December 11, 2017
1:51- took all morning to plsn meals for week and find best deals. Now have a bad headache. Brain hurtsz. Out of breath and exhausted.
10:39p- Right hip throbbing. Rt ankle hurts. Sensitivity to bright lights and loud noises. Center of chest hurts.
Matthew 7:7-8
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
Thankful that I can practice the presence of God throughout my day whether I am washing dishes, doing my personal devotions, running errands, or working on a job. When I practice “running the race” (1 Corinthians 9:24-27) with God by my side, I find more peace and joy than running alone.
December 12, 2017
Matthew 1:20
But while he thought on these things, behold, the angel of the Lord appeared
unto him in a dream, saying, Joseph, thou son of David, fear not to take unto
thee Mary thy wife: for that which is conceived in her is of the Holy Ghost.
Thankful that in the face of adversity Joseph chose to believe the Lord and faced the battle with courage and strength, knowing that God had a divine plan for it all. We may not understand the sorrow or turmoil we face here on earth, but God can turn our sorrows and pain into eternal joy if we allow Him to work in and through our lives.
10:08p- Forgot about writing until now. Took muscle relaxer on top of Benadryl as neurologist suggested. I ended up over sleeping until 9am. Rt hip aches, but doesn’t hurt as bad as yesterday. Center of chest has had burning pain most of day. Rt ankle achy. Rt wrist swollen. Upper back hurts. Troubled with remembering specific words or saying what I’m thinking.
Got frustrated trying to pay bills this morning and my skin began a blushing flushing. Got hot. Not handling stress too well.
It’s time for bed and I’m wide awake.
God doesn’t choose us because He knows that were confident and able to follow. He choses us because of what we’re capable of.
11:55p- Still wide awake. Center of chest throbbing. Beginning to get icy sensation as well. Took pain pill. Ringing in left ear.
