6:51a- Had Joe rub pain relief essential oils blend on back and I cried myself to sleep last night around 10pm. Not sure what time I fell asleep but I slept soundly until 5am. Pain had diminished but I still hurt greatly.
Legs feel like lead but I haven’t even gotten up yet. Middle and lower back throbbing. Neck hurts. Headache not as bad but still there. Eyes watery. Lft ear ringing. Stomach stopped hurting. Muscles twitching throughout body. Need to get mind off pain. Stuffy nose. Calves throbbing.
Thank you, Lord, for the sweet sleep.
Tender moments of my husband’s care make me love him all the more.
5:30p- Joe was sweet and brought home pizza for dinner. He makes my heart skip beats.
Found this article interesting.
Are You a Human Barometer? Feeling the Migraine Pressure
10:13p- Still trying to work on Dezirae’s room. Washed 5 loads today. Told her that was too much. Needs to purge. Feeling it now. I’m really hurting all over!
News had a story about a pastor that was struck by lightning in Birmingham recently. He had a short stay in the hospital but no lasting effects.
Tried new regimen for getting rid of candida. Baking soda water mouth rinse. Take probiotic. Wait 15 minutes. Take Diatomaceous Earth. Wait 1 hour. Take morning meds. D.E. gave me some energy today. I guess that’s why I felt like I could do the laundry. Got to remember to not push it. Ugh! Now whole body is throbbing. Chest and torso pain so much. Need to take pain rx, muscle relaxer, night meds and go to bed. Gotta muster up strength to get out of chair to go to bed.
Feb 23
9:38a- woke in great pain…arms hands legs back neck. Migraine. Gait is wobbly. Need something but don’t know what. Stomach hurts.
Managed to make waffles for breakfast for kids. I ate scrambled egg.
So sleepy.
11:42p- migraine starting to ease. Lft cut on ring finger is oozing pus. Need to put baindaid on it. Overall lethargic.
Wearing sunglasses inside.
3:30p- managed to eat ramen soup for lunch. Had kids make their own lunch. Crashed on chair in livingroom while watching movie. I know I have things that need to be done, but I don’t function well with migraine in tow. Headache eased slightly. Dezirae hung out with me. Think she took nap too. Mom came over to check on me. I woke when she opened door.
5:00- Mom made spaghetti for us for dinner to help me out. Sweet. Realized why I hurt so bad – overdid it yday – cleaned my bathroom floor and washed 5 loads laundry. Gotta remember to only do so much when I do feel good.
11:29p- Dezirae’s been wanting to make homemade face mask with bentonite clay and asked me to do it with her. I checked ingredients. Thought it was okay. Dezirae had a reaction and made her face all red, burning feeling & itchy. Had her wash face with cool water. My face not as bad of reaction. Applied aloe no good. Wash face with warm hypoallergenic soapy water and cloth. Gave benadryl. Took 30 minutes or so face to calm down. Apply hypoallergenic hydrating lotion. Be while for trying that again.
As I was finishing up bulletin and posting on blog heard thunder. Frightened me. Hurried up and turned off electronics and unplugged them. Going to my safe place.
Chest throbbing, indigestion, stomach hurts, throat hurts, hands swollen and achy, rt hip hurts, headache, feet cold, pain rx not easing pain. So sleepy, lack of concentration, low back throbbing.
Feb 24
12:30a- stinging pain in hands and wrists, calves throbbing, stinging needle pain in back, rt ear ringing
8:19a- woke around 6:30 thinking I overslept. Calves throbbing. Muscles twitching thru body. Hands swollen and throbbing.
Discovered if I eat something small before I take my meds my stomach doesn’t hurt as bad. Stuffy and congested. Headache.
Cut on lft ring finger is now blistering just like the burn on my thumb did. Thunb
12:30p- actually played 2 hymns this morning with more than 2 sharps. I usually can’t do this but recenlty not able to explain how or why can transpose some hymns and play it. I only ever took about 1 year of piano lessons when little. Everything else I learned on my own. Not good with timing only play how I’ve heard it sung before.
4:30p- took nap after lunch about 2 hours. Dezirae helped me prep mission house for missionary on Thursday. Finding if I make lists of things I need to get done it helps me stay focused enough to complete tasks.
6:23p- eyes blurring, headache, coughing, rt ear ringing, feeling a bit dizzy
10:27p- case of hiccups are giving me stinging needle pain in my back. Ouch!
Mom took me to GNC – no, no scratch that – took me to Health Hut to talk to the guy about my thrush. he said when he was younger (so wish I could remember the details. So much information to process is hard to retain. It’s not that I’m not trying to focus I look people in eye so they know I’m trying too much info at once gets lost in my brain somewhere or maybe it goes out the other ear) somebody that he knew had thrush she would take liquid acidophilus. He said I needed to alkaline my system and suggested I take a teaspoon of baking soda in water use it as a mouth wash in am wait 15 minutes then take probiotic. Wait for 5 to 10 minutes before eating early in morning.
I’m sure I messed up some of that info but this is what comes out. Supposedly a goo roo dr in either Birmingham or Atlanta says that besides reducing gluten, yeasts, processed foods, sugars one also needs to avoid block cheeses and vinegars because they’re made with yeast. Good grief!
Feb 20
9:07a- Crazy morning! I set my alarm for 6:30 so I could be ready to leave for co-op by 8:40 but that didn’t happen. I never heard the alarm! Woke at 7:30. Had to get a pkg ready for mail but too big for mailbox. Ugh!
Gluten free toast for breakfast. Tasted pretty good.
Getting bag ready for co-op realized I forgot to laminate the maps for geography class. Have to bring my laminator and pages with me. I can do it first hour.
I was going to freshen my memory for the Bible study I’m doing with another mom but that didn’t happen. Ugh! Lord, please go before me and help me say the right things. Help me be an encourager and show You can be our strength in time of need. I am nothing but You are everything.
11:15a- Missed 2 phone calls because hands were full. I found the check I misplaced. It was right where I put it (computer bag). Phone calls were reminders for Dr apts tomorrow and that I have Rx ready to be picked up.
Bible study went well. It was encouraging to me as well. I enjoy being able to talk about God without reservation. I also like learning. If money were no option, I’d be a lifetime student. Need to find a hobby.
Slight headache. Eyes feel blurry. Scattered thoughts. Hands swollen and achy. Rt hip throbbing.
3:00p- felt odd after eating late lunch yucky feeling all over and as if I were to faint. I don’t ever remember fainting so that would be weird. Decided to lay down for half hour. Never fell asleep.
Remember that I needed to mail pkg at p.o. Burning pain in middle of lower back. Wore out from todays events.
10:39p- wide awake, hands swollen and achy, lower & middle back aches, head hurts.
Trying something different to get rid of thrush. Swishing with baking soda water in am. Taking 50 billion culture probiotic (has to be refrigerated). Wait 15 minutes to eat breakfast. Swishing with baking soda water in pm. Taking 1 Tbs Diatomaceous Earth in pm. I think tongue is already looking better. I hope to be over this stuff soon.
8:30a Thankful that I have unlimited access to my Heavenly Father on a daily basis.
9:00a- Fell asleep just after midnight. Woke around 4:30 am in serious pain! Doze off and on rest of night. Terrible dream that turned crazy.
Serious pain all over. Rt hip throbbing! Pain rate 9. Need pain rx to move much.
11:42p- Treated kids to Marble Slab. Tasted a little of their ice cream but held back on ordering one for me. I’m trying so hard to get rid of this thrush. Joe not convinced it’s just thrush could be geographic tongue too. I’m confused. Just want it to go away.
Ended up having a long discussion on my research about getting better. Didn’t understand what Joe was trying to say and took it the wrong way. All I want to do is get better. I’m tired of not being able to do things that I know I used to be able to do or think I should be able to. Joe wants me to stop stressing myself out trying to research what to do and allow my brain and body to rest so it can heal. I just want explanations of what’s going on. I guess I just need to learn how to balance it all.
Feb 17
1:37a- very rough morning. Woke with a migraine. I down spiraled from there. Overwhelmed by previous night’s conversation and not getting better. Tongue is getting worse again. I’m exhausted and tired of fighting it all. I’m discouraged but not defeated. Can’t seem to think straight or keep things straight.
Ended up arguing with Joe. Anxiety overtook and I did something dumb – getting out of car while it’s moving. Almost fell in process. I need help but don’t know who or where to turn. Keep quoting Lord lead me to the rock that is higher than I for thou has been a shelter for me.
9:45p- solemn day. Took two hour nap this afternoon. Joe actually had to wake me up. Took nap on mattress in nursery. I’m still tired. Trying to relearn some music for offeratory. Coming along slowly. Singing same songs repetitively is irritating to me. Just want to be held and told it’s gonna be okay. I’m so tired.
Gonna call dr in am to see if they can test for strand candida and cost to see if we can get rid of this junk once and for all. 5 bites of ice cream and this much reaction is insane (tongue slightly swollen, difficulty swallowing, more rash patches on tongue, etc)
Low back throbbing, headache has dimished but not gone, exhausted, discouraged, hands swollen and achy, rt hip aches.
10:55p- hands and arms went numb had to change position, legs throbbing, feet pulsing throb, blankets feel like lead, skin itchy. Took melatonin and pain rx
Feb 18
5:30a- long night. Up since 3am. Fell asleep close to midnight. I’m exhausted and in much pain. Rx didn’t do much. Can tell I’ve run out of MSM. Having more muscle pains and spasms. Odd how one thing can affect the whole.
6:24a- still an emotional basket case… tears leaking out of mine eyes. I guess it’s worse when I don’t get much sleep. Gonna try to take nap before kids get up. Did Bible reading. Will do devotions a little later. I’m freezing right now. Need to warm up.
9:30 1/2 muscle relaxer knocked me out for three hrs. Got to get up. So sleepy.
11:57a- I’m so tired. Two loads washed. Jordon helped me finish making bed. I hurt all over. Touched up walls in Dezirae’s room. I’m exhausted. Upper back stinging needle pain. Hands swollen and achy. So lethargic must lay down for a piece.
12:16p- Atty called. Court getting ready to schedule hearing. Atty collecting additional info to build my case. Sending me paperwork to take to doctor.
4:11p- center of chest hurting with a chilly tingling sensation, stomach hurts, made dr apt for Thursday re thrush is getting worse again 10:00p- gotta remember to get more MSM. Muscle twitching in legs. Center chest pain increasing.
6:15p- very rough night. Fell asleep out of pure exhaustion after midnight. Woke at 2:30 in xtreme pain. Ended up in Embryo pose to try to relieve the lower back pain.
Woke again shortly after 6 burning up but freezing. Need to get potatoes on. I hurt all over. Legs are throbbing. Low back rt side aches.
8:12a- put potato casserole in slow cooker and went back to bed. I hurt so much & so tired. Phone is grand central station this morning. Pain intense but I need to function. Will probably take rx.
10:00a- Co-op Valentine’s Party. Kids had fun. Able to help fellow co-op mom with Abeka 2nd grade reader book. Relearned one friend works at one of local hospitals. Told me to call her if I ever need to go to ER again. She will call ahead for me to get me through faster. Pretty neat though I hope I don’t have to.
Another friend’s husband works at local paint store. His store sells miscolored paint for three dollars a gallon. Wow!
Another friend brought me TT Algebra DVDs to check out for son next year. Gonna let me get them for very affordable price. Thank you , Lord.
Another friend impromptu invited us over to her house for fellowship for couple hours after party. Our sons are friends at co-op. I gladly accepted because we don’t get invited to people’s homes much. It’s nice having friends that accept you at face value.
2:30p- Got home and crashed for a while. I’m exhausted. Dezirae even took nap. Joe snoozed a little bit. He’s been working long hours past couple weeks.
3:30p- Had potatoes leftover from Valentine’s Party so I added ingredients to make soup. Let it stew for while while I relaxed a bit.
4:00p- Asked Joe to feel my rt hip where it was throbbing. Says I have a knot in the muscle. Don’t know how it got there or what causes it.
4:30p- Went with Joe to run errands for church plus pick up few additional items for dinner. Bump into church couple. Chit chat for few minutes. Boots no grip I turned corner while walking behind buggy and slid almost fell. Ouch! Stopped in tracks for while now I hurt worse. Just want to get done and go home. Place is much busier than my comfort zone.
6:30p- Discover that I somehow managed to ruin the potato soup the milk curddled. Ugh! Family gracious bc we’re also having BLTs. Joe & kids serve me bx I’m hurting so bad.
9:00p- Decide to soak in Epsom Salt Bath. It helps itchy skin but rt hip is still throbbing.
11:14p- I’m exhausted but still awake. Stomach aching. Low back throbbing. Rt hip throbbing. Feet hurting. Hands achy. Neck aches. Head hurts little. Brain foggy and swimmerish.
Took stabilized liquid oxygen treatment twice today
Feb 14
7:30a- I actually slept 7 straight hours last night. It felt good to sleep that long. I hurt all over. Don’t feel like getting up but know I need to. Need to get food ready for dinner at church tonight.
John 13:34-35 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.
10:00a- Dezirae helped me make the brownies. I decided to double the box by using my penny pincher recipe.
I started putting the rigatoni together to cook in crockpot, but ended up splitting the skin under my nail when I accidentally jammed my finger on the pyrex measuring cup. Ouch! Dezirae came to the rescue and finished putting it together while I told her what needed to be done. We washed up the dishes we dirtied so we don’t have to do it later. My back is now throbbing so I need to rest a bit.
Joe came inside after helping my Dad finish cleaning his roof. I heard him talking to Jordon but was finishing up at kitchen sink (I’m praying for a working dishwasher). He started to talk to me and scared me to death! I screamed!!! Now my nerves are jumpy and I hurt more. Joe gave me hug and apologized while chuckling. I’m sure normally it’d be funny but not when I hurt.
1:30p- both kids have dentist apt today. Sitting while they’re getting cavities filled. My upper back is stinging & throbbing. Headache. Neck hurts. Lights are too bright. Hands throbbing. I just realized I forgot to eat anything so far today. I think I’ve only drank 16oz of fluid. Gotta work on that. I’m rarely hungry anymore.
Can hear woman’s phone vibrating in her purse from across the room.
My eyes hurt. Center of chest now hurting.
2:03p- my lft thumb has finally healed from burn but it’s left a scar.
2:40p- I can tell school is just letting out. Waiting room is starting to fill up. It’s getting noisy. Sadly, most adults are staring at their phones or talking on them. I find it humorous that a dad can scold his son in a foreign language for throwing a toy after he was told not to do it again while keeping a calm tone and none of the other English speaking adults have a clue what’s he’s doing. Makes the child sit a while then gives him a kiss on head and tells him he loves him. Morayah
3:05p- starting to get nervous. I have three hours to get ready for banquet tonight and kids are still not done. Can feel my face getting flushed.
3:15p- kids finally done. Now to rush home to change pick up food and head to church.
10:48p- overall tonight went well. I started to feel a little week in knees around 4:30. realized still hadn’t eaten. Joe made me eat some pretzels. Dezirae took pics for me. Ladies all jumped in and helped with food set up and clean up. Several of the girls gave me Valentine’s cards. It was so sweet. I wasn’t even expecting it.
I’m exhausted. Feet throbbing. Rt hip hurts. Hands tingly. Headache. Toes freezing. Upper back pins and needles. Thirsty. Ankles ache. Can’t think straight. Center of chest hurts. Rt arm aches. Legs hurt.
Mrs. Sooter was telling us about keifer. Suppose to be easy and very healthy for you. I’ll have to check it out.
Wow! The exact moment lightning strikes water.
Feb 15
Treating Candidiasis…
*Sleep 8-10 hours nightly
*Take 1000 mg Vitamin C 2x daily
*Drink water with lemon juice(1TBS) – 4-6oz every 45 minutes to stay well hydrated
*Take Epsom Salt Bath (3-4 cups) nightly
*Take 1 t Diatomaceous Earth 3x daily just before meals
*Rotate between herbs: grapefruit seed extract, zinc, biotin, oregano oil, olive leaf extract, GI Microbe X, and undecylenic acid. Take herbs 3xs daily for 1 to 2 weeks then rotate.
*Sinus Issues: Oil pulling (2 TBS coconut oil with 1 drop Frankincense or lemon oil)
*Headaches: Rub Frankincense oil on temples, forehead, and back of neck
*Skin Rashes: Make Skin Rescue Cream with almond oil, coconut oil, and tea tree oil. Bentonite Clay Mask (1 t Bentonite Clay, 1/4 t Apple Cider Vinegar, 1 t raw honey, 2 drops Lavendar oil, and little water). Apply mask to face. Allow to dry for 10-15 minutes. Wash off with warm water. Pat face dry.
9:00a- I guess ydays events wore me out. I slept until 7am. Having trouble waking up. Hands numbish & tingly, low rt hip aches, skin itches
11:00a- trying to cut up green apple for snack cut two fingers on lft hand when rt hand jerked and I missed the apple! Kids to rescue. Both told me that I didn’t need to be cutting things. That’s the third cut this week. Dezirae finished cutting up apple. Sweet.
Thankful they’re homeschooling to help me out.
1:30p- Spent time this morning trying work on getting taxes ready to take to CPA. All the numbers blurr after while. Redoing calculations multiple times even though using computer. Typing numbers and letters flipped or backwards making at times frustrating. If I look at negative, I get upset bc I used to do this for companies before you could punch info into online system. If I look at postive, I’m thankful to be able to at least prepare and gather info though not without struggles for our CPA to do it. Too much stress now. Anxiouses me out!
Anyhow, even in the valley God is good.
Have to rest my brain for a while. My brain is a bit blurry and spinning. Upper body aches and pains. Rt hip aches. Headache coming on.
Told kids they were on their own for lunch. Both agreed that was fine bc plenty of leftovers in fridge.
2:30p- recvd call from sweet friend I haven’t talked to in a while. I enjoyed the phone call. Got my mind off in another direction for a change. Refreshing.
5:50p- just finished up painting Dezirae’s room. Looks pretty good though I know I’ll have few touch ups later. Struggled a bit today pushing roller. Glad this part is finally done.
I’m ready for my house to look halfway decent. It’s a mess! Dezirae keeps thanking me. I’ve been talking about it for over a year now. Pushing myself to keep a promise. Next step is to get new comforter & curtains. Actually, it’s put her room back together & get it out of livingroom.
I’m exhausted and really hurting all over. Hands swollen and achy. Low back throbbing. Arms hurt. Feet freezing & throbbing. Skin itches. Eyes blurry. Upper back pins and needles. Muscles sore all over. Headache.
Yea, I know. If you know you’re gonna hurt afterwards why do it? Because I love my kids! A promise made is a promise kept. We’ve struggled since the strike, but I think it’s brought our family once again closer.
11:14p- I’m exhausted and really hurting, but not like I thought I would. Might hurt more before night’s over, but I feel like I finally got a big task accomplished! Thank you, Lord!
2:18a- woke up at 6:30. My alarm didn’t go off as normal my phone just vibrated but I heard it. Snoozed like 3 times before getting up. Took shower. Got ready. Took rx. Swished with coconut & oregano oil for thrush. Tongue looking much better just a little more to go. I’m feeling better.
9:00a- went to check on mission house to make sure it was ready for a missionary this afternoon. My world was turned upside down and off kilter. Looked like someone got in house left crumbs on table & stove that molded. Someone turned off a/c units and mold was everywhere! I told Dezirae we were gonna have to clean it. Went & told Joe. Entire family jumped in to help wipe whole house down & clean it back up. Need a better vacuum & dust pan. Got it clean but am exhausted and hurting!
1:00p- Upper back is stinging needles. Can’t sleep when it hurts like that. Have to also start decorating for Valentine’s dinner on Thursday.
11:00p- I’m exhausted but having trouble falling asleep. Whole body hurting. Hands swollen and achy and tingling. Skin itchy, eyes watering, rt hip throbbing like toothache, low back throbbing.
Had dinner with missionaries. Enjoyed listening to everyone talking. I’m ready to crash just wish I could.
Feb 11
7:00a- woke with headache. hands swollen, achy, & tingly. Rt hip & back aches. Muscles twitching throughout body. Eyes watery. Chilling sensation in center of chest. Face itches. Center of chest hurts. Neck hurts. Slightly congested.
9:00a- kids were sweet and brought me breakfast in bed.
10:30a- able to get Valentine’s care package in mail for Jakob today.
11:30- working on next item for taxes…my brain and eyes are already feeling blurry and my speech is messed up (making up words, reversing letters & numbers, etc). Called tuna “turkey” and told the kids to squinch it to make it go farther. Jordon asked what that meant. I told him I had no idea just made it up. I meant to tell them try to make it go farther but couldn’t remember word to use. Lol!
*It’s important to learn to laugh at ones self or you’ll die of frustration and embarrassment. Don’t misunderstand bc I do get quite embarrassed at times especially in public, but I’m working on learning how to love myself inspite of my shortcomings.
12:30- turned wrong and whole body cramping. Severe cramping on right side. Oh, it hurts so!!! Joe told me to check to make sure I’m taking enough calcium and magnesium. Told him I expected it bc I overdid it this weekend with walking too much on Saturday, having to clean mission trailer unexpectedly on Sunday and decorating for Valentine’s dinner.
2:59- need to rest a bit. Brain is swimming & headache in beginning to surface. Upper back is throbbing and stinging slightly. Neck hurts. Legs and feet are freezing. It’s 71 inside. Craving fried lentils. Weird.
8:00p- spot on head hurting bad. Checked in mirror. Barely touched and it popped. Ugh! Cleaned it as best I could. Can only hold my arms up for a short while before they throb like a toothache. Applied Frankincense oil to keep infection away.
11:49p- stinging pain in hands, skin feels itchy, headache, and head hurts, chest feels like my ribs are caught together. My body feels hot to touch but I’m freezing.
It’s really hard to fall asleep when there’s stinging pain. When I overdo it, I suffer for next two or three days depending on how bad I overdo. It’s just my new normal.
Not complaining in the least. I pray God can use this for His glory. If I can bring awareness and help others along the way then so be it. Tonight is one of the nights I’ll probably have to take pain rx & relaxer to get to sleep.
Feb 12
7:00a- woke from a nightmare! Hands numb & tingling. Neck hurts. Tired. Cold.
7:59a- sitting in bed reading. Nose starts bleeding. So wish I could figure out cause. Nerves are tingly thru body.
8:05a- nosebleed lasted about 3 minutes. Now I have a headache.
It’s a good thing to give thanks to the Lord and sing praises to His name (if only I could remember rest of the song).
10:07a- having seemingly allergy attack this morning – major trouble with sinuses all of a sudden. Only things I’ve had so far is my medicine/vitamins (Edarbyclor, probiotic, alpha lipoic acid, b complex, propranolol, b-12), grits n egg, water. I don’t understand. Drinking cup of hot green decaf tea with peppermint and copabia oils to see it’ll help. Gotta figure out how to heal my neurological system.
11:19a- Just finished posting rest of journal entries for September 2017. Need to rest my brain. Eyes & brain feel blurry and swimish.
11:45a- I have a headache. I have a headache. hey-hey-hey-hey
12:43p- serious indigestion. Eating yogurt to calm it.
3:00p- managed to paint 2nd wall in Dezirae’s room, but I’m done for rest of day. Out of breath, brain swimming, unable to focus much, gait off, need to rest.
5:00p- trouble getting rice to cook. Forgot to replace lid so it took like forever to cook – way past 30 minutes. Kids had my kitchen hijacked to work on their valentine boxes for co-op tomorrow. I have no idea what we’re going to bring.
6:49p – Second wall painted today. I know pic isn’t very good. It’s coming along.
11:19p- lower back is throbbing like toothache. Took rx & melatonin. May need heating pad, but I’m really hot so I’m trying to avoid more heat. Even turned on box fan which I’m not feeling much of. It’s on Joe’s side. Head hurts. Hands tingly. Skin itchy. Feet hurt. Neck hurts. Diffusing Lavendar oil.
Thrush still not completely gone but it’s much better. Taking Echinacea. Though I think I forgot to today. Did swish with oil of oregano & coconut oil this morning. Upper chest aching & tense. Rt side cramping. Feet throbbing. Hiccups?
Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.
11:38a- Trying to balance checkbook. Not balancing. What a chore! Needed to refer back to last month’s statement and discovered that I apparently threw it away. Now I have to reprint it. Ugh!
12:10a- been working at it for almost an hour brain is blurring eyes too. Need to take a break.
3:00p- finally got checkbook balanced. It was matter of subtraction error along with inverting numbers. Very frustrating, but glad I figured it out. Didn’t plan on it taking most of day. Also, trying to get taxes gathered & ready for CPA.
7:00p- seeing things backwards. Tink I taxed my brain a bit much today.
7:30p- enjoyed getting hugs from several of the kids tonight at church. I look forward to the hugs. They make my day. got a sharp stabbing pain in my back while sitting at the piano had to move to pew during announcements to rest back momentarily.
10:30p- trying something new this year for Valentine’s with my kids – Scripture Valentines. I figure it will challenge my brain and be fun at same time. I’m cutting hearts out of construction paper and writing Bible verses on them and then taping to bedroom doors. I haven’t quite gotten one a day down bc I tend to forget but when I see door and realize the date I check to see how many I need. Spent time catching up tonight so in morning I’ll be on target. I’m even making pkg for son at college and will ship it few days before Valentine’s day as a surprise. Benefits: writing helps with hand eye coordination and focus, scripture help teach truths of God’s word but helps me recall in mind those I previously memorized but have forgotten, and it shows my kids I love them.
10:53p- wide awake but starting to get sleepy, low back pain, rt hip throbbing, feet freezing, hands ache, rt ear achy, headache, top of head hurts where cyst burst recently (using Frankincense oil), tongue more clear today, but still have ways to go. Think I’ve made more progress in last two days than in whole 20 days of taking Nystatin. Center of chest hurting.
Feb 8
Today’s Scripture Valentine: 1 John 3:1
Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not.
3:30a- woke up with tummy hurting, rt hip aching, hot, trouble holding things
Trouble falling back to sleep until I was able to play soothing music on a timer.
7:00a- so exhausted hit snooze 3 times.
9:00a- coconut oregano swish, ate gluten free cereal with milk, orange on side. Sneezed hard now I’m not feeling too good. Feeling very weak. Sitting and sipping hot green decaf tea with peppermint and copaiba oil. Wonder if I’ve developed an intolerance to milk. Ugh! I hurt all over. Gotta call Lowes.
Daughter decided to take my temp. It’s 99.5.
9:15a- She proceeds to bring me Vicks and socks. Echinacea, Vitamin C, and zinc. She says, “I’m only doing what you would do for us when we don’t feel good.” What a sweetie.
Told her to give me until 10 am bc I just took my morning meds and almost choked on them. She said ok.
3:00p- Dezirae & I began painting her room today. Able to get one wall and part of another. Just want to keep a promise I haven’t been able to do. Told her it’ll have to be in stages as I can endure. She says she’s just happy it’s finally getting done.
4:08p – The upgrading Dezirae’s room continues…
She is so excited! Can only do it in stages, but I plan to keep a promise. 1 1/2 walls painted today.
7:00p- stinging needle pain
8:00p- it just dawned on me I’m supposed to take the car tomorrow to get errands done for church. I haven’t driven the car since it’s been fixed. Joe says it drives different. I’m skittish to drive interstate let alone with a standard. Ugh! Joe calls Mom to ask for me to borrow car. I don’t want to go to Sam’s on a busy day. I don’t do well in crowds.
10:00p- I’m in so much pain right now. I don’t want to move.
10:35p- took vitamins plus pain rx & melatonin. Headache. Back and arms throbbing. Legs cramping and twitching. I’m exhausted and freezing – under extra blankets though it was a warm day. Dezirae said she was sorry I was hurting, but thankful we are finally painting her room.
7:00a- Been awake since 5am. Heard a very loud knock in my dream. It was so loud I thought it was real. Once I came to I waz hit with realization of severe pain! Tried going back to sleep but not working. Read Bible instead.
9:00a- I’m exhausted if only I could get some more sleep. Took pain rx hopefully it will at least dull the pain.
10:30a – How often do you come across a guard duck while out on visitation? It quacked me up! LOL!
1:00p- went on visitation today out in country a guard duck? It quacked me up! Lol! Walked too much got to not feeling well as if I were getting dizzy and nauceous.
Back at church Mom & Dezirae helped me change out the flowers by entrance before we left to go home. I was so wore out that I fell asleep in car on way home. Got home and crashed in my chair for about an hour!
When I awoke made lunch for me a kids.
3:00p- Mom came to pick me up to help run errands for church. Took three stores to find everything we needed. Ended up in wheelchair at Wal-Mart bc legs were give out.
5:00p- Once we got home, I crashed on my chair again. Woke at 5:30 to start dinner.
6:00p- once dinner was cooking I started working on bulletin for tomorrow. Had to make list so I wouldn’t forget things tomorrow.
11:00p- I’m exhausted and freezing. Whole body aches. Low back throbbing. Rt side hurts. Brain foggy & tired. Head itches and tender. I’m not thinking strsight. Writing leyyers backwards etc. Tummy fluttering. Words keep disappearing that I just type not sure how that happens. Leg muscles cramping and twitching randomly. Toes frozen. Feet ice cold. It’s 68 inside
6:49a- woke thinking I was late. Upper chest tight muscles, legs throbbing, low back throbbing, rt hip aches, rt ear hurts, hands swollen and achy, lft hand numbish. Tired and feel worn out.
I will meet you in the morning over there
7:30a- Dezirae came to tell me that she thinks she found lice in her hair. I’m not up to this.
8:00a- spent 30 minutes or so trying to find/remember where I put the fine tooth comb. Can’t find it. Ugh!
12:00p- spent most morning checking her hair and treating with tea tree, lavender, and peppermint spray. I cut 6″ off her hair it was so long! My head started itching too so I had her check my hair too. Nothing. Thank the Lord!
Put dinner (ham & scalloped potatoes) in slow cooker.
All my nerve fiber endings are pulsating!!! I hurt all over. I’m exhausted!! Time for lunch and a break.
2:52p- decided to try to dust bookshlef in my room. Only able to dust and declutter 2 shelves. Whole upper body throbbing. Need to rest. It looks like a year’s worth of dust! Oh, wait I haven’t been able to do this since I was struck that’s 18 months ago!!
2:53p- mom called to see if I was up to going to produce stand. Told her to give me 5 minutes. I need potatoes.
4:25p- Got home just before Joe text me he was on his way home. Kids helped put food way. I had to repkg chicken to meal size. Time to finish up for dinner.
6:00p- sitting with heating pad on back and shoulders. They’re throbbing.
7:00p- tried to watch some TV but it’s nothing but trash
Feb 5
Scripture Valentine for today: Jeremiah 31:3
Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.
Wonder if stabilized liquid oxygen could work instead? Must research it out.
Talked with Bo’s Aunt. Don’t remember her name. Able to share some of information.
2:00p- brain overloaded & foggy feeling, slightly dizzy, headache, body hurts. Need to rest a while – laying down on bed
3:00p- Mom picked Dezirae & I up to go with her to run errands.
7:53p- Dezirae cooked dinner – tacos. Yum! Tried to ask for spoon for the sour cream instead it came out need a fork for the mayonnaise.
9:46p- think I need to pick another day to post my brain is crossed. Words aren’t coming out right.
I’m exhausted.
Joe came to give me kiss goodnight. Said my forehead was warm like I have a fever. My head was feeling warm, but my feet are freezing. I think it’s time to go to bed and try again tomorrow.
Asked Jordon to close the walls instead of close up and turn off lights.
Oh, co-op tomorrow.
Temp is 99. I wonder why?
Symptoms: headache, center of chest hurts, upper back aches, indigestion, periodic ears ringing, rt ear hurts, cough, feet freezing, skin sensitive to touch, uncomfortable, rt hip aches, low back aches, exhausted, stuffy nose, still dealing with thrush (last dose of 2nd round tonight), nasal discharge, itchy skin, calves cramping pain in center of back.
Fork for the mayonnaise instead of spoon for the sour cream? (Oh the mixed up sayings that come out of my mouth sometimes. LOL!)
Feb 6
7:00a- rough night up at 2:30 & 5:30
Rt hip throbbing, legs ache, muscles in rt arm twitching, low back throbbing, hands swollen and achy
9:05a- tailbone down to feet are throbbing!
10:50a- Jordon came to give me a hug. Told me he loved me. Then he told me, “You don’t look to good.” Thanks.
10:55a- Dezirae came and gave me hug & kiss on cheek. Sweet kids.
11:00a- itching is fierce today. Forgot my orange for a snack (not hungry though). Lft eye looks droopy to me today. Middle of back has icy sensation giving me cold chills and headache.
11:28a- Joe working lots of hours next two weeks. It’s frustrating bc of juggling the car with co-op & Dr apts. Need to remind myself that this too shall pass and the extra money is needed.
1152a Oil of Oregano
Now trying Oil of Oregano to get rid of thrush
Morning – 1 tsp coconut oil & 1 drop oil of oregano. Swish in mouth and spit out.
3:00p- crashed couldn’t keep eyes open anymore slept for an hour
4:00p- still tired having trouble getting motivated to get up
5:00p- decided I needed to figure out dinner. Got really hot & opened kitchen window & door. Couldn’t remember how to bake oven fried chicken had to look up recipe.
6:00p- attempted to plug in box fan in kitchen to circulate air. Bent over to plug in fan. Holy cow! I about fell over in pain. Had to sit a minute to catch my breath. Extreme pain in center of chest!!! Costochondritis flairs up if I overdo in slightest amount. This has been one of the frustrating parts of this endeavor. Learning what my limits are quite challenging especially when I want to improve and get better but my Dr’s just tell me to live everyday life.
8:00p- finally remembered to pay phone bill online. One day I’ll get better at juggling everything.
10:29p- breathing sounds funny not sure how to explain. Three doses of coconut oil & oil of oregano swish today. Tongue already looking better. I don’t remember last time I saw a pink tongue. Taking Bio-Cleanse & Echinacea as well. Also, have been limiting my gluten & sugar intake. Doing this for 11 days now.
Trying to drink lots of purified water (goal is one gallon daily but I’m only half way there). One glass of hot decaffeinated green tea in am. Water during day. Cold decaffeinated green tea at dinner. I’m a southern gal. Gotta have my tea.
Symptoms: headache, low back throbbing, skin touchy, center of chest hurts, hands swollen and achy, eyes watery, tired but awake, rt hip hurts, brain hurts from todays activities
11:16p- feet throbbing, legs cramping, upper shoulders stinging
I’m exhausted. Legs cramping, neck & shoulders ache, rt hip hurts, cramping in lower abs especially when I cough, low back throbbing, gas, hands swollen and achy
Writing down daily goals and completing them make me feel better
Feb 2
7:25a- I hurt all over! Head hurts too. Body feels chilled. There are times I get tired of hurting all over all the time.
It’s a good thing to give thanks to the Lord and sing praises to His name.
*wish I could remember rest of lyrics
8:00a- having a rough morning. I’m a basket case. Tears flowing. 🙁
Joe trying to get things going this morning but it’s just rubbing me roughly. Trying my best to mind my verbiage so to not cause argument.
I don’t understand how I can go to bed happy and calm and wake up sad and upset.
Got a sweet message from Emma this morning that’s she’s praying for me.
9:15a- riding with Dad & Mom to visitation this morning. Radio going, Dad talking, Mom talking – I hear it all but none of it is registering. It’s all just scrambled noise – too much going on to focus on one thing. Crazy!
10:00a- chilly tingling sensation in center of chest. Toes tingling and cold with sensation moving slowly to cover whole foot.
Who can cheer the heart like Jesus, by His presence all divine? True and tender, pure and precious, O how blessed to call Him mine! All that thrills my soul is Jesus, He is more than life to me; And the fairest of ten thousand In my blessed Lord I see.
10:33a- gotta get my brain out of fight & flight mode. All my anxieties and fears come flooding to the forefront!!! Praying constantly for protection!!! Beehives (I’m allergic), big dogs (I’ve been attacked -thankful my husband was near to get mean dog to let go of my foot!). Go boldly (I’m a chicken right now). Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world (good thing bc I’m a feeble soul). One possible prospect.
I’m an overcomer. With God’s help I can do this.
12:22p- made pasta salad for lunch. Dezirae helped me cut the black olives up. I’m resting now. Legs throbbing! Neck hurts. I’m tired.
10:05p- rested by watching a movie after lunch. Spent rest of day doing bulletin, monthly prayer list, printed nursery schedule & procedures list to laminate, made chili & rolls for dinner.
Legs are throbbing and sore. Two days left of nystatin oral rinse and thrush is still not completely gone. Don’t know what to do.
I didn’t know that echinacea can keep candida at bay. I need to start that regimen back up – 3 weeks on 1 week off
Feb 3
7:00a- Upon waking, my lower legs throbbing as if I had worked out heavy and hard for a long while. Rt hip throbbing. Hands swollen.
I’ve forgotten what piece I was gonna play for offeratory today. Know I didn’t write it down. Ugh!
I’m determined it’s still gonna be a good day.
Tongue feels funny. Check in mirror. Thrush is worse than yday all because I gave in and ate three yeast rolls for dinner! This is ridiculous. I’m tired of not feeling well. I’ll ask my wellness friends for suggestions.
– Oil of Oregano, Echinacea, Grapefruit seed extract,
9:00a- practicing hymns for today. Ugh three sharps are not my friend. Started trying to play and asked the Lord to help. I cannot explain it but was able to transpose to flats and play that one song.
I think forcing myself to keep playing piano has actually helped my brain.
Brain feeling foggy and blurry already. Wish I could get someone to explain the how’s and why’s of this injury. I may look normnal but I’m far from it on inside.
Shoes I’m wearing are killing my legs! I may have to be a country chic and go barefoot for services. I can’t torture myself this way. They aren’t even heals. I don’t get it.
11:00a- checked on food to see how it’s cooking in crocpkot. Discovered that I forgot to plug it in!!! I dislike when I do that. It’s frustrating. Plugged it in and on high. Hope it works but got feeling it won’t be ready.
12:30p- food is nowhere near ready. Guess we’ll have to back up and punt. Decided to go to store pick up fried chicken & a few groceries. Kids big help getting it done quickly.
2:15p- I’m exhausted. Need to rest a while.
9 :57p- cat nap lasted about 15min. Hard to sleep when you hurt so much. Chose to do some work around church. Trimmed up the roses bushes. Typed up some things for Joe. Had Jordon & Dezirae to each help do something too. Had good services today.
Had lunch for dinner. Surprised Joe tonight. Legs still sore and throbbing. Lower back aches. Rt side hurts. Hands swollen and achy. Rt ear hurts. Parts of skin crawling. Feet hurting.
6:00a- fell asleep sometime after midnight. Woke up couple hours later with sharp stabbing pain in right side.
8:31a- trouble swallowing pills this morning. Felt like one got stuck in my throat. already starting to get a headache.
1:01a- good meeting this morning. Lots of info to take in. Thankful I was able to take notes and that he repeated himself a lot – at least important keys.
Met with Bro Kilpatrick about a church website. Able to upgrade hosting on my site and purchase new domain vs all new info. Have to compare info.
1:25p- laying down to rest while Joe goes hunting. Exhausted. Upper back muscles starting to sting and burn.
6:30p- asked preacher about our situation. Not sure we asked question right, but he said a man in his church was struck by lightning 6 months ago. He said it mainly messed up the electric wiring in his brain. I said exactly. He asked what % my doctors are telling me that I’ll recover. I told them they haven’t. They really don’t know how to treat me and are just managing my symptoms. Also told him that most of my recovery has been from researching on my own so far.
This confirmed I need new doctor, but where do I look? There are no Dr’s in my area that treat lightning surviors long term. Lord, I need help.
10:29p- made it home safely. I’m exhausted. Right side cramping easily. Muscles in calves randomly twitching. Cold sensation in the center of my back.
Jan 30
6:00a- woken up by text notification. Read texts and fell back to sleep
8:00a- difficulty waking up. Rt hip throbbing. Muscles in calves randomly twitching. Head hurts. Fingers swollen and achy. It’s cold in house, but I know I have lots to do…need to make a list so I won’t forget. Car is suppose to be fixed today then we must go pick it up.
12:15p- car won’t be ready until tomorrow. Worked on familiar hymns most of morning. Brain scrambled and have headache now.
3:21pm- folded 2 loads of clothes now I’m exhausted. Joe & Jordon processing deer meat in kitchen.
6:49p- I’m so exhausted. No energy. Feel like I have jetlag. Legs cramping. Rt hip hurts. Headache. Indigestion.
8:00p- crashed for about 30 min
9:45p- wrote 3 things down I wanted to get done today. Able to complete 5 things. I was wiped out by 12pm. Entire body aches. Calves cramping. Rt side throbbing. Headaches. Feel like I was beat up again. I didn’t even have energy to make dinner. Joe was a sweetheart and cooked dinner.
Need to research how to heal brain, nerve damage, hormone imbalance.
Also, need to work on gathering tax info for CPA.
Jan 31
6:30a – woke from odd dream to hearing one of my watches ticking (it’s on other side of room on dresser). Low back throbbing. Rt hip hurts. Neck hurts. Head hurts. Indigestion.
It’s a good to give thanks to the Lord and sing praises to his name.
Goals today:
Find simplified list for tax preparations
Start calculating expenses
Begin calling around to find new Dr
Dust bookshelf
2:00p- made several contacts today trying to find a new doctor. One place had me in tears bc I couldn’t get her to answer my questions. Next place was sweet and sympathetic.
Micah 7:7 Therefore I will look unto the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation: my God will hear me.
Thankful that God not only hears and saves when help is needed, but also guides us through the difficulties. It doesn’t take extraordinary abilities. It merely takes faith in God and the willingness to act upon that faith.
7:00a- Wow! I don’t hurt as much as I usually do (slept on different bed it was much softer). Broke another nail in middle of night.
Noticed last couple of days my lft eye is kind of droopy. Yawning a lot too.
9:42- Ate breakfast at waffle house (egg & grit bowl). Used restroom. Having stomach issues. Coughed & it felt like someone punched me in gutt!
10:00a – surprise worked!!! Jakob stunned we came to see him.
11:51a- face feels flushed, head hurts, lights bothering eyes, hands really swollen – had to take ring off ring finger its hurting and cutting off circulation. Toes feel like 1k elephant is stepping on them. Trying not to whince.
11:57 lft collar bone just popped.! Ouch!
3:02p- Took Jakob to lunch…some Habchi place. I got hot green tea! Guys got sushi while I ordered combo fried rice. It was delicious. They take 40% off on sushi so we saved $ too.
Took Jakob to store to get a few items.
4:00p- I’m exhausted and hurting! Need to rest. Starting to get headache. Calves throbbing. Feet ache. Low hurts. Stuttering. Hands swollen and achy.
7:00- finger tips felt weird during service not sure how to explain. College kids invited us to go “hang out” with them at McCallisters after church. It was good time of fellowship.
11:29p- wide awake. Skin starting to feel itchy again. Had blessed day overall. Glad to spend quality time with our son, Jakob.
Had a blessed day making a detour surprise visit to see our son at Tri-State. Tomorrow we continue our journey to Walker Springs for Preacher’s mtg. #thankyouLord
Jan 28
6:00a- finally fell asleep sometime after 1:30am. Just had alarming encounter with a rather large palmeto bug while in bathroom. No shoes to sqwish so I used hair spray and the plunger! Now my nerves are screaming and jumpy. Not fun, but I’m sure it was a funny sight. Arms are cramping. My rght ear aches.
8:00a- took Jakob to BK for quick breakfast. It’s hard eating out when you’re trying to limit your breads and sugars to get rid of thrush.
Sun is bright this morning! Glad we got to see Jakob one more time before we leave.
Fingers and hands throbbing. Swollen too. Thrush has diminished more. Think I have 5 more days of rx. Glad when it will be done – even more thankful if it does it’s job all the way.
Toes ache. Back aching. Lights bright. Tired already. Legs aching.
11:00a- stopped for restroom break. Glad that I had my cane as it kept me from falling. Stepped out of car onto ground I didn’t realize was uneven and slanted. Little shaken but okay.
11:50a- winding country roads are not agreeing with me! They’re making me nervous!! Biting nails kind(not literally). Rt arm is cramping! Feels like a vice is clamping down on it. Nerves on edge.
Landmarks started looking familiar – army reserve, fire station, etc. Joe saw that we were passing through Philadelphia MS!
12:30p- making pit stop in Meridian. My whole body is starting to cramp up. Need to get out and stretch a bit.
1:00p- took 2 tylenol for headache
2:00p- roads so windy they started making me sick to my stomach.
3:00p- Made it to Bro Jeremy’s house. I started getting car sick on way here. Joe is in woods. I’m laying down resting for a bit. I hurt all over. I think if rest a bit I’ll feel better.
6:30p- still have headache. Took tylenol and rx
7:33p- 1st night of preacher’s mtg. Enjoyed being able to sing instead of playing piano. Struggled a bit though. Throat box felt strained.
11:36p- got to talk to all of my kids tonight. Jakob not a child but he’ll always be my boy. Joe burnt popcorn. I thought it was funny. Lol!
Upper chest hurting, calves & lower legs cramping & throbbing, lft hand numb, hands swollen and achy, headache easing. I’m getting tired.
Admin on support page shared a link to an article on Medical Aspects of Lightning Strikes. Good article. Thought it might be helpful in explaining what lightning strike survivors deal with after being struck by lightning. Need to print it for my doctors. Info in the article indicates that my laptop was affected by the lightning strike too!
