May 17
5:30a woken by extreme sharp pain in rt side! Rt hand numb. Feel like I broke fever.
8:00a- whole body aches with pain. Gotta get moving to see I can forget about some of pain. Taking shower was painful and got me out of breath this am. I not understand why it pains me so to raise my arms above my heart.
11:13a- put meat in crockpot for dinner. 1/2 hour later realized that I forgot to plug in crockpot. Think I figured out how to make hydroponics 5 gallon bucket. Had kids help get it put together. Needed to transplant tomato plants. Hope it works.
Hung 2 loads of clothes on line (I know I’ll feel that later. Need to rest a piece I’m already wore out!
2:00p- watched movie. Sweet Inspirations – made me cry. I want to make difference in people’s lives like that woman did.
3:00- worked on putting visitor bags together for Sunday. Kept messing. Had to ask Dezirae to help me.
5:59p- forgot to put rice in crockpot. Had to cook stove top. Made too much. At least we have leftovers. My gait is quite wobbly today. Tired and ready for nap.
7:00p- attending graduation at FCS…while watching videos parents put together for the 10 graduate, I became emotional basket case. Our Joe Jr would’ve graduated tonight. Been thinking about Joe Jr and Charity more lately. Not sure why or what it all means. Kind of feels like I’m reliving it again.
Excited to see crowd turn out. House was packed. Had to put out additional seating. Got kick out of Bro. Aaaron get excited over the crowd. Thought they did good job handling it all.
10:38p- a little taken back by people asking how I’m doing as well as a couple even said they enjoy following my posts. I guess I need to figure way to do better on keeping up with posts on progress. Currently looking for new Dr’s but funds are limited. If I could get just one Dr who cares to listen and learn with me towards healing and affordable. I’d be grateful.
Maybe need to think of how to post without gory details. Maybe indicate trigger warning. I’ll have to pray about it. I didn’t realize people were actually following me that closely. Wozerz!
A lady said she loved how we redid floor at church. Asked how I came up with it. Told her I was just trying to use resources we had around church. Another lady couldn’t believe it so I shewed her a picture.
I didn’t think people paid much attention to me. I’m kind of stunned. Don’t know what to think but to God be the glory! Not wanting to sound all spiritual bc I’m not. Lord knows the battles I’ve been facing. I’m just a sinner saved by grace who wants to point others to Him. He alone is my strength and shield
Psalms 28:7
The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him.
I’m exhausted and feel like crashing soon. Entire back aches, rt hip aches, dizzy, slight headache, lft eye feels droopy, stuffy nose with congestion, hands achy and swollen, lft lower leg feels like it’s being choked, shoulders ache, neck hurts, arms hurt, legs ache
May 18
6:25a- strange dreams. Legs, feet, and arms throbbing. Rt hip hurts. I’m cold.
About choked on my meds this morning. Guess my throat is a bit swollen. Upper torso aches, neck hurts. Slight headache. Maybe if I get moving I’ll be distracted from the pain.
9:50a- realized that I forgot to finish preparing food for dinner. Beans soaking in crockpot on counter not plugged in & meat in microwave to thaw. Ugh! I’m not even gonna be home for several hours. I guess the stew is going to be more hoboish than planned. What a mess. Lol.
11:00a- though frustrated and scared, God allowed Jordon & I to lead a man to Christ today. Jordon did great keeping me calm and moving forward when I wanted to panic and run away when we encountered large dog barking even though he was chained and fenced!
I’m exhausted and hurting but have to keep going. Have to direct church people in helping me get church spruced up for our Homecoming tomorrow. So wish Joe could be here but he also needs to work to provide for family. He does his best and for that I’m thankful though I don’t show my appreciation as I should at times.
1:00a- out to pick up cake for tomorrow. Decided to stop home to put food in crockpot so I don’t lose meat and grab my steam mop I forgot to grab earlier. Brain is not working right.
6:30p- discoverd I put slow cooker on low instead of high. Have to tranfer to pot on stove.
I’m so ready to be done for day. I hurt all over. Feet freezing. I’m under a blanket.
I can choose to sulk or make lemonade from my dropped lemons.
10:00p- family jumped in to help me make fluffed eggs, coleslaw, and purify water for tomorrow while I finished worship bulletins. Dezirae helped with kids puzzle and fillers in bulletin. She wants to learn to be able to help me (what a sweetie). Whole family is so thoughtful…they’re learning my stress triggers and jumping in more to ease the anxiety. Thankful for their daily help.
11:30p- sharp pin point stabbing pain in rt lower leg enough to make me jump! Overall aches. Lower back throbbing. Ears hurt. Skin itches. Neck & shoulders hurt. Center of chest aches. Arms hurt. Thirsty.
Still have thrush. I don’t get it. Trying ACV twice a day for a while to see if that helps.
