Feb 17
0800 tired and probably could sleep longer. Neck hurts. Shoulders chilly tingling sensation. Low back throbbing. Hands tingly. Toes tingly. Legs ache. Skin on lft side neck and shoulder area feels like it crawling. Skin sensitive to my hair touching it.
Psalms 118:24 – This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.
1100 attempted to read a little of bible study (Portaits of Grace) I’ll be starting with ladies at church. I don’t feel qualified nor ready but I believe it’s of the Lord’s leading.
2 Corinthians 9:8 – And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work:
need to get newsletters printed and mailed. Behind on laundry. Able to get two loads washed at least. Still need to fold & put away. Dinner in crockpot. Painted some on Joe’s shirt. Could only do a little as my hand started shaking and cramping.
1230 In trying to finish preparing my asl class for Wednesday, realized my sign class bag got left at church. I’m so frustrated. I could cry. My week is already so slammed. It’s too much.
I know deep breaths.
Joshua 1:9 – Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
Still want to cry. I guess it’s time for my biweekly melt down
0100p brain is fogged, vision blurred. Headache. Time to rest a bit. Oh, I forgot to take am meds.
0230 recvd call that our college son was in accident. Ugh! Good thing I already got my cry in earlier
0345 as if I didn’t have enough stress. Middle son had angle grinding accident. Taking him to ER now!!!!
0720 problem at pharmacy. Some ER Dr’s aren’t vetted for their insurance. I can’t afford to get his & Joe bp rx!!! Lord, help!!! I’m falling apart inside trying to hold it together on outside not doing so hot. Kind lady helped take care rerunning Jordon’s through insurance. Joe’s went up from last month. Gonna have to figure out something later. I cannot take anymore stress today. My body is shaking, nerves on fire, rt hip throbbing from walking to x-ray & back to waiting area then in store while waiting for meds.
0830 decided to take espom salt bath to relax muscles. Stomach cramped something aweful like doubled over and couldn’t move while in tub. Took while to be able to sit up.
0945 sitting up with Jordon to keep eye on him. Gave him tylenol & antibiotic. He seems level headed about it all. While I’m struggling to keep it together.
Dezirae finally melts down and we cuddle on chair in living room. Assured her everything will work out. Shared Joshua 1:9 with her to remind her that God is with us all the time.
1130 very stressful day!!! Oldest in auto accident. Middle child accident taken to ER. Stiches & referral to specialist. Nerves on fire! Low back and rt hip throbbing. Stomach cramped to double over. Headache. Blurred vision. Broke down once home. Took Epsom Salt bath to ease muscles. Ne exercises today. Hopefully, I’ll sleep some sleep. Feel sick to my stomach.
Feb 18
0645 Joe checked on Jordon before he lft for work. He’s doing okay.
My whole body hurts. Low back throbbing. Had to get in fetal position before could fall asleep last night. Once asleep I slept pretty good minus the strange dreams (only thing I remember was I’m frantically searching for answers).
Lower lft leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some numbness. Toes tingly. Fingers tingly. Congested. Tired.
0630 dinner at Mom’s with Puryears. Excited to hear about their venture and how God is putting everything together.
0926 I’m hurting something fierce right now. Did extra things I normally have kids help me with especially bc Jordon’s down. I won’t let him do anything until he sees Dr bc I don’t want him to have to hurt worse. Every fiber in body throbbing. Cramping in rt side. Legs throbbing. Stinging burning pain in back. Neck throbbing. Indigestion. Hands stinging. Stomach upset. I’m so exhausted. Gotta get Jordon taken care of then can go to bed.
0957 now dog is sick. Yuk. My stomach not handling the stinch.
