What Do You Believe? by Julie Myers

Happy November 15th! Can you believe next week is Thanksgiving??? I love this time of year! This week’s devo is “What Do You Believe?” written by Julie Myers! Please take the time to read as she shares with us this week! I hope that you have an awesome week!!!

What Do You Believe? – Julie Myers

John 11:18-26,38-44

What do you believe? Not just what you think you believe or what you say you believe. What do you believe in your heart about Christ?

This story is one that hit me like a ton of bricks. I had been struggling in conversations with a friend who had decided that God wasn’t for her anymore. She had a lot to say about everything that was going on in the government and with the pandemic. Though, I had noticed her behavior coming up to this confrontation, it seemed like she wasn’t living as she believed it for a long time. It began with head knowledge and never seeped into her heart.

John 11:23-27 Jesus saith unto her, Thy brother shall rise again. Martha saith unto him, I know that he shall rise again in the resurrection at the last day. Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead yet shall he live: And whosoever liveth and believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this? She saith unto him, Yea Lord: I believe that thou art the Christ, the Son of God, which should come into the world.

If you read these words at a glance, you would think that she agreed with Him. Look closely though. She did not agree with what He said He was, she agreed with what she thought He was.

This is our struggle. This is a real thing. WE put it in our heads what we think He is saying instead of reading the words and meditating and believing. We move forward with our heads in our Christian walk instead of it manifesting in our hearts and then when things do not work out the way we believe they should (our perception or expectation fails) we doubt God’s goodness.

John 11:38-39 Jesus therefore again groaning in himself cometh to the grave. It was a cave, and a stone lay upon it. Jesus said, Take ye away the stone. Martha, the sister of him that was dead, saith unto him, Lord by this time he stinketh: for he hath been dead four days.

Jesus knows what He is going to do. He knows what He is capable of and though Martha is right there in the presence of the Lord her gaze is not on Him it is on the physical things of this world. Her words betray her thoughts. The physical death of her brother and even the smell are her focus. They are very real things yes but they are the things of this world, not the things of eternity and the miracles of God.

Though in verse 40 Jesus says to her Said I not unto thee, that if thou wouldest believe, thou shouldest see the glory of God?

He gently reminds her that she has to believe to be able to see it. Not just in her head but in her heart. And though we continue to doubt and forget, our God is still good and still providing though we are not looking at it and watching for it. Do we believe it?

John 11:41-44 Then they took away the stone from the place where the dead was laid. And Jesus lifted up his eyes, and said, Father, I thank thee that thou hast heard me. And I knew that thou hearest me always: but because of the people which stand by I said it, that they may believe that thou hast sent me. And when he thus had spoken, He cried with a loud voice, Lazarus, come forth. And he that was dead came forth, bound hand and foot with gravesclothes: and his face was bound about with a napkin. Jesus saith unto them, Loose him, and let him go.

Jesus even says in His prayer to the Father – He knows His Father hears Him always but because of the people who are standing by He said it so that they would believe. Even with Martha, though she was caught up in the here and now, in today’s moments and drudgeries- He showed her a miracle still.

I don’t know if Martha ever saw the miracle through the circumstances of her “now’s.: She isn’t mentioned past this passage. I do know that my friend –‘my Martha’ – gained a new view and started looking for them.

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

O soul are you weary and troubled

No light in the darkness you see

There’s light for a look at the Savior

And life more abundant and free.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

Look full in his wonderful face

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim

In the light of his glory and grace

His word shall not fail you he promised

Believe him and all will be well

Then go to a world that is dying

His perfect salvation to tell

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

Look full in his wonderful face

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim

In the light of his glory and grace

O soul are you weary and troubled

No light in the darkness you see

There’s light for a look at the Savior

And life more abundant and free

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

Look full in his wonderful face

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim

In the light of his glory and grace.

https://www.sappsolutely.com/devotions/what-do-you-believe-julie-myers

Lightning Strikes – Journal Entries 2019 October 25-27

Oct 25

6.00a woke to migraine! eyes throbbing, brain feels swollen like its going to pop out of my head!!! Took bp 151/99 hr 64. Took Tylenol and Edarbyclor. My bp needs to come down now. This is ridiculous. Eyes crying from pain. 

6.30 Joe rubbing my neck, head, & shoulders to relax the muscles. Feels good. 

7.00 migraine eased from 10 to 8 but pain is still pounding. Eye throbbing. Took relpax. Migraines can be debilitating. Ugh! 

7.30 Joe sweet. Made me breakfastin bed. Two egg biscuits with provolone. I’m not hungry but I ate them anyways. I’m loved❤

8.00 I feel aweful. Joe told me I had to stay in bed all day. Normally I would contest but I don’t even have energy to. Think I’ll take a nap.

10.00 feel worse than before. Head pounding!!! Bp 158/108 head hurts to lie down anymore

2.00 soaking in Epsom Salt bath for while. Don’t feel any better but at least I’m clean 😊

2.32p Dr agreed to let me resume taking the Edarbyclor for my blood pressure. Thank the Lord! Hopefully it’ll come down soon so I can start feeling better. 

3:00 muscles randomly twitching in legs

5.00 a friend so kindly brought dinner for us tonight. It worked out wonderful for us. Never heard of Cowboy Grub before, but it was delicious.

11.45p trouble falling asleep. Bad headache but not migraine as previous in day Neck hurts. Hands ache. Rt arm aching. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down rt leg. Low back throbbing. Lower left leg tourniquit tighten feeling. Feet tingling. Muscles feel stiff and ache.

Severe thunderstorms today. Ended up with two separate tornado warnings for our area. One actually touched down amd did damage north of us. Skin feels like its crawling periodically. Unnerving. Calves cramping. Wish I could find something naturally effective to wipe out the headaches for good. Bloated and gasy. Rt side cramping

Oct 26

7.00 woke to pounding headache. Hurts to lift head. Whole body aches.

8.00 Joe sweet decided to make pancakes for breakfast. Took am meds. Decided to make cup of decaf coffee w almond milk. 

10.00 bp 139/93 hr 65

10.20 conversation with son. Son asked opinion. Dad gives opinion. Son expressed his having trouble with opinion. I told son to “Wipe your sleeves off your feelings” instead of “Wipe your feelings of your sleeves”. Lol!

12.15 starting to remember more things about past. It’s almost like I’m coming out of an episode of amnesia or something. It’d be great to be able to regain old memories. I feel sometimes like I lost a lot of things.

3.00 Joe took us to cbc fall festival towards end so there wouldn’t be as many people. Able to visit with few friends. Nice to be out of house for change. Got 2 pumkins given to us. Yay! Get to make homemade pumkpin pie for Thanksgiving. 

10.00 heading pounding again. Of course, that probably comes from taking rest of evening to do bulletin. Had to ask Dezirae to help finish them. Thankful she likes helping me and wanting to learn things I do.

 Neck muscles and upper shoulders tight and throbbing. Hands ache. Low back & rt hip aches. Feeling some better than yday. At least bp going in rt direction now. Legs ache. Muscles randomly twitching thru body. Feet hurt.

Oct 27

7.00 whole body aches. Strange dreams. Woken before I could finish…might be a good thing as weird as it was. Head hurts

7.30 decided to eat hard boiled egg for breakfast. Ended up choking on it and having sharp chest pain making me stop in tracts. Oh, that hurts!!!

8.00 Bp 128/82 hr 65 Headache worsening. Took pain rx. Need to find something that actually works. Morning meds taken. 

9.53 I’m exhausted. I could use a nap. Eyes hurt. Head hurts.  

12.48 feel like I’m going to crash. Need to lay down a bit. Nerves tingling all over body. Vertigo acting up. Headache. 

1.20 neck popped and now I have tingling sensation in my lft ear

3.00 tingling in ear lasted bout half hour. Only slept bout thirty minutes. 

5.00 worked on love for little bit. Headache. Rt hip throbbing. 

6.00 brain hurts and vision blurred. Messed up playing hymn…stopped before I was supposed to…thought we finished. Oops. Hard to follow where we’re at in song. Next song I almost played too many verses. It’s virtually  impossible presently for me to see keys, notes, and song leader at same time. Then there’s my hands not playing keys my brain thinks it should be.

9.30 frustrated bc I’m struggling to plan meals like I used to, I’m upset at myself bc I can’t remember what a traditional Thanksgiving dinner is suppose to consist of let alone plan one for church (at least I have last yrs sign up sheet saved on computer – but I don’t think that’s even right), my mom is telling my story and is messing it up. I’m just in bad mood and everything’s rubbing me wrong way.

10.00 having bad moment and bad attitude where I don’t feel adequate. Started trying to read book. I’m in middle of second chapter and I can’t even remember what I’ve read. Ugh! The only thing that has stuck is Psalm 61:2 and that’s because I have read that verse multiple times to myself (preaching to the choir) about leaning on the Rock when I’m overwhelmed.

Oddly enough the second chapter of book is titled “Admit That You Are Stuck and Struggling”. Oh, I admit that in a heart beat. I’m stuck in my short term memory and don’t know how to fix it. I’m struggling with balancing everything and trying to figure out how to relearn things and adapt to my new self. 

Thankful the Lord has brought me thus far and has protected me. There’s been plenty of times I could of and probably should have had a heart attack or stroke since lightning strike especially with the blood pressure issue. 

Lord, please help me to learn to adapt to the new me and overcome where I can. Help me to be a vessel of honor leading others to You even in my valley.  

11.45 headache. Neck throbbing. Shoulders and upper back throbbing. Lower back throbbing. Rt hip aches. Legs ache. Hands swollen and achy. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some tingling. Burning tingling pain in center of chest. Very tired but brain not slowing down. Pm pt exercises. Nerves in lft hand and back stinging.  

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