April 13
1250a craziness of my tbi is that I have memory challenges. I am in process of trying to read a book other than my Bible. I am currently on chapter two. I read first chapter twice and still don’t recall what I read. There are whole periods of time missing in my memories from my past. Wish I could get answers to the how and why. It’s like my brain has selective amnesia.
New memories are quite challenging and sometimes nonexistent. I used to let it bother me quite so but came to conclusuon that fretting over it isn’t doing me any good so I’ll just let God handle that part while I do as I can in my recovery.
Playing memory games on my phone during day. Taking fish oil. I think a homeschool mom said there’s research about overcoming tbi with fish oil but I haven’t studied it out yet.
Might need to switch books. Current one not holding my attention let alone retention.
Going to try to go to sleep now for awhile. Praying dreams are finally sweet. I’m glad that I can chat with my sister from across the miles. I miss her and family
April 14
12:15a I have way stressed myself out trying to get ear straps figured out for face masks. Took me all morning. I am beyond hurting with full blown headache.
Decided to take down time by posting to blog before bed. Surprisingly excited at see that 14 people viewed my blog today. Yay! Really need to update the journal side.
Found out today that the TBI camp has been postponed to possibly fall as all summer activities have been cancelled and summer classes will be online as well.
Brain fogged and hurting. Headache. Low back severely throbbing. Rt hip aches. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling from midway below knee to ankle with numbness and tingly. Hands swollen and throbbing. Eye watery. Congested. Toes tingle. Knees ache. Skin itchy. Arms ache deeply. Body deeply aches.
News said that there were about 40 tornadoes touch down across south during severe thunderstorms yday. No wonder I’ve been hurting much more lately. Buttock hurts. Legs throbbing. Took muscle relaxer and Tylenol. Muscles cramping severely. Moments ago it was so bad it almost caused me to drop to floor and I wanted to cry out but didn’t want to wake my hubby. He not have good sleep last night. He needs to be alert at port.
930a Having a hard time waking up. Already slept hour and half longer than suppose to. Forgot to half muscle relaxer so I guess that’s expected. Severe muscle cramping subsided for now. Whole body aches. Headache. Eyes stinging. Hands throbbing. Low back and legs achy burning. Feet hurting. Guess I need to try to get up and move.
Thankful that God can restore even dry bones. Ezekiel 37:5
1159p Dezirae trying to get her schoolwork done early. While deep down I admire her determination, it’s hurting me physically and mentally! Today she worked on English all day. She got frusterated every time I told her we needed to take meal break. I have headache.
During lunch break mom brought me her computer to ask me to back up her files to flash drive. I prayed and was able to get the antivirus downloaded for her finally (Don’t know what I did specifically but it worked. Thank you, Lord!).
I’m hurting all over. Muscle feel very tight in chest and neck area. Feel bloated. Drank over 100oz today. Tired. Hands swollen and aching with periodic sharp shooting pains. Headache. Random sharp stabbing pain in lft hand and forearm. Lower let leg tourniquet tightening feeling. Buttock hurts. Sinus congestion with post nasal drip causing coughing. Center of chest hurts.
Reading scripture before I doze off for night…Ezekiel 11:19-21.
April 15
5.50 slept decent once I fell asleep. Strange dreams…I’m pushing through crowds of people searching for something or someone (I don’t recall). Everything is so vivid in colors. I know not the what or why but I’m searching nonetheless. That’s all I can remember.
Rt hip throbbing. Low back aches. Upper back stinging. Headache. Hands achy. I’m tired. Eyes watery. I’m hot but chilly. Neck hurts. Feet tingly.
729a can tell I haven’t done my physical therapy exercises in a while. Leg muscles twitching and brain feels cross-eyed.
740 Decided to take shower & use the massage shower head option to see if it’d ease pain in hip & low back.
Boy that was quite a workout. I’m so exhausted.
930 laying down for few minutes to see if it’ll ease.
1030 oops I fell asleep for an hour
1100 need to do home chores – put few items away in kitchen, wash load of clothes. Created Scripture art for Ezekiel 37:5. It tickles me to my bones. 🙂
1115 Rae discovered we’re out of printer paper. Found few sheets to suffice for now. Chose to look online for case prices. Wal-Mart least expensive and free pickup today. Need to get groceries for week anyways.
330 receive text that my pkg is ready for pickup. finally tell Dezirae she has to take break from schoolwork.
320 mom decided to order wholetones chroma for us to share. She wants me to use it first. She called the company to ask questions. She told them my story. They were intrigued. Maybe I’ll do a review on my blog about it. It’s music therapy that’s suppose to help reduce pain and help your body heal. They don’t make any guarantees in my situation but do give a year to try and if don’t help they’ll give money back.
330p need to get few items at grocery store.
500 what I thought wouldn’t take long took me over an hour then had to wait 20 minutes for my pkg pickup. Got mom some eggs. Still no butter on shelves. Ugh! I’m so done for the day. My hip is back to intense throbbing. I need to rest. Glad Jordon is cooking dinner tonight.
1030 found a ream of misplaced paper. Oh well at least I won’t run out for while. Do need to order ink soon.
1050 going to bed. Headache. Yawned big and rt side of jaw & neck Charlie horsed! Ouch! Took couple minutes of massaging jaw to ease it up. Neck tight. Shoulders ache. Low back & rt hip throbbing. Legs ache. Lower lft leg tourniquet tightening feeling with some numbness and tingling. Feet ache & tingle. Toes too. Cough. Sinuses congested but a little better today. Chest center hurting but no where near what it was last week. It’s about a 7 right now. Still have to take it easy for a while. Let this episode go too long bc of the pandemic and my anxiety about Drs attitude. Thankful she’s coming around.
Oh I totally forgot to share with my LS group. Need to share.
Feel so lethargic lately. I guess the pain is taking more out of me than I thought. Think I may need to increase b12 and add zinc back into regime for a bit.
