.

Kids co-op Christmas party today. Decided to get veggie tray for party too but they were out of stock so got chips instead.

530 dinner was turkey stuffing casserole. Gave me severe indigestion! My sinuses acted up enough to need Tylenol sinus.rx. gerd rx, 2 ginger capsules, 2 tums, glass of milk. Feel like I’m gonna puke.

700p parents invited us to come watch a movie with them on their new tv. Still have indigestion bad.

930 I’ll be glad when I get my gerd rx. Can’t seem to shake the indigestion. Eating yogurt now.

11p still have bad indigestion. Water feels like it’s making it worse. Took another tums. Afraid to take night meds.

Rt hip throbbing worse than toothache. Low back throbbing. Back stings. Legs ache. Skin sensitive & itchy. Feet cold. Lft foot tingling. Lft arm & hand tingle.

Dec 3

Upon waking body aches, tired. Sharp needle pain in lft foot upon standing. Rt hip & low back pain has eased from night before. Indigestion greatly eased. Unsure if I should try to eat anything.

900a decided to try oatmeal for breakfast.

300p able to get caught up on bunch of little things for church. Need to rest a bit before getting ready to go to church. Tired and hurting good amount. Hands stingy throb. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Muscles periodic spasming in back. Feet cold though I have socks on. Legs ache. Headache.

354 out of breath just getting to the car

700 trying to play thru first song but couldn’t get the sharp so I stopped and found it in flats. Started to try to play it but song leader wasn’t paying attention and started talking before I finished first line. Ugh! He announced first hymn. I began playing introduction but didn’t even finish when he started singing. I threw my hands up and told Joe I’m not playing tonight. Got up and walked to my seat. I’m not fighting it anymore. The frustration magnifies my pain to unbearability.

Arms & hands stinging burning. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Brain fogged. Headache. Skin itches. Face & upper chest feels very flushed and hot.

Joe noticed from platform that I look flushed. Must be pretty red. Asked church to pray for me.

Joe felt my forehead after church. Says I’m burning up. Will have to take my temp when I get home.

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Lightning Strikes – 29-30 November 2020

Nov 29

630 woke from strange dream to mind racing and out of breath.

Hands and arms stinging. Legs & Feet stinging. Tummy aches. Back throbbing. Tired. Lights bothersome. It’s a rainy dreary day.

Psalms 136:1 –  O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.

945 brain feels off today. Not certain how to explain but it’s like having dizzy blurred vision, but my vision isn’t blurry. Eye glasses are actually not helping much. Keep having to take them off.

Hands so swollen my wedding ring is cutting circulation off hand.

1130 tummy hurts. Had to make run to bathroom.

1200 simple lunch today…spaghetti with meatballs

330 Rae & I work on the Blessing Bags for First Responders.

430 play practice. Bumpy. Mom thought just two practices would suffice. Had to tell needed more. Seemed she didn’t like that.

500p choir practice. Hiccups there too. Frustrating. Choir not in sync during certain phrase. Jordon & Dezirae trouble singing next to each other. I tried to make suggestion which rubbed Joe wrong way making him mad at me.

Called to office for him to jump on me for telling what to do. I tried explaining my perspective which just made it worse. Resorted to yes sir and whatever which just made it worse. I apologized for his taking it wrong but I wasn’t sorry for what I said. Made it worse. I just shut up. Nothing I’d say would appease him. Wrong time to pick a fight.

1000p exhausted. Joe apologized on way home. Told him I knew that when I gave migraine I am grumpy and feel like the world is against me and just want to go to bed so I figured that no matter what I said it would just rub him the wrong way. He agreed.

It’s been raining all day and storming periodically. My body feels it and my inflammation is up. Mom suggested I take turmeric. Told her I already take 800mg of turmeric a day. She didn’t know what to say.

Whole body stingy & tingly. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Head itches. Feet freezing. Sinuses congested. Legs ache and have periodic stinging needle pain.

Nov 30

550 Joe scared me twice this morning already…first grabbed my foot to ask me where his work boots were & second to come tell me goodbye. Second time I was reading about parasympathetic vs sympathetic state.

“three stress responses in the body, or three areas of the brain that are correlated with stress. There’s the autonomic nervous system, which is the sympathetic-parasympathetic state. There is the limbic system, which is kind of our fear center. And then there is our endocrine system, or a part of the brain called the

hypothalamus that triggers our adrenal glands to release the stress hormone cortisol. So it’s a combination of

kind of trying to quiet all three of those. So the melatonin, or circadian rhythm blend, that addresses the endocrine system. And then the parasympathetic blend helps to address the autonomic nervous system.”

https://wellnessmama.com/podcast/essential-oil-blends/

730 so tired. Legs burning pain. Arms stinging tingly pain.

1100p exhausted and hurting all over. Stinging burning pain. Ringworm back on lft side of neck. Started rx med. Ugh! I don’t understand.

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Lightning Strikes – 27-28 November 2020

Nov 27

700 woke from a nightmare. I woke wanting to cry. I was so relieved to see Joe in bed next to me I wanted to cry all the more.

800 I hurt all over. It hurts to move but thankful for my loving husband.

900 family going to pick out Christmas tree at Ramsey Farms today. Excited bc we never did this before.

Took us an hour to pick out a tree. My steps quickly got slower as my legs got tired and began to get weaker and my rt hip throbbing. Joe graciously went back to car and brought it to me so I wouldn’t have to walk farther.

200 Rae & I decided to go get lights and skirt for tree. All our current strands only partially work.

Took me 45+ minutes to decide which lights to get. Also got materials to make some of our own ornaments

730 Joe offered to bring home pizza for dinner. Yay! I hadn’t even thought what to cook. My brain is just a blur and I’m exhausted and hurting. It’s been storming off and on all day which had increased my pain levels to max. He’s a keeper.

1020 pain is at a max. I hurt so much I just want to cry but my brain is so foggy feeling that it doesn’t know to cry. Nerves sting and burnt throb thru body. Chest hurts – rubbed heaping glob of Vicks on middle of chest and lower back of neck. Nerves itchy feeling. Night meds taken + cbd softgel.

Nov 28

600 woke from crazy dream to heart & mind racing

1155 decided to sort thru Christmas decorations while putting ornaments on the tree. My back is throbbing

1118p need to go to sleep. I’m exhausted. Hoping marmalade will set.

Gauged lft index finger and didn’t know I did until I saw a pool of blood on my finger.

Body stinging. Hands burning throbbing. Shoulders stinging burning. Slight headache. Noticing lately having trouble with words – finding right words to say what I’m thinking. Night meds taken.

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