Day: February 8, 2023

Feb 17

800 I’m done with this car. Dash lights came on and engine making weird noise. Pulled over side of highway. Called Joe. Able to turn around and make it to Wal-Mart parking lot

815 discovered serpentine belt fell off. Can’t drive car. Ugh! Can’t think straight. Need to go pray.

Prayers please.  Daughter & I got stranded on road again this morning…the serpentine belt fell off. Thankfully we were able to get it to a parking lot this time.

Will have to borrow a car to get husband & son picked up from work this afternoon, then need to get car towed or fixed in its current location.

My faith is really being stretched. I’m done being stranded, but we are barely staying afloat after last month’s Covid encounter. I know God will work things out. He always does. I’m just a child inside a warrior’s armour needing time to cry a while.

Need God to provide a miracle. I just am in need of prayers.

 

It’s me, it’s me, O Lord,

Standin’ in the need of prayer;

It’s me, it’s me, O Lord,

Standin’ in the need of prayer.

 

Lately, I’ve been winning

Battles left and right

But even winners can get

Wounded in the fight

People say that I’m amazing

Strong beyond my years

But they don’t see inside of me

I’m hiding all the tears

 

They don’t know that

I go running home when I fall down

They don’t know Who picks me

Up when no one is around

I drop my sword and cry for just a while

‘Cause deep inside this armor

The warrior is a child

 

1120 mechanic friend called to say he could help this afternoon.

1230 friend discovered water pump went bad which caused belt to throw. Several phone calls to find one in stock.

145 Mom picked up Jordon from work.

426 still in store pkg lot. Couple trips so far inside store to get oil, antifreeze, & rt sealant.

Legs are burning from walking. Had to try to turn wheel but it was locked in place at first. Had to have help turning wheel. Arms burning. Every inch of me is stinging.

449 I’ve walked almost 3 miles today (6717 steps).

830 feet freezing ice cold. Icy sensation in left shoulder like an ice pack is on it but it’s not.

1000 crashed on couch for hour or so. So exhausted from days events. Ended up walking little over 3 miles today. Exhausted from the exercise and stress. Lips chapped and burning from being dehydrated and going all day without eating till dinner. Face flushed and hot. Headache. Neck hurts. Center of back, lft shoulder & upper lft arm icy cold. Feet freezing cold. Center of tongue feels like I tried to scrap my taste buds off. Sides cramping horribly. Whole body throbbing. Ready to crash again. Night meds taken plus naproxen. Applied carmex to lips. Drinking water for thirst.

Feb 18

Exhausted. Whole body aches. Headache. Thirsty. Feel like I’m dehydrated.

Read Numbers 18-20, Psalm 113:18, Romans 8:38-39

700 picking up/tidying livingroom, vacuumed, & disinfected with Lysol Spray.

Wore out.

900 TBI coordinator came for visit. Had intern with her. Was suppose to go over neurophyschological testing report but I didn’t get mine. Dr was amazed at how I tested superior in some things but below normal in others. Makes me curious.

Coordinator was amazed that I was doing so well in my word retrieval today. Even more amazed I am driving. Told her no one ever told me not to drive so I haven’t stopped and I don’t go anywhere alone. I still hate driving on interstate but learning to adapt and face fears one at a time.

May be able to offer assistance with mtg payment since Joe was out of work due to Covid. She will check and forward info to me.

Will send me copy of report. I am to read over it and write down any questions. Dr Ogden has some recommendations to follow. Coordinator said she understands I don’t like certain things, but they are recommendations. It’s at least a starting point to help overcome the TBI. That statement kind of makes me little leary of what Dr suggested.

It is what it is. I am advocate for my own health. Dr’s can suggest things all day but it doesn’t mean I have to like it or do it if I don’t feel it is in my best interest. I have dealt suspicion what one thing is.

1000 feeling very lethargic. Deciding to rest a while.

Dozed off in church not sure how long. Jerked awake.

1230 Mom told me that she’s been searching for brain injury info -Drs who help TBI. She talked to a brain injury specialist about her recent incident at Lowe’s. He offered her a tour of the facilities. She also asked him if he’s treated lightning survivors. He chuckled. She told him it’s not a joke. My daughter was struck by lightning. He proceeded to explain that being struck by lightning is a rare occurrence. He got excited and asked to meet me.

230 very tired. Face feels flushed. Cheeks & ears feel like their on fire. Thirsty. Need to rest a bit.