July 4, 2018
Woke at 4am with my legs from knees down cramping and throbbing.Hands swollen and achy.Slight headache.Right side just above hip aches.
July 5, 2018
Woke with a headache.Legs from knees down cramping and throbbing. Lower back aches. Rt side cramps when I turn. Thighs feel like they’re burning. Exhausted, but can’t sleep.
Hand swollen and tingly
Hebrews 10:35-36
Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward.
For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye
might receive the promise.
Some days no matter what you do it just seems like nothing goes your way. It’s in those times that you need to look to God for your strength to persevere. Don’t give up! Your blessings are just around the corner.
Lord, please help me to keep moving forward no matter how hard the path ahead may seem. Help me to trust you to lead me in the path that we should go.
July 6, 2018
11.08a Didn’t sleep well. Kept waking up due to cramping in my legs. Woke up to calf mjuscles cramping in both legs. Pain level is 5/6.
Slight headache. Hands and wrists swollen. Chest cracking when I turn a certain way.
4.08p Went to TBI support group on Tuesday. Mom took me. Dezirae had fun painting a picture. My head hurt too much to think about trying to paint.
Mom & I chatted with another guy (I mostly listened). Shared info on how we were injured. He was in an auto accident about eight yrs ago.
During our conversation, he asked me if my personality has changed since my injury. I had to think a moment. I had to admit that my personality indeed has changed since my injury. I knew it had some but I wasn’t exactly sure how much.
I discussed it with my husband a couple days later when I remembered the question. He confirmed that it had changed. He said that I’m now more skittish of everything.
I would like to think that I’m doing good and getting farther in my recovery than I probably am, but in reality I still need lots of help. I was a very independent person before with the attitude that there’s nothing God and I can’t figure out or handle.
Now, I have to admit I’m afraid to be alone. I’m afraid of falling. I don’t comprehended things as quickly as before. I get confused easily. I lack the ability to concentrate on one thing for any length of time (even now I got distracted and stopped to do something else before remembering I was writing this info).
My life has forever changed since my lightning strike. I’m not the same person I was. I’m learning to adjust to my new normal which I know will take time.
It’s peculiar how a traumatic event will change your perception and outlook on life. I’m just focusing on one day at a time. I’m thankful for the Lord’s mercies and His faithfulness to be by my side each step of the way. I’m thankful for my loving family that has been supportive along the way.
Lamentations 3:22-2
8:45p – Sharp stabbing pain in center of chest. Costocondritisflairing up again! Ouch!!
John 10:28-30
And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. My Father, which gave them me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father’s hand. I and my Father are one.
Thankful that I have the assurance of eternal security in Christ Jesus. Through mountain top experiences or stormy seas, God’s love for me will never fade.
