July 27
7:45p- feels like my pain increaseth. Not sure about the new rx. Not sure if its not working or it is working and pain rebounds when it wears off.
Nightmare last night.
Whole body is throbbing. I don’t even want to get out of bed.
10:00a- bad mood. feeling on sleeves today. Joe trying to ask what’s wrong. Tried to tell him but couldn’t get it out right. Didn’t make him happy. Told him I really not want to discuss right now. Hard to have good attitude with much pain and feelings hurt.
One house we were going to knock door to invite to church…half way down driveway we heard big dogs barking. Couldn’t determine where they were at so I paused my tracks. Heard someone yelling at dogs. I chuckled. Inside my being I was scared to death and wanted to run away, but I pushed myself forward. Few more steps towards house man comes out and yells “We have really bad dogs” I told him “that was okay we were out inviting people to church and showed tract” He replied, ” Maybe some other day.” Ok thank you. (Inside my head I was wanting to yell run away run away. But I knew that wouldn’t set good example. Ugh.)
4:00p- time to lay down a piece. Can feel myself crashing soon. Bread in maker smells good. Beef in slow cooker for dinner.
4:50- sharp pain in chest and muscles spazzing in torso cut nap short.
8:00- dinner didnt go over too well. Didn’t know I was out of pasta sauce. Improvised with ketchup & bbq sauce. Family didn’t like it.
Attempted coffee cake muffins for breakfast. Messed that up too. Somehow they overflowed muffin pans mega much. Overflow burning on bottom of oven causing a smokey kitchen. Never happened before. Ugh! Joe came to rescue to help take them out of oven & blow smoke out back door. Hope they at least taste good.
11:00- body hurts from head to toes. Random muscle spams thru body. Headache bad. Hurts to move. Pain rx not helping. Dizziness much today. Trouble tripping over feet. Had to catch myself several times before I fell. Hope tomorrow is better.
Before he falls asleep I apologize for being in grumpy mood today.
July 28
Whole body aches. Muscles fluttering on rt side. Neck & rt hip throbbing. So sleepy trouble waking. Headache.
Neck hurts so much. Feels like if I could just get it adjudted it would feel better. I just don’t understand what’s going on or how to ease up the pain.
At church, people noticed I wasn’t my cheerful self and asked what was wrong. I explained best I could about pain and bad day yday. Talina said I make her feel better about herself. I guess cuz it shows I’m human
I don’t know?
Reni made my day. She came straight to me to give me a hug. That’s precious to me. Even more precious she asked her momma to sit by me all by herself in church. Once I sat in my seat after playing piano (which I struggle to do. Hands and brain don’t seem to want to coordinate well), she snuggled up to me and gave big smile. She made my heart feel better.
Tailbone screaming. Hard to sit still.
-by this article, my autonomic & motor nerves were damage. I know that my peripheral neuropathy isn’t diabetic bc I don’t have diabetes. Yeah! Mine came from trauma – lightning strike.
I know there’s correlation on gut and brain health but didn’t put the two together.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/26348611/
The pain has kicked my butt today. Getting sleepy. Long day tomorrow. Watching kids for church family. The man is having surgery for bladder cancer early Tuesday morning.
