June 16
1040 last batch of corn in canner. Car in shop (CV shaft?), A/C went out & waiting for repair man to get here. I’m fading fast. Whole body throbbing. Preliminary tentative school schedule done. Crashing for little while.
1100a It was short lived. Fell asleep for 5 minutes only to be woken by phone call and shortly thereafter the AC guy showed. Guess I’m not getting that nap.
300p Have prelinary tentative school schedule planned but need to ask Joe’s input. My brain & body quite foggy & lethargic today. I guess everything is catching up to me.
Car ready for pick up. I’m to meet Joe at shop on his way home from work. Going to rest a little more. Absolutely no energy.
It’s amazing how spending time in the Word anchors your soul.
Amazing that Jesus’ name is a strong tower. Proverbs 18:10.
Today what could’ve been an overwhelming stressful day has not disturbed the peace in my soul. Car in the shop & is going to cost a pretty penny. While canning last of corn, my hands started cramping badly and I had to ask for help. A/C died sometime in the night and have to get that fixed today & another chunk of $ to fix. Also I’m quite lethargic today and feeling kind of blah. Can’t seem to get the unction in my junction.
Yet there’s a peace in my heart that the world never give me and a peace it cannot take away.
1024p whole body throbbing. Stinging needle pain in upper back. Hands & wrists swollen and throbbing. St hip & low back throbbing. Joe’s arm over me feels like that too. Nerves crawling.
1059 center of chest throbbing.
June 17
Very rough night. Scared out of sleep by a nightmare at 1am.
Scared out of sleep again at 3am box fan messing up and Joe almost dropped it making loud noise.
730 Whole body throbbing. It hurts to move. Almost as if the sudden jolting from the scares last night caused my muscles to contract in to fight or flight mode. Will take hot shower to ease muscles. Think I’ll have to look up how to make my own eo shower cubes for relaxing.
Arms fatigued out while showering. Soaked in hot water until energy regained.
1017a rcvd phone call from pharmacy that my order was ready. Cost $85. What?! It’s never cost that much. Will have to check on it.
1045 Taking Rae to eye Dr. This covid scare is so stupid. Have to put on face masks before entering bldg but I didn’t cover nose (can’t breath). Once inside entrance they took our temp. Then instructed to go wash our hands before checking in. Check-in nurse told me to read the hippa notice to left except when I went to read it the paper was the financial statement. I tried to let her know and it just confused her. Guess no one pointed that out before. Once read I had to sign tiny screen but it after she wiped pen with disinfectant wipe. Then she wiped counter down again after I went to sit down. This scare has people being germaphobics. I’m so over it all. Haven’t worn a mask til today. Only doing so bc Rae needs glasses. This is giving me a headache.
1125 mailman just entered bldg without a screen check bc girl wasn’t at desk?
130p stopped at pharmacy in my rounds today. It’s not even the correct rx. I told lady yday the exact name and dosage (propronolal) and that it was for my migraines. The rx called in was eletriptan 15 pills – that’s not even a month’s worth. Told pharmacist that I’m not getting it and I’ll have to go round with my doctor. Ugh! So frustrating.
Looked up rx name to see what it was. It’s totally wrong rx. I need preventative not emergency relief. Ugh! Other names for this rx include maxalt didn’t work. I have emergency rx which new Dr wrote script for that is working. Guess I’m gonna have to go have a talk with Dr. I only have two weeks left of current script.
I remember trying to wean off the propronolal but the results weren’t very pretty and migraines increased. Not that I like having to be on them but for now they’re a necessity. Ugh!
700 nerves thru body stinging. St elbow throbbing. Headache. Neck hurts. Chest hurts. Feet cold and achy. Lights bright. Hands throbbing. Grumpy. Legs ache. Muscles randomly twitching thru legs mostly.
1030 got into big argument with Joe. Apparently I’ve been complaining but getting upset when he does it. I had to have him explain what he thought complaining was because I didn’t think I was. He also told me that I’m bitter and angry. I don’t know how I can be those things when I don’t even remember what was upsetting me in first place. I usually just pray and ask God to help me. I tried doing that tonight bc I was getting frustrated bc I couldn’t wrap my mind around what he was trying to say. It just wasn’t making sense to me. I closed my eyes to keep from crying and ask God to help me understand so we can do better. Yet he perceived that I was just tuning him out and not caring what he had to say.
He gets frustrated because he has to repeat things multiple times and sometimes I remember and lots of times I don’t. Then when he brings it up I don’t remember discussing it and say we didn’t and this frustrates him even more. We’ve gotta figure out how we can overcome and adapt but I’m not sure how at this moment.
I comprehend my memory issues or lack thereof is from the lightning strike but I don’t understand why I don’t remember some things while I remember other things. It frustrates the whole family.
We eventually worked through it and are okay now.
1056 exhausted & hurting but overall had a good day. Headache.
Eye Dr visit, Mall Trip, treated kids to lunch at Chick-fil-A, stopped at store for few groceries.
