Nov 19
530a woke from bad dream. When I woke my hands and wrists were stinging burning throbbing almost as if on fire feeling. I hate having nightmares. Woke to feeling clammy but freezing. Had to pull covers over me to warm up.
550 decided to check emails since I probably won’t fall asleep quickly.
Glucapro …just another weight loss scheme. Wasted time. Ugh.
749 things I know I wrote/typed aren’t in journal. Don’t know what happened. Frustrating.
Just finished taking shower. Getting to where I need to wash hair and shower on different days. Arms fatigue out and cramp easily. Out of breath. Takes whole bc I have to take breaks to have enough strength to continue. Arms wrists and hands throbbing cramping now. Will have to rest a bit.
Discovered I typed journal notes in wrong location. At least I didn’t lose them. Ha.
10a TBI coordinator made in home visit. Sat at picnic table outside. Asked questions for survey. Brought couple activities to do with me. First was flashcards. Had to pick 5 cards and make a story out of them. First set: brush, dresser, mop, key, plate. Reminded me of Cinderella or Belle. Second set: pencil, ladder, clock, — I forgot first two words. She was surprised how well I did. I didn’t think it was that good.
Second activity: read story and answer questions. I got stuck on why filling positions had anything to do with missing school days. Only able to answer 2 questions. Had to be coached in one other. The last two I completely missed.
Said she didn’t expect me to be perfect but thought I did very well with memory.
Looking forward to testing with Dr Ogden in January. She will sit down with me to explain results/findings. Told her I have m8xed emotions bx I know I’ll have a migraine afterwards bc any use of brain function for period of time increases my headache, but I’m curious to see findings and where I need to work to improve.
She admitted I’m first lightning survivor to not only meet but work with. Praise the Lord!
1220 been trying to work on blog a little. Headache increases. Inner layer of brain tingly. Chills down spine. Hands & feet cold. Face feels flushed. Need to rest a while.
Ingredients in bread maker for fresh bread for dinner.
100 freezing. Feet like ice even with socks on. Putting on sweat pants to warm up. Have sweater on too. I definitely wouldn’t last long up North in winter. Haha.
300 starting to get ready for church. Chopped broccoli. Back throbbing so bad it’s difficult to stand. Arms and hands throbbing. Exhausted. Need to lay flat a while. Setting alarm so I’m not late.
442 oh I so have issues with being in car on road. Everything seems closer than they are making me feel like we’re going to get hit. Not good for my nerves. Family don’t understand. I don’t really understand it either.
445 half way to church it dawned on me that I forgot to grab the main ingredient for tonight’s supper. Ugh! I feel like such a dunce sometimes. Now what?
Have to stop at DG. Maybe they’ll have it.
500 DG don’t have it. Have to back up and punt. Burritos, corn, & chips it is. So frustrating.
515 I’m so behind schedule and low back is throbbing horrendously.
715 I forgot to pick offertory hymn. Ugh! Guess I’ll just replay last hymn sung.
1030 tired and exhausted. Skin itchy & sensitive. Eyes sensitive to lights. Headache. Whole body aches. Low back throbbing. Hands achy & swollen.
Nov 20
700 rough night. Up every couple hours. Woke at 7 to my lft arm and hand stinging and tingling but I was laying on rt side. Neck hurts. Headache. Lights bothersome. Rt hip throbbing. Feet tingling. Legs ache. Wrists and hands stinging. Chest not hurting as much. Kinda feel like I’ve been beat up.
300 decided to treat Dezirae to Starbucks with gift card. Shopped for items for bday box to send to Jakob.
600 I’m in lot of pain. Low back is throbbing horrendously. Can hardly walk. Joe says pain is written all over face. Tummy hurts too.
800 misunderstanding caused me to stress out over what and how things need to be done for this weekend. Too much for brain to comprehend and handle. Had to talk things out with Joe. Took a while for me to comprehend and figure things out. Had to write it out on paper. Cooking 2 turkeys, stuffing, rolls, pumpkin pie, cranberry salad, etc.
Need 8 gallons oil to deep fry turkey next week. Whew!
1000 back is killing me with pain. Headache. Hands and arms throbbing. Hands also stingy burn. Skin itchy. Legs ache. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling 4″ above ankles to feet. Feet hurt and tingly. Lower rt back cramping and spasming. Hot. My sheets feel like they’re covered in sand scratching my skin but I know there’s not any. Night meds taken plus pain rx.
