2019 Jan 23 – 24
Jan 23
2:47a- still wide awake. Headache has become migraine. Seeing spots in the dark. Skin feels like pins and needles. Background light all way down plus night owl on and this light still hurs eyes. Praying. 10 breaths. Counting blessing. Muscles shaking. Need to calm brain. Next quote scripture.
6:40a- last time I looked at clock it was 3:17a when I was reaching for melatonin. Awake again.
8:15a- realized I still needed to fix hair and put makeup on. My left hand jerked while putting mascara on and accidentally poked myself in eye with mascara wand. Ouch!
9:12a- made it to co-op in nick of time. Wanted to be there earlier. Headache has already started.
Wind blowing so hard outside I can hear it whistling inside.
2:00p- went to pick up my 2nd round of rx, but found out that they were out of stock. Tech called two other pharmacies and they were out of stock too! Ugh! I don’t have energy for this. Lord, please help.
3:20p- after little rest I was able to find it at CVS with coupon from goodrx. Thank you Lord.
4:00p- storm rolls through. Too close thunder and lightning roll sounds like boom close to house. Scares me!!! Nerves instantly on edge! Lord keep me safe til the storm passes by!
8:30p- crashed for about 20 minutes. I’m still tired.
9:30p- had Dezirae braid my hair so it’ll be wavy tomorrow.
10:22p- need to switch to magnesium malate (it helps defeat thrush plus other benefits)
https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/10-proven-magnesium-benefits#section11
https://aor.ca/blog/understanding-different-types-of-magnesium
10:45p- feet hurt, legs cramping, hands swollen and achy, eyes bright sensitive, loud noise sensitive, tired but still awake. Feel like I’m forgetting to do something but not remembering. Hmm?
11:36p- skin itches, brain hurts, eyes watery, extra thirsty, hurt all over, tailbone aches, rt hip aching
How does one stop neuropathic itching? Ugh! I just need some sleep please Lord I’m so exhausted.
Jan 24
4:30a- woke thinking I woke up late.
Legs cramping. Headache. Sneezing. Throat dry.
Have to take Joe to work bc I need car for sons dental apt. Had fleeting thought of rescheduling but it’s already been rescheduled once before.
He is working at a post I’ve not been to before today. Had to use GPS to get home. unfamiliar territory. Almost got lost in the parking lot. Just want to cry. Can’t cry need to focus on the road hard enough in the dark as it is.
7:15a- gonna take a nap. I’m exhausted. Need to get rid of headache.
8:00a headache has eased. Hands & left arm numb and tingly. Tummy gurgling (it has been for a few days now. Not sure what that means).
10:56a- at dentist office Jordon getting cavity filled. waited (wish I had analog clock) 45 minutes before he was called back…think we’d still be in waiting area if I didn’t ask how much longer.
Feet freezing, headache easing (took migraine rx), hands swollen and achy, lights bright bother eyes, man playing game/video on his tablet across room is as loud as tv, low back & rt hip aching, neck hurts, wish I could calm the itchies.
1:30p- need to pick Joe up from work. Have kids with me to help navigate. I only remember to certain point. Dezirae remembers most of it. Jordon knows how to retrace steps on GPS on phone. I’m a little nerve wracked about it, but trusting God to help us.
2:08p- I made one wrong turn but we didn’t do too bad. A brownish-red bird just flew into the windshield. Scared me. I saw the bird but not expecting it to hit us! Nerves on edge. I’m tired and feel weak.
2:40p- I just want to cry!!! Our only vehicle just broke down on side of road. The clutch broke. Auto mechanic said it would cost over $1,000 to fix it. We don’t have that kind of $. Lord, what do we do now?
5:03p- Just got car towed to house. Now on way to church for services tonight. Not sure about getting car fixed but I can pray for God to provide.
Mr Tow Truck guy suggested calling around for prices.
Center of chest is turning icy.
7:21p- Not too familiar with #77 – O That Will Be Glory practiced okay but couldn’t keep up during song service ended up plucking one note. Ugh! Forgot how to end song. Ugh!
Though flustered all’s fairly well considering all the stress that’s going on especially today with the car breaking down
