Category: My Healing Journey

Jan 12

6.45 oh the pain!!! It feels like the lightning finally wants to come out of my body thru my left hand but won’t. It hurts so bad it’s disturbing my sleep.

7.14 fingers in both hands tingling painfully something fierce. Hands stinging. Neck near shoulders throbbing. Back aches.

7.30 sadly the white patches and sores on my tongue are returning. It’s apparent I must swish with peppermint mouthwash 3xs daily.

8.00 Joe suggested that I rub pain rub on hands. Did so & used my fav lotion on top of it. Hands ease pain some but not gone.

8.30 put breakfast casserole in oven to heat up. Trying to get things ready for church this morning.

8.45 remembered I forgot to pick offertories for today. Sitting at piano trying to figure it out. Asking Lord to guide me.

9.00 I’m smelling food? oh, no! I forgot about the breakfast casserole!!! Off I go to check it out. Wheh! I didn’t burn it too bad.

11.00 had trouble with coordination and reading notes to play piano. Trying to play intro to song couldn’t for life of me hit right notes…sounded aweful in my ears!!! Ended up going to begining of chorus to play mostly from memory. Hands hurts so so much!

Lord, please send us an accomplished pianist. Oh, I loved listening to the Swhinshaupt guys playing piano.

12.00 had to reapply pain rub to hands. Joe reminded me that I told him my hands hurt so bad that it feels like they’re being stabbed with knife multiple times.

1.30 got really sleepy suddenly.

2.00 I’ll go take nap in nursery for about an hour. Setting alarm for 3pm.

3pm came and went. Slept til 4pm.

4.30 Main goal today: bulletin board. Dezirae helped me with putting wrapping paper up as background. Joe saw we were having trouble and came to our rescue.

4.45 now to search out the lettering. Ugh! Don’t have enough letters of color I wanted. Now for backup plan (didn’t have one til now. Shh! I won’t tell if you don’t)

5.15 Mom comes to help me with finding rest of letters. Then she helps me put letters up on bulletin board. Thankfully, most are peel and stick bc it’s not going as I had imagined. Ugh! Running out of time before church starts. Will need to just get letters up and readjust later. Well, 90% of board is up. Still need to get/make the snowflakes. Arms are hurting now anyways. Need a break.

5.55 hands stabbing pain increasing again. Reapplying my pail roller blend. It seems to be helping.

6.00 I can’t understand why I can play hymns I’ve played for years. Times I have trouble with coordination between looking at notes, processing, seeing notes, and playing on piano. It’s almost like I have blinders between eyes and hands.

Suddenly got very dizzy & brain clouding it was very difficult to play last 3 hymns. Had to sit few minutes with eyes closed to calm dizziness before getting up to go to seat

6.30 suddenly feel like I’m being stabbed under rt arm pit, but nothing’s there where it’s hurting.

Thankful I can lean on the everlasting arms of Jesus

8.18 before church Mom mentioned she had been watching documentaries on essential oils. Asked her email me link.

Peppermint and orange oil diluted in carrier oil good for reducing fevers. Cool! I’ll have to research combos on that one.

Regaining control of your health: treating disease with essential oils

https://youtu.be/xQZo7WgX_8g

9.00 muscles in rt side back cramping suddenly while sitting eating dinner. Decided to eat yogurt with dinner. Maybe I need to add probiotics back to my regimine?

10.50 whitish color on tongue has diminished. We’ll see how it looks in a.m.

Upper back muscles throbbing. Middle section aching. Neck aches. Hands swollen and throbbing. Feet cold and achy. Lft leg tingly some. Lft knee hurts. Rt knee outer side itches. Congested some. Sniffles.

In spite of the pain, it’s been a good day overall. Good spirit among the church people. Good messages from the Pastor. Love the hugs from all the kids.

Jan 13 – nothing written

 

January 11

1.50a just finished checking her hair. Sprayed with tea tree oil as I went. Had to rest my rt arm repeatedly due to severe cramping. Had to have her move in such a way I could use my lft arm more. Had her spray down my hair too. Will have her check it later. I’m too tired and need some sleep.

Legs keep feeling like electrical surge thru them especially when I stand for more than couple minutez.  They ache something fierce.  Room is starting to spin on me.  Feeling weird.  Maybe just need to.sleep it off.

2.05 finally in bed.  Its raining outside and wind is quite strong.  Praying for God’s protection round about us with no damage to humans or property. Please send the rain to Australia to put out the fires.

6.00 hardly slept a wink arms and hands going numb and tingly but this type is oh so painful…like I’m being stabbed with knife up and down arms and hands all at same time.  When I stood to go to bathroom my legs & feet felt same way. Kept trying to change positions to see if it would ease.  As difficult as this is, I’m thankful it’s me and not my kids.

6.30 ask Joe if he was awake. he said yes.  told him what was going on.  he gave me a back massage which eased it for a short time.

7.45 think I might take a muscle relaxer so I can finally get some sleep.

9.00 looked up symptoms for migraine bc of my sharp pain, numbness and tingling in arm and legs, bloodshot eyes.

https://www.healthline.com/health/migraine-symptoms#prodrome-stage

Learned that cluster headaches cause bloodshot eyes.

Think mine is a plethora of things due to impending storm.  It causes multiple pain areas thru body…headache, muscle cramping, sharp stabbing pain randomly twitching thru body, numbness and tingling in arms, hands, legs, & feet, ringing in ears…just to name a few.  Once rain/storm hits, my symptoms ease up some and then I feel very fatigued and weak.

9.30 Joe decided to go to church to work on mower.  Decided that kids & I could come us girls could work on taking down bulletin board while guys worked on trying to fix mower.

In route to church, Joe decided to head to SeaHope boat to tour it first then head to church.

What an awesome ministry!  I’m so excited for them.  God has been answering prayers in a BIG way.  They’re boat is currently dock in Bayou near our church.  It needs repairs before it is completely ready for long sails.

I did my best to tough it out climbing through the ship.  It was quite a difficult chore for me.  When I found the chance, I was sitting to rest my weary legs.  Sure do wish I could help.  I love helping others.  Got to a point though that my legs were cramping so bad that I told Joe & kids to go ahead and let me rest a while.  Had to have help climbing the ladders…that was a bit scarey for me but the men were all gentlemen helping me along the way.  Made a gal feel like royalty or something.

11.45 headed to church.  Gals worked on bulletin boards and guys worked on mower.

12.30 storm is rolling in.  I’m exhausted and hurting.  Certainly got a workout today.  I’m gonna feel it sooner and later.

Forgot about taking muscle relaxer and I’m still wide awake.

10.15 I’m definitely feeling it later.  My whole body is throbbing.  Storms rolled through this afternoon too.  I just want to cry.  It hurts to move just about every inch of my body.  It’s swollen and sore.  Feels like I was beat to death within inch of life.  I don’t know why I used that?  The last time I felt almost this bad was the days after I was struck by lightning.

Took night & pain meds. Still have headache but it’s easing. Still having some difficulty with numbness and tingling in arms & hands. Rt ear hurts. Lower left leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some numbness. Legs & thighs throbbing. Low back throbbing. Rt hip hurting. Calves burning. Upper back pins and needles. Shoulders throbbing. Lft hand numb currently. Whole body tight. Ribs ache. Dry socket aches. Rt jaw aches. Toes cold.

I’m telling myself that I just need a good night’s sleep to feel better in the morning.

Jan 9

6.30 woke up with bad headache & dry socket hurting. Whole body aches. Stuffy nose. I don’t even recall if Joe came to give kiss goodbye.  Don’t recall any part of the bad dreams I had last night (that’s not a bad thing though).

2.00 missed my noon nerve pill bc I fell asleep in livingroom. I can tell bc nerves are really hurting.

2.20 went to Publix to pick up Joe’s rx. Girl helping me realized it was me and got excited asked how I was doing. Pharmacist looked up smiled at me said hello. Another tech saw me smiled and said hello. Dezirae leaned in and asked how does she know you? I chuckled and replied you didn’t know your mom was popular? Girl

10.55 scrolling thru facebook came across following:

https://eatfor.life/depression-the-5-biotypes/

11.30 there’s a raised mark on my neck lft side that kind of looks like a backwards C that’s been branded on my neck. It doesn’t really bother me except when I look in mirror and see it. I know it’s been there for a while, but I can’t figure out what it is.

Feeling extra dizzy and tired but can’t sleep at moment. Head hurts horribly. It feels like it’s being squeezed. Headache. Whole body aches. Nerves feel like they’re twitching running back and forth in body. I can see what I want to explain but cannot figure how to put to words. Like a live telephone wire and you can see the electricity traveling from one point to another…that’s my nerves feeling in body right now. Neck hurts. Need an adjustment but not sure whom to seek out since Dr Shouppe passed.

 

Jan 10

6.30 have my alarm set for 6.30 so I can take my meds. I probably should set my alarm for the other times to remind me, but I don’t know how to get it to tell me when to take what. I’ll be glad when I can go back to taking my meds just twice a day and even then I had trouble remembering to take them.

I have such a headache!!!

7.00 got word that a church member’s surgery is at 7.30! Lord, help me to get ready quickly and out the door.  Me and mornings don’t cooperate well.  Grabbing morning meds to take at hospital. My eyes are little blood shot

7.33 Joe asked nurse if member was in surgery.  Nurses about to escort him back to OR.  Given personal nurse escort to him.  Walking this fast is making my head spin.

7.40 Got to room as Dr was explaining what going on and what he might expect.  Dr prayed with them.  I was pleasantly surprised.  We were able to go in an have prayer with him too.

7.45 sat with member’s wife for a while

8.00 Joe says my eyes look more bloodshot than before.

10.22 got home from hospital. I have such a migraine. Taking migraine pill.

11.00 laying down a bit in dark room to see if I can get rid of migraine.

2.15 woke from sleep.  My whole body hurts. All my bones hurt.  Lft side of throat hurts – oops no its rt side. Need to take elderberry, c, & zinc since I was at hospital. Don’t want to get sick.

3.49 sitting in livingroom can hear water sizzling on burner in kitchen which tea is brewing. Rt ear throbbing.  I dislike having migraines. They make me feel very weak afterwards.

5.26 back to hospital. Joe cooked dinner using air fryer. We’re delivering to wife.   Storm storm go away fly to Australia and put out their fires.

Extremity bones ache something aweful. Rt hip throbbing. Head aches. Neck hurts. Lft hand numb and tingly. Lights bothersome. Close proximity to cars make me nervous. Joe preaching at me about fear. Ugh! Not helping. Told him he needs compassion.

9.30 back home. Stopped at store to pick up couple items to finish our dinner. Needed eggroll wrappers. Could only find spring roll wrappers. Dezirae’s a bit skeptical. Told her maybe the only difference is shape.

Got home and found out that was not the case! Spring roll wrappers look like see through plastic. Gross! I’m not eating plastic. Decided to read ingredients. Hmm? Not plastic. Read instructions. Have to wet them to wrap them. Wet first one. Eeww! Feels like jellyfish. Messed first one up bc I let it stick to itself accidentally. Finally got the pepperoni and cheese stick wrapped up. Now to airfry them. Not too bad, but definitely need to locate egg wrappers next time.

Rented a movie to watch as family.

10.20 sharp pains in chest. Hurts so bad its hard to move.

 

Jan 4

6.00 vaguely recall being scared awake just as I was falling asleep. Don’t recall saying anything but apparently I yelled at Joe waking him up and making it hard for him to fall back to sleep for a while. Don’t know time it occurred bc I chose not to look in order to try to fall back asleep.

Felt bad for waking him, but my scare was very real not certain if it was just a dream that caused it or not. Sometimes my dreams seem very real only to find out the next morning it was just a dream.

Alarm scared me awake. Had it set so I can take my meds on time.

Muscles in my midsection rt side and stomach spasming this morning. Center of chest tight and hurts. Hands ache and tingly. Rt jaw aches to ear. Feet & lower legs ache like I tried to walk a marathon (maybe someday) headache.

6.15a upper nerves in chest and neck feel jittery. Took 15 minutes of deep breathing to calm my nerves some

8.45 rt jaw throbbing. I figured 3rd day would be worse but I didn’t think it’d hurt this bad. Feels like someone punched me in jaw. Center of chest pops if I move wrong. It hurts too. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Feet freezing. I’m exhausted. Neck aches. Chilly freezing feeling traveling slowly from feet up to mid lower legs. Feels weird. Upper legs ache. Hands ache. Craving jello.

8.50 crashed on chair in livingroom. Woken at 10.45 to go to bed.

Rt jaw throbbing. Dizzy it’s hard to walk. Whole body aches. Feels like my body trying to break fever. Gone to bed.

 

Jan 5

11.00a muacles in rt arm cramping greatly. Getting dizzy.

11.30a muscles fluttering in lower rt leg

11.40a muscles in lft leg twitching. Headache. Neck tight trying to stretch it out. Center of back & chest cracking when I move causing pain. Sharp pain shooting thru rt ear. Rt jaw hurts/very sore. Exhausted.

11.50 got sleepy quite suddenly. 400 shekles equals $128k. How many pence in a shekle?

12.00 hands ache. Rt ear hurts. Feet ache. Legs ache to knee. Low back aches. Eyes hurt. Sleepy. Rt jaw hurts.

2.00 laying down for quick nap.

4.00 Joe opens door to nursery to let me know it was 4 and to wake up. Didn’t plan on sleeping that long. Guess I needed it. Groggy having trouble waking.

4.30 Guess if I just get one thing done today it’s better than nothing – decided to finish putting Christmas decor away.

5.00p church person shared blessings with us. He only comes in pm’s when he’s able. He goes with his mother Sunday am out of respect for her. He loved our Christmas gift & said that it meant alot to him & thanked us for loving him. He has grown so much in the Lord. It warms my heart to see how God is using us to touch lives for Him.

8.00 two hours past taking nerve pain rx and I can definitely tell it. Oh, the pain.

9.45 tried to wash load of clothes but something’s wrong with my washer. It’s aggitation sounds like metal & rocks scrapping against each other. Oh how it hurts my sensitive ears!!! The sound is worse than nails scrapping on a chalkboard!!

10.00p Joe is trying to fix it now. He asked Jordon for a magnet? A magnet? Not gonna question it right now.

10.19 rt jaw & ear throbbing!!! It hurts to chew. Hands & feet freezing. Rt jaw still slightly swollen. Low back throbbing.

10.25 washer fixed. Yay! Joe’s my hero for the hour!! Barrel was off kilter. Glad he could fix it.

11.30 bent over to pick up something while sitting on toilet rt stomach muscles cramped so intensely I had to stand and bend slightly in that direction to get it to ease up.

11.59 Trouble falling alseep.

 

Jan 6

12.45a may need to try my own advise…breath in…breath out…in…out…in…out… ♫when your worried and you can’t sleep just count your blessings instead of sheep and you’ll fall asleep counting your blessings.♫

School starts back up in am and I’m not mentally ready.

1.00 my rt arm is cramping something fierce today making it difficult to do things.

4.22 girls in bath & body dropped some drawers making loud noise unexpectedly. Caused me to jump & a scream escaped before I even knew what was going on. I turned to see what happened. Girls were struggling to lift the drawers & giggling. I don’t handle loud noises well. My first instinct is to duck and cover. I guess I still have ways to go on this realm. My whole body aches from tensing up * jumping.

5.00 so sleepy suddenly. Not good while driving. Need to get home. Need a nap.

6.30 feet are freezing

10.00 so so tired

January 1

10.00 Jakob short on money. I gave him my $20. He was hesitant. I told him well the Lord gives and it doesn’t say anywhere that I can’t give it away.

1.00p took homemade chicken & rice soup to a friend. Her family very appreciative. Joe shared blessing about giving money to go on date. Next thing we know her husband gave us gft ctrfct to seafood restaurant in bayou (name escapes me presently). They both said they wanted to be a blessing to us for all we had done for them. While guys were talking I started to doze off (it was my nap time).

2.00 let Jakob know God’s blessing. On our way for our date.

Restaurateur closed. Decided to go check out restaurant that friend suggested on Dauphin Island. Found Islanders. Elevator out of service. Had to carefully climb stairs. Took me about 10 to 15 minutes. Out of breath.  Legs feel jiggly.

5.30pm stopped at store on way home. Need nose piece on glasses. Optical place closed. Decided to check out Christmas stuff. 75%off. Found some goodies.

9.00 took shower. Back throbbing. Legs feel wobbly. Feet slippery. Fell in shower but able to pick myself up. Cut my lft leg & back of ankle shaving.

11.20 watching movie waiting for kids to get home. Low back throbbing. Arms burning and throbbing. Hands hurt. Legs ache. Overdone it today.   Center of chest sharp pains.

 

Jan 2

8.00 looked in mirror while getting ready. Checked out tongue bc it felt smoother than usual. It was surprisingly almost clear with only a slight hint of white covering on lft side.

9.00 dental apt. Bp 120/77 hr 76.  Bit nervous but I’ve been praying. Started working on me at 9.25. Gave 4 numbing shots. Waited about 15 minutes for it to take effect. Started trying to pull. Oh, Lord, it hurts so bad tears are leaking. I’m trying to be good. Dr asked if it was too much. I said, ” uh huh” (couldn’t hardly speak with the numbness and gauze in my mouth). She kindly gave me two more shots. Said sometimes when the nerves have been so tight for so long you just need a little more novacane. Gave me two more shots. Waited another 10 minutez or so. Once they left the crying escaped. Prayed again asked the Lord to help bc I have to get through this. I need to get better.

Tooth didn’t cooperate coming out. Only part came out. She had to get another tool to get other part of root out. Dr said it had been infected for quite a while. So glad that’s done.

12.30 Told Joe it might be best if I don’t try to play tonight. Dr instructions to rest & relax gor 24 jrs.

2.00 guess I crashed for while. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down to knee. Mouth still numb.

3.00 numbness starting to wear off. Not in to notating anything.

5.15p ate dinner. Took meds. Caught myself…almost took too much again.

6.00 I’m exhausted. Nerves shot. Laying down in nursery before church to rest.

Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down to knee. Low back throbbing. Mouth hurting though not as bad as I thought. Parts of mouth still numb. Toes cold & tingly.

10.20 toes burning cold tingly almost like frost bite (socks on and blanket covered). legs ache. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down rt leg to knee. Hands & arms tingling. Tired. Numbness has worn off and mouth hurts pretty bad. short of breath. Whole body aches. Neck hurts.

 

Jan 3

8.00 entire back feels like I was being beat up all night. I’m so sore. Head hurts. Rt jaw aches something fierce. Need to stay on top of nerve pain until jaw heals.

5.30 can tell my brain is tired…I’m starting to talk backwords. Driving home from picking up my laptop tried to tell the kids that this road wasn’t well lit enough. Instead I said,  “This light is not well roaded.” They cracked up. I realized I messed up and just laughed with them.

6.30p family sweet enough to jump in and help cook dinner for me. Deer steak Alfredo, spinach, and garlic bread. I still can’t chew hard things so I had to pass on bread bc someone toasted it too long. Dinner was delicious.

8.30 Rt jaw is throbbing. I forgot to take my meds on time. 2 hourz behind.  Ugh!

11.30 still awake. Having trouble sleeping. Rt jaw aching. Neck hurts. Shoulders tight. Rt hip aches. Hands ache. Lower legs ache like I walked too much today. Feet & toes tingle. Toes cold. Lips chapped. Low back hurts. Mixing up words like crazy. Making entire family crack up so hard. I think their sides might split.

11.35 Jakob leaves for college in morning. I wish we had enough money to go with him but things have been tight with extra medical bills since my lightning strike scare. I have mized emotions. I’m glad he’s doing what he feels God wants him to do, but sad he’s leaving again. We’ll miss him.

Musclez twitching in my back.

 

Dec 30

1.30 still wide awake. It’s like my brain got mixed up on time or something. Need to fall asleep soon.

Need to try to start my pt exercises back up gotten slack since painful tooth epidemic.

10.43 Girl’s  Dad called to check on his daughter. Asked permission for her to join my kids to go to mall.

2.00 finally figured how to get info onto tithing envelopes. Print on stickers and apply to envelopes. Kind of tacky but we can use the blank.

3.27 getting very sleepy

Arms feel heavy & tingly. Eyes heavy. Low back throbbing. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some tingling. Need a nap. Feel asleephot a while and no one bothered.

6.05 received phone call that my friend has been told she can go home

Waiting for discharge. They will come by to pick up their daughter on the way home.

Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down. Lft and ankle tightening tourniquit feeling with some tingling.

9.00 cut Joe’s hair, but back throbbing something horrible. Need to rest a while.

9.52 getting very sleep. Hands losing grip causing me to drop things. Body jerking randomly. That’s a new symptom. Hmm?

 

Dec 31

8.00 woke from a horrible nightmare!! I don’t even want to recall it. My spirit just wants to cry. Lord, please cleanse every wicked imagination out of my subconscious and set me free from the nightmares. Psalm 139:23-24

I have bad headache.

8.40 did morning pt exercises then folded one load of clothes. I’m out of breath, tired, and my arm muscles jave fatigued. Ugh!

8.50 why is so hard to get a response from other pastor’s wives when you reach out for advice? I don’t get it. I guess I’ll reach out to others until someone has time to respond.

Head pounding. Toothaches. Short of breath. Low back tingling & achy. Rt hip aches. Lower legs & feet tingly. Body feels kind of clammy like I’m feverish

12.30 Had Jakob take me to drop of laptop. Guy will give call in couple days for prices on what needs to be done to fix it. Praying it won’t cost too much.

1.20 face is starting to feel flushed. Head hurts.

Been printing labels for tithing envelopes. Cannot for life of me figure out how to get envelopes to feed for printing…it just jams. Someone suggested something about downloading certain program but that escapes me as well. However, I’ve figured something outside box to make them usable. Not very pretty but they serve the purpose.

2.30 thought just crossed mind that rx may be causing flushing in face. Sure enough – gabapentin can cause lightheadedness, feeling faint or dizzy, and flushing.

2.50 attempted to wash a few dishes. Lower back intense throbbing, hands ache & throbbing, toes cold, feet tingling, out of breath. Sitting down for a while to rest.

5.00 center of chest really hurting, sinus issues, rt ear hurts,

Joe came home and helped (actually he did all the work I just observed) me use my new ninja air fryer. Little disappointed at first bc it had already been used & returned to store. I told him we can clean it out and use it. If it works, great. If not, we’ll return it. Turns out the wings and fries tasted great. Better yet it uses minimal oil.

Thankful for my Christmas gift. It will make my life much easier.

11.00 watched New York ball drop with Joe then went watched New Orleans drop with kids. (Couldn’t keep eyes on screen too long because the movement and bright lights are bothersome and make my eyes hurt).

I’m exhausted and hurting all over. Brain fogged from over usage today. Prayed for all those with ptsd tonight due to the fireworks. I’ve jumped a few times and we aren’t even doing them this year.

Dec 28

6.30 slept pretty good last night. Feels pretty good. Tooth hurting. Took ibuprofen.

Reading Bible came across the following verses…

Psalm 139:23-24 – Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Reminded me of song I learned when I was younger.

7.00 time to make breakfast. Discovered that I didn’t have chocolate chips so I improvised and used Reese cups. Had Jordon chop them up. Took half pill of Gabapentin bc tooth starting to hurt.

8.50 I’m getting sleepy.

10.00 Praise report: I was able to curl my hair by myself today! Mind you I had to play music to keep my nerves calm and had to rest my arms several times. It took almost an hour to curl my hair. But for the grace of God I am overcoming.

11.00 went to visit church member who is sick. He’s still struggling breathing but seemed better than I expected. Continuing to pray for him. I was able to climb his stairs without falling. PtL!

11.03 Joining others now to knock doors. Joe told me to stay in car. I’m quite wobbly on feet yet from rx.

I’m exhausted. Upper back & shoulders stinging needle pain. Arms tingly. Low back aches. Legs ache.

12.30 feel like I’m going to crash. Need to rest a bit.

1.00 going on a double date with our son and his girlfriend

10.19 going to bed. I’m exhausted and having trouble keeping my eyes open. New rx making me really dizzy & sleepy.

Rt ear aches. Tooth hurting. Eyes heavy. Hands tingly and stinging. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some tingling. Low back aches.

 

Dec 29

7.00 overslept ugh! Good thing I’ve learned to simplify getting ready in mornings.

7.30 realized in middle of dreams last night that I forgot to update the Scripture readings in the bulletin! Maybe I can print changes onto stickers. computer is telling me its about to crash due to hard drive error. Ugh! Joe said not to use computer until we take it shop. All my pictures are on it and I don’t recall if I have them backed up somewhere.

8.30 decided to use white out at church to correct error with Bible Reading Schedule and write in corrections. Getting writer’s cramp just doing white out. Gotta push through. I want them to start year out right.

10.20 feeling weird…when I close my eyes (my eyes feel so heavy) it feels like I’m on a roller coaster going down from high spot and my body lifts off the seat a little. Not a fun feeling.

9.10 realized that in my haste to take my morning meds I accidentally took two 800mg ibuprofen. Ugh! Too late.

11.00a trouble playing music this morning. Trouble focusing and coordination. Schedule changed up messes me all up…don’t do well with that…I have trouble knowing what verse they’re singing to know when to stop or how many times I’ve played it thru. I’m all flustered and want to cry.  Joe expect me to know what point he’s on. He was on point three before I had even turned to passage. I just want to run and hide to cry people aren’t understanding.

A little girl suddenly exclaims “Uh Oh” as tears stream down my face. It makes my heart smile. It makes me think of why I do what I try to do for the Lord. To see her aunt and uncle start coming to church and see them grow in the Lord makes everything worth while.

12.00 Began to have a meltdown so during closing prayer I went to office to cry alone. Joe came after me to check on me. I told him I couldn’t do it anymore. He asked do what? I told him what happened. He told me he would take care if it. He said he understood especially since I accidentally overdosed myself I would be extra sensitive and I was due for a meltdown. Take my time. I cried for little while longer. Began praying asking God to help me. Able to dry up my tears, but I cried my mascara away.

2.30 Joe suggested I lay down for an hour and then we could go over to mission house to spruce it up for incoming missionaries.

3.30 Joe tried to wake me but I was so tired I just couldn’t wake myself. Jakob & Brianna graciously offered to help Joe and went and took care of mission house for me.

4.30 finally woke. Feeling groggy and my tooth is hurting.

4.34 received phone call from friend’s daughter asking to spend night with us. I told her sure. We’d love to have her. Wow! I feel honored that they trust us to let her spend night with us.

Once I hung up, I went to tell Joe. We talked. Joe suggested I go pick up drinks & chips for dinner at parents house. Jordon drove. I’m starting to like that he can drive. Gotta slowly brave my nerves to let him drive more.

11.59 upper shoulders and neck ache. Rt hip hurting with pain shooting to upper thigh. Wide awake. Nerves tingling randomly throughout body. Rt hip suddenly feels like its on fire and burning. Hands ache and tingly. Headache.

 

 

Dec 25

6am I’m in so much pain from my tooth! I’m determined to do my best to not let it ruin my day.

Joe got the turkey and steaks prepared. I peeled potatoes. Finished cinnamon rolls and put in oven.

12pm nothing is touching my pain. I’m in tears cuz it hurts so bad!!! I didn’t want this to happen. I’ve tried everything I can think of to no avail.

* drop of clove oil on gums

* swishing with coconut oil & oil of oregano

* swishing with peppermint mouthwash

* orajel

* warm salt water rinse – that hurt worse

* ice pack on side of face – that intensified pain

* peroxide drops in infected area

*taking ibuprofuen 800mg 3x daily plus Tylenol intermittently

*taking amoxicillin 500mg 3x daily been on it 5 days now with no relief.

5.00p applying heating pack to side of face.

5.30 trying clove oil on cotton swab – burning side of tongue & gums took out after minute

Pain is about to knock me out. I’m so tired. Rt hip throbbing.

Family has been so sweet getting house, clean, cooking, & clean up. I need to crash.

https://www.healthline.com/health/abscessed-tooth#outlook

6.50 currently attempting to eat yogurt to counteract the burning sensation on my tongue and gums from the clove oil. It’s soothing the burning sensation but making tooth pain more intense. Can’t seem to lose for winning right now. I’d lay down but it hurts my head. Calling dentist in am.

9.56p finally remembered that a friend was in dentist field. Reached out. She suggested I call dentist sounds abcessed that has no place for release. Encouraged me to call dentist. May need stronger antibiotic. Dentist called. Waiting for call back.

11.23 Did my very best to have a joyful Christmas inspite of an extremely painful toothache that’s not responding to antibiotics.

Thankful for a sweet loving family who jumped in to help with the cooking and cleaning.

His mercies are new every morning. Great is His faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23

11.20 warm sea salt water gargle. took muscle relaxer to knock me out so I can get some sleep. This toothache has trumped the constant headaches and daily nerve pain.  Tomorrow is another day. Lord, please my son’s safe as they travel tomorrow to pick up Jakob’s girlfriend to stay for a couple days.

Dec 26

8.45 rough night…up every 2 hours bc of toothache pain. Kept asking God to heal and ease pain.

9.45 Just got off phone with dentist office. Difficult conversation – had trouble explaining that I didn’t think the antibiotic was working and needed stronger one. Assistant stuck on not calling in more pain rx. I told her I wasn’t asking for more pain rx. Why should I ask for more if it’s not helping in first place. In tears. Conversations are so difficult for me to articulate most times. Dr not in until tomorrow. Want me to come in tomorrow as walk in between 8am – 10.30 or after 1.30. To recheck.

As for communication, this tbi is really getting my goat. I’ve gotta figure something out.

On positive note, this toothache has caused me to lose 5 pounds in less than a week.

10.30 brain is tired. I’m sleepy. Hands tingly. Legs ache. Rt hip hurting. Low back aches. Neck muscles tight and hard to move. Headache.

6.50p ate dinner and now my toothache is back to throbbing!! Rt ear hurts horribly. Orajel numbing tongue but not toothache.

Friend suggested using vanilla extract to numb tooth. I put dab on finger ans rubbed area around tooth. While it eased the pain a smidge, it numbed my lips and they feel weird.

10.23 vanilla effects didn’t last long. I’m very sociable when I’m in this much pain!!!  Told Joe I’d take recurrent headaches and nerve pain over toothache any day at least those I’ve learned to work through. Severe toothache halts me in my tracts. Ugh!

Lord, I need relief. Help me to get some sleep tonight. Thank you for Your sacrificial love to save a sinner such as I.

Took pain rx, antibiotic, muscle relaxer, & night meds.

https://m.spiegel.de/international/zeitgeist/the-unlucky-few-lightning-strike-survivors-meet-for-world-conference-a-491477.html

11.27 in severe pain cannot get relief no matter what I try. Tongue now feels likes it’s burning. Rt ear throbbing. Keeps popping and making clicking noise when I move jaw. Rt Jaw throbbing. Tongue white coated again. I’m sure it’s from antibiotics. Feels swollen majorly. Biting down shoots sharp pain thru face.

Dec 27

6a- alarm scared me. Took me long time to fall asleep. Went to living room to lay rt ear on heating pad and finally fell asleep. Woke at 1.30 and went back to bed.

10am Joe took me to dentist at 8am. I had to go as walk in. Before we left, we asked God to help me be able to be seen within 20 minutes. God answered our prayers as we were in and out in under twenty minutes! PtL!

I mentioned to her about question I posted lightning strike support group and mentioned what was said. She agreed!! She also said that metal filling usually crack the teeth, but when I was struck the heat from the lightning caused the fillings to expand which causes tooth to crack. It was relieving that she understood and agreed with theory suggested.

I was given stronger antibiotic and pain medicine. Also, not charged for visit.

9.00 went to Sam’s to pick up food items for home. Decided to check pharmacy for prices on rx. Price was reasonable decided to have them filled there. Pharmacist said to make sure I take probiotic or eat yogurt with antibiotic.

10a ate breakfast & took rx.

10.20 starting to feel weird. Nerves in whole body tingling arms are worse tingling. Feeling drowsy, droopy, and dizzy. Toothpain easing. Feel like I need a nap.

1.00p fell asleep for about 1 hour or so. Rt ear hurts. Still droopy dizzy drowsy feeling – torpor (a state of not being active and having very little energy). At least I’m no longer in so much pain that it causes tears.

1.45 stood up to go make sandwich got extremely dizzy and almost fell. Oh, boy. Able to eat a turkey sandwhich with minimal pain. Sitting back down. Not safe right now to be up and around. May need to cut dose in half.

4.00p got word that friend fell off horse and is in ICU. We went to visit her. She’s in so much pain. It pains me to she her hurt so. We stayed a while then my husband said prayer for her.

7.00 ate soft foods for dinner. Have to take meds with food. Within half hour after taking gabapentin I felt very drowsy and dizzy. Conked out.

Scrolled thru facebook. Saw post about Ark Encounter. Made comment that one day I’d like to go with my family and mentioned about my LS. A man had audacity to judge that I had done something horrible for God to strike me with lightning. It angered me. I quickly asked God to help me respond in kindness. My answer was as follows…

Have you ever thought that maybe God allowed it so that I can reach others for Christ that wouldn’t be reached otherwise?

Look at Job. He was an upright man, one that feared God, and eschewed evil (Job 1:1). God allowed Satan to try him and he suffered pain with sore boils that covered his body (Job 2:7). Through his trial he lost everything including all his children (Job 1:17-18), yet Job stay faithful to God. His response was “…the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. (Job 1:21-22).

God is the Master and Creator of everything. It is not for us to question how He rules or complain or judge how He runs it. God’s plans do not always make sense as we endure but once on the other side we can see the purpose was for His honor and glory.

My prayer is God allows me to be used for His honor and glory. Thankfully, He has allowed me to be a witness and a help to others that I would’ve never thought possible. He has enlarged my coast more than I thought possible (1 Chronicles 4:10).

10.00 Joe had to help me to bed so dizzy.

Whole body feels tingly. Tooth hurting. Sharp pain shooting thru jaw. Rt ear aches.

Why does peppermint mouthwash burn my tongue feeling? Tongue still half white with blister looking splotches.

https://www.colgate.com/en-in/oral-health/conditions/dry-mouth/5-causes-of-burning-tongue

Interesting article – I’m sure my case is quite unique to figure out.

11.00 can feel myself crashing. Good night for now.

Just checked Fb post I commented on. Man with not so kind judgment has since deleted his comment. Hmm. Thank you, Lord, for helping me to return grievous word with kindness.

Lord, please be with that man and help him to be kind to others as You have been kind to us.

♫I love You, Lord, I love You, Lord, Because of Calvary; I love You, Lord, I love You, Lord, You’re everything to me.♫

Dec 22

7.00 woke in horrible pain all over. It’s been raining all night.

Lightning buddy posted following…

https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/15522-gastroparesis

This (nerve damage) would explain some of my lack of appetite, stomach pain, constipation, acid reflux/gerd issues since the lightning strike.

7.30 God laid dear friend on my heart this morning. Not sure what’s going on but I stopped to pray for him, his wife, and family. I miss them.

8.00 extreme pain in rt ear & jaw causing tears and agony. Taking morning rx and pain rx. Swished peppermint mouthwash to ease pain.

8.15 text friend to let him know I prayed for him this morning. Enjoyed our short chat.

11.30 I have such a headache. Difficulty playing hymns this morning. Hand eye coordination off. Vision slight blurry.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. 

Because

Luke 1:37 For with God nothing shall be impossible.

1.00 only at one plate and I feel stuffed. Exhausted! Pain Rx wearing off. Need to go rest a while.

1.44 almost asleep woke myself choking

2.20 left side of brain deals with logical, rational, and analytical thinking while right side of brain deals with intuition, creativity, and imagination. Sounds to me as if most of the world has some type of brain injury bc their thinking is not logical, rational, or analytical and they lack intuition, creativity, and imagination.

Makes me wonder how can one discover what part of the brain was damaged? If I could learn which part of my brain was damaged, maybe I can then learn how to holistically heal and or train my brain to overcome. I also believe that music is an important element in learning.

7.28 intense shooting pain in rt ear & jaw.

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/325470.php

8.00 having trouble keeping up with everything. I barely keep up with all the activities let alone things in the house. Don’t have enough bread for toasted cheese sandwiches. Decided to make tortilla pizzas for dinner.

9.00Swishing with 1 tablespoon colloidal silver to see if it’ll help ease the pain.

http://original-silver-generator.com/how-colloidal-silver-helps-fight-off-tooth-infections.html

9.30 Pain intensified!!! Decided to try peppermint mouth swish. Pain eases some. Now using heating pad.

10.10 pain easing a bit. Exhausted.

11.22 my nose is freezing.

 

Dec 23

10.00 extreme pain!!!! I can’t even drink without it hurting. Called dentist. Instructed to take tylenol in between the ibuprofuen & continue the antibiotic.

1.35 trying to eat yogurt. Rt hand is shaking bad. Pain in jaw & tooth has eased from 10 to 8, but tiniest things increase pain.

Asked question in lightning support group about others having dental issues post LS. Several people have had dental issues post injury. Was informed that “…your metal fillings heated up and cracked teeth vertically. And a lot of us have TMJ issues too!

A lot of dentist do not catch the vertical cracks because they are rare. But when we are struck the fillings heat up and crack the teeth or you bite down to hard when thrown and break or chip teeth.”

I never thought there could be a correlation, but it would make sense.

Lord, please help heal my infection. I don’t want to be miserable for Christmas. I want to enjoy it and it be enjoyable for my family.

4.30 managed to go to produce mkt, bank, and grocery store. Gone too much…rt hip sagging and I’m limping bad. Headache. Exhausted.

5.20 rt ear & jaw intense throbbing. Feel like im

9.30 tried to go to bed as soon as I laid down intense sharp pain in rt ear and jaw. Couldn’t handle pain. Got up and swished with colloidal silver. Then laid ear on heating pad til pain eased.

10.30 pain still intense but not like hour ago. Lord, please help antibiotic start working. This pain is kicking me down.

https://www.healthline.com/health/home-remedies-for-abscess-tooth#garlic

Swishing with oregano & coconut oil. Pain takes a lot out of you.

https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/6-benefits-of-oil-pulling

11.26 oil pulling seemed to have helped ease the pain slightly. Hoping I can go to bed without too much pain. No pt exercises tonight.

11.58 rt ear throbbing. Exhausted. Neck hurts. Shoulders ache. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down rt leg. Hands & arms tingling. Low back achez. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some tingling.

 

Dec 24

5.00 rough night. Bonked in nose accidentally but it hurt so causing toothache to hurt. Took Aleve.

8.20 thought I hit snooze but guess I turned it off. Ugh! Gotta get going. Whole body aches. Tooth don’t hurt as bad at present. So tired.

Luke 2:20 “And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen, as it was told unto them.”

Low back throbbing. Feet aching and tingly. Hands tingly. Neck sore and tight.

5.00 on way to church. Jordon driving. My nerves aren’t handling it too well…very jumpy but trying not to be. Rt hip throbbing. Actually able to eat dinner tonight though difficult to chew at times. Center of chest aches. Hands ache. Sleepy.

 

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