Month: November 2021

Oct 28

7.00 woke from nightmare to headache, calves cramping, and muscles twitching randomly in body. Whole body aches and stiff. Eyes watering.

7.28 still laying in bed reading my Bible chilling burning sensation in center of chest

8.00 doing morning pt exercises. Lft shoulder back area cramping. Ugh! Hurts to move. Very tired. 

11.00 PT today. Blair checked out some of my exercises to see how I’m doing. Entire back from neck down is very tight. Adjusting exercises. Need to wake up core muscles to get them strong again. Back muscles very tight in neck and shoulders area and tight down spine. 

Tara checked my vestibular system. Blair asked to give brief background and what going on with dizziness. 

Tara said she could see my eyes skipping in exercises she asked me to do.  Amazing that she could see when my peripheral vision got blurry. 

Tara suggested I seek out a neurooptimologist. They specialize in vision problems. This helped to validate some of issues I’m having. Blair said this type of Dr would be good to have on my team.

7.00p- reclining in chair in livingroom using heating pad. Back muscles cramping and stinging. Need to relax them.

9.00 wore out from today. Going to bed early. 

9.30 indigestion kicks in ugh! Muscles randomly twitching thru body. Sinuses congested. Hands throbbing. Butt hurting. Low back throbbing. Shoulders and neck tight and throbbing.  

Oct 29

12.00 still wide awake. Whole body hurts. Pain rx not touching it. Taking muscle relaxer. Think I’ll take a benadryl instead.

7.30 Joe & Jordon cooked dinner for me. Dezirae made cheese cake for dessert. Yum!

8.30 drinking sleepytime tea with heating pad on back.

9.15 Crashed in chase lounge for 30 minutes shortly after drinking tea. Guess I was more tired than I thought

10.00 whole body hurts!! Rt ear aches. Hurts to move. It’s been raining off an on all day. 

Tweaked PT VOR exercises are making headache worse. 

11.00 muscles thru body stinging. Pain rx and melatonin taken. Hope to fall asleep soon so I don’t feel the pain.

Oct 30

7.30 oh, my body hurts!!! I don’t want to get up. Muscles randomly twitching in legs. Cramping in rt side. Rt hip throbbing. 

Gotta figure out how to overcome the nightmares just about every night. 

It’s most likely spiritual warfare. Ephesians 6:12. 

8.00 it’s raining and cold front is on its way. No wonder I’m hurting. Gotta push thru as I can.

https://www.healthline.com/health/nystagmus#types

6.00 I am so hurting right now!! Pain from head to toe. Soaking in Epsom Salt bath for while. Taking pain rx too. Major indigestion too. Ugh!

10.50 bp 114/82 hr 78 at least my bp is down in spite of muscle and joint pain. 

11.43 looking into nystagmus and how it relates to TBI. 

http://www.scielo.org.za/scielo.php?script=sci_arttext&pid=S0256-95742017001100013

https://www.neuroskills.com/brain-injury/mtbi-and-concussion/visual-dysfunction-related-to-mtbi/

https://www.aao.org/eyenet/article/traumatic-brain-injury-visual-disorders-what-every-2

Oct 31

5.00 woke in much pain from strange dream. Thunderstorms wreak pain to my bones and muscles. Decided to read Bible and devotional book on phone.

6.30 limbs keep going numb and tingly. Gonna try to sleep little longer while I pray.

Oct 25

6.00a woke to migraine! eyes throbbing, brain feels swollen like its going to pop out of my head!!! Took bp 151/99 hr 64. Took Tylenol and Edarbyclor. My bp needs to come down now. This is ridiculous. Eyes crying from pain. 

6.30 Joe rubbing my neck, head, & shoulders to relax the muscles. Feels good. 

7.00 migraine eased from 10 to 8 but pain is still pounding. Eye throbbing. Took relpax. Migraines can be debilitating. Ugh! 

7.30 Joe sweet. Made me breakfastin bed. Two egg biscuits with provolone. I’m not hungry but I ate them anyways. I’m loved❤

8.00 I feel aweful. Joe told me I had to stay in bed all day. Normally I would contest but I don’t even have energy to. Think I’ll take a nap.

10.00 feel worse than before. Head pounding!!! Bp 158/108 head hurts to lie down anymore

2.00 soaking in Epsom Salt bath for while. Don’t feel any better but at least I’m clean 😊

2.32p Dr agreed to let me resume taking the Edarbyclor for my blood pressure. Thank the Lord! Hopefully it’ll come down soon so I can start feeling better. 

3:00 muscles randomly twitching in legs

5.00 a friend so kindly brought dinner for us tonight. It worked out wonderful for us. Never heard of Cowboy Grub before, but it was delicious.

11.45p trouble falling asleep. Bad headache but not migraine as previous in day Neck hurts. Hands ache. Rt arm aching. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down rt leg. Low back throbbing. Lower left leg tourniquit tighten feeling. Feet tingling. Muscles feel stiff and ache.

Severe thunderstorms today. Ended up with two separate tornado warnings for our area. One actually touched down amd did damage north of us. Skin feels like its crawling periodically. Unnerving. Calves cramping. Wish I could find something naturally effective to wipe out the headaches for good. Bloated and gasy. Rt side cramping

Oct 26

7.00 woke to pounding headache. Hurts to lift head. Whole body aches.

8.00 Joe sweet decided to make pancakes for breakfast. Took am meds. Decided to make cup of decaf coffee w almond milk. 

10.00 bp 139/93 hr 65

10.20 conversation with son. Son asked opinion. Dad gives opinion. Son expressed his having trouble with opinion. I told son to “Wipe your sleeves off your feelings” instead of “Wipe your feelings of your sleeves”. Lol!

12.15 starting to remember more things about past. It’s almost like I’m coming out of an episode of amnesia or something. It’d be great to be able to regain old memories. I feel sometimes like I lost a lot of things.

3.00 Joe took us to cbc fall festival towards end so there wouldn’t be as many people. Able to visit with few friends. Nice to be out of house for change. Got 2 pumkins given to us. Yay! Get to make homemade pumkpin pie for Thanksgiving. 

10.00 heading pounding again. Of course, that probably comes from taking rest of evening to do bulletin. Had to ask Dezirae to help finish them. Thankful she likes helping me and wanting to learn things I do.

 Neck muscles and upper shoulders tight and throbbing. Hands ache. Low back & rt hip aches. Feeling some better than yday. At least bp going in rt direction now. Legs ache. Muscles randomly twitching thru body. Feet hurt.

Oct 27

7.00 whole body aches. Strange dreams. Woken before I could finish…might be a good thing as weird as it was. Head hurts

7.30 decided to eat hard boiled egg for breakfast. Ended up choking on it and having sharp chest pain making me stop in tracts. Oh, that hurts!!!

8.00 Bp 128/82 hr 65 Headache worsening. Took pain rx. Need to find something that actually works. Morning meds taken. 

9.53 I’m exhausted. I could use a nap. Eyes hurt. Head hurts.  

12.48 feel like I’m going to crash. Need to lay down a bit. Nerves tingling all over body. Vertigo acting up. Headache. 

1.20 neck popped and now I have tingling sensation in my lft ear

3.00 tingling in ear lasted bout half hour. Only slept bout thirty minutes. 

5.00 worked on love for little bit. Headache. Rt hip throbbing. 

6.00 brain hurts and vision blurred. Messed up playing hymn…stopped before I was supposed to…thought we finished. Oops. Hard to follow where we’re at in song. Next song I almost played too many verses. It’s virtually  impossible presently for me to see keys, notes, and song leader at same time. Then there’s my hands not playing keys my brain thinks it should be.

9.30 frustrated bc I’m struggling to plan meals like I used to, I’m upset at myself bc I can’t remember what a traditional Thanksgiving dinner is suppose to consist of let alone plan one for church (at least I have last yrs sign up sheet saved on computer – but I don’t think that’s even right), my mom is telling my story and is messing it up. I’m just in bad mood and everything’s rubbing me wrong way.

10.00 having bad moment and bad attitude where I don’t feel adequate. Started trying to read book. I’m in middle of second chapter and I can’t even remember what I’ve read. Ugh! The only thing that has stuck is Psalm 61:2 and that’s because I have read that verse multiple times to myself (preaching to the choir) about leaning on the Rock when I’m overwhelmed.

Oddly enough the second chapter of book is titled “Admit That You Are Stuck and Struggling”. Oh, I admit that in a heart beat. I’m stuck in my short term memory and don’t know how to fix it. I’m struggling with balancing everything and trying to figure out how to relearn things and adapt to my new self. 

Thankful the Lord has brought me thus far and has protected me. There’s been plenty of times I could of and probably should have had a heart attack or stroke since lightning strike especially with the blood pressure issue. 

Lord, please help me to learn to adapt to the new me and overcome where I can. Help me to be a vessel of honor leading others to You even in my valley.  

11.45 headache. Neck throbbing. Shoulders and upper back throbbing. Lower back throbbing. Rt hip aches. Legs ache. Hands swollen and achy. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some tingling. Burning tingling pain in center of chest. Very tired but brain not slowing down. Pm pt exercises. Nerves in lft hand and back stinging.  

Oct 22

6a woken by musles spasms in legs. Had nightmare. Headache. Low back throbbing. Pins and needles sensation in hands, forearms, and feet. Very thirsty. EO Pain Relief roller apply to back of neck.

7:09a I guess some sleep helped a little. Bp 133/87 hr 63 currently. 

7.45a Head pounding. Electrical pulsating sensation in arms and legs (almost as if I had tens unit on and turned up tad too high). Pain in left side of chest for brief moment. Whole body aches. I feel miserable. Ears ringing. Lights bothersome. Dizzier than normal.

10:29 mom took me to food pantry. Took Bp after putting food away. Bp 131/93 hr 76

12.00p Bp at Dr office was 141/88 hr 71. Bp with my machine 142/88 hr 72. Mom let them know about the Left Ventricular Hypertrophy. But I can’t remember date of diagnosis. Nurse will let Dr know and give me a call this afternoon.

Interestingly, nurse was able to pull up my records on her screen. Saw the ER report that says patient was struck by lightning. Hmm? I know I was bc I’m dealing with and feeling the after effects. Maybe I should start gathering my records so I can read over them at my pace. It’s important to be an advocate for your health.  

I’m probably confusing Dr’s bc my bloodwork came back normal. Yay me! I think the homeopathic things are helping (eg. Diatomaceous Earth milkshakes with chia seeds, the intermittent fasting, thyme tea, red raspberry leaf tea, green decaf tea, colloidal silver – of course, not all at the same time) keep my organs functioning properly and me off antibiotics.  

Major headache, neck hurts, vision feels blurred on edges of eyes, trouble thinking straight, lightheaded, dizzy, muscles randomly twitching thru body, back aches, lft side hurts like I pulled a muscle, feel like I’m running fever but I don’t

10:00p rt hip throbbing like toothache with sharp pain shooting down leg to foot, low back throbbing, headache bad (I don’t know what to take to get rid of it), lower lft leg just below chin tourniquet tightening feeling with some tingling to foot, upper back hurts, random sharp stabbing pains in rt elbow, eyes & brain feel blurry, neck throbbing, tingling in lower legs, hands ache, tired but awake. Night rx taken.

Oct 23

7:15 woke with a bad headache. Sinuses congested. Whole body aches. Low back & rt hip throbbing…at least no shooting pain presently. Nightmare – trying to escape from somewhere. 

I need to get better. I need to be able to function properly. Sipped some Thyme tea with peppermint and copabia oils. 

9.00 Bp 151/92 have horrible headache. Took Tylenol sinus.

11:30 Need some food in house. Decided to go to Sam’s with Jordon. No way I can walk Sam’s yet used wheelchair. Just that little bit wore me out. Legs throbbing. Sinuses in face hurt horrible. Buttock ache, arms soar. Couldn’t lift 6lb box of spaghetti noodles. Had to get Jordon to do it. Nerves pulsating thru body as if injured and wanting attention. Rt hip aches. Toes cold. Eyes watery. Tired. Neck hurts. Need to rest a while.

4.50p face feels flushed and cheeks feel like they’re burning, headache still bad, short of breath after making batch of stain remover (recipe on my botlle) & helping Dezirae put tablecloth on table, nerves in hands and arms stinging, muscles randomly twitching in legs Bp 146/99

5:07 Told Joe I couldn’t get rid of headache. Joe said to take 2 aspirin. Doing so.

6:30 head still pounding. Lights bright. I feel like I’m burning up. Going to lay down in dark room for while. Took migraine rx. 

7:00 dinner. not hungry eating bc I need to been drinking mostly fluids. 

7:30 applying ice pack to head and heating pad to throbbing rt hip. 

11:00 having trouble going to sleep 

Marker exercise and x to x making headache worse PT. If doc don’t do anything tomorrow I’m going back on Edarbyclor. Maybe once bp is back down to normal I can cut pill in half. Indigestion kicking in. Chewing papaya enzymes. Sinuses severly congested.

Back muscles stinging. Hands swollen and achy rt wrist throbbing. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling. Low back aches. Heart feels like its racing. I’m exhausted. Feel like I’m falling apart from inside out. Ears ringing. 

Lord lead me to the Rock that is higher than I for thou has been a shelter for me. Please give me sweet rest tonight. This poor soul is weary and heavy laden and I need rest from this pain. Lull me to sleep with Your sweet lullabys so I may wake tomorrow rested and ready for another day. Thank you, Lord. 

Oct 24

8.00 slept until 5am then off an on rest of night. Strange dream. Woke up very tired at 7.30a. Hit snooze few times. Hard time waking up. 

Read Bible & devotion book on phone. Prayed a while.

Galatians 6:9 – And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. 

Still have headache but not as bad as yday. Ydays was causing tears. Neck tight and hurting. Chilling tingly sensation in back of head, neck, upper back, and back of upper arms. Ears ringing. Whole body stiff and achy. Low back & rt hip hurting.

10.00 bp 161/101 hr 64 

Decided to try to rest a bit. Did morning PT exercises. Laid on chase lounge for while in livingroom. 

2:00 almost forgot to eat lunch. Chose to eat ham & cheese with tomato and lettuce tortilla wrap & hb egg. 

4:00 Bp 156/94 hr 74

Headache. Upper back stinging. Feeling flushed. Cheeks feel like their on fire. Upper chest feels like it has itchy hives. Look in mirror upper chest is splotchy. Hands throbbing. Rt hip & low back throbbing. Bloated majorly – jean skirt that’s normally loose is almost too tight. Legs ache.

9.26 muscles in rt side spasming. Headache worsening. Lights bothersome. Feet getting cold & I have socks on. Cheeks feel hot. Bloated.

Oct 19

7a- I’m in so much pain!!! It feels like if I inflame any more I’ll explode out of my skin! Headache. Pain level 8/9.

7.30- took Naproxen 500mg. 

8.00- Bp 128/82 hr 59 Bp slowly rising. Sharp pains in my abs, chest, & rt side when I sneeze. I think this new Drs instructions are going to be the death of me.

8:57a pain rx not touching it. Nerves feel like they’re randomly jolting thru body. Physical hard to move. Headache worsening. Going to sip on thyme tea to see if that’ll help.

10.25a I don’t think I’m going to last the week without my bp rx. I have beginning migraine now and bp is 144/85 hr 59.

10.40 called Drs office. Msg being relayed to Dr. Stinging needle pain all over. Headache is now migraine. Took Rx. Toes tingling & cold. Cold slowly expanding over feet. Tingling burning sensation in back. Legs, rt hip, & low back throbbing. Neck hurts. Lips extra dry. Mental cloudy (can’t think straight).

11.11a Just got call from on call Dr. Explained what’s going on and that I’m a lightning survivor. He said my Bp is currently not high enough to do anything. Asked how high it needs to be. He said 160/100 before he can warrant starting me on Bp rx. Have to call Dr Meadows on Monday to ask what to do. Can take migraine rx for the migraine. 

Dr I spoke with doesn’t think Hydrochlorothiazide is a sulfa drug. I told him it was a sulfa drug and I’m allergic. Yet my pharmacist said it was and the info on internet says it is and my body reacted as if it was. Hmm?? 

Even the paper that comes with it precautions “may contain inactive ingredients such as sulfites”. Case closed.

So frustrating!! I need personal Dr in private practice that will care. God please help!

https://www.everydayhealth.com/drugs/hydrochlorothiazide

Joe talked to pharmacist. She said sometimes Drs will do this to see how bad the blood pressure issue really is to try to give better diagnosis. Need to stay away from caffeine & salt. Drink lots of water.

5:18 soaked in hot Epsom Salt bath for quite a while. Wore out. Arms & hands ache. Rt arm cramped washing hair…had to take breaks. Hands feel crampy. Short of breath. Headache eased some. Neck sore. Legs ache. Checked Bp 129/77 hr 65. At least bp is down for now.

10.50p- bp 116/91 hr 80 going to bed. Praying tomorrow is a better day. 

Toes tingly and hurting. Legs ache. Rt hip & low back hurting. Upper back pins and needles chilly burning sensation. Shoulders & neck ache. Arms and hands throbbing. Rt ear throbbing. Headache. Rt jaw throbbing. Muscles randomly twitching in legs. Indigestion so bad I feel nauceous. Took 15ml m.o.m. out of desperation.

Oct 20

6.30 Fell asleep sometime after 1am. I’m so tired.

7.56a I have bad headache. Whole body aches. Nose congested. Eczema spot on belly red andbbothersome. Rt ear throbbing! Bp 129/82 hr 68

9.00 getting ready for church wore me out. My rt jaw throbbing. I feel like I need nap. Tylenol not help headache.

11.00 brain feels weird today – it feels foggy but also unstable like the inner crystals knock out of place. I’m dizzy feeling easily to knock over.

1.30p exhausted. Glad when I get the gerd rx in. Seems like everything I eat caused severe burning indigestion. Lft side sensitive. Blanket twisted under me felt like knife stabbing side. Wish I could figure out the affiliate marketing thing to make money from home.

Pins & needles sensation in back, arms, and legs. More prominent in back. Feels like I’m being electrocuted multiple times.  

10.00p Bp 130/89 hr 73

I’ve had headache all day. Brain felt like it fell off pedestal and was floating in water. Rt ear throbbing most of day. Rt jaw throbbing like toothache. 

Rt hip throbbing with intense sharp pain shooting down rt leg! Toes cold make that freezing. Have heating pad on them now. Legs ache. Muscles randomly twitching in legs. Red eczema spot near belly button hurts.

11.00p legs are cramping been sneezing like crazy trying not to bc sneezing hurts my whole body like the dickens when I do. Congested. Took benadryl seems to be helping

Oct 21

8.30a Bp 136/89 hr 56 

Fell asleep sometime after midnight. Woke with headache and muscles in legs spasming. Whole body aches and stiff. Hard to get moving. Don’t really feel like moving much. Neck & rt shoulder throbbing. Feet cold. Took Tylenol for headache.

9:46a put dinner in crockpot. My hands and arms are throbbing. Head pounding. Lights and noises bothersome. I feel plain aweful. Low back throbbing. Legs & feet ache. I’m wore out and breathing is heavier than usual like I’m out of breath. Now laying down in dark room to rest. Need to get rid of headache. Bp 133/89 hr 65 

10:00a Tylenol not helping. Taking migraine rx.

This is ridiculous. I can’t get anything done down in bed all the time. Gotra find a natural remedy for migraines. Cold pack applied to head.

3.10 bp 153/106 hr 69 bad headache and short of breath when try to do something. Legs throbbing. Can’t think straight. Called Dr to let them know. Explained what’s going on. Asked if I could just take my old Bp rx to get Bp down. She said she’d ask.

https://www.healthline.com/health/high-blood-pressure-low-pulse#causes

4:22- Nurse called to say Dr was going to put me on Lisinopril 20mg. Had to tell them that I couldn’t take it bc it caused bad cough. She’s going to talk to Dr & call again.

4:45p Nurse called asked about Amlopidine. Told Dr at Victory tried that but it caused severe swelling in legs and feet. She asked what other bp rx I’d been on. Told her I knew it was 4 but not remember. Told her I’d call pharmacy to ask.

4:47p called Publix to find out what Bp Rx’s I’d been on prior.

4:53p Nurse called. Said Dr said to come in for BP check and bring machine. Told her I just got off phone with pharmacy. Previous meds were Lisinopril, Amlodipine, Losartan & Propranolol that I’m on for migraines. Said she get this in my file and call in am. 

5:00 Bp 166/109 hr 68 Thinking about it. I never got answer about taking Edarbyclor. This is ridiculous! Need to tell them about lft ventricular hypertrophy.   

7.00p- even the littlest physical effort causes fatigue, general feeling of unwellness, shortness of breath. Currently experiencing chilling burning sensation in center of chest. Legs tingly.

10:28p- I feel horrible. Head pounding, sneezing, neck hurts, hands ache, rt side cramping, low back throbbing, heart feels like its beating hard, short of breath, center of chest aches, arms ache, rt hip aches, legs throbbing, muscles in legs twitching, pins and needles sensation in lower legs to tips of toes as if being electrocuted, wore out tired, skin extra sensitive, lights and noises bothersome, thoughts scattered, can’t seem to think straight

I’m scared. I don’t want to end up in ER again. I need a Dr that will care. Lord, what time I am afraid I will trust in thee, feeling jittery

https://fox28media.com/news/local/doctor-explains-how-a-lightning-strike-can-damage-the-body

Oct 16

3a- woken from nightmare by feeling heart beating in chest. Have pounding headache. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down rt leg to knee. Went to bathroom. Decided to take bp rx (edarbyclor 1/2 pill) to see if that’ll help. Feels like bp headache no fun! 

5:40a bp 138/89 still have pounding headache. Still awake wishing I could sleep. Rt hip throbbing with pain shooting down to thigh. Muscles spasming in legs and arms. Burning stinging nerve pain in back and legs. Neck throbbing rt side. Chest aching. Low back throbbing. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some numbness & tingling. Took 1/2 pill bp rx and pain rx. 

Good news I think my stomach has calmed down. Water tastes good and isn’t upsetting it so far. 

Brain singing “Oh I want some sleep wishing it in my head there Id be able to rest this weary body and my tired head then my symptoms might just calm down a piece cares all past hope at last if I’d get some sleep.” Lord, please make it so.

6:30a- think I doze off for 2 minutes then jerked awake thinking I overslept.

7:20 cancelled appointment for today. 🙁 

8:30a- still awake. Unable toget comfortable. Pain in head and nerves still screaming. Decided to steep some chammomile tea to ease muscles. Lights bright even with screen brightness all way down and night owl activated. Seems like I’m hearing all the noises in neighborhood. Turned on box fan for white noise to hopefully drown out all other noises. 

10a head not pounding but still have headache. Chilling burning sensation down spine. Bp 124/93 hr 74

3:53p Bp 125/93 hr 99 trying to get ready for church. Getting dressed wore me out. Laid down for 10 minutes. Legs cramping. Feel flushed. Still have headache. Rt hip hurts. Nerves tingling burning. Random muscle spams in legs.

9:00 Bp 133/88 hr 85 still have bad headache

11:07p- believe I have paperwork ready for hearing tomorrow. I’m so nervous. The idea of having to admit publicly to strangers regarding my physical limitations has been so humiliating. 

All this added stress has exasperated my symtpoms. Its so draining having to try to remember everything it hurts my brain so so much. Time limits how long can you sit, stand, walk is so exhausting. Who takes the time to time how long you can do any of those things for periods of time anyways?

My whole body is throbbing. I’m crying bc I’m stressed out. Muscles randomly twitching thru body. Low back throbbing. Rt hip throbbing. Hands ache. Stomach aches. A. Flow showed up tonite. Neck throbbing. Feet freezing. At least Im no longer nauceous…just need to get bp back down. No matter the outcome God is in contol. 

I need to destress and relax so I can sleep at least a little. Psalm 62:2; Lamentations 3:22-23, I Timothy 1:7

Psalms 18:3 – I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.

Oct 17

6:00a- woke exhausted and hurting all over – bones, muscles, joints hurt. Have bad headache. Indigestion. 

My hearing is today. I’m nervous but have put it in God’s hands. 

Verse of day:

Psalms 25:14 – The secret of the Lord is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant.

Song popped in mind…

♫Why should I feel discouraged? Why should the shadows come?

Why should my heart feel lonely And long for heavenly home When Jesus is my portion?

My constant friend is He His eye is on the sparrow And I know he watches me

His eye is on the sparrow And I know He’s watching me

I sing because I’m happy I sing because I’m free For His eye, is on the sparrow

And I know He’s watching me♫

Sang that in my head all way to SS office.

8:30a- There’s a long line in front of SS buliding waiting for doors to open. I hope it’s not too long wait my back is throbbing and I need to sit and rest. Parking was free. PTL!  

Had to sign in upstairs. Thankful for elevator bc I wouldn’t have been able to walk all those stairs! Person in front of me was giving officer hard time. He seems very kind. She had audacity in rude tones to tell him he had bad attitude. Whoah! Not using good manners.

He asked me how I was doing. Told him I was nervous. He assured me there was nothing to be nervous about and explained that it would be just me, my atty, judge in room. Nothing to be nervous about. It was calming somewhat. Chairs were very hard to sit in with all the pain was in. I kept fidgeting trying to get somewhat comfortable. 

I was first on docket. Atty called us into separate room to discuss case. His demeanour was very disturbing to me. He came across smug to me. It was upsetting to me. Basically, since my doctor’s did not notate correctly their findings in my file and did not have proper testing done there was not enough evidence to prove my case. Frustrating!!! Lightning strike injuries are so not understood by the medical field. I wish someone would take interest to study it out. 

The atty was talking way over my head. I used to know the lingo, but I’ve managed to forget it all. Why can’t I understand anymore?? I had to keep having him repeat himself. He gave me impression that he felt like my case was a waste of time. Why couldn’t he tell me before now? Why couldn’t suggest routes to take to help my case? The judge was kind enough to give me options before making final decision that would hurt me in long run. I told myself I wasn’t going to cry but I ended up crying the whole time. I really tried to suck it up but couldn’t.

It didn’t turn out the way I was hoping for, but at least it wasn’t a definite denial. 

Now I’m back to searching for Dr that will work with me, believe me, get the proper testing done, and be affordable. This journey is definitely not for the faint of heart! 

11a- back home again. I’m exhausted hurting and have pounding headache. Laid down on bed to rest. 

11:30a- Joe sweet to make me fried egg sandwhich.

11:45a- got up to recline on heating pad in living room hoping it’ll ease back pain. The warmth feels good on my back.

1:00p- can’t keep my eyes open anymore. My head is pounding and I’m exhausted. Going to go take nap.

4:00p- wasn’t planning on sleeping that long. I’m still tired and hurting. If only I could ease the pain for just a while.

6:00p don’t feel like cooking. Decided to go get pizzas. 

11:59p- pain is keeping me awake. Headache has eased but still there. Neck throbbing. Upper back icy stinging pain. Low back throbbing. Legs throbbing with random muscle pain. Left eyelid little droopy. Hands swollen and achy. Indigestion bad. Sipping on chammomile tea. Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some numbness. Toes tingly. Arms ache. Rt ear aches.Basically pain from head to toe.

Oct 18

1a Joe wakes long enough to tell me I need to try to get some sleep. The pain so much it’s hard to sleep. Not sure what time I finally nod off.

4:30a pain wakes from a nightmare. Indigestion is still there but not as bad as before I fell asleep.

 4:54a Indigestion burning sensation in esophagus. Chew 4 papaya.

6:50 Bp 123/74 hr 65 wt 195

Random muscle spasms/twitching mostly in legs. Gotta drop Dezirae off at school. She has volleyball tournament today. I sure wish I was able to go, but my body isn’t able to handle all that yet. I’ll be routing her on in my prayers from home. 

11a- since my bp is down and my headache has eased decided to slice celery so I don’t lose it. Slicing celery made chest hurt horrible with beginning stabbing pain. Had to take ibuprofen to ease pain. 

10:27p I have pain from head to toe! Bp 128/77 hr 72 Headache, neck throbbing, shoulders throbbing, back hurts, arms ache, hands swollen and achy, low back & rt hip throbbing, legs ache, feet ache, Indigestion, period pain aweful. Currently sitting on heating pad hoping it’ll ease lower back pain. Keeping close eye on bp this week. Muscles in legs spasming/twitching randomly. Tips of feet Butt are twitching randomly.