August 10
7:30a- fell asleep sometime after midnight. Woke arpubd 4am bc I was almost falling out of bed. Hard time falling back to sleep. Awake again at 7am.
I hurt horribly all over. Muscles randomly cramping thru body but concentrated in abdomen area. For while it felt like heart was fluttering evertime I took breath. Put hand there to feel muscles fluttering in that area. Severely congested and sneezy. Hurts to breath deep. Neck throbbing. Hands achy and swollen.
Song on heart this morning…
And Jesus said come to the water stand by my side I know you are thirsty you won’t be denied I felt every teardrop when in darkness you cried and I strove to remind you that for those tears I died.
9:55a- this explains why sleeping on my stomach feels better on my neck though it’s suggested to sleep on my back https://www.spine-health.com/wellness/sleep/mattresses-and-sleep-positions-each-back-pain-diagnosis
Praying for a dishwasher. I can no longer wash dishes as it causes much pain and grief physically.
9:40- so tired, tummy hurts, ache all over
10:23p- mid lower lft leg numbish and aches, neck aches, rt hip throbbing, low back aches. I’m exhausted. Hope to sleep tonight.
August 11
Slept about 6 hours. Feel like I could sleep longer.
Having trying day. Forgot to make my energy drink. Forgot my church bag at home – it has my Bible and church bulletins. Ugh! Forgot to get grape juice for communion tonight service. Trouble talking. Equilibrium is very …I’m thinking squirrely but I know not rght wrd. Whatever the word my balance if off and my head feels like it’s being tossed to and fro on a stormy sea.
Forgot paper that I wrote songs I picked for offeratories for this week. I’m struggling to focus on walking and just being here today. I don’t know how to express what’s going on in order for people to understand my dilemma.
Song leader accidentally skips song. Routine thrown off. Flustered.
Forgot to give my husband the tithe check. Once I sit at piano to play, it takes all my energy to focus to play. If my focus gets broken it throws me off. Struggling to keep my dignity (composure)…just want to cry. Joe asks me about check. I answer but there goes my focus. I need to run hide to refocus but can’t. In middle of service. Ugh!
I mess up playing offeratory. Attempting to play and sing special today. Sound system too loud it’s hurting my ears. I say something and continue. I remember my piano teacher’s wisdom if you mess up while playing keep going. I mess up little bc I lost my place in music. I keep going. I want to cry but remain composure.
My neck, lower back, and rt hip throbbing. Nerve endings pins and needles dancing.
https://msktc.org/tbi/factsheets/Understanding-TBI/The-Recovery-Process-For-Traumatic-Brain-Injury
https://msktc.org/tbi/factsheets/Understanding-TBI/Brain-Injury-Impact-On-Individuals-Functioning
(as I read this article, my heart cried because I relate to many of symptoms stemming from the tbi. I know not severity or what part of brain was damage bc tests were not taken. I guess in a way I’m mourning the loss of my old self and struggling to figure new self out).
https://msktc.org/tbi/factsheets/Understanding-TBI/The-Impact-On-Family-And-How-They-Can-Help
1:30p- feel crashing on coming.
2:30p- woken by lightning
5:30p- Costocondritis rearing it’s ugly head. Center of chest stabbing pain from from to back. Tried to pop chest…only small pop…still throbbing stabbing pain. Take naproxen. Hope it takes edge off by start of church. No lifting for me for quite a while.
6:30p- didn’t make it thru whole song service. Pain so intense I wanted to yell. Told my husband I couldn’t do it anymore. Quit playing piano in middle of song and walked out of auditorium to nursery. Tried to get chest to pop but couldn’t. Mom came to check on me. Told her it’ll eventually pass but it’ll take time. Need to make Dr apt. May need steroids to reduce inflammation.
https://draxe.com/health/inflammation/costochondritis/
August 12
9:00- hurting so bad all over it hurts to move. Back is stinging. Chest pain much thru to back. Rt hip stinging throbbing.
Call into Dr. Talked with nurse. Waiting to hear if Dr wants to call in script or see me first.
Lazy day most of day. Had to take time apart to rest due to Costocondritis. Called Dr. Nurse called back. Said she’d put note into Dr to see what he wants to do. Nurse called back. Said Dr wants me to try Ibuprofen first before the steroids. Rx called in.
Taking Naproxen right now until I can get the Ibuprofuen.
Need to go pick up Rx & bsnk. Called Publix to see if rx was ready and how much. Rx 11 for 14 pills. Yikes. Can get store brand for 100/$2. Don’t think so. At least I know Dr wants me to try for a week before calling back.
Son tried to burn tea bags making tea bc he forgot about it. Almost caught them on fire. Came home to smoky house smells like burnt something. Yuck! Made him clean pan with baking soda and vinegar.
Mom came over to massage my feet. Area over right ring to was knotted indicating trouble with lungs area. Couple other tender spots but not like lung area.
Simple dinner – tuna casserole with peas and garlic bread.
I ache all over. Center of chest very tender and sore. Lower left leg tourniquit tighten feeling with some numbness, legs ache like I tried to workout (I didn’t), feet ache, neck throbbing, stuffy nose, congested.
Started taking D.E. today. It’s suppose to help reduce inflammation. Would rather do it naturally as possible.
Got word that a friend was finally approved for disability today. Praise the Lord! Don’t know how it all works but happy for him.
10:00p- went to take pm meds/ vitamins. Accidentally took am ones instead. Ugh!
